Dear Blog,

From today onwards, I am determined to type good english. No more singlish, hopfully.. No more shortforms(unless its good readable shortforms) and lastly, my punctuations. I realised that my typing in english is really terrible. So from now on, I will try to make improvements here.

Yesterday, the network was back the entire evening. And I was too excited about it, and was busy surfing the net checking out the Bangkok tour packages that I didnt post the past few entries up. Now the network is down again. If its back later, first thing i will log in and post the entries up.

Anyway, the entry yesterday was sort of incompleted due to me, busy surfing the net. But its alrite, I shall continue blogging here..

I find myself really long winded.. How in the earth do I have the ability to generate out such long entries daily. Well, the toto opened last night, and singapore pool successfully eaten my 20bucks.. Good thing my sense pull me back, and I did not further throw in more cash. Just in case you are interested in the numbers that opened last night are:-

5 11 12 31 32 43 (39)

After work last night, catched a show with Dear² at Suntec. We watched Himalaya Singh. A damn stupid show, but then entertaining enough. Whats important is Dear² likes it.. We bought sushi, chips, chicken drumlets and Mochi in for the show. Its all my fav. food(All the junk food).. Hehe.. But then its all damn fattening. And thats my dinner last night.. But I think its worst then havin a bowl of noodles or a plate of rice right?

After the show we went back home. While changing, Dear² told me I really seemed to gain abit of weight. Well, he still stressed on the fact that its ABIT. But I think its seriously more then ABIT. Its ALOT.. I measured with the measuring tape, and it read 32plus inch. I almost fainted.. But thats not the wasit, but the tummy area at my hips. But shockingly, its really horrible. This morning I measured again, its down to 30plus inch. Haizz.. First time in my memory its passed 30inch. I really cant take it. And I make him agreed to go research on which is the safest sliming down medicine in the market now, and he go buy it back for me.. He was reluctant, but he finaly agreed. He still insisted on the fact that I dont look 30inch, and I really look fine. But how could it be fine when statistic has already shown that I am not.. So just pray that from now on, I have the determination to fullfill all the drastic extreme methods of sliming down. Think I will skip lunch today, that will be my first target to my ultimate sliming project!

My network is back once more. Hopefully that it is here to stay. Anyway, I have posted all the previous 3 posts up to my blog. And I will also post this up by the end of the day.

Abit crowded in the office, thus its kind of hard to surf around now. I have finished up all my work, and is tryin to surf around. Really got no idea why is the office so crowded today. I mean its Friday, why dont they just go pick their kids up from school, or go have a Brunch with their friends??

Anyway, I'm reading this 18year old chinese Singaporean boy blog. He refer to his girlfriend as The Girlfriend, and himself AhdokBoy throughout the entire blog.. But I have to admit his english is good, the way he write is attractive and interesting. Okie, just finish reading his blog.

Really wonder what can I do today in the office. Lunch is coming soon, and I really cant wait for 5.30pm to come. I cant wait to go home, and hug my Dear² to Dreeamland.. and slp in slightly later tomorrow morning as he will be sending me to work on Scrambie..

I think I really wore the wrong outfit to work. It makes me looks really fat. But with a 30plus inch waist, think I am not going to look slim in anything. But then, I will definately try my best to do something about it. Its my own body, and since i can starve myself for 2weeks in order to slim down a couple of years back, I am sure I am able to do it again.. Right??

Backie frm lunch. Well, I did not kept to my resolution of skipping lunch, but then I declared my intension, and just ordered a bowl of noodles. And when they ordered all the other side dish, I rejected all food. And even went without a can drink, as I think my plain water in the office would be a better choice.. Well, seems like in order for me to slim down really isnt easy, looking at the lifestyle I have now. But then I will really try. I will try to go without dinner tonight, even forsaking my tau suan.

Cruising throught the net again. I think that high chances that my Bangkok trip might be shelved. Coz its really not worth it to spend almost double the normal cost just because it falls on a public holiday. You know what I mean??

17th February 2005 (Thrusdae)

Dear Blog,

Its mi again.. Noting much to do in the office again.. Guess its pretty normal coz new year just passed.. So its like one of the super off peak period.. Aniwae, the net is still down.. So i still cant log on and post the previous 2 entries.. So todae is goin to be a veri long dae.. w/o the net, i realie cant do much ard.. And all the bosses haf left Singapore for Germany, cumin back onli by the end of the mth.. hehe~*

Last nite, went to queue for the toto.. I was expecting a long² queue, but thn it turned out tat ther is totalli no queue wor.. So i bought 20bucks worth of quick pick... Thn just now the operations guy came up for a chat, coz my boss not ard.. Thn they told mi quick pick if i won 4nos., the returns is like onli 30bucks... I was like huh?? So Little?? how can it be?? So i actualie kinda regretted buyin quick pick with all my 20bucks.. should haf bought those system 7 or 8 or those with a joker or watever.. now my return is like so damn bloody low.. even if i matched 4nos., its jsut enuff for mi to cover back my original bet onli... This investment realie not worth it.. Let mi play a couple games of in-between, i can easily get back 30bucks liao...

So i am now tinkin, shld i dump in another 10bucks to buy 3 sets of the system 7.. u tink i shld?? but thn chances of even getin 4 nos. is damn slim.. so in another words, i am just wastin money... haizz.. duno hw to go ard doin it... or maybe i shld take it as a lesson learnt, and thn invest again next year.. too bad the stupid net is still dwn, if not i can log on to the toto webby and take a look.. haizz..

the office damn cold todae.. duno why.. aniwae, i wearin a new dress todae.. one of those tat i bought before the cny week.. i like the way the bottom of the skirt flares.. hehe~* so i tink i look pretty todae.. coz the dress is like so flatterin... (damn bhb rite.. hehe~*)

mummy in one of her cranky mood again todae.. OO once again doesnt feel well.. so he puke again.. and he make a mess in the middle of the nite.. tink she didnt slp well, coz lizzie kept growlin at him thus makin alot of noise. so she took it out on mi.. sayin tat i didnt brin OO to the vet.. but thn at times, please ask her to use her brains loh.. u haf the car on hand.. hw on earth can i brin the dog to the vet?? i knw u are busy.. but thn i am stuck in the office for the entire dae.. unlike u, who can occasionalli take time off frm wrk coz its ur own company.. haizz.. dun wan tok bout it.. i will take OO to the vet on sundae.. coz tats the earliest free wkend i haf.. so OO, please be a good boi and tahan till thn kae...

Why why why why why.. why the net is still dwn.. if the net is up, at least i can still surf ard.. time passes so slow.. and the office is freakin cold.. my hands are like so damn stiff... cold²... and coz the net is dwn, i onli can read the mails in my local folder.. and since tuesdae, i haf been readin the same mails over and over again.. sianzz..

my colleauges used the remainin cash frm our dinner and dance money to buy the toto... so in total is 70over bucks.. and they bout the system 7 and the balance quick pick.. SO, in another words, i will not go buy again.. save on my cash.. how nice.. just simply how nice it would be if it realie opened... last year i bought with huiyu, and didnt even win a single cent.. qian still haf the luck, to win duno 4 nos. i tink.. hopefulli tat i haf one of the lucky combi.. and can take back sum cash for this new year.. the time now is 10.36am.. ermm... considerin tat i did nth todae, time actualie passes kinda fast.. and in the afternoon, i tink i haf recep duty.. so can further waste an hour dwnstairs.. Hope lunchie can faster cum.... i am wonderin shld i skip lunchie instead of dinner.. last nite, i got xiang to buy mi tao suan.. but thn while waitin for him to buy back, i ate a pack of potato chips.. tats even more fattenin rite.. damn jia lat.. tink its more or less the same as 1 full meal i ate liao..

11.30am liao.. i just called up serveral tour agency to check the bangkok trip price... to travel on those public holidae realie not worth it.. everione jet up the prices.. i copied dwn 3 agencies yest, and everi agency gave mi a different price.. but i tink its for a different hotel, and different airline.. the first quoted mi bout 500plus(inc. tax) for 2, but thn the airline is totalli unheard off.. the 2nd quoted mi 600plus(inc. tax) for 2 on thai airline.. and the 3rd quoted mi 700(inc. tax) for 2 on Cathay..

Its all to the same place, same time.. So why the big diff in price?? So, we decided to go home tonite, and check out the price for those valueair or tiger airways tix.. thn see if can book the hotels online.. Maybe i can call Benjamin (sws's huiyu's boss cum colleauge) to check which hotel beta, since he alwaes go bangkok de.. Well, shall check which is cheaper, thn i shall just book which one. Hope to settle everiting by this week.. xiang alwaes wan to go overseas for a trip.. so at least plan a trip like this.. he happie, i aso happie.. wait till end of the year, whn i richer, thn i shall plan to go sumwher further and beta.. sae ermm.. hongkong, taiwan or even aust.. thn maybe can go ther visit frewns aso.. how nice ah.. hehe~*

haizzz.. just backie frm lunchie.. and i smell of those stinko oil.. realie .............

aniwae, the net wrk seems to be up durin lunchie.. whn i came back frm lunchie, thn i saw the hotmail emails came in. and i could actualie read it.. and i still manage to reply back. and i still check with xiang if he recieved it... BUT, after i typed out a reply email to qian, jiale and peishan, the netwrk disappear again.. the mail is now still in my outbox.. Shit lah.. i was still kinda happie.. tot i can surf the net frm nw on, coz i was like realie realie bored.. but thn who knows.. make mi happie for NTH...

shit lah.. the internet liek can use cannot use like tat.. the onli page tat i can enter is the yahoo.. but thn frm ther notin else liao.. damn sickenin.. i wanna go check out the bangkok ting aso cannot.. but thn i tink tat trip is more or less comfirmed.. coz if i cant find a cheaper deal, i will just book the 550plus tat wan.. actualie abit bo hua hor.. with tat money i can go get a new LV wallet liao..

16th February 2005 (Wednesdae)

Dear Blog,

Todae 16th February 2005.. I still haf not post up the entry for yesterdae, coz the net is still down. Aniwae yest, i practically did noting.. but thn my dae still manage to pass.. and huili and sarah called mi up ard 4plus, askin mi for a mahjong session... damn excited bout it.. thou i was dyin to go home and slp.. but thn hehe~* the gambling side of mi soon took over..

Well, i was glad tat i agreed to it.. Sarah came pick mi up at the bus stop near my office.. and we head back straight to her hse.. We started the game, and i was on a winning strike.. So at the end of the dae, i won like 40plus 50bucks.. i tink this is one of the few times which i played mahjong and won so much..

Thn half wae tru the game, we stopped to lao yu sheng.. let mi count count.. this is the duno hw many times i lao yu sheng this year liao.. hehe~* Hopefulli that i will realie haf a feng sheng shui qi year~* May i earn big bucks, and everiting good will cum my WAE~*~* ........

Thn we had dinner at her hse... Haizz.. realie like the feelin wher everione sit dwn together and haf a decent dinner.

Well, actualie Sarah leavin for Auzzie todae... her flight is at 11am , which is like 10min frm now.. Guess she's in the plane, waiting for take off liao.. Thou i am not realie veri close to her, but thn i will realie still miss her.. All the best in Auzzie ger.. Study hard, and most importantly take good care of urself...

Actualie not onli Sarah.. Zihan and Lilian aso leavin tonite.. Aso to Auzzie to study... Tink i am goin to miss thm too.. Miss the dinners tat we used to haf together... Those couple dating is actualie kinda fun.. but thn this time round, with zihan by lilian side, tink they are goin to haf a fantastic trip... hehe~* but quoting wat xiang said, lilian is realie tiein zihan dwn for the rest of his life.. with this study trip, tink its hard for thm to part liao.. like it or not, tink whn they back for studies, i can get to go to their weddin liao.. hehe~*

Aniwae, back to my game last nite.. xiang came pick mi up after the game, thn he sent huili to zq's hse.. and OMG, zq stays near my office.. and its like ermm.. the hses which i saw everidae, and was alwaes sayin how pretty it look... haizz.. lucky guy.. another rich man's son.. Thn we send huili's uni frewn home.. her name is Jenny.. pretty chirpy ger, kinda nice... She stay in Bishan, not realie on the wae, but thn since xiang offer to send her, of coz i was more thn happie.. coz his feelin kinda grumpy whn he came pick mi up yest..

Well, thn by the time i reach home, its ard 10plus goin 11pm.. haiz.. tot i can slp earlie, but thn ended slpin late too.. but at least todae, i am not feelin tat tired.. but thn could still do with a couple more hours of slp.. hehe~*

Haizz.. time aso passin kinda slow todae.. I onli did a couple of PO, and issued out an Invoice this mornin.. So i spent almost half of my morn doin nth.. and still an hour to go before lunchie.. wonder wat can i do in the meanwhile.. sianzz... The net is still dwn.. So tink i can onli post it up whn I'm home tonite, or maybe tml.. but thn i will cont. to write, coz at least this keeps mi occupied..

hehe~* Xiang just sms mi sayin tat hipopo shited on my bed, ad he cant wipe cleanclean coz my bed no more tissue.. he still dare sae ah.. he used up all my tissue.. tink in the whole hse, he got the highest tissue comsuption rate liao.. aniwae, i msged him back sayin hw can hipopo shit on my bed whn he haf his own shitting ground leh.. tink hipopo is realie a veri good buy.. onli 3.50... cheapest softoy i haf ever bought... tat dae we saw this kid takin a similar softoy, exactly the same, dwn to the ribbon on the neck, but thn the kid's is pink while mine is grey.. So rite nw, we are sourcin for the hipopo in Pink~*~* but thn realie duno wher to find it..

Aniwae, did i mentioned tat my eye painpain?? its been like this since i woke up yest morn.. i tot its jsut one of those eye irritation dae.. but thn it seemed to be more serious wor.. i wore glasses to wrk yest, hopin i dun further irritate it.. but thn till last nite, i realised tat i still hurts.. and this morn, after i bathed, i realised tat my eye still hurt.. and my eye actualie look much smaller wor.. the double eye lid tat line totally disappear.. its like its swellin like tat.. so nw i got like one eye bigger thn the other.. how terrible.. so i am still on glasses todae.. to camo my big and small eye.. damn jia lat.. and xiang sms mi sayin tat my eye pain coz hipopo shited and i got no tissue on the bed, thus he wipewipe on my pillow.. thn my pillow dirty tats why my eye pain... wat nonsense rite.. hehe~* trust him to tink of it..

Todae is onli Wednesdae.. But thn i realie feel tired, i am realie lookin forward to my wkend.. actualie i am tinkin izzit beta tat i get those sales job, which allows mi more free time.. those tat i can walk ard, and not stucked here for like u knw, 8hrs a dae.. which is like damn borin... and i rather go back later, and start wrk later.. u knw those sales job, like my last calvin klein job.. frm 9.45am to 7pm... i tink i like tat time more.. the pple ther is aso nice and frewnli.. haizz.. but thn no point lookin back at tings.. we hafta look forward and never backwards.. coz u never knw wat the future holds.. (sounds familiar ah.. tink i saw tat phase a couple of daes back...)

Haizz.. tink this fridae, instead of goin out, i am goin straight home, and hug my deardear to slp till the sat morn.. actualie i am tinkin of havin a gambling session on fridae nite.. but thn its kinda last min.. and the response i got frm my invited list is aso kinda poor.. almost all the gers cant make it.. huili haf to go earli, emi can onli cum late.. so its like ermm.. w/o the gers i abit reluctant to haf it liao.. thuo the guys seems to be able to make it, but thn ermm.. i abit reluctant to haf it w/o the gers... SO.. tink ermm.. i hafta control abit, and wait till sat to go over to jere hse.. tis year not goin to xw hse i tink, coz the time crashed with jere's.. so nemind lah.. I will just chilled out with my dear² on Fridae.. Slp earlie, thn maybe wakie earlier on sat, thn can go work out abit... excercise abit.. hehe~* realie gainin too much weight.. thou Xiang kept sayin its okie, and i look fine, and he dun mind... but thn i dun find it okie, i dun tink i look fine, and Most IMPORTANT I MIND!!!! i realie wonder hw did lilian did it.. she can realie slim herself dwn within such a short period of time.. but thn she gained it back just as fast.. well, tink its goin to be hard for mi, coz while typin, i am actualei feasting on the raisin chocolate.. coz nth to do, whn i'm bored, i will just reach out for food.. cant help it de.. hehe~* natural reaction....

At times, i realie wonder who actualie reads this blog.. maybe noone ever does.. but thn its alrite.. but thn ermm... i wonder, wat will happen if time turns back.. i haf alot of wat if in my mind.. below are a few:-

1. wat if i never leave dennis back thn..
xy: i tink chances of us still being together is veri slim, but thn i tink ther will be more fond memories, and i would haf been a lucky ger longer.. and most importantly, i tink yk will not even haf a stand in my life..

2. wat if i entered hospitality instead of ifc..
xy: well, this is one which is even harder to predict.. coz i will not haf even knw huili and the rest.. which ermm.. might be one of the biggest regret in my life.. but thn, i tink i will be meetin new pple, and i will haf more chance in life since its a business coz..

3. wat if i met xiang earlier..
xy: even meetin him earlier mite not garenteed we will be together, but thn if we were together, i tink i will definately be HAPPIER~* coz ermm.. i realie love my dear² now.. and bein in the same sch with him, both of us still bein a student, tink its goin to be lovely.. hehe~* but thn i tink too much liao.. coz back thn guess his still the best bf award holder to his ex..

4. wat if i had given yz a chance back thn..
xy: no idea wat will happen, lookin at hw much i haf change, i got no idea hw will we turn out..

5. wat if its not yk, but c i haf choosen back thn..
xy: ermm.. no idea.. coz i tink c is a guy who will change for the ger.. so we mite realie still haf chance.. but thn one ting for sure, he will haf grad frm ifc with a dip, and will be servin ns now..

6. wat if since the beginin, i given h the chance..
xy: hehe~* this one i realie no idea.. coz its like so long ago..

7. wat if i am still with yk..
xy: if i am still with him, probably we will be getin engage soon after he completed his ns and all.. but thn lookin back at all tat has happen, i tink ermm.. i made the rite choice to move on.. at least for this item, i can sae garentee plus chop i haf no regrets.

8. wat if i am still at SWS..
xy: well, life will never be the same w/o huiyu.. and i realie miss her so much.. leavin sws, is one of the biggest decision i made in my life.. i till now cant sae izzit with or w/o regret, coz this is definately a higher payin job compared to the past.. but thn i like the wrk ther more.. and i realie like the in-charge feelin.. so, i definately hope tat one dae, i can proudly tell the world tat i left sws with NO REGRETS.. thou now, its still too earlie to tell, coz my heart deep dwn actualie still kinda miss tat place.. i was veri IN CTRL ther.. and over here, i feel more UNDER CTRL....

and since i haf another half dae to go, i decided to fill up wat i tink it would haf happen, thou i haf to sae noone can predict the future... Hopefulli noone realie reads my blog.. tink xiang mite kick up a mini fuss shld he cum to knw it...

Backie frm lunchie.. suddenli mood feel so good.. hehe~* duno why.. Aniwae, durin lunchie my colleauges just reminded mi.. tml is the big TOTO dae.. todae MUST BUY.. its like so much money.. realie hafta try my luck.. if i realie win, tink i can buy new car, and mayb invest in a new home.. hehe~* or i dun even mind poolin everiting in, to buy a landed hse.. or get a condo, thn everi mth collect rent.. hehe.. tink i tink too muchie liao.. but thn realie loh.. hw nice its goin to be if i got 1mil more in my bank acc.. haizz.. wonder hw long i will need to queue for it todae.. and aso duno wat time its goin to close.. hope it doesnt close tat earlier thou... no matter wat, hafta buy abit.. hehe~* maybe 20bucks?? or 30bucks.. if maybe buy those with jokers de.. or system duno wat?? hehe~* later discuss with xiang...

and nw i am waitin for the big boss to be in, thn i hafta go in and let thm sign cheque.. damn scare.. first time like tat go approach thm.. damn scary.. tink they dun even knw my name.. but its okie.. hehe~* i rather be one of those unknwn fellow.. i was just reminded on how important issit to get tat cheque signed by todae.. coz all the big bosses goin germany on tonite's flight.. so everiting needs to be signed by tonite.. and aso coz one of the job is tml, and its COD, so its like even more impt.. okieokie.. i will be a good ger, and guard the bosses door, so tat i can get it signed first ting whn their in, and to make it worst, i am feelin scare.. so its like ......... Save mi PPlE~*!!!

just went in to get the cheque signed.. nth much.. but thn i tink he need to sign on 2 approval an 1 cheque, but he onli signed on the the cheque and 1 approval.. so i am like one signiture less.. die lah.. i dun dare go in get his signiture again.. how how?? shit lah.. i asked irene, she sae its okie, just go in again and get his signiture.. but doesnt tat make mi a blur sotong.. and whn i went in earlier, can feel tat his pretty strict and all... shit shit.. why like tat.. God ah, save mi... damn jia lat.. realie dun dare to go again... why didnt i turn to the back just now and get him to sign.. i realie ask for it de leh... damn jia lat.. how.. realie got no idea hw... okie, i got both signitures on the cheque.. so at least the cheque is ready to be released, but thn i am still damn worry bout tat last approval.. i asked irene time and time again, she said its actualie nth much, stuff like this do happen at times.. but thn i cant help but feel abit ........ but thn nemind.. at least i got 2 signitures on it liao.. and i realie gota sae, i tink benjamin is nicer thn simon.. he seemed more frewnly, while simon seemed more haughty...

aniwae, time now is 4.14pm.. i haf been on this blog on and off for the entire dae.. i alwaes feel tat time after 4pm will fly.. not exactly fly, but thn will pass faster..

and, i just realised tat i gota wrk this saturdae.. heng my tat gambling gatherin did not succeed.. if not i will realie haf a difficult time on saturdae.. and since all bosses will not be in, i haf the luxury of cumin in later, and i can sit in and read my magazines and surf the net(hopefulli the net is up by thn..).. hehe~* and xiang can aso send mi to wrk.. so i can slp in late aso.. so overall its not as bad as it is lah.. and one good ting is, with this push, i will haf a long wkend in march.. tat good fridae wkend.. hehe~* tink i can plan a short holidae to bangkok.. hehe~* 3dae 2nite..

okieokie.. i smsed dear², tellin him bout my idea bout the trip.. thn he ask mi to go finalize it.. i will book frm the 25th mar to 27th mar.. hehe~* to bangkok.. duno shld we go free and easy or guided tour. he ask mi to go ask ard, thn i told him dun wan lah.. go ask means we will further dilly dally, thn waste more time. tonite i will go yahoo travel, and just book frm ther loh.. actualie we can aso back pack abit, thursdae nite after wrk we fly over, thn arrived at the airport at sum funnie timin.. thn we can go walk ard till time to check in hotel on fridae afternoon, so we will haf like u knw half a dae of experience as a back packer.. hehe~* but thn duno tat place safe anot.. scarlie kanna robbed.. but thn if we were to stay in the airport, as in the not get out of the arrival hall, it shld be pretty safe rite?? tink can further discuss with xiang... the more i tot of it, the more excited i becum.. hehe~*

i saved quite alot tis mth.. tink till nw i still got ard 800++.. tat is not counted the 450bucks tat i haf already banked into my uob account.. so ermm.. i tink i can bank in a further min 600bucks end of this mth, which means i actualie save 1k this mth!! haha~* thn nxt mth pamper myself abit, go for a short trip.. i dun mind payin for the tix and accomodation for both of us, since i tink xiang spent quite abit on mi recentli.. so this trip can be a belated v.dae prezzie frm mi to him... hehe~*

15th February 2005 (Tuesdae)

Dear Blog,

In the office now. I knw its been quite sum time since i last blogged. Also not realie sae i am busy.. But thn just tat i am feelin so damn lazy.. Aniwae, i am feelin so damn tired now.. And I am tired till i close my eyes, i will knock out immediately... My boss is in todae, and ther's alot of pple ard in the office.. So i am finding it realie hard to survive..

Oh God.. please help mi stay awake.. dear² playin sms with mi nw.. tryin to keep mi accompany now.. coz my internet in the office seems dwn.. and i cant surf the net.. funnie rite.. thn hw cum i can still blog.. coz i am writing in words, and i will log on later to transfer the entry to my bloggie... haizz.. save mi ah..

okie.. time to do abit of recap on wat's goin on last week.. and before tat, Happie New Year pple.. May the new year brings lotz of joy and happieness to all.. May everione earn Big Money, and find ur ideal partner... okie.. guess tats the best blessing i can tink of with my half functionin brain now...

8th February 2005 (Tues)

This will be the CNY eve... I do not need to wrk on tat dae.. xiang stayed over my hse the nite before.. so i woke up with my dear² slpin rite beside mi.. its realie a nice feelin to see him the moment i opened my eyes.. so aniwae, i cant realie remember wat happened tat dae.. but thn tink we slacked till its time to get to my granny hse for dinner.. i tink we went sumwher in the afternoon.. but thn haizz.. i realie cant recall wher did we go.. hehe~*

aniwae, the dinner is great.. its as usual, the steamboat dinner.. everi year the same. nth new.. but thn i still appreciate all the efforts in preparin the food.. after tat had mahjong session with my aunties and uncle.. haizz.. and i lost money.. for 20cent 40 cent, i lost bout 30bucks.. which is quite alot in my opinion.. the biggest loser of the nite.. played till 1plus, waited for xiang to cum pick mi up, coz his at his uncle hse for dinner... thn he sent my auntie and her kids home thn sent mi home... thn he slacked at my palce till 3plus thn he left...

9th February 2005 (Da Nian Chu Yi)

okie... Happie CNY everione!!.. this haf to be one of the latest new year i ever got.. i woke up bout 10am.. and my mum sae to leave the hse at 11am... for the past duno hw many years, we actualie haf to reach my granny hse at like 9plus... so its like we need to leave the hse ard 8plus 9am.. so this year is realie the latest.. which is kinda heng.. coz i was realie tired..

went to my granny place.. she didnt gif ang bao this year.. she gave us solid cash just like tat... so shes like walkin ard with a big stack of 10bucks.. coz my granpa's has not been awae for 100daes yet.. so we can gif out the red packet.. and later i heard frm my mum, my granny was like lookin at wat everione was wearing.. we cant wear ani of those new year color like red, pink and yellow.. ermm.. orange too.. those "lucky colors".. she was tellin my mum and auntie bout who is wearin those forbidden colors.. and guess she's not too happie bout it.. heng i was wearin a white dress... which pink embiodery.. but thn i guess its not tat obvious.. so i tink to her, i am just wearin a white dress...

didnt stay ther for long.. for bout less thn 2hrs, thn we went to my the other granny hse.. my dad's side de... its kinda empty ther.. coz we were ther b4 2pm, kinda earlie... so my uncles came.. but thn nth realie interestin lah.. wanted to play mahjong, but thn not enuff pple.. so i was just watchin the vcd.. my aunt was playin the korean series.. the 18 year old bride.. i actualie find tat show damn nice... i'm looking for the vcd nw...

after tat my parents left for home to take a napnap.. coz we arranged to go for a dinner at JB... but i stayed on at my granny hse, watchin vcd, thn xiang came pick mi and benben up ard 4plus.. thn we headed home.. and went to JB for tat seafood dinner..

the dishes ther was not bad.. ermm.. but thn i tink its pretty normal aso lah... but thn i like the fish.. the steam fish is fantastic.. and the meal for 5 (my mum, my dad, benben, xiang and mi..) cost 500plus.. i actualie found it kinda ex.. coz the servings were quite small..

thn head back to singapore.. tink i slept earlie tat nite.. i cant realie remembered.. hehe~*

10th February 2005 (Da Nian Chu Er)

Woke up, and realised tat i got nth to do the entire dae.. and all the shops are still closed.. haizz... xiang came pick mi up ard 12noon, to go his place to bai nian.. feelin extremely fat tat dae.. so he waited quite long.. coz i was like changin up and dwn.. went to his place, haha. and i fall aslp on his bed... by the time i woke up, already like 5plus.. thn actualie wanted to catch a show. but his sis called back said all the 7pm shows was like sold out. so she suggested a family dinner.. i was feelin kinda grouchy.. so i opted out of the dinner.. so xiang sent mi home thn went to meet up with his family for the dinner..

thn he came to my hse after his dinner.. cant realie remember wat happened.. i was in a real grouchy mood tat dae.. he suggested a midnite show or a supper, but i simply didnt haf the mood.. ermm.. tats all lah for my chu er..

11th February 2005 (Chu San)

okie.. woke up in the morn, planed to go ktv.. called up cappage, noone answer.. to we dilly dally abit.. and went to the bishan ktv.. for a 2pm to 7pm package.. we took public transport dwn to bishan, and gosh, the bus was packed with STuDENTs... at times, realie found these kids irritating.. u knw wat i mean rite??

then junction 8 was kinda empty.. quite a number of shops was closed.. we had yoshinoya for lunchie.. and head to the ktv liao.. mao joined us for the ktv.. the ktv was like realie cheap.. and i realie sing till i got no songs to sing... ermm.. not realie fun, but thn overall okie lah... guess its abit borin to be singin alone for 5hrs.. the guys were after all not too much if a ktv person.. after tat we went back to junction 8, and walked ard.. thn wanted to catch a show. but thn all tix was sellin fast .. so sianz loh.. thn we tot of an alternative.. to buy vcd home and watch... hehe~* we bought stanford wifes..(is this hw u spell it??)

tink i slept pretty earlie tat nite.. like ard 12plus 1am... nth much to do aniwae... CNY alwaes kinda boring to mi...

12th February 2005 (Chu Si)

okie.. my holidaes cumin to an end, deep dwn in my heart, i beginin to feel kinda blue liao.. but thn heng is i do haf planz on sat.. slacked ard with xiang in the hse, thn mum called and sae she's goin to batam for a short trip till will be awae for a nite.. so she drove the car back home and packed her stuff, while we rushed to prepare to leave the hse.. we sent her dwn, so we will haf the car for the wkend.. which i realie appreciate it, coz tat wkend is kinda packed for us.. after sendin her off, we head dwn to boon lay. coz hafta go vistin to my yi po's hse..

i was kinda earlie, thn went to walkwalk at jurong point before headin dwn to her hse.. jurong point actualie kinda interestin to us coz we seldom go ther.. aniwae.. by the time we reach my yi po hse, all my aunties and uncles reached liao..

she prepared steamboat for us... actualie i like this yi po of mine alot. coz whn i was a kid, she doted on mi alot. coz she wanted a daughter, but she onli got 2 sons. thn i was i tink 4 years younger thn her youngest son.. she realie treated mi like her own, and i will go stay over at her place for a couple of weeks everi sch holidae..

stayed till 6.30pm, thn we left.. headed home to feed my bao beis... reached home ard 7plus.. frm boon lay dwn to my place is realie far.. i realie wonder hw can xiang take it goin to tuas to wrk everidae frm tamp...

thn just reached home, huili called up and hurried us to go dwn to emi's hse.. so after feedin my bao beis, thn we head dwn to emi's hse.. emi hse aso steam boat.. but thn its the japanese type.. hehe~* but thn i didnt eat.. coz still feelin full.. so we started the gambling affairs.. haizz.. didnt want to elaborate into the games.. but thn i lost quite alot lah.. it was kinda fun.. but thn ermm.. yar.. huili was the bigbig winner, she won 200plus close to 300bucks..

thn ard 11plus 12am, we all left.. send jere and esther to the bus stop which is like kinda far and out of the wae.. but thn nemind lah.. tat shld be their last bus liao.. thn went to pump petrol, and took huili back to my hse so she could wait for her dad to pick her up frm my place..

after i bathed and all, i was beginin to feel kinda hungry. so i cooked noodles while xiang was bathin.. well, the noodles i cooked is realie realie nice.. its the dry one, with egg in it.. yummie yummie.. i realie duno hw to discribe, but thn i like my noodles tat wae.. hehe~*

huili left ard 1am.. all the while she's quarelin with zq.. ermm.. i dun wan to elaborate on tat.. but thn ermm.. i still tink huili is a nice ger, zq is a nice guy, and they shld be together.. okie, period.

thn we went to see another vcd together.. this time round is cinderella story.. a damn nice show loh.. like a fairytale cum true.. aniwae, the vcd was bought in jurong point.. so by the time the show end, its already 3plus.. i was like realie realie tired.. so tat ended my dae..

12th February 2005 (Chu Wu)

Woke up pretti late, thn went to xiang's hse.. so he can go back haf a change of clothes and all.. so had lunchie at his hse tat kopi tiam, saw alan.. his sec sch/poly frewn.. with this ger.. ermm.. tat ger is aso his poly frewn.. but thn kinda weird why are they together.. coz the last time i saw alan, his with tis ger which looks kinda ah lianzz..

thn after tat head dwn to ponggul, pick up huili at punggol mrt.. which onli thn i realise it looks like sum kind of UFO...

thn at her place, her parents was like reallie nice... i realie like her parents.. thou at times her mum is kinda tempremantal.. but thn lucky her..

ermm.. gamble abit at her hse.. with sista, jonas and roy.. realie didnt see thm for a veriveri long time. but thn seems like noone realie changed.. thou sista looks like his drained out.. abit slow and blur.. but hehe~* his alwaes like tat de mah rite..

thn half wae tru ard 7pm, we headed dwn to thomson ther, to my big boss hse.. and OMG.. his realie RIch.. he has his own swimin pool.. and his whole hse is in the balinese style.. just like a resort.. haizz.. i abit lazy to describe his house. but thn its realie a bigbig hse.. each rm has its own toilet and walk in wardrobe. his own room is almost my whole livin rm, which tat study room which we hack dwn the wall to make it part of our livin rm.. its realie BIG..

thn after tat rushed back to huili place, onli left xingwei, amos, emi and bf.. ermm.. thn played blackjack till ard 10.30pm, thn headed home liao.. coz dun wanna hang out till too late.. coz xiang needs to wrk the nxt dae... and it has been quite sum daes since he has went home..

so tat ended up whole 6daes of holidaes.. overall, i lost quite a bit of money.. gained alot more weight.. which i got toalli no idea hw to shake it off.. i haf been on this blog for the past hour plus.. but thn let mi finished up by updatin yest.. coz its Valentine's Dae..

14th February 2004 (V. Dae)

yest was mondae.. aso v. dae.. well, saddly, i had to report back to wrk after my long break.. which was kinda sianzz.. i was feelin tired.. (but thn tat was nth compared to todae..) the dae passed pretty fast, coz i was actualie kinda busy truout the dae...

thn i left ard 5.40pm.. to go bus stop to wait for xiang to cum pick mi up.. coz he said on this special dae, he cant bear to let mi go squeeze with the rowdy kids.. so aniwae, i bought NTH for him yest.. i realie got no time to go shoppin for a prezzie for him w/o him by my side.. but aniwae, i wore a new purple dress to wrk yest.. tat dress was a v.dae prezzie frm him to mi.. its frm fong hugs.. i realie love tat dress.. i tried tat dress on one of the wkends, but thn didnt buy it coz i just bought 2 new dresses.. so hehe~* he bought it for mi.. i dun even knw wher go actualie find time go buy it.. aniwae, tat dress cost 70bucks i tink.. hehe~* i realie love tat dress..

aniwae, we headed back home, da bao fish and chips and chicken cutlet and head back home for our dinner.. thn we watched a chinese vcd, shen jiao rou gui. aso bought at jurong point tat dae.. its a veri nice show.. actualie i got to knw this show coz rong zu er sung the theme song.. and i realie like tat song.. so whn i saw tat vcd, i was like buy this buy this.. hehe~*

xiang wanted to end the dae by puttin mi off to bed.. but thn its realie getin kinda late, and i dun wan to be totalie worn out. so i told him to leave first.. wanted to effort abit and wait for him to be home so we could tok awhile on the fone, but thn i was realie too tired.. he smsed mi whn his home, and goes bathin.. thn i sms him back,' i will try wait for u, but thn hipopo puttin his pipi at my face.. damn stinko and i faintinz soon..' and soon after, i realie knock out.. hehe~* so tat ended my dae..

i'm at this for nearliy 1 and a half hour plus plus.. and its half and hour to go for lunchie.. heng ah.. but thn no doubt, i am still tired, but thn still not tat bad animore.. but tink the net is still dwn.. haizzz..

tired tired tired.. duno wat went wrong with my slp last nite... i am feelin so damn tired todae.....

Dear Blog,

Its mid nite now.. but thn i a not at all tired.. so tink tml is goin to be another long dae.. coz i am sure to feel the strain of not havin enuff slp.. listenin to the Twins new album now.. Nice~*

Aniwae, i had a fantastic wkend.. thou did nth much, but thn feel rested, and not wasted.. okie.. shall start by sharing my Fridae..

Fridae

Earlie in the morn, recieved an ang bao frm this vendor.. thn i jut dumped it into my drawer, coz by the feel of the ang bao, ther onli seemed to be one note inside.. and since everione in my dept (ard 30pple) got it.. i got the ill-feelin tat thers onli like 2bucks inside.. thn irene called mi.. told mi tat tis is a big ang bao.. thn i was like *ting²*.. dun tell mi its a 10bucks?? thn i retrieved the ang bao frm my drawer, opened it up, and ViolA~* its a 50bucks.. hehe.. cant hide the smile on my face.. i was like wow!! Pretty generous ah.. but tats not all...

A couple hrs later, my boss called mi into his office.. thn he passed mi another envelop.. he said coz i am still not comfirmed, thus i am not able to get the bonus this year.. but thn the company tinks tat all staff more or less deserves sum extra cash for the new year.. so this will be a small token.. deep in my heart i was like high up on cloud 9.. or even 90... he aso mentioned tat i mite get comfirmed b4 the end of this mth as his pretty pleased with my performance, and can see tat i haf beautifully merged in with the pple ther.. wasnt i a happie ger thn.. hehe~* went back to my desk, opened up the envelop, 200bucks starin back at mi...

and later into the afternoon, another venfor pop by, another ang bao givin session. Opened it up, and ther's 200bucks.. fridae seems like a pre-cny for mi.. its like i recieved 450 hard cash in tat mere 8hr of wrk... so rite after wrk, i met xiang at orchard, and went shoppin.. but thn orchard was pretty crowded, and kinda sian.. wan try clothes aso hafta wait longlong.. but in the end i bought 2dresses... 2 pretty dresses... hehe~*

So went back home with xiang, with a happie heart...

Saturdae

Had to go wrk on sat, but thn woke up with a happie heart.. slack ard, left home at 8plus, coz xiang stayed over, and he sent mi to office.. had a busy dae at the office... so time passes damn fast.. and after wrk, xiang came pick mi up and we went to parkwae, to cont. shoppin.. but thn this time round, its xiang who's buying stuff... went giodarno, and he bought a couple of those polo tees...

went levis, wanted to buy new jeans for cny, but thn couldnt get his 501 at size 31 at the color he like.. so we drove dwn to bugis, and finally got it at OG.. with a 20% off.. hehe~* thn we went to walk ard at bugis, thn packed the tori Q box, and the coroque curry don and drove dwn to pebble bay for dinner..

had a peaceful dinner, and we slack ther and chit chatted till ard 9plus, thn make our wae back to his hse.. at his hse i actualie fall aslp.. wakin up at 12plus.. i was like realie realie tired.. cant take it... thn after i woke up we came back to my place... thn dilly dally abit, we finalli knock out ard 3plus..

sundae

everione slpt in late.. hehe~* and slack ard, and slp summore, we finalli got our bums out of the hse at 4plus... went to china town to feel the cyn mood.. but thn its not as crowded as i had expected... bought 4boxes of those new year cookies... and had a dim sum dinner ther.. the dim sum is nice... ordered 7 dishes, and its onli like 15bucks plus.. cheap rite...

thn we left china town, and went to tiong bahru.. ther i bought 2 camisole top with sum lacy details at the front.. and time flies, its like ard 8pm liao.. so we made our way home, coz i still need to prepare dinner for my 2 bao bei doggies...

tats the end of my wkend.. which i realie enjoyed.. with my dear by my side.. but thn no doubt, i still insist tat i got a lousy dear² as i haf mentioned in my previous entry.. hehe~*

recently i did quite abit of shoppin.. i bought a new black skirt for wrk, 2 new cardigans, 2 dresses, and todae 2 new top.. ermm... actualie i shld haf go do up my hair todae.. but thn realie lazy to sit dwn ther for so long to get it done.. i guess it doesnt realie matter rite, to start off the new year with my hair like this.. considerin tat i just had a hair cut about 3weeks(??) back... and shoes... ermmm.. couldnt find shoes to match my cny outfit.. maybe i can cont. my search tml...

okie.. tink i haf to try get myself into bed.. hopefulli tat more suppliers will cum in tml, and cont. the ang bao ritual.. hehe~*

Todae, i tink i got a lousy boifrewn..

Lousy lousy lousy!!!!

The below entry was typed yest.. but thn coz the webby was like not realie wrkin, so i kept a copy, tinkin to update it in whn i free.. So aniwae, OO looks fine yest... His like bouncing around, thn ermm… he loks okie lah.. but thn internally I realie duno hws the condition like.. didn’t bring him dwn to the vet yest.. ermm.. mummy gave mi a reason but I cant remember.. seems like his supposed to take a blood and urine test like tat.. so haizz.. still love him just as much..

Tonite goin dinner with my dept pple.. my 2 directors givin us a treat.. to mark the end of this lunar year.. they goin east coast eat seafood.. ermm.. kinda looking forward to it lah… nxt mondae my company havin a cocktail for all their coporate customer, thn we hafta stay back aso.. and after tat my dept pple goin to ktv.. actualie I more of lookin forward to tat too.. it sounds kinda fun rite…

Aniwae.. new year is realie cumin.. and ther is still so much stuff I haf not done.. like my hair, new clothes… haizz.. I tinkin of go rebond my hair too.. actualie tinkin wait till march or april de.. but thn recently I aso abit fed up with it.. so tinkin shld I just go rebond it back.. thn I aso tinkin shld I do perm instead… but thn tat stylist sae most pple will regret, and will go back and rebond it back in less thn 3mth.. like tat veri waste money.. so I realie duno wat shld I do.. and the worst ting is, I dun haf much time liao…

Okie.. ending here ba.. wat follows will be wat I blogged yest..


Dear Blog,

In the office now again.. Actualie I am very busy todae. But feel like cumin in just to drop a short note..

OO is not in a too good condition. The vet is pretty worried that we might lose him.

Benben went home after school, only to be greeted by Lizzie’s barking whn his at the lift landing. This is quite unlike Lizzie, coz she never barks whn we are home. She will onli be wagging her tail excitedly, and whining awae, waiting for the chance to pounce on us so we can saying her.. So after he opened the door, onli to find OO lying on the floor in a small pundle of blood…

He got a shock and call Mummy immediately, and they rushed him to the vet. The vet said he hurt his eye again. But this time shld be due to he himself, knockin it again the wall or sumting.. tats why it like scatched the protruding surface and thus bleed.

But another terrible news is tat he has got liver infection. And his liver is swellin. Actualie his been pukin for the past couple daes. I have the intention of bringin him dwn to the vet yest for a checkup liao.. But who knws tings happens b4 I got the chance to brin him dwn. Vet said his too weak to even support himself.. So they put him on drop yest.. And mummy brought him home after his on drip for bout half hr..

I reallie duno hw to describe out my feelins. This realie breaks my heart. It realie hurts to see him like this.. We are supposed to brin him back to the vet todae, to see his condition..

Lets all hope he is alrite… his my good and brave boi, so I realie hope he can get tru this ordeal..

Dear Blog,

So fast, a week has passed. Todae is the last dae of January. Time realie flies, 1/12 of a brand new 2005 has passed. Thou it still seems like yest we had just celebrated Xmas.

Ermm.. wat has been happenin last week? Let mi take a look at the calendar... Tink noting much has been happening last week. Everidae is more or less wrk home wrk home.. And i am supposed to wrk last sat, but i changed it to this wk instead.. Coz hafta go attend my grandpa's tat death anniversary tingy.. its been 7wks since he has left us.. But its still not hard to recall the details on tat fateful dae, and the few daes tat follows. I realie haf to sae tat the impact of his death is veri positive to us. Coz we cousins haf realie got close. Benben and a couple of my younger male cousins haf been hagin out with the older cousins everi wkend.. stayin over at their hse.. And whn we meet up everi sat for the prayer session, its more thn a nod and hi..

Saturdae evening, xiang came pick mi up on his scrambie to chinatown. I went to queue for the famous lim chee yuan bak kwa.. The waiting time is actualie shorter thn expected, onli ard an hour.. And i got orders from my aunties and cousins. So in turn i bought 11packs..

Xiang alwaes sae i am high in IQ, but zero in EQ. Coz i tot we can go walkwalk after we buy teh bak kwa, so i do not hafta carry so much cash with mi just in case i get pic-pocketed. but thn its like after we cought soo much bak kwa, its simply too heavy for us to realie walk and squeze tru the crowds. So we spent another like hour or 2 thn we proceed home liao.

Sundae mornin, xiang realised sum idiot stole my helemt. coz he lock the helmet on the handle bars.. ermm.. and duno wat did tat follow did, but thn he stole my helmet.. and my helmet is like still in a tip-top condition de.. huai ren ah.. well, but nemind lah.. coz mine got stolen, xiang gota buy mi new one... hehe~* told him i not goin to on his scrambie till he got mi my own helmet.. coz his helmet i wear liao like those da tou wa wa like tat... guigui can fit in after i put it on.. he go too fast, the helmet might fly awae... hehe~*

aniwae, last nite didnt slp well.. coz OO in my room.. thn he kept upsetin my dustin lah, step on all my bags lah, plastic bags lah.. everiting lah.. and he kept cumin onto my bed, wakin mi up.. so todae i realie in quite a zombie stage.. to make it worst, its a mondae.. realie sianzz.. tonite aso cannot go back earlie and slp.. coz i meetin the gers for a dinner... at park's mall fish and co.. haizz.. dun realie like fish and co.. but thn no choice.. and emi just sms sae to aso celebrate jessica's bdae... she ask if wan chip in for the cake.. so means todae hafta spent more money..

ermm.. last nite i go signed up for a new line.. so soon, i am goin to cancel off my current line.. abit bu she de.. coz no matter wat, aso use for bout 3 years liao... haizz.. but thn dun haf a chocie do i.. the line under joa's name.. do wat aso ma fan..

benben just call, sae OO eye bleedin, and they are at the vet now.. shit lah.. duno wat's happening.. i realie duno why like tat..

no mood to update further..

Dear Blog,

In the office now again todae.. Ermm.. Alex is back todae, and actualie todae quite busy.. I nw aso issue PO halfwae, thn abit sianzz.. so thn decided to drop a “short” note.. hehe~*

Had a wonderful long wkend.. thou good times alwaes passes so fast… Thursdae nite I was like so tired, ermm.. cant realie remember wat I did, but thn I knock out rite after I reach home..

then fridae wakie earlie.. so nice to see xiang once I open my eyes.. the sense of security… but thn he piggie lah.. I woke up liao he still slpin, I aso didn’t wake him up.. thn slack till afternoon, we went to bugis.. went to sim lim.. I wanted to buy a mp3 player.. so ermm.. yar, went sim lim to source ard abit… thn after tat went to eat desert at xu liu shan.. it’s a veriveri famous desert store in hong kong.. I tried their water melon single sago… YumYum.. damn delicious.. love it soooo much.. thn after tat went home.. arranged for an overnite mahjong session with clement and mao… hehe~* half wae tru the game xw drove dwn from jurong to haf supper with us… so I aso took the car out… went to macperson ther for supper.. after tat went back to my hse, to cont. the mahjong… played till ard 6am… hehe~* thn I won 6bucks.. thou not a lot.. but thn I realie feel veri happie tat nite.. realie duno hw to describe.. but thn I realie feel so happie..

Thn didn’t haf time to slp, coz Sat need to go bank earlie in the morn with mummy… went to the UOB in Orchard, and opened my saving account… I applied for the Visa mini.. hehe~* thou visa mini already veri common liao, but thn I still feelin kinda excited bout it… duno whn will my card cum leh… thn went to my granny place ther, for my grandpa’s prayer session.. I was like sooo tired, tat I didn’t haf the appetite for the vegetarian food.. cant wait to go home and slp… thn kept paster mummy to go home.. finalli, ard 12noon, I reach home and I totally knock out…

Woke up at 5pm…. To be exact, it shld be 4pm.. coz mummy like got nth to do, thn she kept cumin to my room and bother mi… came in to wake mi up at 4pm, askin mi if I am late for my appt… thn I told her nope, thn I cant remember wat exactly happened, coz I was realie shag, but thn vividly I can remember she’s still like roamin ard my room…. Thn finalli woke up at 5pm, prepared my stuff, and waited for xiang to cum pick mi up for the Joachim Steamboat at Suntec with esther and jere… The dinenr was like not bad.. actualie I kinda realie realie like the soup, thou the spread was like so-so onli.. but thn still not tat bad lah… after tat we walked over to the esplanade… thn happened to haf a life band performing at the outdoor ermmm.. (wat u call tat place I got no idea..) it’s a local band by the name serenade (I tink tats hw its spelled).. but aniwae, their music was like OOohh… Its actualie nice leh.. hehe~* their bassist was a a ger, and the drummer was like sooo damn stylo.. hehe~* StunnEd..

So went home, and was like still tired, and I knock out like a log again.. Sundae I wakie REAL earlie.. b4 the sunrise.. hehe~* and I woke xiang up… but thn I aso not tat bad lah.. I wakie b4 the sunrise, but thn I woke him up ard 8plus.. thn we slack till like ermm.. 3plus 4pm, before heading dwn to bugis… actualie wanted to go sim lim to see the mp3 player de.. but thn reach ther liao I abit the no mood.. so dropped the idea… so we meet up with esther and jere, ate my xu liu shan again, thn we headed home…

Haizz.. so this is more or less my entire wkend… I was like quite happie, coz its like damn filled up with activites… and with xiang by my side like tat… hehe~* and u mite haf noticed, I changed the whole blog tingy again.. mao saes its nice.. wat do u tink???

Dear Blog,

I am in the office now.. Ermm.. TOdae is a Thursdae.. but thn tml is a public holidae.. so ermm.. yar.. will haf an ultra long wkend.. but thn aso not much of a use, the entire wkend will pass with a twinkle of the eyes..

Aniwae, had the poly gers dinner last nite.. ermm.. mao and lao da came dwn and join us too.. esther and jere didnt make it.. thn it was actualie veri enjoyable. Till the veri end.. we were ther till like 11plus.. coz lao da was ther lah, so all sitted at cafe cartel(wher we had our dinner) and tok cock.. tokin bout the past, gossiping bout certain pple.. and ermm.. overall its realie a frewns nite out. and i had a good time..

Okie, so at the veri end of the nite, thn xiang quarrel with mi. Too tired to go recall the whole encounter again.. but thn till now i still haf not contacted him. he sms mi to getb ack to him once ready to tok bout it.. well, i am still angry.

All the bosses are out to Tokyo for the director's meeting.. so its like the whole office no gorvenment like tat.. which is kinda nice.. we had an extra long lunchie yest, and i left home on the dot last evening.. even irene has got no wrk on hand tat ard 4plus, she's already seated ther readin magazine..

Half the dae is nearly gone, lunchie is goin to be here again soon.. hope tat the afternoone will fly just like yest.. aniwae, the whole week practicalli i didnt do much wrk.. hehe~* but thn its okie.. coz not much wrk is cumin in.. so aso not my fault.. cant possibly i purposely realie go dig wrk out to do rite...

Haizz.. why i alwaes quarrel so much with xiang.. but thn normally, thou we quarrel but thn i knw its i who created all the nonsense.. but thn this time round, i realie beg to differ liao.. sian sian.. realie sian.

recentli veri free in the office, thn went to join the hi-5 stuff.. actualie quite a number of my frewns already in it wor.. this wkend whn i free i will go in add the pics.. feel like buyin a new dress for new year.. bought a lite purple top in mango the other dae.. tinkin if realie cant get aniting for this new year, i will wear tat top with jeans.. at least it sumting.. but thn feel like buyin a tube dress... haizz.. too much to buy, but too little money to go ard... sianzz..

recently, on top of my wan-to-buy list is a i-pod mini.. can ani kind souls actualie buy it for mi?? or sponser mi abit for it?? i am tinkin of cashing the singapore shares, which is a solid 400bucks and buy the i-pod mini with it.. but thn ermm.. like kinda wasted.. coz i-pod mini is definately not an nessicity.. So its like... haizz.. whn i am broke and all, thn i will realie look at the i-pod and cry ah...

kae lah, end here first... damn sianz..

Dear blog,

Reached home not long ago.. Feeling tired. Have to go back work tomolo.. Haizz.. tats the prob with alternate sats.. ther will be this sat wher i will feel so sianz... but thn wat to do.. went to catch the down town east open air show jsut now.. it was showin mean gers, happened to saw the email tat the ntuc club sent mi, so xiang and i went dwn to see the show after wrk..

The show's nice, ermm.. atmostphere aso not bad.. and all we had to pay was the 3buck parking fees.. not a bad deal loh.. cinema definately cant find this price.. hehe.. and after tat i drove back.. thou didnt touch the steering wheel for quite sum time, but thn realized tat my drivin still not bad leh.. the whole juorney home frm pasir ris was good, and i even went up the multi storey carpark myself, and i manage to park the car.. not bad rite.. hehe~*

tml is jere's bdae party.. tinkin if i will haf the chance to drive ther.. ermm.. actualie its onli january, but thn i already tinkin bout my bdae liao.. tis year, i aso wan celebrate.. thou its not 21st this year liao.. and i tink it will not be an as big event like last year, but thn i tinkin i still wan a chalet of sum sort.. hehe.. liek the feelin tat everione will cum up to mi and gif mi their best wishes lah.. still half a year more to go.. we shall see how lah..

works okie, not so busy liao.. at times i still fear tat i will haf nth to do.. but thn so far still so good.. seems like ther will alwaes be sum stuff popin up for mi to do.. and i can still manage to leave the office b4 6pm..

kae.. goin to bed liao.. tml still got half a dae of wrk waitin for mi.. kinda guilty, coz i didnt go for my granpa's prayer retreat last week, and i am going to miss it again this week.. like kinda infillial hor.. but thn realie cant help it.. last sat i was at morris allen, and tml is the sat which i need to go back.. haizz.. and seems like grandpa left alot of money behind w/o ani will.. the cash and stuff still not so bad.. its his shares tat seems to be ermm.. ma fan.. coz ther's no will, and the governement is goin to take 30% of it.. and seems like tat will tally up to a couple of millions.. knw his rich, but thn never knw his tat rich..

take care pple.. i shall update again soon.. love u. esp to the pple tat i miss.. u knw who are u??

This will be my 2nd post todae.. so its still sundae, but th sky is already dark.. sun has set hrs ago.. feelin veri upset todae.. realie upset.. no news frm him the entire dae.. is this the end of us?? i realie got no idea.. i didnt tok to him last nite whn we were at orchard. all ques was unanswered.. i remained silent all the wae home in the car.. guess i was too tired, i fall aslp on the wae back.. whn i woke up, the car was already parked at my hse dwnstairs of my hse liao.. i duno reach hw long liao, but he didnt wake mi up..

after i woke up, i opened the door, turned and walk off to the lift.. he sent mi up, rite to my door step. but he didnt cum in.. onli said bye to my mum, who is in the livin rm, and he went off liao...

frm thn till now, he didnt contact mi. no sms, so not to even mention a fone call.. i spend the whole dae at home looking at my hp.. but starin at it doesnt help, it didnt ring at all.. seein the hands of the clock movin.. hours by hours passed, and i duno wat am i doin. forced myself to slp, so tat time passed faster, but thn whnever i opened my eyes, onli mins passed....

its 10plus now.. i am upset.. veri veri upset.. i feel like cryin. is this the end?? i realie got no idea.. if it is, i rather u tell mi. yest, he mentioned tat he realie duno hw to spend the rest of our lifes together.. coz its like i will alwaes flare at him at the slightest stuff.. i realie dun wan to go into this topic again and again.. but thn why do i flarE? its not out of the blue, ther will definately be a cause to it. did he actualie spend time go find out wats goin on?? or even whn he find out liao did he do aniting bout it?

maybe its realie my fault.. but thn why do i feel so pain todae... i feel like a zombie walkin ard the hse.. i hope he can appear in front of mi and hold mi in his arms again.. no appetite todae.. didnt eat aniting.. maybe its aso coz i didnt eat and tat make mi feel worst..

i duno lah.. i duno wats goin on.. upset. just plain upset.. hoW?

Todae sundae.. weather seems good.. sunny but not hot.. but thn with tis weather, i aso got nth to do.. aniwae, a couple daes back i cut my hair liao.. its bout 5inches, which is consider alot alot... but thn others seems to tink its still veri long.. well.. doesnt matter lah.. i nw is tinkin shld i go do rebonding again.. just the top part.. tat stylist said i shld rebond liao thn color it.. but thn my hair nw is like totalli colorless.. dun realie like it leh.. ermmm.. let mi tinktink first lah..

yest my last dae at morris allen.. well.. i told thm i couldnt cum frm nxt wk on, but thn they sun seemed to take it seriously like tat.. like i will still go back like tat.. but thn dun care thm lah... let thm settle it thmself.. first dae of class, as expected lah, realie busy.. but thn nemind, its another dae gone..

after class rainin, thn xiang came pick mi up.. he went back to office yest.. so he came pick mi up straight after wrk.. thn we went orchard.. ermm.. nth much loh.. just tat we quarrel again.. he ended up askin mi, did i alwaes quarrel so much with my exs.. ermm.. i didnt answer him.. but thn maybe i realie do.. so means tat its my prob, not his.. but thn ermm.. left it hangin ther.. duno wat will happen nxt. but thn ermm.. nemind loh.. i mean i am realie not happie.. dun sae go shopin, and ended up curning mi frm buyin mi everiting. if tats the case, thn dun brin mi go walk lah.. duno lah.. i aso dun like it whn our everidae ended up like tat.. its not tat i wan de aso.. maybe its realie my big prob.. but thn.. this is mi ah.

even if tats the end, i guess i am okie with it.. ermm.. am i??

Dear Blog,

I am in the office now.. time is 11.24am, still got loads of wrk not done, and todae is the last dae for closing.. so all the stuff gota be completed by todae. But thn I now totally no mood to do aniting leh.. its not only coz todae is Fridae. Its just tat I cant brin myself to do aniting now. Its just tat realie dun haf the xin qing..

All of a sudden, I realie duno wat am I doin like tat.. thou todae is fridae, but thn I dun feel happie at all.. the tot tat I hafta go dwn to morris allen tml realie sucks.. and my keys are still with huimin, and I haf to go dwn to cck tml to take it. Imagine I haf to go dwn frm change here all the wae dwn to cck.. so later I is practically takin the mrt frm 1 end of the island to the other end.. and after tat frm cck go home.. by tat time aso duno hw late liao.. and I haf to do tis all alone.. coz xiang is havin dinner with his parents todae.. realie sian. I tinkin can dun take keys anot, just hack it..

I realie duno wat is life all about now.. everidae go wrk, and after wrk go home.. even my wkends aso duno wat am I doin.. its like I got nth to do.. or maybe its not nth to do.. its nth tats realie significant, or aniting tat I realie realie wan to do… u knw wat I mean??

Life is like ermm.. not much of a meaning.. pple sae its like a roller coaster.. but thn so wat?? We are just goin round in circles dispite the ups and downs…

Am I realie happie now?? I duno.. everidae cum work, thn after wrk go home. Thn at times go out with xiang… its not tat out with xiang is no fun or wat.. but thn its like a routine, tings are just repeatin.. but thn wat change do I wan?? I got no idea.. do I wan the the change?? I aso got no idea.. how?? Is this how I am goin to spend the rest of my life??

Tink I might need a change of job soon. I dun like a desk bound job tat much.. haizz.. I duno lah.. how?? Tell mi wat shld I do?? Work coz everyone needs a job, its for a living.. but thn live till so not happie, thn wats the point leh.. suddenly miss the daes back in school.. shld haf treasure it more.. xiang told mi to go back to sch thn.. its doesn’t matter de.. but thn easier said thn done.. how much issit goin to cost if I were to go study now.. and if I was realie to go back to sch, its onli a form of escape.. a coupld of years later, I still need to cum out wrk.. isn’t it the same?? So life

12.04pm now liao.. I didn’t realie spend the last hr siting here typin.. I was actualie doin other stuff, thn occasionally back to type a couple of sentence.. goin for lunch soon..

The time is now 7.42pm.. I am still in the office.. at 6pm, I is on the verge of crying.. its like I am about to pack up and go liao.. or shld I sae I haf ALREADY PARKED.. thn sumone came along and asked mi to typed out a quotation. Damn idiot loh.. I am alwaes typin her quotes, while ALL others actualie did it on their own.. dun understand WHY do I have to do ti for her.. STUPID WOMAN.. aniwae, while doin the quote, more pple came in, and ask mi to do their Pos.. this is do is obliging, coz todae is the last dae, generally they are all nice pple, so I aso wan help thm. If aniting after todae, they will be dead meat, coz my bigbig boss is not goin to be happie as the accts cant close todae..

Update more whn I am home ba.. more upset bout the stupid morris allen…

Happie new year pple.. last year was a dreadful year, with tat killer tsunami cumin into the pic to end the year.. well, its realie disaterous, killing so many pple. hope tat tis cumin year will be a beta one...

didnt realie haf ani entry last mth, too many tings happenin.. realie no time for it, so maybe i could do a fast recap...

kingsmen was actualie beta thn i tot.. ther was tis d&D on the 22nd dec, which i realie realie enjoyed myself.. ther's this inter-dept performance, and my dept won the first. the prize is 1200 cash.. happie to get the cash, but thn aso happie durin the practice session, coz it actualie let mi got to knw the pple ther beta.. and durin the lucky draw, i got the 116th price, winin a total of 50bucks robinsons vouchers and 50bucks cash.. hehe~*

wrks busy recently, due to the year end closing.. but thn i am still copin well.. busy but happie.. vendors cumin in everidae, callin mi up everidae to chase for the POs.. but thn u knw wat, i still felt pretty hapie.. feels like everione's at my mercy, coz they are waiting for mi to issue out the Pos, and they cant realie rush mi, or be rude to mi.. nasty hor mi.. but thn ermmm.. try be a purchaser nxt time round, and u will understand my feelin..

aniwae, sumting bad happen todae.. OO hurt his eye again.. 3rd time round.. the vet stitched up his eye again.. haizz.. the vet said we got to separate lizzie and OO.. coz everitime the eye popped out, its a realie painful experience for OO.. thn they put him under anesthia. sayin he will be slpin the enture nite.. but thn ermm.. maybe tis is his third time, it didnt realie wrk on him.. whn i was rushed home frm wrk, his actualie bouncing ard, like nth the matter.. but aniwae, hope he can get well soon, it realie hurt m heart to see my little one like tat..

10plus now, ans xiang is already slpin on my bed.. not exactly on my bed, but he got my pillows and blankie.. EVERITING... well, but thn i cant disturb him, coz his not feelin well tonite.. tats why his stayin over.. duno if his goin wrk tml anot..

ermm.. so long didnt write, like got so much to sae.. aniwae, hope everione had a fantastic xmas and a happie new year.. xmas i got a pair of diamond earings frm xiang.. and i've got him a fossil watch.. he was just tellin mi his sis said the watch is nice, so means i got good taste..

haizz.. shall not continue.. goin to off my comp, and go bed.. see if i can squeeze in beside him anot, didnt haf a good nite slp last nite as OO puke in my room last nite, i woke up at 4am to clear the room and all.. nitez pple.. and its my whale whale bdae tml.. hope i can remember to sms him a happie bdae. but thn just in case i forget, i shall offer up to him my best wishes here..

Happie Birthdae WhaleWhale!!!

12th December 2004

At 3.26pm, my grandpa passed awae.. He was admitted into the hospital last wednesdae, coz his not feeling well.. tings went okie, till fridae.. he went into a coma in fridae, and all the wae till sundae, wher he never woke up..

sad.. i am realie sad.. tis is the first time i lost sumone so close to mi.. even thou among all my grandparents, his the most distant to mi. but thn its still hard to let go..

i arrived at the hospital, the doctor has already removed all the equipment which makes him hang on.. coz his breathing is getin weaker, its a choice to either go to icu, wher they will need to use more equipment, poke more pins in him.. and he will at most hang on till nite. Or, to let him go.

So when he go, its a peaceful one.. no pain, no nth.. so slowly, his breathing becums weaker, and weaker, before it stop, and his heart beat getin slower and slower.. till it stops.

ever since his in the hospital since wed, my granny refues to go see him.. even thou after he went into the coma, and tings dun look brite.. tink she already more or less knws wats goin to happen.. maybe they do haf tat 6th sense.. his no matter wat, her soul mate for more thn half a decade. so on sundae, she went dwn to see him.. and tat makes it the last time shes goin to see him alife. it seems like his hangin on for the past few daes for her sake. not wating to let go, till she has cum to see him.. at times, its realie not up to u to believe anot in this will power stuff.. after the doc has plucked out all the equipment frm him, she left the room, and set rite outside the room.. once she left the ward, he aso left..

4 daes has passed since.. i am at the wake everidae.. mondae and tues i got half dae leave, compliments frm my boss.. and wed to fridae i will be on compassionate leave.. so everidae after wrk, i will head dwn to my granny place, and will stay ther till late.. i was ther overnite last nite, w/o slp.. u knw wat.. its alwaes after whn sumting precious is gone, onli thn u will knw how to missed and appreciate it. i regretted not tokin to him more whn his ard.. coz i was never realie close to him, i alwaes shun awae frm him whn he try tokin to mi.. coz i alwaes feel tat ther is no common topic betwn us, and i alwaes got the impression tat his veri strict. bt thn i realie regret it nw.. and after much tinkin, the onli memories i haf with him is a pair of snoopy shoes..

tml will be the dae wher he will be cremeted.. i haf been on and off cryin for the past few daes.. whn sumting triggers mi off.. like whn my granny started singin and cryin.. whn she does tat, noone ard can ctrl their tears.. i guess i will need to pack more tissue tml.. i am realie realie realie upset bout it.. will need to wake up earli tml to see him off for his last trip.. so i goin slp nw liao, didnt slp at all last nite, so feelin tired liao..

Okie, todae is sundae.. i had to wrk half dae yesterdae.. and after wrk xiang came pick mi up frm wrk, after lunch went his hse slp.. slp liao thn he sent mi home, thn he came stay over.. and todae, we aso spent the whole dae slpin.. realie loh.. duno wat got into the 2 of us.. we were just slpin the entire wkend.. tink both of us were just too tired frm wrk.. and all the rushin ard during the wkedaes..

aniwae.. kingsmen was not as good as i tink.. i realie regret leavin DTZ.. haizz.. sat first dae see my boss, coz he out of town mah.. his actualie quite firece, as i was expecting.. his the guy who interviewed mi tat dae.. haizz.. and as expected, the environment ther was realie not as good loh.. i realie regret.. i am definatley the youngest in my department, and i totally cant click with the pple ther.. not tat they are unfrewnly or wat, i got pple to go out for lunch with everidae.. but thn its just not rite loh, and i realie cannot explain why.. last wed, first dae of wrk, and sowly by fridae i already knw my wae ard beta, and i will slowly try to find my wae ard.. coz its like totally noone care wat i doin like tat de.. its like they just leave mi ther with wrk, thn they will teach mi. so u knw de lah, whn it cums to wrk.. thers no formula for it de mah.. u teach mi like tat.. but thn ther will alwaes be cases tat are diff de.. so i slowly go figure it out myself loh.. thn do liao let thm check, thn redo and redo.. its like aso noone realie cares hw much paper i haf waste by printin and printin it all over again.. and noone aso realie concern by my output tat dae.. thn sat my boss came in.. first time see mi, didnt even nicely greet mi like tat.. like i am here is veri li suo dang ran de liek tat.. i mean at least welcum mi abit mah rite..

haizz.. how?? who can tell mi wat to do?? shall i just resigned??

My temp job at DTZ ended yesterdae.. I was feelin kinda sad over it, as i got veri used to the wrk and staffs ther.. its like ermm.. its onli a week, and i feel so i am so one of it.. aniwae, helen(my boss) told mi the door is alwaes open for mi. shld i not like it ther, i am alwaes welcum back to DTZ.. and on the last dae, she gave mi a gift set frm body shop, and i happen to pass by body shop yest, and tat set cost ard 30bucks.. haizz.. she's realie a veri nice boss.. thou its onli a short 2 wks, but thn i actualie kinda missed her..

todae, i started my new job at kingsmen.. ermm.. actualie as expected, the staffs ther is realie not tat nice loh.. i tink i am once again, the youngest in the company. i see noone my age, they all look like they are in their mid 30s to 40s.. those uncles and aunties like tat.. haizz.. so its actualie kinda sianzz.. so i am actualie regretin leavin DTZ.. they are offerin the same pay, but thn wrkin hrs wise, DTZ is lesser.. its like onli 9am to 5.30 durin the wkdaes, and its 5daes wrk.. whick kingsmen is 8.30 to 5.30 and its 5half alt.. so nxt year i might even haf to gif up my p/t job.. its like realie sianzz loh..

The Singapore Idol just ended.. sad to sae, tat stupid sissy malay won.. haizz.. and after the show ended, i came into the rm, onli to discovered tat i left my hp at xiang's hse.. angry angry.. i mean i am already like damn sianz in the new office. and imagine i will be w/o hp tml.. so tat will make my life even more sianzz.. why like tat........

Okie.. It has been quite sum time since i updated my blog.. Much has happened lately.. like since my last update, i actualie found a temp job.. its at Debenham.. its a property firm, actualie its a pretty big organization, my wrkin location is at the toa payoh hdb hub.. which is aso quite near my hse with 2 direct bus.. i haf been ther for less thn 2 weeks, but thn i went MIA for 2 daes liao.. coz rite after i started wrk, i found a new job..

My new job is at kingsmen.. they are a events and exhibition planning company.. ermm.. i tink so lah. but thn its a damn big company.. one of the big players in the feild.. so ermm.. hehe~* quite happie lah.. pay higher thn SWS lah.. tats for sure, and job scope is similar to SWs, but thn tat guy who interviewed mi said other thn wat i did last time, they will be a purchasing role aso.. which i tink its goin to be damn interestin loh.. coz its a post wher all vendors will wan knw u, and all sales will keep cumin to u.. hehe~*

so i resigned my temp job on mondae, mia on tuesdae, thn todae went back to wrk.. thn my head told mi tat she wan to keep mi.. so she offered mi 1.5k, ask mi to consider stay.. ermm.. actualie quite temptin.. coz its like ther wrkin hrs is frm 9 to 5.30pm.. mon to fridae.. but thn in terms of prospect, definatley cannot be compared to kingsmen (frm nw i see is like tat lah..) so aniwae, she ask mi to consider her offer loh.. haizz.. kingsmen is 5half alt.. so means i cannot wrk my part time nxt year liao.. so haizz.. duno lah.. haven get my bonus yet.. no matter wat haf to find waes get my bonues in first.. hehe~*

xmas cumin.. in a mth time.. so fast hor.. i start my xmas shopin liao.. realie looking forward to xmas leh.. duno if xiang have plan aniting for us anot.. xmas will be our first year together.. actualie tis year realie fly.. actualie in fact daes seems to be flyin past as we grow older.. so b4 we knw it, all old liao.. haizz..

ah ben, huiyu's boss in sws sms mi todae.. askin mi for address.. his getin married on the 22nd of december.. and his invitin us to his weddin dinner.. i am realie excited bout it loh.. coz tis means i will get to see alot of my ex-colleauges.. heng by thn i already got a full time decent job.. so at least u knw u knw.. hehe~*

and tis sat, will be my last lesson at morris allen.. so fast, the sch term is cumin to an end liao.. its time to sae our good byes to the teachers.. actualie as times goes, i am realie getin veri used to them.. they are realie all veri nice pple.. so haizz.. with their departure, i will sure miss them..

tml goin wrk again.. damn sian.. tml after wrk meetin qian and andrea at tamp buy prezzie for karen.. thn fridae got dinner with the poly gers.. tink they goin eat ramen.. thn sat celebrate karen's bdae.. so means tat in tis 3 daes time, i might not be able to see xiang.. recentli like keep quarreling with him leh.. duno why.. duno issit mi or issit him.. but thn i aso dun wna like tat de.. why he cannot sensitive abit, thn be nicer to mi abit mroe.. idiot de leh him..

Just reached home.. so damn tired.. actualie much haf happened this 2 weeks.. ermm.. i more or less packed up my room, thou its still in a total mess, changed a new cpu with the help of esther and jere, and aso xiang (he helped to carry the stuff home..) and yesterdae, spent an hour sending out resume, got a call bout 2hrs later, and got a new job in the nxt 2hrs.. so yar.. i will be startin wrk nxt tuesdae.. actualie i cant realie remember wat was written on the job scope, coz everiting came in such a hurry..

todae went to do morris allan, my tat part time.. thn my supervisor linda, fake an mc as tml is hari raya liao, her new year.. so i was like left alone to die.. i was like damn busy the entire dae, but i manage to slog it tru.. and tml, i need to go help out at the jurong east branch.. abit regret agreein to it loh.. but thn haizz.. wat to do.. after getin the new cpu, abit heart ache, so gota do sumting to my 4eva decreasin bank account..

so todae after a long at dae at wrk, thn went to peishan's 21st bdae party at sunset bay.. ermm.. maybe due to the just past rain, the turn out rate is actualie pretty bad.. but thn ermm.. yar.. i took the car out.. and on the wae back i quarrel with xiang. and we left in unhappiness.. i realie hate it whn he kept screamin at mi whn he tinks i am like too near a curb or too near another car.. yar, i mean he haf to tell mi. but thn the wae his tellin mi, or should i sae screamin at mi, is actualie drivin mi nuts.. it not onli makes mi feel damn scare, which i am actualie already feelin.. i mean i aso will get a fright de.. and at times, frm my point of view its actualie save.. his at the passenger seat, so wat he sees it diff mah.. but thn all i can sae is in terms of all these, i tink his not understanding enuff.. he himself aso startin drivin a year ago.. surely he can understand wat am i feelin. he is simply makin mi feel worst. i hate to drive whn his ard now.

i am not goin to compromise on tis. if his not cumin to cum apologise, thn i rather never to tok again.. damn angry..

aniwae.. tired. i wan slp liao.. update again in sum other dae ba~*
good nitezz pple.. wonder how is life in SWS now..