Todae is 18th august 2004, Wednesdae. time is 6.24pm. I am still in the office, waiting for xiang to cum pick mi up frm wrk..
and i am feelin damn miserable.. not realie miserable lah.. just tat i am unhapie loh.. nth goes rite todae tat feelin loh.. just dun feel good loh.. in a damn bad mood todae. damn low morale.. i duno how to express wat i am feelin now. and i aso duno how i wan to be comforted.. maybe a tub of ice cream will do mi good ba..
sad.. realie sad. suddenli got the mood to wan resigned again.. the urge to leave once and for all is strong.. veri strong.. who can help mi? who can rescue mi frm all tis??
Wednesday, August 18, 2004
Tuesday, August 03, 2004
Tribute to Mr Quah.
This will be an entry for Mt Quah.
I duno how old is he, but i guess he have devoted majority of his life to education. To St Anthony's Convent.
News of his death really cums as a surprise. I dun understand how can a P.E. teacher as healthy as him will lose his life to aniting. He moved on yesterday, 2nd August 2004. I don't knw how old is he, but definately not a young chap animore.. Alot of ex-sacians turn up at his wake yesterdae. and i believe more will turn up the following 4 days as the news spread.
Mr Quah, my memory of him brings mi back to the old SAC at Middle Road. Back thn when we have the century old building, and haf to share the canteen with the secondary school(i was still a primay one student back in 1990). In the middle of out canteen was the tennis court. and tat was his prized tennis sch team training ground. the gers will be training, with him monitoring thm, correctin heir moves. he was alwaes a strict teacher, so students alwaes live in fear ard him. But deep dwn, everione knows even thou he pose out a strict and nasty front, but deep dwn he cares for everi student in his care.
He is the one teacher that everi SAC ger will ask whn meet together. Even whn i go over to huishan's hse, her sis(who is about 13 years my senior) will ask mi how is Mr Quah, is he still teaching in SAc and stuff liek tat.. He has became a symbol of SAC in everi sacian. Even for those that were not directly under his care and all.
Looking at him yest, lying in the coffin.. bring tears to my eye. but I hold on my tears, as his a catholic. I believed he haf entered God's embrace, and haf moved onto the nxt step of his life. But i reallie feel so sad knowing his existance on earth is gone. he has lost majority of his hair, and wat remain is just a few wismp of white hair.. his face looks so pale, so old. Its reallie different frm wat it is 5 years ago, frm wat i last seen him.
So this will be the last tribute to Mr Quah.
This will be an entry for Mt Quah.
I duno how old is he, but i guess he have devoted majority of his life to education. To St Anthony's Convent.
News of his death really cums as a surprise. I dun understand how can a P.E. teacher as healthy as him will lose his life to aniting. He moved on yesterday, 2nd August 2004. I don't knw how old is he, but definately not a young chap animore.. Alot of ex-sacians turn up at his wake yesterdae. and i believe more will turn up the following 4 days as the news spread.
Mr Quah, my memory of him brings mi back to the old SAC at Middle Road. Back thn when we have the century old building, and haf to share the canteen with the secondary school(i was still a primay one student back in 1990). In the middle of out canteen was the tennis court. and tat was his prized tennis sch team training ground. the gers will be training, with him monitoring thm, correctin heir moves. he was alwaes a strict teacher, so students alwaes live in fear ard him. But deep dwn, everione knows even thou he pose out a strict and nasty front, but deep dwn he cares for everi student in his care.
He is the one teacher that everi SAC ger will ask whn meet together. Even whn i go over to huishan's hse, her sis(who is about 13 years my senior) will ask mi how is Mr Quah, is he still teaching in SAc and stuff liek tat.. He has became a symbol of SAC in everi sacian. Even for those that were not directly under his care and all.
Looking at him yest, lying in the coffin.. bring tears to my eye. but I hold on my tears, as his a catholic. I believed he haf entered God's embrace, and haf moved onto the nxt step of his life. But i reallie feel so sad knowing his existance on earth is gone. he has lost majority of his hair, and wat remain is just a few wismp of white hair.. his face looks so pale, so old. Its reallie different frm wat it is 5 years ago, frm wat i last seen him.
So this will be the last tribute to Mr Quah.
Monday, August 02, 2004
Dear blog,
Its mi again. Todae is mondae, first mondae of august. And actualie as my last entry was sayin, i wanted to update my blog on my bdae de.. but thn seems like i realie dun haf time for it.. recentli i am like damn busy, with wrk, with xiang, with everiting.. so its realie hard to find time for all these updating stuff.. but thn as tis is my 21st bdae, i realie hope to spare sum time, as memories loh..
so on tat dae, i actualie haf OT till ard 2plus 3pm.. so after tat xiang was waiting for mi outside my company to pick mi up.. thn after i went home, thn pack my stuff for the chalet. actualie its my big dae, but thn to a certain extend i was totali un-prepared for it. like my clothes and all. i just grab wat i see.. so i went to ntuc with xiang, to buy some of the bbq food.. thn we went dwn to Aranda liao. whn i reach all my aunties were ther liao.. thn the cathering food aso came in. thn they were settin up the fire for the bbq.. actualie ther's actualie quite alot of food leh.. like the bbq got fish, satay otah and my fav crab meat and others.. thn the cathering aso not bad lah, thou i didnt realie haf the chance to eat it..
the crowd was great.. actualie quite alot of pple turn up.. but thn i guess i was a pretty bad host. i knw i left quite alot of pple out.. my poly frewns the whole big bunch of thm came with maocheng and amos. andrea and qian they all came.. sec sch a few of thm came.. even ade so gif face, she aso came dwn.. thn well, ermm.. she looks fine lah. i haf to sae she's realie blessed with a pretty face.. and who else.. huishan huifeng they all came dwn.. and serene loh.. my primary sch bunch came.. and who else.. let mi see.. hengheng came.. banming aso came.. yz aso came.. and i tink still got others.. thanks so much kae everione.. realie too long a list for mi to list it out one by one.. but thn its all their presence tat make it a success.. oh yar.. xiuhong came too.. and u knw wat, i tink i didnt see her since we grad frm sch. so its realie nice to see her loh.. imagine its 4years after we left sec sch.. realie a rare opportunity loh.. to see everione.
and i simply love my cake. its realie realie pretty. i will try to upload the pics here. the pics still in the camera.. hehe, no time to go transfer it to the comp. actualie i realie like the cake alot alot .. i took alot of pics with it.. and i tink i look pretty in the pics.. hehe~* my hair realie ting hua tat dae.. i realie hada damn good hair dae.. tat realie falls damn nicely in place.. so its realie a perfect party. i mean i am realie happie..
prezzie~* i recieved alot of prezzie.. among which my fav is the one frm xiang.. my darling actualie gang up with huiyu, they went to buy the diamond pendent tat i once mention to ah ger tat i like it. its a butterfly pendent.. its realie pretty, and i am wearin it since.. and ah ger they all got my a white gold braclet.. which they ask mi to wear it, so i am still wearin it till now.. and esther they all got mi a Guess watch.. its a veri veri pretty watch, look damn class and all.. and oh yar.. tis is another of my fav, a LV voucher. huili and my tommy they all got mi the LV voucher.. hehe~* huili understand mi the best. so the following dae i used the voucher to buy the LV coin pouch, which i have been wanting for years.. aniwae, tommy they all aso came.. tink i didnt mention it earlier on.. and andrea they all got mi a bikini.. which is like 100over bucks.. the size doesnt for mi aniwae, so i went back to flash and splash and exchanged it for a yellow bikini and a board shorts.. the list will go on and on.. i realie got qutie alot of stuff.. and i realie love it pple.. thank you sooo much~*
so the poly pple stayed over nite with mi loh.. the chalet was realie great.. it was big, andhad 2 bathrooms.. its realie nice. huili they all played mahjong halfwae tru the nite, while i went to slp.. i was realie tired.. thn i guess they actualie played PS2 till the nxt morn with my brother..
thn we went for macdonald breakfast together, thn went back to chalet for the mahjong.. while xiang went back to my hse to pick up my bikini.. coz we wan go to the wild wild wet.. hehe~* its fun~* realie nice if you go with a grp of frewns loh.. so we went to played almost all the rides ther.. amocheng was so funnie.. he realie damn entertaining.. recentli he veri into our class gathering. but thn his a nice guy. like his company.. before he go dwn the "blackhole", he still put his hand up in the air and went, " yoo hoo~*" and all the nonsense.. so its realie nice to haf him ard at times like tis..
so after tat, everione was so tired, thn went bac to the chalet for a nap.. so they left one by one, left mi and xiang.. finalli we had sum time to ourself.. and tat marks the end of my 3dae 2 nite bdae celebration. and thank you everione, its coz u pple which make my bdae celebration a success. i realie had a memorable 21st bdae owning to you all~* thanks!!
*PS* i realie love my cake.
Its mi again. Todae is mondae, first mondae of august. And actualie as my last entry was sayin, i wanted to update my blog on my bdae de.. but thn seems like i realie dun haf time for it.. recentli i am like damn busy, with wrk, with xiang, with everiting.. so its realie hard to find time for all these updating stuff.. but thn as tis is my 21st bdae, i realie hope to spare sum time, as memories loh..
so on tat dae, i actualie haf OT till ard 2plus 3pm.. so after tat xiang was waiting for mi outside my company to pick mi up.. thn after i went home, thn pack my stuff for the chalet. actualie its my big dae, but thn to a certain extend i was totali un-prepared for it. like my clothes and all. i just grab wat i see.. so i went to ntuc with xiang, to buy some of the bbq food.. thn we went dwn to Aranda liao. whn i reach all my aunties were ther liao.. thn the cathering food aso came in. thn they were settin up the fire for the bbq.. actualie ther's actualie quite alot of food leh.. like the bbq got fish, satay otah and my fav crab meat and others.. thn the cathering aso not bad lah, thou i didnt realie haf the chance to eat it..
the crowd was great.. actualie quite alot of pple turn up.. but thn i guess i was a pretty bad host. i knw i left quite alot of pple out.. my poly frewns the whole big bunch of thm came with maocheng and amos. andrea and qian they all came.. sec sch a few of thm came.. even ade so gif face, she aso came dwn.. thn well, ermm.. she looks fine lah. i haf to sae she's realie blessed with a pretty face.. and who else.. huishan huifeng they all came dwn.. and serene loh.. my primary sch bunch came.. and who else.. let mi see.. hengheng came.. banming aso came.. yz aso came.. and i tink still got others.. thanks so much kae everione.. realie too long a list for mi to list it out one by one.. but thn its all their presence tat make it a success.. oh yar.. xiuhong came too.. and u knw wat, i tink i didnt see her since we grad frm sch. so its realie nice to see her loh.. imagine its 4years after we left sec sch.. realie a rare opportunity loh.. to see everione.
and i simply love my cake. its realie realie pretty. i will try to upload the pics here. the pics still in the camera.. hehe, no time to go transfer it to the comp. actualie i realie like the cake alot alot .. i took alot of pics with it.. and i tink i look pretty in the pics.. hehe~* my hair realie ting hua tat dae.. i realie hada damn good hair dae.. tat realie falls damn nicely in place.. so its realie a perfect party. i mean i am realie happie..
prezzie~* i recieved alot of prezzie.. among which my fav is the one frm xiang.. my darling actualie gang up with huiyu, they went to buy the diamond pendent tat i once mention to ah ger tat i like it. its a butterfly pendent.. its realie pretty, and i am wearin it since.. and ah ger they all got my a white gold braclet.. which they ask mi to wear it, so i am still wearin it till now.. and esther they all got mi a Guess watch.. its a veri veri pretty watch, look damn class and all.. and oh yar.. tis is another of my fav, a LV voucher. huili and my tommy they all got mi the LV voucher.. hehe~* huili understand mi the best. so the following dae i used the voucher to buy the LV coin pouch, which i have been wanting for years.. aniwae, tommy they all aso came.. tink i didnt mention it earlier on.. and andrea they all got mi a bikini.. which is like 100over bucks.. the size doesnt for mi aniwae, so i went back to flash and splash and exchanged it for a yellow bikini and a board shorts.. the list will go on and on.. i realie got qutie alot of stuff.. and i realie love it pple.. thank you sooo much~*
so the poly pple stayed over nite with mi loh.. the chalet was realie great.. it was big, andhad 2 bathrooms.. its realie nice. huili they all played mahjong halfwae tru the nite, while i went to slp.. i was realie tired.. thn i guess they actualie played PS2 till the nxt morn with my brother..
thn we went for macdonald breakfast together, thn went back to chalet for the mahjong.. while xiang went back to my hse to pick up my bikini.. coz we wan go to the wild wild wet.. hehe~* its fun~* realie nice if you go with a grp of frewns loh.. so we went to played almost all the rides ther.. amocheng was so funnie.. he realie damn entertaining.. recentli he veri into our class gathering. but thn his a nice guy. like his company.. before he go dwn the "blackhole", he still put his hand up in the air and went, " yoo hoo~*" and all the nonsense.. so its realie nice to haf him ard at times like tis..
so after tat, everione was so tired, thn went bac to the chalet for a nap.. so they left one by one, left mi and xiang.. finalli we had sum time to ourself.. and tat marks the end of my 3dae 2 nite bdae celebration. and thank you everione, its coz u pple which make my bdae celebration a success. i realie had a memorable 21st bdae owning to you all~* thanks!!
*PS* i realie love my cake.
Wednesday, July 28, 2004
Todae is 28th July.. tml is my bdae.. actualie wanted to sae how hapie i am durin my bdae party and all my stupid wishes for my 21st bdae.. but thn sum idiot stuff happen todae and totaly, utterly dampen my mood.
todae is the freaking dae tat i took my drivin test.. and as the weather is, todae is realie a bad dae.. the stupid sky like wan rain dun wan rain like tat.. rain abit thn stop abit.. see liao aso sian. dun even knw if my wipper shld be on or off.. damn idiotic loh.. so well.. i fail. 2nd time liao. damn low morale now. why like tat.. if u seein wat i'm typin now, thn DUN EAT MY ICE CREAM~!
haizz.. i fail. i fail i fail i fail...... how?? duno. retake loh. damn sian. tml my bdae and i hafta go bac to wrk.. i aso duno i sian and unhapie bout wat.. but thn i realie dun like the idea of failin.. its a total waste of money and time. i realie hate sacrificing everi sundae of mine goin dwn for tat 2hr lesson.. waste of money and time. let mi sae it again. waste of my precious money and time. the timing aso in the middle of nowher like tat.. thn my sundae gone. why did i fail.. the tester tat i had was actualie a nice man. cant remember his name.. but thn his a jolly old man. maybe not tat old lah.. late 40s to late 50s like tat..
damn sian.. DUN EAT MY ICE CREAM~*~*~* aniwae.. sum ice cream theif beside mi. so i shall stop here.. tml i shall continue in the office.. if i am free.. i can actualie see my mountainous load of wrk.. duno how many hundreds of unread emails waitin for mi.. why i so bad life.. and guess wat?? tml is my bdae.. and tat ice cream theif just reminded mi how hapie was my chalet.. hw nice was my bdae party.. oh yar.. i love my cake. i had a damn wonderful cake.. maybe i shall figure out how to post a pic here.. and i shall show the world how simply WONDERFUL and BEAUTIFUL is my cake.
ending here. HAPIE BIRTHDAE to MI~~~~*
todae is the freaking dae tat i took my drivin test.. and as the weather is, todae is realie a bad dae.. the stupid sky like wan rain dun wan rain like tat.. rain abit thn stop abit.. see liao aso sian. dun even knw if my wipper shld be on or off.. damn idiotic loh.. so well.. i fail. 2nd time liao. damn low morale now. why like tat.. if u seein wat i'm typin now, thn DUN EAT MY ICE CREAM~!
haizz.. i fail. i fail i fail i fail...... how?? duno. retake loh. damn sian. tml my bdae and i hafta go bac to wrk.. i aso duno i sian and unhapie bout wat.. but thn i realie dun like the idea of failin.. its a total waste of money and time. i realie hate sacrificing everi sundae of mine goin dwn for tat 2hr lesson.. waste of money and time. let mi sae it again. waste of my precious money and time. the timing aso in the middle of nowher like tat.. thn my sundae gone. why did i fail.. the tester tat i had was actualie a nice man. cant remember his name.. but thn his a jolly old man. maybe not tat old lah.. late 40s to late 50s like tat..
damn sian.. DUN EAT MY ICE CREAM~*~*~* aniwae.. sum ice cream theif beside mi. so i shall stop here.. tml i shall continue in the office.. if i am free.. i can actualie see my mountainous load of wrk.. duno how many hundreds of unread emails waitin for mi.. why i so bad life.. and guess wat?? tml is my bdae.. and tat ice cream theif just reminded mi how hapie was my chalet.. hw nice was my bdae party.. oh yar.. i love my cake. i had a damn wonderful cake.. maybe i shall figure out how to post a pic here.. and i shall show the world how simply WONDERFUL and BEAUTIFUL is my cake.
ending here. HAPIE BIRTHDAE to MI~~~~*
Monday, July 19, 2004
Dear Blog,
Todae is mondae.. 19th July. Its 10daes awae frm my bdae. so exciting leh.. went to my granny's hse last nite, to celebrate huimin's bdae.. i bought her a winnie the pooh watch and a skirt. the skirt is so pretty, but thn tink its too small for her liao.. haizz.. yest i spend quite alot of time shoppin at isetan after my drivin lesson, to shop for her prezzie.. actualie kiids realie got veriveri pretty clothes leh.. so nxt time realie must haf a ger. their stuff nicer.. i can everidae brin my ger go shopin, i wan doll her up like a princess.. hehe~*
thn at my granny's hse, thn they discuss bout the food to order.. and seems like i've got to pay for it.. haizz.. tis mth is realie a tite mth for mi.. cake i aso order liao.. i order the cake which among all i like best.. but thn its damn big.. so i scare cannot finish leh.. but thn nemind lah.. actualie tis mth is realie a bad mth for my financial.. i got the food to pay, and aso my driving.. and i already spend 200over on my hair.. xiang is goin to pay the cake for mi.. but thn i still veri broke.. so i tink high chances is end of the mth my drivin test he will haf to pay aso..
well, dun tok bout money liao. hehe~* bdae cumin wor.. reallie excited bout it leh.. duno how to express it out.. realie lookin forward to tis sat.. especialli the long holis tat is goin to follow.. i took leave all the wae to 29th july.. can realie take a nice long break liao.. hehe~*
these couple of weeks, alot of pple cum ask mi wat i wan for my bdae.. so hapie.. i mean its the tot tat counts loh.. even if its just askin.. but thn best is prezzie aso cum lah.. tis year i didnt prepare ani wish list.. maybe wat i wan most is cash.. hehe~* ermm.. so wat i wan.. see if i am able to tink of a wish list b4 i fang gong.. time is 2.05pm now.. cum to tink of it, its realie not easy..
time : 4.10pm.. actualie funny leh.. nowadaes my time passes faster.. even if i got nth to do in the office.. it used to be horrible.. these couple of weeks is realie hectic for mi.. now tis sudden peace, i abit not used to it.. last thursdae i even stay in office till 10.45pm thn leave office.. did i mention tat my boss sent mi home.. in his BMW convertable.. hehe~* first time sit BM convertable.. and he sent mi all the wae to my hse.. the feelin so good.. tat car realie nice.. pick up speed damn fast. damn comfy leh.. hehe~* OT aso worth it..
todae goin dinner the raymond.. his not goin to my bdae party, so he asked mi out for dinner todae to make it up.. so todae not meetin xiang.. i got the urge wan go amk eat tat prwan noodle leh.. tat prawn noodle so damn nice.. i strongly intro u go eat.. its at the S21 tat kopi tiam ther.. prawn noodle soup.. its 3bucks.. but thn got 2 veri big prawns.. i realie like it.. tml i will go eat with xiang.. hehe~*
Todae is mondae.. 19th July. Its 10daes awae frm my bdae. so exciting leh.. went to my granny's hse last nite, to celebrate huimin's bdae.. i bought her a winnie the pooh watch and a skirt. the skirt is so pretty, but thn tink its too small for her liao.. haizz.. yest i spend quite alot of time shoppin at isetan after my drivin lesson, to shop for her prezzie.. actualie kiids realie got veriveri pretty clothes leh.. so nxt time realie must haf a ger. their stuff nicer.. i can everidae brin my ger go shopin, i wan doll her up like a princess.. hehe~*
thn at my granny's hse, thn they discuss bout the food to order.. and seems like i've got to pay for it.. haizz.. tis mth is realie a tite mth for mi.. cake i aso order liao.. i order the cake which among all i like best.. but thn its damn big.. so i scare cannot finish leh.. but thn nemind lah.. actualie tis mth is realie a bad mth for my financial.. i got the food to pay, and aso my driving.. and i already spend 200over on my hair.. xiang is goin to pay the cake for mi.. but thn i still veri broke.. so i tink high chances is end of the mth my drivin test he will haf to pay aso..
well, dun tok bout money liao. hehe~* bdae cumin wor.. reallie excited bout it leh.. duno how to express it out.. realie lookin forward to tis sat.. especialli the long holis tat is goin to follow.. i took leave all the wae to 29th july.. can realie take a nice long break liao.. hehe~*
these couple of weeks, alot of pple cum ask mi wat i wan for my bdae.. so hapie.. i mean its the tot tat counts loh.. even if its just askin.. but thn best is prezzie aso cum lah.. tis year i didnt prepare ani wish list.. maybe wat i wan most is cash.. hehe~* ermm.. so wat i wan.. see if i am able to tink of a wish list b4 i fang gong.. time is 2.05pm now.. cum to tink of it, its realie not easy..
time : 4.10pm.. actualie funny leh.. nowadaes my time passes faster.. even if i got nth to do in the office.. it used to be horrible.. these couple of weeks is realie hectic for mi.. now tis sudden peace, i abit not used to it.. last thursdae i even stay in office till 10.45pm thn leave office.. did i mention tat my boss sent mi home.. in his BMW convertable.. hehe~* first time sit BM convertable.. and he sent mi all the wae to my hse.. the feelin so good.. tat car realie nice.. pick up speed damn fast. damn comfy leh.. hehe~* OT aso worth it..
todae goin dinner the raymond.. his not goin to my bdae party, so he asked mi out for dinner todae to make it up.. so todae not meetin xiang.. i got the urge wan go amk eat tat prwan noodle leh.. tat prawn noodle so damn nice.. i strongly intro u go eat.. its at the S21 tat kopi tiam ther.. prawn noodle soup.. its 3bucks.. but thn got 2 veri big prawns.. i realie like it.. tml i will go eat with xiang.. hehe~*
Saturday, July 03, 2004
Dear Blog,
Todae is such a boring dae.. i alwaes hate cumin to wrk on a sat.. till now raymond(my boss) haf not cum in yet.. realie hate it whn he alwaes cums in ard 11plus, thn load mi so much wrk thn i need to OT de.. sat leh.. his GF air stewardess, so alwaes flyin ard, not in singapore, so he can afford to be workaholic abit.. but thn i different mah.. i got alot of commitments to make mah.. like i got 2 cutie doggies waitin for mi at home.. haha.. sae till so ... like tat.. but thn nemind nemind..
now 10.25am onli.. still got 2hr more to go.. raymond ah raymond, if you wan, thn cum in now.. if not thn dun cum liao hor.. actualie got 2 tools i need to start by todae.. but thn the database haf not been comfirmed yet.. and w/o him ard, i aso cant start the tool.. scarli use sala database thn jia lat liao.. but thn if dun start todae, i aso scare will miss the dateline leh.. how huh.. so contridicting leh.. haizz.. nemind lah.. aso cant help it.. pple dun wan gimi database i aso lanlan ah..
todae 3rd july liao leh.. in 20 daes time, i will be celebrating my bdae.. actualie i gettin excited.. but thn still got alot of tings not settled yet.. like food and cake.. *oh shit.. the time now is 10.42am, and i recieve the first email frm my boss.. in another word he just woke up.. and chances his cumin in is damn high.. and lookin at the time, he will cum in ard 12plus.. omg!!* yar..as i was sayin, i haf not got all the bdae stuff intact.. actualie i aso duno wat shld i do.. aniwae, i decided to get the angie the choice bigbig key cake.. they all told mi i happie can liao.. and my poly frewns say they will comfirm finish the last bit of everi everiting.. hehe~* so i will order tat 180plus cake.. i mean i am onli 21st once, so spend abit nemind lah hor.. hehe~* thn by end of nxt week, i need to get the list of pple cumin ready, thn let my auntie knw the total amount of pple cumin so we can start order the food, and aso i haf to start plannin wat food to take.. hehe~* thn after tat meet ah-jo go order the cake.. hehe~* hope tat it will be a completed success.. realie hate those pple who last min last min thn tell mi cant make it and all de.. i mean alot of effort and time are put into it loh.. so its a matter of how u goin to appreciate it loh..
yar.. see more mails frm my boss, thn it stopped.. means he go prepare and all liao. so i tink by 12noon he will cum in.. alwaes like tat de.. todae to mi lah, its a no plan dae.. mummy will not be in town.. so tonite will be home alone.. actualie aso will not alone lah.. got OO and lizzie to accompany mi mah.. hehe~* with my 2 bao beis ard, my nite will never be alone.. yar.. todae xiang sae wan go gym.. but thn i tink high chances is i will be too tired and dun wan go.. or maybe we can go swim leh.. the weather seems not bad leh.. i shld start to excercise abit liao.. getin fatter n fatter liao.. or maybe i shld go do my hair.. wkdaes got tat promo realie is cheap.. but thn to get leave frm raymond is IMPOSSIBLE~* so i decided to try maybe jeanyip or sumting.. i might go ask a few saloon, get the price and see which falls in the 200plus abit range.. well, but all these can onli be done whn i'm not in a lazy mood later loh.. now 11.28am liao.. the whole mornin actualie i did noting much.. just tryin to clear abit of of paper wrk, which frankli speakin is not much loh.. hehe~*
realie lookin forward to my wkend. tml i will slp in late late.. hehe~* but thn sian lah, tml got drivin lesson.. realie dun like drivin lesson.. hate goin to it sooo much.. hehe~* my database for one of the tooling just came in.. and my boss actualie emailed and acknowledge the customer.. so tis means his still at home.. hehe~* now 11.55am liao, if he still at home means his not cumin in todae liao.. even if he cums in, aso pass 12.30pm liao, thn i aso not ard liao.. tis is one of the best saturdaes i ever had.. in fact tis is quite a pleasent week for mi.. everidae seems to pass pretty smoothly and fast and all..
goin 12noon liao.. 1more min to go.. tink i will post tis up first.. saturdae leh.. i realie cant wait to go home.. hehe~* aniwae todae euro2004 finals. greece vs portugal.. i side bet with ryan tat greece will win.. and loser will haf to pay for an ktv session.. hehe~* so Greece please buck up, and carry on with ur fairytale ba~* dun make m lose a ktv session.. last time i lost a dinner to him liao.. so tis time i dun wan lose a KTv to him again.. hehe~* keep havin a feelin tis half hour will be so damn hard to pass.. duno why.. xiang just woke up, so his not cumin to pick mi up.. well, thn he ask mi go home and wait for him.. sian lah, a sat thn ask mi go home wait.. i knw everi sat my daily routine is either to go his hse napnap or go my hse napnap abit.. but thn haizz.. duno lah..
Todae is such a boring dae.. i alwaes hate cumin to wrk on a sat.. till now raymond(my boss) haf not cum in yet.. realie hate it whn he alwaes cums in ard 11plus, thn load mi so much wrk thn i need to OT de.. sat leh.. his GF air stewardess, so alwaes flyin ard, not in singapore, so he can afford to be workaholic abit.. but thn i different mah.. i got alot of commitments to make mah.. like i got 2 cutie doggies waitin for mi at home.. haha.. sae till so ... like tat.. but thn nemind nemind..
now 10.25am onli.. still got 2hr more to go.. raymond ah raymond, if you wan, thn cum in now.. if not thn dun cum liao hor.. actualie got 2 tools i need to start by todae.. but thn the database haf not been comfirmed yet.. and w/o him ard, i aso cant start the tool.. scarli use sala database thn jia lat liao.. but thn if dun start todae, i aso scare will miss the dateline leh.. how huh.. so contridicting leh.. haizz.. nemind lah.. aso cant help it.. pple dun wan gimi database i aso lanlan ah..
todae 3rd july liao leh.. in 20 daes time, i will be celebrating my bdae.. actualie i gettin excited.. but thn still got alot of tings not settled yet.. like food and cake.. *oh shit.. the time now is 10.42am, and i recieve the first email frm my boss.. in another word he just woke up.. and chances his cumin in is damn high.. and lookin at the time, he will cum in ard 12plus.. omg!!* yar..as i was sayin, i haf not got all the bdae stuff intact.. actualie i aso duno wat shld i do.. aniwae, i decided to get the angie the choice bigbig key cake.. they all told mi i happie can liao.. and my poly frewns say they will comfirm finish the last bit of everi everiting.. hehe~* so i will order tat 180plus cake.. i mean i am onli 21st once, so spend abit nemind lah hor.. hehe~* thn by end of nxt week, i need to get the list of pple cumin ready, thn let my auntie knw the total amount of pple cumin so we can start order the food, and aso i haf to start plannin wat food to take.. hehe~* thn after tat meet ah-jo go order the cake.. hehe~* hope tat it will be a completed success.. realie hate those pple who last min last min thn tell mi cant make it and all de.. i mean alot of effort and time are put into it loh.. so its a matter of how u goin to appreciate it loh..
yar.. see more mails frm my boss, thn it stopped.. means he go prepare and all liao. so i tink by 12noon he will cum in.. alwaes like tat de.. todae to mi lah, its a no plan dae.. mummy will not be in town.. so tonite will be home alone.. actualie aso will not alone lah.. got OO and lizzie to accompany mi mah.. hehe~* with my 2 bao beis ard, my nite will never be alone.. yar.. todae xiang sae wan go gym.. but thn i tink high chances is i will be too tired and dun wan go.. or maybe we can go swim leh.. the weather seems not bad leh.. i shld start to excercise abit liao.. getin fatter n fatter liao.. or maybe i shld go do my hair.. wkdaes got tat promo realie is cheap.. but thn to get leave frm raymond is IMPOSSIBLE~* so i decided to try maybe jeanyip or sumting.. i might go ask a few saloon, get the price and see which falls in the 200plus abit range.. well, but all these can onli be done whn i'm not in a lazy mood later loh.. now 11.28am liao.. the whole mornin actualie i did noting much.. just tryin to clear abit of of paper wrk, which frankli speakin is not much loh.. hehe~*
realie lookin forward to my wkend. tml i will slp in late late.. hehe~* but thn sian lah, tml got drivin lesson.. realie dun like drivin lesson.. hate goin to it sooo much.. hehe~* my database for one of the tooling just came in.. and my boss actualie emailed and acknowledge the customer.. so tis means his still at home.. hehe~* now 11.55am liao, if he still at home means his not cumin in todae liao.. even if he cums in, aso pass 12.30pm liao, thn i aso not ard liao.. tis is one of the best saturdaes i ever had.. in fact tis is quite a pleasent week for mi.. everidae seems to pass pretty smoothly and fast and all..
goin 12noon liao.. 1more min to go.. tink i will post tis up first.. saturdae leh.. i realie cant wait to go home.. hehe~* aniwae todae euro2004 finals. greece vs portugal.. i side bet with ryan tat greece will win.. and loser will haf to pay for an ktv session.. hehe~* so Greece please buck up, and carry on with ur fairytale ba~* dun make m lose a ktv session.. last time i lost a dinner to him liao.. so tis time i dun wan lose a KTv to him again.. hehe~* keep havin a feelin tis half hour will be so damn hard to pass.. duno why.. xiang just woke up, so his not cumin to pick mi up.. well, thn he ask mi go home and wait for him.. sian lah, a sat thn ask mi go home wait.. i knw everi sat my daily routine is either to go his hse napnap or go my hse napnap abit.. but thn haizz.. duno lah..
Tuesday, June 22, 2004
Dear Blog,
Didnt realie haf time to update this for quite sum time. So here am I, tryin to get a few lines in.. Actualie the time now is 3.10pm.. So I guess it will be more thn a few lines.. hehe~* yar.. overall, todae is an okie dae in the office.. my mood still okie.. not too good, and not too bad..
just had abit of arguement with xiang.. Actualie aso not arguement lah, coz didnt even hear his voice.. its just over the sms.. duno wat he wan aso.. i mean i just told him i'm feelin tired.. got that teeny weeny tinny feelin tat i dun wish to go to the poly dinner at scotts todae. thn he actualie sms mi tell mi to make my decision quick and he ended the sms with a Thanks!. this makes mi abit pissed loh.. i mean we haf to be so damn polite to each other meh?? thn i told him i dun like the wae his sms are.. so cold and unfeelin.. thn he replied bac said he dun wan his frewns to be back-up.. like coz he not too sure whether his mtin mi anot.. thn he cant comfirm with his frewns if his mtin thm.. well.. for this i understand.. but thn the wae he said it its like damn polite, damn unfeeling and i simply dislike it. so i replied bac sae nemind loh.. i go or dun go tonite aso my prob. final statement is i not mtin him tonite. so it doenst matter to him if i were goin or not..
well.. todae 22nd liao.. in bout a mth time, will be my bdae tingy liao.. hope all the invited ones will cum.. actualie i aso realie send out the sms to pple to start invitin thm.. last evenin i smsed my sec/pri sch frewns.. actualie quite happie loh.. a few of thm readily agreed to cum, and even offered to help out.. but thn tats the minor.. majority of thm haf not replied.. haizz.. i mean to organsized such stuff needs lotza effort.. i cant be chaing eveione for it. for those who didnt replied and all thn suan le.. i will not waste precious time n effort on these pple de..
so my poly frewn more or less they all knw liao.. colleauges i see thm everydae, so they aso not a prob.. left those frewns.. intend to send the smses over the wkend de.. but thn in the end aso didnt.. nemind.. maybe i will effort abit more, and send it out tis evenin..
feelin damn tired. actualie recentli i felt so damn tired.. i wonder if i am sick or sumting.. realie tink i need plenty of rest.. last sat he came pick mi up frm wrk.. thn i went to his palce and i slpt till ard 5pm.. thn wake up liao aso didnt do aniting thn went home liao.. thn ard 12am i went to bed liao.. so actualie i slept alot mah.. but thn sundae morn he woke mi up at 7plus.. coz he need to make a trip home first.. thn frm thn i wakie till 9plus, he buys mi breakfast thn ard 11 i went bac to slp till 1plus i wakie go bath thn drivin.. but thn i realie dun understand why i still so tired..
feelin like resignin here, thn start all over again. got the feelin tat job is not hard to find now.. so i tink its realie worth a try to get out of here, and start all voer again.. actualie plan to tender in aug.. but thn tink might make it in 1st july.. realie tired liao..
didnt realie write for the past hour or so.. went up to find my Miii and we tok awhile.. well.. the time now is 5.43pm.. time to go bac liao.. and i aso leavin soon liao. but thn nw i duno shld i go home?? or shld i go mt emi they all.. actualie i'm rather lazy, and would realie prefer to go home.. but thn haizz.. already promised the gers i'll be goin dwn liao.. scare they will be angry leh.. howhow?? nemind, let mi tinktink first..
Didnt realie haf time to update this for quite sum time. So here am I, tryin to get a few lines in.. Actualie the time now is 3.10pm.. So I guess it will be more thn a few lines.. hehe~* yar.. overall, todae is an okie dae in the office.. my mood still okie.. not too good, and not too bad..
just had abit of arguement with xiang.. Actualie aso not arguement lah, coz didnt even hear his voice.. its just over the sms.. duno wat he wan aso.. i mean i just told him i'm feelin tired.. got that teeny weeny tinny feelin tat i dun wish to go to the poly dinner at scotts todae. thn he actualie sms mi tell mi to make my decision quick and he ended the sms with a Thanks!. this makes mi abit pissed loh.. i mean we haf to be so damn polite to each other meh?? thn i told him i dun like the wae his sms are.. so cold and unfeelin.. thn he replied bac said he dun wan his frewns to be back-up.. like coz he not too sure whether his mtin mi anot.. thn he cant comfirm with his frewns if his mtin thm.. well.. for this i understand.. but thn the wae he said it its like damn polite, damn unfeeling and i simply dislike it. so i replied bac sae nemind loh.. i go or dun go tonite aso my prob. final statement is i not mtin him tonite. so it doenst matter to him if i were goin or not..
well.. todae 22nd liao.. in bout a mth time, will be my bdae tingy liao.. hope all the invited ones will cum.. actualie i aso realie send out the sms to pple to start invitin thm.. last evenin i smsed my sec/pri sch frewns.. actualie quite happie loh.. a few of thm readily agreed to cum, and even offered to help out.. but thn tats the minor.. majority of thm haf not replied.. haizz.. i mean to organsized such stuff needs lotza effort.. i cant be chaing eveione for it. for those who didnt replied and all thn suan le.. i will not waste precious time n effort on these pple de..
so my poly frewn more or less they all knw liao.. colleauges i see thm everydae, so they aso not a prob.. left those frewns.. intend to send the smses over the wkend de.. but thn in the end aso didnt.. nemind.. maybe i will effort abit more, and send it out tis evenin..
feelin damn tired. actualie recentli i felt so damn tired.. i wonder if i am sick or sumting.. realie tink i need plenty of rest.. last sat he came pick mi up frm wrk.. thn i went to his palce and i slpt till ard 5pm.. thn wake up liao aso didnt do aniting thn went home liao.. thn ard 12am i went to bed liao.. so actualie i slept alot mah.. but thn sundae morn he woke mi up at 7plus.. coz he need to make a trip home first.. thn frm thn i wakie till 9plus, he buys mi breakfast thn ard 11 i went bac to slp till 1plus i wakie go bath thn drivin.. but thn i realie dun understand why i still so tired..
feelin like resignin here, thn start all over again. got the feelin tat job is not hard to find now.. so i tink its realie worth a try to get out of here, and start all voer again.. actualie plan to tender in aug.. but thn tink might make it in 1st july.. realie tired liao..
didnt realie write for the past hour or so.. went up to find my Miii and we tok awhile.. well.. the time now is 5.43pm.. time to go bac liao.. and i aso leavin soon liao. but thn nw i duno shld i go home?? or shld i go mt emi they all.. actualie i'm rather lazy, and would realie prefer to go home.. but thn haizz.. already promised the gers i'll be goin dwn liao.. scare they will be angry leh.. howhow?? nemind, let mi tinktink first..
Monday, June 14, 2004
its been quite sum time since i've been updatin my blog.. ermm.. the time is now 4.38pm on my pc clock.. its bout an hour to fang gong.. todae after werk goin to ktv to celebrate josephine bdae.. at cck leh.. damn tired nw, thn still haf to go so far.. sian ah.. the last wkend was quite fullfillin.. sat after wrk xiang came to office to pick mi up.. raymond hold mi up abit.. thn whn i went out, his actualie wipin the car.. hehe.. thn sat i was in a pretty bad mood.. we quarrel abit on sat.. so after tat we went tamp to eat lunchie, and thn walk ard abit.. i bought a new hp pouch leh.. hehe.. its been quite sum time since i've been usin hp pouch.. but thn for the sake of my new hp, so i bought a pink hp pouch.. so hapie.. so pretty.. after tat go his hse, thn i nap nap abit.. thn tat idiot woke mi up. but thn nemind lah.. we slack ard abit, thn went to bendemeer ther buy helmet.. he bought mi a new one.. so in future if he in camp, aso can cum pick mi up in his bike.. thn no need to wear his.. hehe~* thn went to bugis.. catch a show ther. saw the tu ran fa cai.. actualie its quite a nice show leh.. not as bad as i tot initalli.. hehe~* thn went pebble bay slack abit.. thn went to huili hse for my mahjong session..
the mahjong we play over nite ah. so tired.. played with clement, huili and deyuan.. actualie deyuan is aso quite a nice guy lah.. thn the guys were watch soccer.. actualie i aso duno much bout soccer de.. but thn yar.. play play abit.. first round of mahjong i won abit.. thn after tat went to for supper.. but thn i was damn hot and sticky.. so xiang send mi hoem to bath and change.. thn after tat he sent mi dwn to yio chu kang ther to meet thm.. thn he went home thn huili drove us to her place.. frm thn, we played till 9.30am ah.. after the whole nite, i lose 2bucks. we took a cab home, thn reach home ard 10am.. thn i cant slp leh.. i was real tired, i lie on bed and read my magazine.. read till i fall aslp.. i aso duno wat time i slp. i slp till xiang call mi at 1plus to wake mi up.. coz we have to go to my cousin place.. his baby's full mth.. i was realie reluctant to wake up.. but thn realie bo bian.. so i wakie, thn bath, thn he came over to my place, thn my mummy came back and pick us to his hse..
the baby cute leh.. baby called kaixuan.. its a boi.. thn heard frm my cousins this year got 4 babies cumin.. and this is the first.. hehe.. got 3 more on the wae.. so excited.. wonder whn its my turn.. hehe~*
thn after tat i wan go out walkwalk, coz if not like my sundae wasted liao.. but thn in the end too tired liao, so i went home and slp.. thn reach home 5plus, thn i realie is knock out with xiang.. too tired liao. thn xiang 7plus wakie, thn he aso wake mi up.. so the whole wkend is he wakie earlier thn mi thn he wake mi up.. so i so lack of slp all his fault ah.. hehe~* thn i wakie pei him loh.. thn i slack ard abit, thn went dwn to ntuc to buy sum stuff.. buy till i actualie quite happie leh.. bought toilet paper, instant noodle, the sprite ice, and i bought those cup jellies.. long time no eat liao.. thn we go home cook instant noodles eat.. coz i acutalie not realie hungry lah, coz my cousin he order those buffet catherin.. thn he order a lunch and high tea.. so by the time i arrived at 3plus, just nice got lunch and high tea food.. damn nice ah.. so i aso hungry mah.. the nite b4 didnt eat dinner.. we bought chips to the cinema.. thn after tat the supper i aso never eat coz i go home bath.. yar.. so like tat loh..
after tat i tried to see vcd usin my comp.. tink my comp realie is cancer last stage liao.. cant even see vcd.. thn i aso cant log on to the net.. i realie fed up leh.. everiting aso cannot.. duno wats the comp for.. so we see the vcd on the vcd player.. i see till i wan fall aslp.. so xiang stop the cvd, thn he cleared the stuff, thn sent mi to slp thn he went home liao..
so tats my entire wkend.. hehe~* actualie not a too bad wae to spent it loh.. its like every min is utilized.. nw i in the office still.. goin to leave soon liao.. to my ktv session liao.. hehe~*
the mahjong we play over nite ah. so tired.. played with clement, huili and deyuan.. actualie deyuan is aso quite a nice guy lah.. thn the guys were watch soccer.. actualie i aso duno much bout soccer de.. but thn yar.. play play abit.. first round of mahjong i won abit.. thn after tat went to for supper.. but thn i was damn hot and sticky.. so xiang send mi hoem to bath and change.. thn after tat he sent mi dwn to yio chu kang ther to meet thm.. thn he went home thn huili drove us to her place.. frm thn, we played till 9.30am ah.. after the whole nite, i lose 2bucks. we took a cab home, thn reach home ard 10am.. thn i cant slp leh.. i was real tired, i lie on bed and read my magazine.. read till i fall aslp.. i aso duno wat time i slp. i slp till xiang call mi at 1plus to wake mi up.. coz we have to go to my cousin place.. his baby's full mth.. i was realie reluctant to wake up.. but thn realie bo bian.. so i wakie, thn bath, thn he came over to my place, thn my mummy came back and pick us to his hse..
the baby cute leh.. baby called kaixuan.. its a boi.. thn heard frm my cousins this year got 4 babies cumin.. and this is the first.. hehe.. got 3 more on the wae.. so excited.. wonder whn its my turn.. hehe~*
thn after tat i wan go out walkwalk, coz if not like my sundae wasted liao.. but thn in the end too tired liao, so i went home and slp.. thn reach home 5plus, thn i realie is knock out with xiang.. too tired liao. thn xiang 7plus wakie, thn he aso wake mi up.. so the whole wkend is he wakie earlier thn mi thn he wake mi up.. so i so lack of slp all his fault ah.. hehe~* thn i wakie pei him loh.. thn i slack ard abit, thn went dwn to ntuc to buy sum stuff.. buy till i actualie quite happie leh.. bought toilet paper, instant noodle, the sprite ice, and i bought those cup jellies.. long time no eat liao.. thn we go home cook instant noodles eat.. coz i acutalie not realie hungry lah, coz my cousin he order those buffet catherin.. thn he order a lunch and high tea.. so by the time i arrived at 3plus, just nice got lunch and high tea food.. damn nice ah.. so i aso hungry mah.. the nite b4 didnt eat dinner.. we bought chips to the cinema.. thn after tat the supper i aso never eat coz i go home bath.. yar.. so like tat loh..
after tat i tried to see vcd usin my comp.. tink my comp realie is cancer last stage liao.. cant even see vcd.. thn i aso cant log on to the net.. i realie fed up leh.. everiting aso cannot.. duno wats the comp for.. so we see the vcd on the vcd player.. i see till i wan fall aslp.. so xiang stop the cvd, thn he cleared the stuff, thn sent mi to slp thn he went home liao..
so tats my entire wkend.. hehe~* actualie not a too bad wae to spent it loh.. its like every min is utilized.. nw i in the office still.. goin to leave soon liao.. to my ktv session liao.. hehe~*
Tuesday, May 25, 2004
Dear Blog,
Its mi again. The time nw is 11.47am. Started late todae coz this morning abit busy. So now already start to want eng liao. Still got sum wrk on hand, but thn want take my own sweet time to finish it. Till now I still didnt reallie tok to ah ger. Still dun reallie feel liek tokkin to her. Sae mi xiao qi ye hao, childish ye hao, but thn I am like tat. I will icqin Esther, thn she's said yar.. ther's no frewns at wrk.. but thn i tot ah ger is different. But thn seems like she's no exception. Once we leave this place, ther is no such thing as frewns between us liao. She earn her money, i earn mine. As if she will help mi in future whn i need frm her. True loh. Schooling frewns are more frewns loh.
Now time is 1.30pm. todae order lunch in coz Miii fever, not feeling well so guess she doesnt wan go under the sun. I continue to be cold towards her. Its not i purposely de. but thn i just no mood to go entertain her. she told mi she wan tender resignation todae. i told her to go ahead. i mean why bother tellin mi. I felt damn betrayed loh.
nw 4.03pm liao. the dae actualie passes reasonably fast. Errmm.. intend to leave on the dot todae too. Tml xiang sae he wans make a trip home, and wans mi to follow him home aso. His sis goin Holland.. Actualie quite nice hor.. tat time just went USA for 2year plus, thn just came back a couple of wks bac, thn nw her company sendin her to Holland liao.. envy ah.. i aso wan.. So later after wrk i tinkin go meet him at Hougang Mall, maybe pick up a farewell present for her, thn go home help mummy do sum stuff and be her good ger..
Till now i still not tokin to ah ger. she told Miii i angry with her. Miii cum dwn ask mi wat happen, thn i dun wan tok bout it.. Well.. nth more to be said. Wats done is done. wats decided is decided. Nxt time i aso haf to be selfish. Just tink of myself, and never others..
5.38pm liao.. actualie is fang gong time liao. but thn noone shows ani signs of leavin.. so i aso dun dare leave.. damn jia lat hor.. reach fang gong time liao dun dare go.. wat sort of nonsense is tis.. haizz.. damn jia lat.. how how.. mr te cum dwn sae my tooling and ah ger tooling got problem. thn ask us go up see mould. knw his pattern too well liao, he is wan ask us up thn tok to us de.. he knw mi and ah ger like tat.. i thn dun wan tok.. nth to tok bout. another 5min haf pass.. ermm.. wan leave leh.. if not later go walk ard liao reach home too late mummy not hapie.. coz cant do tings for her.. haizz.. nth to do liao still haf to stay in office dun do wat. damn bo liaozz..
Its mi again. The time nw is 11.47am. Started late todae coz this morning abit busy. So now already start to want eng liao. Still got sum wrk on hand, but thn want take my own sweet time to finish it. Till now I still didnt reallie tok to ah ger. Still dun reallie feel liek tokkin to her. Sae mi xiao qi ye hao, childish ye hao, but thn I am like tat. I will icqin Esther, thn she's said yar.. ther's no frewns at wrk.. but thn i tot ah ger is different. But thn seems like she's no exception. Once we leave this place, ther is no such thing as frewns between us liao. She earn her money, i earn mine. As if she will help mi in future whn i need frm her. True loh. Schooling frewns are more frewns loh.
Now time is 1.30pm. todae order lunch in coz Miii fever, not feeling well so guess she doesnt wan go under the sun. I continue to be cold towards her. Its not i purposely de. but thn i just no mood to go entertain her. she told mi she wan tender resignation todae. i told her to go ahead. i mean why bother tellin mi. I felt damn betrayed loh.
nw 4.03pm liao. the dae actualie passes reasonably fast. Errmm.. intend to leave on the dot todae too. Tml xiang sae he wans make a trip home, and wans mi to follow him home aso. His sis goin Holland.. Actualie quite nice hor.. tat time just went USA for 2year plus, thn just came back a couple of wks bac, thn nw her company sendin her to Holland liao.. envy ah.. i aso wan.. So later after wrk i tinkin go meet him at Hougang Mall, maybe pick up a farewell present for her, thn go home help mummy do sum stuff and be her good ger..
Till now i still not tokin to ah ger. she told Miii i angry with her. Miii cum dwn ask mi wat happen, thn i dun wan tok bout it.. Well.. nth more to be said. Wats done is done. wats decided is decided. Nxt time i aso haf to be selfish. Just tink of myself, and never others..
5.38pm liao.. actualie is fang gong time liao. but thn noone shows ani signs of leavin.. so i aso dun dare leave.. damn jia lat hor.. reach fang gong time liao dun dare go.. wat sort of nonsense is tis.. haizz.. damn jia lat.. how how.. mr te cum dwn sae my tooling and ah ger tooling got problem. thn ask us go up see mould. knw his pattern too well liao, he is wan ask us up thn tok to us de.. he knw mi and ah ger like tat.. i thn dun wan tok.. nth to tok bout. another 5min haf pass.. ermm.. wan leave leh.. if not later go walk ard liao reach home too late mummy not hapie.. coz cant do tings for her.. haizz.. nth to do liao still haf to stay in office dun do wat. damn bo liaozz..
Monday, May 24, 2004
Dear blog,
I am now in the office.. Todae is a Mondae, a rainy mondae morning.. time nw is 8.53am.. but thn my PC clock is i tink 9min faster.. Well.. hw nice is it if I can stay home and sleep todae.. BenBen didnt wakie go school todae.. Guess their holis started liao.. Hw nice.. Actualie its getting quite boring at work. I dun like tat boriness at wrk.. I realie feel like resigin, coz i wanted sumthing challanging, sumting alwaes makin my dae busy.. once I'm busy, my dae aso pass by faster.. like now, the time realie crawls..
Anywae, did I mention in my last log tat I failed my TP?? I tink I did lah.. but thn nemind, i didnt expect myself to pass either.. My nxt test date book liao.. its on the 28th July.. Does this date ring any bell? Well, its a dae before my bdae.. So if I reallie pass, this will be the best bdae present I'm goin to recieve liao.. thou I tink I can make it this time round liao.. but thn i aso dun wan be overly confident.. thn I got all my lessons date liao.. after calculating all the dates, this retest will cost mi about 500over bucks.. actualie if its onli 500bucks, tink i can tender my resignation on 1st june, thn wrk till end of june.. thn like tat, with may + june's salary, will haf 2k plus.. after taking awae the 500, and all my expenses, i tink i is can make it liao de.. over the wkend actualei wan discuss with xiang de.. but thn it slip my mind..
huiyu resignin end of this mth.. actualie i tinkin once she left, maybe i will be more busy, coz i might haf to mroe or less cover up her wrk.. but thn if this is not true, thn i aso got no idea hw am i goin to boring 2mth here.. but thn may actualie passess pretty fast.. too many pple's bdae, so alot of events to look forward to, and aso got my drivin test(took 2 daes leave;so tat is a damn short wk for mi..) and aso all the mother daes celebration n stuff like tat.. actualie realie quite eventfull loh.. tis wk got no events leh.. nth much to look forward to, except pay dae, wich is end of tis week.. hehe~* so realie hope time will pass faster ah~*
Okie.. start doin abit of wrk liao.. time is onli 9.30am.. after I have updated this customer into the system, i wonder wat other stuff i can do.. seems like wat i can do is nth much liao leh.. later got to go dig sum stuff out to do.. wonder wat xiang is doin.. till nw never sms mi.. tink he must be hiding in his bunk, slpin.. ns life nw like veri hao ming liao.. duno todae will meet him anot leh.. mondae he is dun haf nite off de.. but thn he aso bo chup de.. but thn duno leh.. i duno wher shld i go after wrk leh..
Todae on my wae to wrk.. I kept tinkin about wrk.. I dun realie like wat i'm doing now. I'm tinkin of resigning, thn go get those part time sales job.. like sum cake shop or sell clothes de or wat.. coz i all along do sales, i am okie with it de.. so i tinkin maybe i shld go bac to sales for the time being.. i might be happier.. ermm.. as for pay wise, i aso dun tink will get ani lower.. my take home onli 1k plus abit.. if i go into sales, i believe aso ard the same de.. the onli ting is haf to wrk on sats and sundae.. tats the onli draw back.. but thn actualie off during the wkdaes aso not tat bad mah rite.. less pple ard, thn got more time to myself..
now 10.42am.. i spent the last hour searchin for an email leh.. but thn tink for tis issue, tat time due to time constriants, there is no time for ani emails.. haizz.. nemind, wait till my COO come bac thn see wat he saes ba..
11.29am liao.. the past hour didint do aniting muchie.. ermm..
now 1.38 liao wor.. like tat 2 hr pass liao.. bt one hr was lunchie.. haizz.. now i deng fang gong liao.. boring ah.. reale boring.. juz now go frewnster ther seesee looklook.. thn saw tat yk got new pics wor.. thn go in seesee looklook abit.. he like didnt change one bit leh.. still the same old him.. die lah.. feel like slpin now.. the slpin spell is all over mi.. how how??
duno if xiang is cumin out todae anot.. butthn nemind lah.. got the sat tat slpy feeling.. if he not cumin out,
Mr te now with us.. he telling us he end of tis mth goin to tender, thn nw huiyu sae till like so overjoy, coz got pple accompany her to leave. i mean i am irritated loh.. thn he kept rubbing in.. and mr te aso. wat can i sae.. i realie hate it here. a mth ago whn i wanted to leave, she is the one who hold mi back. thou i haf to admit i aso got my reserve bout leavin, but thn she realie plays a big part loh. thn nw coz she got in ntu liao, thn like tat sae wan leave.. how do u wan mi to feel.. damn betrayed loh. i knw its for her own good. so i understand, and i kept quiet. in fact i tink i was pretty encouragin loh. and nw she haf to rub in like tat.. hw do u wan mi to feel. thn i flare, mr te still sae might as well ah ger aso go loh. she still got the cheek to tell him is all coz i got the finicial problem. cum on loh.. i've been telling her i have my drivin expenses counted out liao. i can actualie resigned end of tis mth de. thn she is the one who asked mi stay. wat the fuck. angry. realie angry.
damn pissed. dun wan tok to her. in fact i dun feel like tokkin to her again. wonder i can tahan how long. but thn i realie dun feel like tokin.. hate her. in fact i tink its all coz her i am in wat i am now. if not i will leave long ago liao. still tink she's my best frewn here.. wat crap. am i kickin a big fuss out of nth?? do u tink i'm in the wrong? duno lah.. damn angry now. todae i goin to leave on the dot. let her go ahead and tender tis mth.. i haf to calm dwn and tink about it.
Okie.. about 20min haf passed frm just now, the time is now 3.11pm. i feel more clam dwn liao. but thn still cant forgive her. tink tis matter haf been in my heart for a longlong time liao. thn todae she like tat, its just trigger off and i exploded. till nw, i dun tink i am in the wrong. its not i stubborn or wat. just one word loh. selfish. but thn cant help it loh. she dun even tink bout her own twin, not to mention mi. but thn please loh, dun rub in liao. i already need to constantly remind myself to look on the bright side. w/o her havin to remind mi of the dark side. still got 2hr plus thn can go home liao. tink xiang is not meetin mi todae.. tink aso rush for him to be cumin in and out. but its okie, i can go home rite after wrk.. go back and slp on all my stuff.. i'm a very direct person.. like means like, dun like means dun like. and whn i no like, i realie show it. tats mi. i'm a straight forward ger. and rite now, i'm feelin damn pissed.. very angry.. i dun wan yi qi yong shi. no point resign coz her.. thn in the end shou ku de shi zi ji.. so tonite, must reallie tally out my final conclusion. thn if all odds points to mi leavin, thn i'll tender tml.. but thn actualie i dun mind abit more cash de.. its like 1k more leh.. but thn it aso means 1 more mth of sufferin here loh.. so todae got to go back tok to xiang and all abit.. 3.49 liao.. in bout 2hrs more i believe i'll be out of tis place liao..
haizz.. damn sian.. realie sianzz.. mr te just cum tok to mi abit.. well.. he is ask mi to leave aso since not hapie.. and given my calibre, sure can find job sumwher else. but thn nw aso huiyu sae prefer us not to leave together. everyting aso she sae. fuck loh. but thn i dun wan get manuliplitated by anione.. i wan to do wat i wan. i wan go tink bout it thn see how. actualie feelin slightly beta liao. and now 4.17pm on my clock liao. so in an hour time, thn i can start to count dwn to go home liao.. todae i realie didnt do aniting much.. but thn aso quite li hai hor.. neber do ting aso pass one dae liao.. not bad ah.. i finaly learnt the power to use a long time to do a simple task.. guess tis is wrk smart ba.. thou not exactly smart, but thn at least yar.. guess tis is aso one wae of wrkin ba..
she tried tokin to mi. but thn i dun wan tok to her. nw she aso like not too hapie liao. bt thn her prob. cant be bothered with her..
nw 4.37pm.. actualie i frm tis morn write till nw.. aso not bad hor.. like todae xiang busy in camp. so his reply aso abit slow.. haizz.. feel beta nw liao. but thn still dun feel like tokin to her.. in an hour time,i will be on my wae home liao. thou todae is not a busy dae, the time aso passes reasonably fast.. HEHE..4.57pm liao wor.. left half hour more to go.. realie looking forward in goin home.. hehe.. at least my mood beta now..
5.49pm liao.. i am leavin the office liao.. xiang sms mi sae his meetin mi at my place ther.. thn go my hsey watch a vcd liek tat.. tink he knws i upset.. so purposely wan accompany mi.. realie apprecaite him for bein ther for mi alwaes.. i knw i at times aso not too nice to him.. but thn he still so nice to mi. love u dear~* haizz.. he aso never reads tis de.. got write and no write same de.. leavein liao.. tml tink i can write another lenghty lenghty de..
I am now in the office.. Todae is a Mondae, a rainy mondae morning.. time nw is 8.53am.. but thn my PC clock is i tink 9min faster.. Well.. hw nice is it if I can stay home and sleep todae.. BenBen didnt wakie go school todae.. Guess their holis started liao.. Hw nice.. Actualie its getting quite boring at work. I dun like tat boriness at wrk.. I realie feel like resigin, coz i wanted sumthing challanging, sumting alwaes makin my dae busy.. once I'm busy, my dae aso pass by faster.. like now, the time realie crawls..
Anywae, did I mention in my last log tat I failed my TP?? I tink I did lah.. but thn nemind, i didnt expect myself to pass either.. My nxt test date book liao.. its on the 28th July.. Does this date ring any bell? Well, its a dae before my bdae.. So if I reallie pass, this will be the best bdae present I'm goin to recieve liao.. thou I tink I can make it this time round liao.. but thn i aso dun wan be overly confident.. thn I got all my lessons date liao.. after calculating all the dates, this retest will cost mi about 500over bucks.. actualie if its onli 500bucks, tink i can tender my resignation on 1st june, thn wrk till end of june.. thn like tat, with may + june's salary, will haf 2k plus.. after taking awae the 500, and all my expenses, i tink i is can make it liao de.. over the wkend actualei wan discuss with xiang de.. but thn it slip my mind..
huiyu resignin end of this mth.. actualie i tinkin once she left, maybe i will be more busy, coz i might haf to mroe or less cover up her wrk.. but thn if this is not true, thn i aso got no idea hw am i goin to boring 2mth here.. but thn may actualie passess pretty fast.. too many pple's bdae, so alot of events to look forward to, and aso got my drivin test(took 2 daes leave;so tat is a damn short wk for mi..) and aso all the mother daes celebration n stuff like tat.. actualie realie quite eventfull loh.. tis wk got no events leh.. nth much to look forward to, except pay dae, wich is end of tis week.. hehe~* so realie hope time will pass faster ah~*
Okie.. start doin abit of wrk liao.. time is onli 9.30am.. after I have updated this customer into the system, i wonder wat other stuff i can do.. seems like wat i can do is nth much liao leh.. later got to go dig sum stuff out to do.. wonder wat xiang is doin.. till nw never sms mi.. tink he must be hiding in his bunk, slpin.. ns life nw like veri hao ming liao.. duno todae will meet him anot leh.. mondae he is dun haf nite off de.. but thn he aso bo chup de.. but thn duno leh.. i duno wher shld i go after wrk leh..
Todae on my wae to wrk.. I kept tinkin about wrk.. I dun realie like wat i'm doing now. I'm tinkin of resigning, thn go get those part time sales job.. like sum cake shop or sell clothes de or wat.. coz i all along do sales, i am okie with it de.. so i tinkin maybe i shld go bac to sales for the time being.. i might be happier.. ermm.. as for pay wise, i aso dun tink will get ani lower.. my take home onli 1k plus abit.. if i go into sales, i believe aso ard the same de.. the onli ting is haf to wrk on sats and sundae.. tats the onli draw back.. but thn actualie off during the wkdaes aso not tat bad mah rite.. less pple ard, thn got more time to myself..
now 10.42am.. i spent the last hour searchin for an email leh.. but thn tink for tis issue, tat time due to time constriants, there is no time for ani emails.. haizz.. nemind, wait till my COO come bac thn see wat he saes ba..
11.29am liao.. the past hour didint do aniting muchie.. ermm..
now 1.38 liao wor.. like tat 2 hr pass liao.. bt one hr was lunchie.. haizz.. now i deng fang gong liao.. boring ah.. reale boring.. juz now go frewnster ther seesee looklook.. thn saw tat yk got new pics wor.. thn go in seesee looklook abit.. he like didnt change one bit leh.. still the same old him.. die lah.. feel like slpin now.. the slpin spell is all over mi.. how how??
duno if xiang is cumin out todae anot.. butthn nemind lah.. got the sat tat slpy feeling.. if he not cumin out,
Mr te now with us.. he telling us he end of tis mth goin to tender, thn nw huiyu sae till like so overjoy, coz got pple accompany her to leave. i mean i am irritated loh.. thn he kept rubbing in.. and mr te aso. wat can i sae.. i realie hate it here. a mth ago whn i wanted to leave, she is the one who hold mi back. thou i haf to admit i aso got my reserve bout leavin, but thn she realie plays a big part loh. thn nw coz she got in ntu liao, thn like tat sae wan leave.. how do u wan mi to feel.. damn betrayed loh. i knw its for her own good. so i understand, and i kept quiet. in fact i tink i was pretty encouragin loh. and nw she haf to rub in like tat.. hw do u wan mi to feel. thn i flare, mr te still sae might as well ah ger aso go loh. she still got the cheek to tell him is all coz i got the finicial problem. cum on loh.. i've been telling her i have my drivin expenses counted out liao. i can actualie resigned end of tis mth de. thn she is the one who asked mi stay. wat the fuck. angry. realie angry.
damn pissed. dun wan tok to her. in fact i dun feel like tokkin to her again. wonder i can tahan how long. but thn i realie dun feel like tokin.. hate her. in fact i tink its all coz her i am in wat i am now. if not i will leave long ago liao. still tink she's my best frewn here.. wat crap. am i kickin a big fuss out of nth?? do u tink i'm in the wrong? duno lah.. damn angry now. todae i goin to leave on the dot. let her go ahead and tender tis mth.. i haf to calm dwn and tink about it.
Okie.. about 20min haf passed frm just now, the time is now 3.11pm. i feel more clam dwn liao. but thn still cant forgive her. tink tis matter haf been in my heart for a longlong time liao. thn todae she like tat, its just trigger off and i exploded. till nw, i dun tink i am in the wrong. its not i stubborn or wat. just one word loh. selfish. but thn cant help it loh. she dun even tink bout her own twin, not to mention mi. but thn please loh, dun rub in liao. i already need to constantly remind myself to look on the bright side. w/o her havin to remind mi of the dark side. still got 2hr plus thn can go home liao. tink xiang is not meetin mi todae.. tink aso rush for him to be cumin in and out. but its okie, i can go home rite after wrk.. go back and slp on all my stuff.. i'm a very direct person.. like means like, dun like means dun like. and whn i no like, i realie show it. tats mi. i'm a straight forward ger. and rite now, i'm feelin damn pissed.. very angry.. i dun wan yi qi yong shi. no point resign coz her.. thn in the end shou ku de shi zi ji.. so tonite, must reallie tally out my final conclusion. thn if all odds points to mi leavin, thn i'll tender tml.. but thn actualie i dun mind abit more cash de.. its like 1k more leh.. but thn it aso means 1 more mth of sufferin here loh.. so todae got to go back tok to xiang and all abit.. 3.49 liao.. in bout 2hrs more i believe i'll be out of tis place liao..
haizz.. damn sian.. realie sianzz.. mr te just cum tok to mi abit.. well.. he is ask mi to leave aso since not hapie.. and given my calibre, sure can find job sumwher else. but thn nw aso huiyu sae prefer us not to leave together. everyting aso she sae. fuck loh. but thn i dun wan get manuliplitated by anione.. i wan to do wat i wan. i wan go tink bout it thn see how. actualie feelin slightly beta liao. and now 4.17pm on my clock liao. so in an hour time, thn i can start to count dwn to go home liao.. todae i realie didnt do aniting much.. but thn aso quite li hai hor.. neber do ting aso pass one dae liao.. not bad ah.. i finaly learnt the power to use a long time to do a simple task.. guess tis is wrk smart ba.. thou not exactly smart, but thn at least yar.. guess tis is aso one wae of wrkin ba..
she tried tokin to mi. but thn i dun wan tok to her. nw she aso like not too hapie liao. bt thn her prob. cant be bothered with her..
nw 4.37pm.. actualie i frm tis morn write till nw.. aso not bad hor.. like todae xiang busy in camp. so his reply aso abit slow.. haizz.. feel beta nw liao. but thn still dun feel like tokin to her.. in an hour time,i will be on my wae home liao. thou todae is not a busy dae, the time aso passes reasonably fast.. HEHE..4.57pm liao wor.. left half hour more to go.. realie looking forward in goin home.. hehe.. at least my mood beta now..
5.49pm liao.. i am leavin the office liao.. xiang sms mi sae his meetin mi at my place ther.. thn go my hsey watch a vcd liek tat.. tink he knws i upset.. so purposely wan accompany mi.. realie apprecaite him for bein ther for mi alwaes.. i knw i at times aso not too nice to him.. but thn he still so nice to mi. love u dear~* haizz.. he aso never reads tis de.. got write and no write same de.. leavein liao.. tml tink i can write another lenghty lenghty de..
Thursday, May 20, 2004
Todae 20th May.. Hengheng's bdae todae.. duno if i am meetin him todae anot.. Happie Bdae Heng~~!~! his 21st bdae todae.. may all his wishes cum true leh..
Aniwae, i failed my TP.. well.. didnt realie feel mush about it.. coz i more or less expected it de.. if pass thn realie is mirical.. thn after tat ermm.. yar.. went ktv..
todae i in a mood swing.. in a damn bad mood now.. i did something wrong todae.. i got the 2D Drawing frm the motorola on 30th april.. thn i forget pass to mr te.. thn as a result, thn the tooling dun haf cavity marking.. thn i knw its my fault.. i realie knw its my fault.. thn i told hr te about it. thn i said its my fault.. but thn he still wan to charge for the cavity marking.. thn i called fred in china, thn i knw fred abit pissed loh.. thn i tink its all my fault.. fred dun wan to pay for it.. thn haizz.. in the end mr te called fred.. so the conclusion is fred needs to pay loh.. as in i here haf to raise PO for it loh.. but thn haizz.. mr te said is not my fault, ask mi to stop sayin its my fault.. coz even if i give him the drawing on 30th may, he will still need us to pay for it de.. but thn the ting is fred is pissed i tink.. haizz.. so over tis i am in a damn low mood liao..
to make tings worst, huiyu is not too supportive aso.. i knw she got her own set of problems.. but thn haizz.. thn nxt wk is the lasty wk of tis mth liao. she just told mi she's goin to tender her resignation nxt wed or thursdae.. haizz.. i am tinkin of stayin till end of july actualie so i can at least pay off all the driving stuff.. coz just over tis wkend, i spend bou 400bucks on drivin.. but thn given wat i'm feelin now, i realie got no wish to continue.. how?? help ah~* i knw if i were to brin it up to xiang, he will sure ask mi resign, thn driving he will help mi pay.. but thn i dun realie like it like tis.. so i got a week time to consider to stay or to go.. and even if i go, i aso got nth to do.. to start looking for job, or to go bac to sch.. if its bac to sch, thn i tink most prob it will be SIM liao..
todae realie in a sucky mood.. haizz..
Aniwae, i failed my TP.. well.. didnt realie feel mush about it.. coz i more or less expected it de.. if pass thn realie is mirical.. thn after tat ermm.. yar.. went ktv..
todae i in a mood swing.. in a damn bad mood now.. i did something wrong todae.. i got the 2D Drawing frm the motorola on 30th april.. thn i forget pass to mr te.. thn as a result, thn the tooling dun haf cavity marking.. thn i knw its my fault.. i realie knw its my fault.. thn i told hr te about it. thn i said its my fault.. but thn he still wan to charge for the cavity marking.. thn i called fred in china, thn i knw fred abit pissed loh.. thn i tink its all my fault.. fred dun wan to pay for it.. thn haizz.. in the end mr te called fred.. so the conclusion is fred needs to pay loh.. as in i here haf to raise PO for it loh.. but thn haizz.. mr te said is not my fault, ask mi to stop sayin its my fault.. coz even if i give him the drawing on 30th may, he will still need us to pay for it de.. but thn the ting is fred is pissed i tink.. haizz.. so over tis i am in a damn low mood liao..
to make tings worst, huiyu is not too supportive aso.. i knw she got her own set of problems.. but thn haizz.. thn nxt wk is the lasty wk of tis mth liao. she just told mi she's goin to tender her resignation nxt wed or thursdae.. haizz.. i am tinkin of stayin till end of july actualie so i can at least pay off all the driving stuff.. coz just over tis wkend, i spend bou 400bucks on drivin.. but thn given wat i'm feelin now, i realie got no wish to continue.. how?? help ah~* i knw if i were to brin it up to xiang, he will sure ask mi resign, thn driving he will help mi pay.. but thn i dun realie like it like tis.. so i got a week time to consider to stay or to go.. and even if i go, i aso got nth to do.. to start looking for job, or to go bac to sch.. if its bac to sch, thn i tink most prob it will be SIM liao..
todae realie in a sucky mood.. haizz..
Tuesday, May 18, 2004
Todae 18th May.. another big dae in my life.. actualie frankly speaking lah.. tink tis year realie quite a busy year for mi.. i aso duno how to sae lah.. ermm.. like alot of event and activities liek tat loh.. hehe~* got lots of upz and dwns.. but thn one ting tat never change is life still goes on.. regardless i hapie or sad, it will not stop and wait for mi.. thou after todae, i will haf to wrk straight for a couple of mths, a/o any holisdae like tis.. but thn wat to do.. realie got to plan to go bac sch instead of wrkin.. but evn if i were to go bac sch now, will onli be my escape for tis period of time..
i now, actualie planin to stay on till xiang ord, thn by thn we can start plannin wat we wan do.. ermm.. but thn tat is wat i tink lah.. in actual fact, to stay on at sei woo is realie not easy... or shld i sae its not as easy as i tink de.. haizz.. actulie end of the mth cumin again.. time we will face a cross junction again.. to tender or to stay.. haizz.. if dun tender, sure regret de.. tender liao aso like haizz.. pple alwaes sae tender le thn suan le.. but thn its not like tat de loh..
okie.. todae is the big dae.. goin to take my driving test liao.. realie hope i can make it.. thou i knw my diring still quite dangerous, lack of safty factors, but thn i realie hope i can make it still loh.. kae.. pls pple, pray for mi hor.. pray hard hard tat nth will go wrong.. even if i no pass, aso nemind.. i dun wan later accident thn jia lat liao..
i now, actualie planin to stay on till xiang ord, thn by thn we can start plannin wat we wan do.. ermm.. but thn tat is wat i tink lah.. in actual fact, to stay on at sei woo is realie not easy... or shld i sae its not as easy as i tink de.. haizz.. actulie end of the mth cumin again.. time we will face a cross junction again.. to tender or to stay.. haizz.. if dun tender, sure regret de.. tender liao aso like haizz.. pple alwaes sae tender le thn suan le.. but thn its not like tat de loh..
okie.. todae is the big dae.. goin to take my driving test liao.. realie hope i can make it.. thou i knw my diring still quite dangerous, lack of safty factors, but thn i realie hope i can make it still loh.. kae.. pls pple, pray for mi hor.. pray hard hard tat nth will go wrong.. even if i no pass, aso nemind.. i dun wan later accident thn jia lat liao..
Monday, May 17, 2004
ERrmm.. wow.. this blog actualie revamped.. tink i can post up a pic or two now.. but thn haizz.. wait till i more free ba.. hehe.. ermm.. todae i on leave.. thn went drivin.. todae driving sucks loh.. so i tink tml is xiong duo ji shao de.. but thn haizz.. nemind ba.. sat went sentosa.. acutualie didnt do muchie.. just go ther slack ard.. but thn ther was no much sun, so i didnt managed to get any tan.. yar.. thn wore the new luminous green bikini.. tok cum fotos.. will update it into frewnster whn i got time and all.. the gers were sayin i am sooo fair.. hehe.. actualie i like it fair leh.. fair fair not nice meh?? thn i didnt manage to bath at sentosa coz the queue was like soooo long.. thn yar..so i left the place even w/o bathing.. thn yar loh.. soooo dirty leh.. bua tahan.. but thn haizz..
ermm.. thn sundae went drivin, didnt do well either.. thn after tat argue with xiang abit.. attitude him abit more, thn went granny hse for dinner.. the food ther realie yum yum.. thn vivian said xiang is my fat bf.. haha~* she actualie said he fat.. actualie xiang not fat lah.. just tat coz sat go sentosa.. thn ai mei de him went to gym.. wan to show off abit.. so his quite big size now.. yar.. hehe~* but thn nemind.. i haf a fun time teasing him too.. thn play mahjong abit while he go home, thn after tat play with the gers, and help out with their homewrk and OMG.. ah verene's maths is soooo tough leh.. she's onli in Pri3 leh.. but thn the maths hor.. realie de leh.. i haf to use the algebra simlutanous equation to solve it.. thn xiang came pick mi up, thn he aso help abit.. thn he uses tis duno wat method to solve it.. haizz.. but thn realie loh.. Pri3 onli leh.. the maths hor.. realie damn diff loh.. i used the sec sch method to solved it loh..
ermm.. thn todae mondae.. actualie quite a nice feeling.. mondae no need go wrk, thn stay home like tis slack.. thn after driving, after lunchie thn cum homey.. actualie supposed to do hse wrk de.. but thn benben called mi, sae mummy left a note on her door.. actualie is telling mi to do the hsewrk de.. thn he ask mi wat mummy wrote.. thn he asked izzit ask him do hsewrk, thn i said YES~* hehe.. so benben realie go do hsewrk loh.. hehe.. after he did the hsewrk he called mummie thn realise tat note is actualie for mi de.. hehe.. who ask him chinese sooo poor.. so bo bian lah.. hehe~*
now wan go movie with xiang.. but thn not much show recently leh.. and to make ting worst, his playin PS2 with benben now.. win liao loh.. he rather play with him thn go out with mi.. dun like him de...
ermm.. thn sundae went drivin, didnt do well either.. thn after tat argue with xiang abit.. attitude him abit more, thn went granny hse for dinner.. the food ther realie yum yum.. thn vivian said xiang is my fat bf.. haha~* she actualie said he fat.. actualie xiang not fat lah.. just tat coz sat go sentosa.. thn ai mei de him went to gym.. wan to show off abit.. so his quite big size now.. yar.. hehe~* but thn nemind.. i haf a fun time teasing him too.. thn play mahjong abit while he go home, thn after tat play with the gers, and help out with their homewrk and OMG.. ah verene's maths is soooo tough leh.. she's onli in Pri3 leh.. but thn the maths hor.. realie de leh.. i haf to use the algebra simlutanous equation to solve it.. thn xiang came pick mi up, thn he aso help abit.. thn he uses tis duno wat method to solve it.. haizz.. but thn realie loh.. Pri3 onli leh.. the maths hor.. realie damn diff loh.. i used the sec sch method to solved it loh..
ermm.. thn todae mondae.. actualie quite a nice feeling.. mondae no need go wrk, thn stay home like tis slack.. thn after driving, after lunchie thn cum homey.. actualie supposed to do hse wrk de.. but thn benben called mi, sae mummy left a note on her door.. actualie is telling mi to do the hsewrk de.. thn he ask mi wat mummy wrote.. thn he asked izzit ask him do hsewrk, thn i said YES~* hehe.. so benben realie go do hsewrk loh.. hehe.. after he did the hsewrk he called mummie thn realise tat note is actualie for mi de.. hehe.. who ask him chinese sooo poor.. so bo bian lah.. hehe~*
now wan go movie with xiang.. but thn not much show recently leh.. and to make ting worst, his playin PS2 with benben now.. win liao loh.. he rather play with him thn go out with mi.. dun like him de...
ERrmm.. wow.. this blog actualie revamped.. tink i can post up a pic or two now.. but thn haizz.. wait till i more free ba.. hehe.. ermm.. todae i on leave.. thn went drivin.. todae driving sucks loh.. so i tink tml is xiong duo ji shao de.. but thn haizz.. nemind ba.. sat went sentosa.. acutualie didnt do muchie.. just go ther slack ard.. but thn ther was no much sun, so i didnt managed to get any tan.. yar.. thn wore the new luminous green bikini.. tok cum fotos.. will update it into frewnster whn i got time and all.. the gers were sayin i am sooo fair.. hehe.. actualie i like it fair leh.. fair fair not nice meh??
ermm.. thn sundae went drivin, didnt do well either.. thn after tat argue with xiang abit.. attitude him abit more, thn went granny hse for dinner.. the food ther realie yum yum.. thn vivian said xiang is my fat bf.. haha~* she actualie said he fat.. actualie xiang not fat lah.. just tat coz sat go sentosa.. thn ai mei de him went to gym.. wan to show off abit.. so his quite big size now.. yar.. hehe~* but thn nemind.. i haf a fun time teasing him too.. thn play mahjong abit while he go home, thn after tat play with the gers, and help out with their homewrk and OMG.. ah verene's maths is soooo tough leh.. she's onli in Pri3 leh.. but thn the maths hor.. realie de leh.. i haf to use the algebra simlutanous equation to solve it.. thn xiang came pick mi up, thn he aso help abit.. thn he uses tis duno wat method to solve it.. haizz.. but thn realie loh.. Pri3 onli leh.. the maths hor.. realie damn diff loh.. i used the sec sch method to solved it loh..
ermm.. thn todae mondae.. actualie quite a nice feeling.. mondae no need go wrk, thn stay home like tis slack.. thn after driving, after lunchie thn cum homey.. actualie supposed to do hse wrk de.. but thn benben called mi, sae mummy left a note on her door.. actualie is telling mi to do the hsewrk de.. thn he ask mi wat mummy wrote.. thn he asked izzit ask him do hsewrk, thn i said YES~* hehe.. so benben realie go do hsewrk loh.. hehe.. after he did the hsewrk he called mummie thn realise tat note is actualie for mi de.. hehe.. who ask him chinese sooo poor.. so bo bian lah.. hehe~*
now wan go movie with xiang.. but thn not much show recently leh.. and to make ting worst, his playin PS2 with benben now.. win liao loh.. he rather play with him thn go out with mi.. dun like him de...
ermm.. thn sundae went drivin, didnt do well either.. thn after tat argue with xiang abit.. attitude him abit more, thn went granny hse for dinner.. the food ther realie yum yum.. thn vivian said xiang is my fat bf.. haha~* she actualie said he fat.. actualie xiang not fat lah.. just tat coz sat go sentosa.. thn ai mei de him went to gym.. wan to show off abit.. so his quite big size now.. yar.. hehe~* but thn nemind.. i haf a fun time teasing him too.. thn play mahjong abit while he go home, thn after tat play with the gers, and help out with their homewrk and OMG.. ah verene's maths is soooo tough leh.. she's onli in Pri3 leh.. but thn the maths hor.. realie de leh.. i haf to use the algebra simlutanous equation to solve it.. thn xiang came pick mi up, thn he aso help abit.. thn he uses tis duno wat method to solve it.. haizz.. but thn realie loh.. Pri3 onli leh.. the maths hor.. realie damn diff loh.. i used the sec sch method to solved it loh..
ermm.. thn todae mondae.. actualie quite a nice feeling.. mondae no need go wrk, thn stay home like tis slack.. thn after driving, after lunchie thn cum homey.. actualie supposed to do hse wrk de.. but thn benben called mi, sae mummy left a note on her door.. actualie is telling mi to do the hsewrk de.. thn he ask mi wat mummy wrote.. thn he asked izzit ask him do hsewrk, thn i said YES~* hehe.. so benben realie go do hsewrk loh.. hehe.. after he did the hsewrk he called mummie thn realise tat note is actualie for mi de.. hehe.. who ask him chinese sooo poor.. so bo bian lah.. hehe~*
now wan go movie with xiang.. but thn not much show recently leh.. and to make ting worst, his playin PS2 with benben now.. win liao loh.. he rather play with him thn go out with mi.. dun like him de...
Thursday, May 06, 2004
Its mi.. and its lucnhie time.. i am in the office.. tink its raining cats and doggies outside.. but thn it doesnt matter.. coz tis truly reflects my mood.. feelin damn unhappie now..
yest huiyu sms mi sae she got into NTU liao leh.. thn its like i am realie hapie for her loh.. its like at least she got sumting she wanted and stuff like tat.. frankly speakin lah.. i am relaie hapie for her.. but thn my after tot is i am sad for my ownself. its like yar.. coz i didnt get in loh.. thn yar.. thou pple are tellin mi tat ther is still chance.. but thn cum on loh.. i knw my own results and all.. i realie didnt do well de loh.. wat xiang sae is true lah.. she sacrifice all her time in poly to study hard.. while i use the time to play hard, so whn it cums to the seed that we sow, obviously she she gets a sweeter harvest loh.. i knw tis theory, so thou i am hopin for miricle to hapen, but thn i still didnt put in too much hope, coz if i didnt get in, thn its realie disaterous...
well.. actualie nw i not hapie with her, its not coz of the uni problem.. coz i cant blame her for it. its onli mi who played too hard in poly.. but thn wat realie makes mi mad is her attitude loh.. i mean yar.. todae i'm realie busy loh.. i mean wrk duno why all starts to cum in all at the same time.. but thn at least, show sum respect loh.. i knw she's busy. tats coz she's not wrkin smart enuff.. she's simply wrkin hard.. so as a result, she's just sloggin awae.. so whn she's free, thn she will cum to my side and wan tok cock and all.. thn todae she like not free, thn she realie throw mi aside liek tat.. i felt so played.. tis is not wat frewns shld be de.. i relaie dun appreciate tis nonsense loh.. i'm angry. realie realie angry. with her attitude. i realie regret stayin for her sake.. in wrk, ther'e realie no such tings as frewns.. at least wrkin for so long, i finaly has got to knw tis point.. all my bosses and colleauge has told mi tis. but thn we choose to differ it.. now, i realie understand it liao..
yest huiyu sms mi sae she got into NTU liao leh.. thn its like i am realie hapie for her loh.. its like at least she got sumting she wanted and stuff like tat.. frankly speakin lah.. i am relaie hapie for her.. but thn my after tot is i am sad for my ownself. its like yar.. coz i didnt get in loh.. thn yar.. thou pple are tellin mi tat ther is still chance.. but thn cum on loh.. i knw my own results and all.. i realie didnt do well de loh.. wat xiang sae is true lah.. she sacrifice all her time in poly to study hard.. while i use the time to play hard, so whn it cums to the seed that we sow, obviously she she gets a sweeter harvest loh.. i knw tis theory, so thou i am hopin for miricle to hapen, but thn i still didnt put in too much hope, coz if i didnt get in, thn its realie disaterous...
well.. actualie nw i not hapie with her, its not coz of the uni problem.. coz i cant blame her for it. its onli mi who played too hard in poly.. but thn wat realie makes mi mad is her attitude loh.. i mean yar.. todae i'm realie busy loh.. i mean wrk duno why all starts to cum in all at the same time.. but thn at least, show sum respect loh.. i knw she's busy. tats coz she's not wrkin smart enuff.. she's simply wrkin hard.. so as a result, she's just sloggin awae.. so whn she's free, thn she will cum to my side and wan tok cock and all.. thn todae she like not free, thn she realie throw mi aside liek tat.. i felt so played.. tis is not wat frewns shld be de.. i relaie dun appreciate tis nonsense loh.. i'm angry. realie realie angry. with her attitude. i realie regret stayin for her sake.. in wrk, ther'e realie no such tings as frewns.. at least wrkin for so long, i finaly has got to knw tis point.. all my bosses and colleauge has told mi tis. but thn we choose to differ it.. now, i realie understand it liao..
Tuesday, May 04, 2004
Just reached office.. todae is tuesdae.. now is 8.48am on my clock.. hehe~* just wanna drop a note.. yesterdae, after wrk, i went to yishun inter walkwalk wif huiyu.. thn hor.. hehe~* i pierce my ear hole leh.. hehe~* 20 years in my life.. tis is the first time.. actualie its aso not as pain as i tot it would be lah.. so ermm.. yar.. hehe~*
Thursday, April 29, 2004
Dear Blog, its mi again.. its 5.51m on my pc clock.. why am i still in the office..
a) Thunder Storm here... Lightning and thunder and large amount of rain...
b) Waiting for Huiyu.. Tink we need to tok about my resignation tml.. the whole dae she's hinting mi to tink bout my decision, and finally ard 5pm, she ask mi can i dun resign..
Okie.. so onli 2 point.. but the power to this 2 points is soooo great.. to keep mi in the office whn i got nth to do, and aso whn i am to meet xiang in orchard.. haizz.. i wan GGggooo.... what am i doin here.. haizz.. Bad life ah..
Todae email andrea abit.. Thn found out tat she tml last dae.. yar.. she resigned.. and nw she wan take a break frm wrk.. might wan go aussie study, or SIM for a part time coz.. yar.. aniwae.. haizz.. thn i sms qian, thn she sae she wan go bac to sch.. damn funni de.. wrking de cant wait to get out of the wrk and back to sch.. schooling de cant wait to get out of sch and go back to wrk.. haizz..
and now huiyu tell mi she tml dun wan cum wrk.. so she can no need see mi tender.. fuck loh. i waited for her till nw and tis is the nonsense i got frm her. fed up loh. fuck it lah.. leavin office now liao.
a) Thunder Storm here... Lightning and thunder and large amount of rain...
b) Waiting for Huiyu.. Tink we need to tok about my resignation tml.. the whole dae she's hinting mi to tink bout my decision, and finally ard 5pm, she ask mi can i dun resign..
Okie.. so onli 2 point.. but the power to this 2 points is soooo great.. to keep mi in the office whn i got nth to do, and aso whn i am to meet xiang in orchard.. haizz.. i wan GGggooo.... what am i doin here.. haizz.. Bad life ah..
Todae email andrea abit.. Thn found out tat she tml last dae.. yar.. she resigned.. and nw she wan take a break frm wrk.. might wan go aussie study, or SIM for a part time coz.. yar.. aniwae.. haizz.. thn i sms qian, thn she sae she wan go bac to sch.. damn funni de.. wrking de cant wait to get out of the wrk and back to sch.. schooling de cant wait to get out of sch and go back to wrk.. haizz..
and now huiyu tell mi she tml dun wan cum wrk.. so she can no need see mi tender.. fuck loh. i waited for her till nw and tis is the nonsense i got frm her. fed up loh. fuck it lah.. leavin office now liao.
Wednesday, April 28, 2004
Dear Blog,
Its fang gong time again.. Todae actualie is a relatively pleasant dae till now.. ermm.. or maybe about 15min ago.. realie dampen my mood.. I already hated tat idiot for taking awae my V180 awae.. and nw, it seems like its more thn V180.. Seems like even the A1000 his gettin involved too.. and God knws wat else his goin to take awae frm mi.. Fuck man.. Realie fed-up.. Wrk starts to build up todae.. Mostly the Telian stuff.. my C340 and V240.. Heng the Koreans onli realie look for mi.. so i was still tinking, maybe wrk is still not tat bad mah.. coz its like i am doin wat I like.. so i startin to haf 2nd tots about the fridae resignation stuff.. But now, seems like I did not make a wrong choice..
told huiyu about it this ting just now.. her reply was aso not wat i wan hear.. after being here for so long, i'm realie disappointed at her.. i mean all along i tot onli she knws hw i realie feel, wat i realie wan.. but thn guess i'm wrong aso.. tis time round, she's not leavin.. coz her sis just resigned.. I knw tis sounds practical.. but thn wat i see, is tat she cant bear it here too.. cant bear to start all over again.. so yar.. i'm angry.. veryvery angry.. and i haf to go dinner wif her tonite.. thou xiang's havin off, but thn coz i dated her first.. i mean its still effort on my part.. and tis is all i go..
Fuck. tat fucker got my Razor file tat i just set up TODAE.
Its fang gong time again.. Todae actualie is a relatively pleasant dae till now.. ermm.. or maybe about 15min ago.. realie dampen my mood.. I already hated tat idiot for taking awae my V180 awae.. and nw, it seems like its more thn V180.. Seems like even the A1000 his gettin involved too.. and God knws wat else his goin to take awae frm mi.. Fuck man.. Realie fed-up.. Wrk starts to build up todae.. Mostly the Telian stuff.. my C340 and V240.. Heng the Koreans onli realie look for mi.. so i was still tinking, maybe wrk is still not tat bad mah.. coz its like i am doin wat I like.. so i startin to haf 2nd tots about the fridae resignation stuff.. But now, seems like I did not make a wrong choice..
told huiyu about it this ting just now.. her reply was aso not wat i wan hear.. after being here for so long, i'm realie disappointed at her.. i mean all along i tot onli she knws hw i realie feel, wat i realie wan.. but thn guess i'm wrong aso.. tis time round, she's not leavin.. coz her sis just resigned.. I knw tis sounds practical.. but thn wat i see, is tat she cant bear it here too.. cant bear to start all over again.. so yar.. i'm angry.. veryvery angry.. and i haf to go dinner wif her tonite.. thou xiang's havin off, but thn coz i dated her first.. i mean its still effort on my part.. and tis is all i go..
Fuck. tat fucker got my Razor file tat i just set up TODAE.
Tuesday, April 27, 2004
Dear blog,
I am in the office now. Its about 1/2hr to fang gong. Todae is quite a horrible dae. Coz I didnt have much to do. Normally at wrk, pple are hopin for less wrk, but mi on the other hand, is hopin for more. Funnie rite.. yar.. Finally, its the end of the dae.. I realie waited so damn long for this moment. Hw I wish I can dun cum wrk tml.. but thn its quite impossible.. For the entire mth of April, I have not had a complete wrk week.. Its either MC, or leave an urgent leave.. Kind of regret taking so much leave and MC since the begining.. How??
This morn I had a short talk with my mum. Told her bout my intension of resignation. Actualie i onlie intend to inform her of my resignation, and not to ask for her opinion.. I knw i am stubborn.. coz i realie dun wan stay here ani longer. Thus i knw if I start askin, thn if she start to contradict my decision, i will start to shake frm my own decision. But surprisingly, she did not qus my decision, and neither did she show any disapproval. In fact she is still pretty supportive. So yar.. with my mum liek tis, it gives mi more confidence to carry on with my decision.
Actualie i'm reallie glad my mum gif mi this response. Coz i guess i am still pretty much of a kid. I will still want parent approval. I dun wan to do tings tat they tink is wrong. I mean i still wan to be their good girl.. So i'm glad tat i went to tok to her about it. hehe~*
So nw, its just up to my enduring skills.. see how am I goin to survive till then.. the more I tink, the more heartpain I got. Coz tat fucker took my V180 Project awae.. I realie put alot of time n effort in it. And he just took it awae like tis. I realie realie hate him!! I knw this is wrk. But thn i still cant take it. maybe i'm childish.. but thn haizz.. duno lah..
Xiang is reallie supportive too.. I knw these few daes i start to PMS liao.. so my tolerance level is veri low.. we will kick up a quarrel damn easily.. But thn he aso damn encouragin about my resignation. He onli earnin a miserable 600plus frm his NSF.. but thn he sae we can survive on this de.. hehe~* no shoppin, no restaurant.. thn can survive liao.. actualie like tat tink aso quite sweet.. thn he just nw sms mi tell mi recently alot of pple driving all first time pass.. so he ask mi to jia you.. hehe~* but thn if fail aso nemind.. he will be my chauffer... hehe~*
Getin damn fat recentli.. damn jia lat.. todae later goin gym with xiang.. go wrk out abit.. tis will be 2nd time i go gym leh.. so scary.. the last time i go i still in sec sch, go ther playplay onli leh.. i scare later alot of pple.. thn i scare later i do wrongly thn pai sey.. hehe~* but thn nemind lah.. everiting aso got first time de mah rite..
Goin fang gong liao.. thn nw gt pple ask mi do wrk, so haf to OT.. damn stupid de.. i whole dae nth to do, thn nw fang gong liao thn ask mi open wavier.. damn stupid..
I am in the office now. Its about 1/2hr to fang gong. Todae is quite a horrible dae. Coz I didnt have much to do. Normally at wrk, pple are hopin for less wrk, but mi on the other hand, is hopin for more. Funnie rite.. yar.. Finally, its the end of the dae.. I realie waited so damn long for this moment. Hw I wish I can dun cum wrk tml.. but thn its quite impossible.. For the entire mth of April, I have not had a complete wrk week.. Its either MC, or leave an urgent leave.. Kind of regret taking so much leave and MC since the begining.. How??
This morn I had a short talk with my mum. Told her bout my intension of resignation. Actualie i onlie intend to inform her of my resignation, and not to ask for her opinion.. I knw i am stubborn.. coz i realie dun wan stay here ani longer. Thus i knw if I start askin, thn if she start to contradict my decision, i will start to shake frm my own decision. But surprisingly, she did not qus my decision, and neither did she show any disapproval. In fact she is still pretty supportive. So yar.. with my mum liek tis, it gives mi more confidence to carry on with my decision.
Actualie i'm reallie glad my mum gif mi this response. Coz i guess i am still pretty much of a kid. I will still want parent approval. I dun wan to do tings tat they tink is wrong. I mean i still wan to be their good girl.. So i'm glad tat i went to tok to her about it. hehe~*
So nw, its just up to my enduring skills.. see how am I goin to survive till then.. the more I tink, the more heartpain I got. Coz tat fucker took my V180 Project awae.. I realie put alot of time n effort in it. And he just took it awae like tis. I realie realie hate him!! I knw this is wrk. But thn i still cant take it. maybe i'm childish.. but thn haizz.. duno lah..
Xiang is reallie supportive too.. I knw these few daes i start to PMS liao.. so my tolerance level is veri low.. we will kick up a quarrel damn easily.. But thn he aso damn encouragin about my resignation. He onli earnin a miserable 600plus frm his NSF.. but thn he sae we can survive on this de.. hehe~* no shoppin, no restaurant.. thn can survive liao.. actualie like tat tink aso quite sweet.. thn he just nw sms mi tell mi recently alot of pple driving all first time pass.. so he ask mi to jia you.. hehe~* but thn if fail aso nemind.. he will be my chauffer... hehe~*
Getin damn fat recentli.. damn jia lat.. todae later goin gym with xiang.. go wrk out abit.. tis will be 2nd time i go gym leh.. so scary.. the last time i go i still in sec sch, go ther playplay onli leh.. i scare later alot of pple.. thn i scare later i do wrongly thn pai sey.. hehe~* but thn nemind lah.. everiting aso got first time de mah rite..
Goin fang gong liao.. thn nw gt pple ask mi do wrk, so haf to OT.. damn stupid de.. i whole dae nth to do, thn nw fang gong liao thn ask mi open wavier.. damn stupid..
Wednesday, April 21, 2004
At the office now.. all of a sudden tink the blog i posted the dae b4 sounds to er xin.. hehe.. tink i was thn in a damn sweet mood.. so everyting i wrote all so tian.. thn tian till nw read liao aso feel er xin myself.. hehe.. not sae now no tian liao.. but thn yar.. hehe..
aniwae, nw in the office, dyin to leave.. but thn waitin for my ai ren to finish her wrk first.. everytime aso she wait for mi.. nw i wait for her aso correct lah.. well.. sian.. the desire to resigned is all over mi again.. in fact tis mth rite.. i took quite alot of leave n mc.. so now even more reluctant to cum back office.. yar.. so i am tinkin of tenderin up the resignation end of mth.. yar.. i knw pple are so sick of hearin mi wantin to quit, but thn in the end still here.. but thn frankly speakin lah.. noone understand wat i'm goin try here.. at times, i tink even xiang duno.. on mon i told him about mi feel like tenderin end of the mth.. the respond frm him dun realie sound supportive.. aso cannot sae not supportive lah.. he is all hands and legs up for mi to leave.. but thn he aso duno why am i still hangin on after so long.. actualie i aso duno why.. its a indescrible feeling.. guess onli my airen knws.. so mi and her got this special bonding coz of tis.. yar..
aniwae.. yar.. tats wat i feel like doin loh.. haizz..
aniwae.. my granny was in hospital for bout 2 weeks ard the begining of the mth.. she was out frm the hospi last week.. actualie i am soo upset bout it.. coz thers tis bacteria in her blood.. i duno if ther's an entry for this, but thn i'm realie upset.. among all my grandparents, she is the least i wan to lose.. coz i am the closest to her.. yar.. so i kept goin to visit her.. thanks thers xiang ard.. i dun mean to sae his my chauffer, but thn i realie appreciate it as he realie drives mi ard.. thanks kae dear.. but thn thanks god she's feelin beta liao loh..
and yar... sumting provoke mi last nite.. i was home earli last nite.. thn i went online mah.. thn i read yk's tat ex the blog.. thn as i read on, she still likes him loh.. thn the wae she sae till like damn er xin aso.. haizz.. realie dun like this girl.. like so damn fake.. i mean why do she haf to be like so hoo-haa over yk leh.. worth it meh?? i realie dun understand.. but thn the worst ting is a statement she said tat realie realie irritates mi.. i mean she mention mi in tat particular blog.. and i mean its sumting pretty personal.. and she actualie published it out like this.. i'm realie angry.. but thn nemind.. guess wrkin life realie brush mi up.. coz i is like furious at it.. but thn i hold my cool and didnt do aniting about it.. fed-up leh..
aniwae, nw in the office, dyin to leave.. but thn waitin for my ai ren to finish her wrk first.. everytime aso she wait for mi.. nw i wait for her aso correct lah.. well.. sian.. the desire to resigned is all over mi again.. in fact tis mth rite.. i took quite alot of leave n mc.. so now even more reluctant to cum back office.. yar.. so i am tinkin of tenderin up the resignation end of mth.. yar.. i knw pple are so sick of hearin mi wantin to quit, but thn in the end still here.. but thn frankly speakin lah.. noone understand wat i'm goin try here.. at times, i tink even xiang duno.. on mon i told him about mi feel like tenderin end of the mth.. the respond frm him dun realie sound supportive.. aso cannot sae not supportive lah.. he is all hands and legs up for mi to leave.. but thn he aso duno why am i still hangin on after so long.. actualie i aso duno why.. its a indescrible feeling.. guess onli my airen knws.. so mi and her got this special bonding coz of tis.. yar..
aniwae.. yar.. tats wat i feel like doin loh.. haizz..
aniwae.. my granny was in hospital for bout 2 weeks ard the begining of the mth.. she was out frm the hospi last week.. actualie i am soo upset bout it.. coz thers tis bacteria in her blood.. i duno if ther's an entry for this, but thn i'm realie upset.. among all my grandparents, she is the least i wan to lose.. coz i am the closest to her.. yar.. so i kept goin to visit her.. thanks thers xiang ard.. i dun mean to sae his my chauffer, but thn i realie appreciate it as he realie drives mi ard.. thanks kae dear.. but thn thanks god she's feelin beta liao loh..
and yar... sumting provoke mi last nite.. i was home earli last nite.. thn i went online mah.. thn i read yk's tat ex the blog.. thn as i read on, she still likes him loh.. thn the wae she sae till like damn er xin aso.. haizz.. realie dun like this girl.. like so damn fake.. i mean why do she haf to be like so hoo-haa over yk leh.. worth it meh?? i realie dun understand.. but thn the worst ting is a statement she said tat realie realie irritates mi.. i mean she mention mi in tat particular blog.. and i mean its sumting pretty personal.. and she actualie published it out like this.. i'm realie angry.. but thn nemind.. guess wrkin life realie brush mi up.. coz i is like furious at it.. but thn i hold my cool and didnt do aniting about it.. fed-up leh..
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