Dear Bloggie,

Feeling so upset.. :(

I've been following this Korean Variety Show - 2 Days 1 Night; for over the past 1 year. I started watching when they start the new season.. I watch how the 7 men grew from strangers to brothers and also how affectionate Bird PD became. And without any notice.. ok, just my lack of updates, I watch the 31 March episode on tablet last night.. only to know that its Bird PD and the 大哥's day episode.

Super upset lah... :(

Anyway.. this morning I started on the next episode. New PD together with a new member. Given my pattern, it'll take some time for me to get warm up to these new people.

Bleah

Dear Bloggie,

Been ages.. a real long time since I last updated. 

I cannot say life has been a bed of roses; but it had not been too bad either. I suddenly thought of this site a couple of days back; and find it a real pity that I am not writing anymore. My life has not been that interesting.. its mostly work and home. So there is also not much materials for me to write.

Anyway.. I really am getting married. Thou I did not manage to get married at the age of 25; but well.. better late then never. :) Its my 过大礼 day yesterday. Where LW came up and present my parents with the many items in exchange for my hand in marriage.

He came over at 9am with CCY.. Well well... 我真的要嫁人了. 

We spent the rest of the day running up and down delivering all the cakes to the relatives. So well well.. that is not over; and I am looking forward to the wedding. Cant say I am EXCITED; but I am really looking forward to that long break after the wedding. *smile*

Realised that many relatives are getting ready for the wedding.. buying new clothes, going to salon for hair appointsment, etc. So blessed that everyone's making all the effort for me; really feel so loved. I adopted a nonchalant attitude for the wedding.. alot of things I learned to 看开. Have I take.. dont have its okie. That makes things simplier and easier.. and I'm also not that stress out. 

So well well.. :) 

Dear Bloggie,

Ages since I last wrote.. :) Anyway, July is always a happy month.

Friends.. are the fundamental of my social life and pillar of my emotional self. Layman terms.. They are the people that laugh and cry with me, explore new adventures and reminisce on the memories that we preciously shared.

I treasure that few dear friends I have and hold them closely to heart. We have not meet up as often as I wish and fewer memories are being made as we aged. *sigh* I would have love to have us meet up more regularly, just to catch up on the happenings in life and nothings of each passing day.

So so... Friends, love you many many.

失眠夜

好累。。可是不想入睡。

好无聊啊！

Dear Bloggie,

.Random.

1. Back from my long holiday.. it has been one good trip where I truly enjoy myself. The weather is perfect, the people are polite, the food is fantastic and most importantly.. I had loving company.

2. Don on my first ever white gown. It might not be the perfect one.. but we are in search of THAT ONE. The hunt is now on.. so am trying hard to shake off that extra pounds and down a couple of size.

3. Work is less stressful after the trip.. Chevron has an happy ending and NLB is next. But thankfully I play a minor role this time round.

4. Despite all the happy things.. I am not happy.

Dear Bloggie,

This has been an extremely busy week.

After 5 weeks of intense preparation, the event at Chevron House finally ended. Well.. no major glitches during the past 3 days, I guess my Bosses are all happy. My boss even told me I truly deserve this long break.

Unfortunately, no thanks to the weather and I am a little not in an excellent condition. There is this weird lumpy feeling at my throat and I am feel very very tired. I left office at 3pm today, oh yes.. the bosses literately chase me home! And have been packing from then till now.

So I guess... I have to go lie down abit and try to get myself in a better condition.

Ermm.. ok.

人生

做人还真是无奈。。

我以为我做得很好了，但事非如此。

以为在工作上做得尽善尽美了，可是还是徒劳无功。

以为在友情上尽心尽力，到头来蓦然回首空无一人。

心寒阿。。

手机永远没朋友真心的问候，有的只是源源不绝的公司电邮。

好累啊。

Disappointed

Dear bloggie,

Disappointed to the max. Work is horrible. So all the more i am looking forward.

Can i just call in sick tml. I really just wanna be alone.

Dear Bloggie,

.Random Updates.

1. Sooo busy at work. I have got this Road show coming up from 2 - 4 April at Chevron House. This is the first time we are having a road show and have offered our SAS Clients free booth. So much co-ordination work is involved. My BD is ermm.. just cant see the bigger picture and its a pain in the ass at times. So well well, I just cannot wait for the Road show to be over.

2. Heading to Japan on the 5 April, right after the Road show finish. Had planned to travel to USA but the plan got postpone due to unforeseen circumstances. But well well.. this is going to be a 12 days F&E trip and we'll be heading to Tokyo and Osaka. I am quite excited as I've never been to Japan, and I am glad to have a break from work and to spend quality time with Boyfriend.

3. I am all excited about the Wedding plans again. I am now actively looking around (virtually thou.. hehe) for Bridal Studio and Photographer. Have no target yet but I just got excited looking around.

Dear Bloggie,

I miss Granny..

How nice will it be, if she is still around.

Sigh..

待嫁女儿心

Dear Bloggie,

This is a very family oriented weekend or me. Attended Boyfriend's cousin's wedding on Saturday and spent the entire Sunday with my Aunts and Cousins.

Well.. That's how weekend should be like. Hanging out with all the Loved Ones.

So anyway.. After attendin the wedding dinner yesterday, it kind of ignited that wedding fire in me again.

I am super 三分钟热度. I was super excited about the wedding matters right after my XP had proposed. But after we settled on the date and banquet, my heart flew to preparation for the coming Tokyo and Osaka trip. Not that the itinerary is out.. But i'm all set to just armed myself with the guidebook and get lost in the streets and alleys of Tokyo in the hopefully not too cold weather. And well.. Now i am all excited about the wedding. Hohohoho.

But first, i have to lose that couple of kilogram before i can even look decent in any gowns. So do me a favour Okk... I have to work out more and cut down on carbo and oil.

So.. Yupz, 加油哦!

Bad habbit

Dear bloggie,

I realised i have a very bad habbit lately. I have ran out nice korean dramas to watch (most cant be stream online.. Might hafta start renting or buying it). So i start looking for nice China 古装 shows. Well.. Coz i was very impress with 步步惊心, so i think can give the other shows a chance.

So so.. But what happen is.. Once i find a not tok bad China show, i will start googling for the sypnosis. So.. I ended up knowing the entire story thou i'm only at episode 4. And i end up with no more shows to see.

So so.. I have juz finish reading the sypnosis, hence no need to continue watching the show.

So so.. Time for bed then. Nitez world!

PKK

Dear bloggie,

Boyfriend bought me Pkk n Akk for brekkie. Okok.. More of Pkk for me and Akk for my parents.

I left it on the dinning table when i got home.. And went to the room. I had wanted to ta bao the Pkk into the lunch box and.. Only to find out they ate my Pkk. :((

Upset to the max.

Very tired lately.. But cant slp. Insuficient rest leads me feeling giddy and kept feel like puking.

So so.. Very the not well. :((

Valentine's Day

Dear Bloggie,

Its Valentine's day again.. Had dinner with Besties. Its a rather impromptu arrangment. But it warms my heart to know that everyone is very dear to each other. Thou its v day and a random work day, everyone still gathers and give tries to tide each other tru difficult patches.

Its not easy.. Zero signs indicating the end of a relationship. How could one juz walk out from years of relationship. We are no longer in our teens, should be more responsible i feel. Its never easy to maintain a relationship.. But well, you also cant juz throw in the towel like that.

Sigh sigh.. I feel there is no need to go figure out why and seek that closure. Whats the point in seeking out the truth, and he might not even give the real truth. Why not juz focus more on moving on. Learn a lesson from this and not repeat what went wrong. It is a period to grief, and certain tings are easier said then done.

So well.. Time for bed.

Dear Bloggie,

都说我想分享冰糖葫芦和贵花糕的故事.. 世上没办不到的事,在麻烦在没时间我还是会抽空把它给写出来..

这是看了步步惊心后,让我感触良多的一则小故事..

人,年少时吃了冰糖葫芦..觉得冰糖葫芦是人间美味. 可是因为冰糖葫芦乃是路边小吃, 对身体百害而无益处.. 所以就决定在也不吃冰糖葫芦了..

虽下定决心了, 他对冰糖葫芦还是念念不忘. 就算是试过了贵花糕, 名贵又健康.. 他还是任为冰糖葫芦是天上有地上无的. 心里对冰糖葫芦还是请有独中.

有一天..他终于吃到了他日盼夜盼的冰糖葫芦. 怎么知道.. 冰糖葫芦送进嘴里, 跟他儿时记忆里的那味道截然不同. 这.. 怎么可能是他朝夕睦想的冰糖葫芦呢?

他这时才枉然大悟.. 原来, 他最爱的味道是那每天都在身边盘旋着的贵花糕.

人.. 往往都不懂得珍惜身边的人与物, 只懂的无畏的追寻着已失去的回忆. 就算让你失而复得, 也未必是你当初记忆里的那些回忆了..

所以.. 珍惜眼前人.

Dear Bloggie,

There is something I want to post up.. you know, at times there is just that something in your head and you just want to share it out. Today is one of such days.. I am hoping that I can do this full post in Mandarin, but unfortunatley.. I cannot do Chinese characters in office.

So... maybe I shall leave it to some other days when I am free at home. (Haha.. which I hardly am)

Anyway.. the topic. Bing Tang Hu Lu.. and Gui Hua Gao. :)

Dear Bloggie,

So much is going on, but yet.. its been real difficult to pen it down in words.

Anyway.. updates on the Wedding plan!

After the proposal on X'mas eve.. we got busy. Busy with more X'mas celebrations and New year countdown parties. And shortly after.. preparations and meet-ups for CNY.

So thou its a busy period, I manage to emails all the potentials hotels to get a rough idea on the package and price range. And also got in contact with the Geomancer introduced by CSM to get an auspicious date.

The date came in.. and we realised we do not have much of an option. There is only 1 date in the whole Q1 & 2 of 2013. So so.. we comb tru all the hotel options and visited ermm, quite a few to see the ball room. The date we got is a real auspicous one so most hotels are already fully booked (this is more then 1 year in advance). Since we have absolutely no options.. we went with Pan Pacific for Lunch.

I had wanted Dinner.. but well, :(

So so.. The venue is fixed.. and now its time to hunt for my Gown. ^^

We have not started looking for it.. its been a real busy period hence we're going slow. And oh, we have booked tix for a Japan trip in April! I wanted to see the Cherry Blossom.. so now, I am more busy trying to plan the itinerary and get the hotels.

Okok.. that is all for now.

Dear Bloggie,


Well well... this is one of the major milestone for me in 2011. On x'mas eve, we had the x'mas countdown party with Boyfriend's friend. This year.. Ah Seng hosted the party at his house.


So it is a pyjamas party and we arrived looking really 'kok'.. we bought those pyjamas pants from Chinatown and I topped it with a random white tee. So anyway.. plenty of good food but by 8plus, I was kinda bored.


At around 9pm, Ah seng gathered the people around the teevee and said he is going to play some wedding montage for Ed and CC. They just returned from their Europe trip and is getting married on the first week of 2012 (okie.. actually have already attended the wedding last weekend). So anyway.. we gather at the living room area and waited to see the montage.

I had wanted to upload the video, but the clip is not with me.

This is Facebook link Boyfriend had uploaded.. can see?

http://www.facebook.com/photo.php?v=10150447370196476&set=vb.566661475&type=2&theater

Well well.. the video ended as soon as it started. I only vaguely remember I heard the Visa advert song and Boyfriend on teevee. I only know what's going on when I see the last couple of scene with the words.

I.. am really caught in a huge surprise. The entire group kept the secret real well. So, I remember asking Boyfriend if he is serious.. that he really intend to propose now. And he went down on one knee. I totally cannot remember what he said after that, haha. But I remember asking him how big is the diamond. And I want to refund it if it is less then 1 carat. :p

So anyway.. super effort from Boyfriend. He got his Friend A (Designer) to came out with this cute graphics. Got another Friend B (Printer) to print out the signage below. Got Friend C (Dunno-what-occupation) to manufacture the Tee-shirts. Okie, no photos of the Tees, but it is to this theme and is rather cute. ^^ The video then super effort.. apparently he went to capture the background shots at 5 different locations that held special memories for both of us with Friend D (he said they are like terrorist stalking around the area), and round up Friend E, F and G to do the Visa dance with him. Oh, did I mention he rented the studio to do the Visa dance and then super-imposed it onto the background? So.. he got Friend H and I to do the video-back-end-work. Apparently another dozen of other Friends (those at the party) helped planned and execute the whole Proposal.


So.. super thankful to all the Friends!

My "less-then-1-carat-but-cannot-refund-ring".

And well.. did I mention that I said Yes. ^^

Dear Bloggie,

The end of 2011 ended with an expected twist. It happened when I am least expecting it.. but I'll save that for another post. I embark 2012 with a new energy, hoping to achieve the better good. But ended up with tears and lots of negative vibes on the 1st day of 2012.

I never knew it would be this difficult. Is it the lack of communication or I have unrealistic expectations?

I have thought this would be the sweetest journey in my life, and it would bond us closer together. But instead.. there are so much unhappiness that I am now thinking if the whole thing is a good idea. Maybe we could just skip this whole thing and move on?

Anyway.. =(

Dear Bloggie,

The year is coming to an end.. I have been busy with the launch of OneKey and all the X'mas shopping. Well.. am glad that OneKey has successfully been launch with 3 SP but that is the beginning of all our neverending work.


Have to take a break off work.. so uploaded some photos up here. ^^

This has been an emotionally tramautizing year for me. Granny's departure shaken me greatly. I learn to treasure family ties even more and never to take anyone for granted. It pains me to know that she will not longer be around me. But well.. she is constantly on my mind. It is my deepest regret that she will not be able to see me get married and have kids. And also not able to do more for her and spend more time with her.


But well.. life goes on. And I miss you Mah..
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And well... I went on a long break to China this year. Went to climb Huang Shan.. the most challenging climb I ever embark on. And went to Hang Zhou.. and visited Xi Hu. Simply breath taking.. I like that place. Then to Shanghai.. for a little shopping and took a cruise along Huang Pu Jiang to see The Bund.Took the bullet train to Beijing.. and had a long day at the Forbidden City. It is amazing that the Chinese build these monster buildings centuries ago. The place is giantic.. and the workmanship impeccable. Then to Tian Tan the following day... where the emperor worship the heavens. Okie.. we went to some other places too, like the Summer Palace and stuff.. But the building looks more or less the same so no point posting. :p So well.. imagine how much I've walked. =(Then then.. went to the Birdie nest and Shui Li Fang. Err... nothing impressive but well, touristy thing. The China Chinese calls us Hua Qiao (Overseas Chinese).. so just take it as we are finding back our roots and admiring our fore-fathers' contributions to the good of mankind. And what is a China Trip without the Great Wall of China! Other then Xi Hu, this is one of my favorites destination. Simple.. Amazing. The whole thing felt so surreal when you are standing there. You know.. you just have to go there once in your life time.

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And lastly... my Best Friend got married. Congratulations Darling. You have no idea how happy and excited we are for you. Gay Boyfriend is indeed one wonderful man that we can entrust you and your well-being to him entirely. Wishly you enternal bliss and happiness!!

Okie.. that is 30min gone and I have to get back to work. ^^