Dear Blog,

I am back!!
I am back in Singapore, I am back in the office..

I really (in a way) had fun there.. I almost wised that I do not have to come back.. The hotel is soooo sooooo nice...

I am about to leave office for home, been a busy day as I have been away from work since Friday.. Work's piling up... Reached Singapore last evening at around 9pm.. Took a train to Xiang's house, and from there he sent me home.. I think this is one of the veryvery few times that I took a train with him..

Feeling so tired, instead of a relaxing holiday, I feel like I am shopping myself to death... All I did the entire day was to walk and walk, eat and eat... Think I gain a couple of kgs just from this weekend.. I have to go back to my lunchless diet again..

Okie, I shall update again.. And now, its time for me to leave my office..

Dear Blog,

Its me, early in the morning come in to leave a note.. Well, yesterday was really a hard day to pass.. But then it still went past eventually.. Yesterday afternoon, Alex(my boss) called me into his room for a talk..

So well, he called me to talked about a position which suddenly become available.. Its a secretary position to another Director... This Director is from the Exhibit side, his in-charge of the Marketing Department. And right now, coz we are doing the Nokia project globally, so they have like combine set up a special division to handle it.. And that Director, Anthony was to head it. Then he will need a secretary to help him on it. So that become an opening which Alex think I can take it...

Overall, I am still answerable to Alex, coz he is still the Head of everything in Projects Department.. Thou in this Division, Alex and Anthony are actually supposed to be on par, no whose bigger and smaller. But then given Alex character, my guess is he will end up as the decision maker for all..

So, this is consider a promotion.. As I will be secretary to the Director, and not to those Division Manager.. And I will not be handling those POs anymore.. (A new admin girl will come in and take over this part of my job..) Sounds good?? And of coz, there will be adjustment in pay and all...

But my concerns are, it was rumored that Anthony is a Se Lang... As a marketing guy, he spend his time doing no work but talk.. Especially pretty girls... Well, I not pretty so I not worry.. But then my main concern is about this Bitch named Grace in her department..

Right now, she actually tries to bully me into doing all sort of work that she should be doing for her.. Good thing Irene and Lynn saw it and Lynn even feed-backed to the HR Manager about it.. Will I get even more abusedly bullied there??

Hard to believe right, I actually got bullied.. All along I thought only got me bully people and never the other way round.. But then well, its true.. This is really one bloodie biatch... I dont want to waste time explaining how I get bullied, she dont deserve this much of my attention..

Tired tired... And the weather is damn hot today. I tied up my hair.. First time since I did my rebonding I tied up my hair.. Hope not much damage is done.. But then its really hot.. Cant help it lah..

I started writing this entry early in the morning, Around 9plus if I still can remember.. And time really flies today, another busy day in the office.. And I still got so much POs not issue, but then its alright.. Boss not in, I can continue tomorrow... Yesterday OT till 6.30pm like that coz last minute need to do up a namelist for SK II Counter at Metro Paragon... So today going back early, to make up for the lost time yesterday..

Well, just to make this entry a little longer.. Thursday night I will go home, pick up OO, and send him to my granny house.. Actually Thursday night want to spend the night at xiang's house, then Friday morning we can go down to Golderm Mile there for the coach together. But then now a change of plans, I shall stay at my granny's house instead.. To accompany my OO, and also to teach the maids how to handle OO.. Like feed him and how to clear his mess... Poor Lizzie is going to stay at home coz she's too big a size, I dont want her to go frighten the kids at my granny's house.. Then Xiang will come pick me up at Pasir Ris on Friday morning... So at least its nearer to his house compared to my house.. And after that, will be a 3day 2night trip at Sunway Lagoon.. Initially I was still kind of looking forward to it.. But then now not really anymore.. Dont know why.. I have not packed my stuff yet, and still have not go change the currencies.. Actually a little not too exicted compared to the previous few days..

Dear Blog,

Today is monday.. Weather seems not bad.. Like its going to rain, but then still not raining.. And today, I totally lost the mood to work. I wonder what did I do the entire morning.. Seems like not much work is generated out.. I am feeling so damn tired thou I slpt around 10plus 11pm last night.. Not that late in my opinion, but I am still feeling damn shag today..

Yesterday, is my darling's bdae.. I got no pressent for him, and neither do I have the intention of wrapping myself up in a ribbon for him.. So for us, tis just another day. But at the end of the day, I got him a cup of icecream, and put a candle for him, sing him a birthday song, and make him make a wish and blow out the candle.. Well, he dont like cake, but he does like ice-cream.. So thats the best I could make it out..

I am feeling so slpy, no mood to work at all.. How? Just came back from lunch, half the day stands right infront of me.. What am I going to do?? Oh God, please help me..

Today Vatican is going to choose a new Pope. Regardless what is the outcome, it doesnt bother me at all. But then I do like to see the process.. Coz I have read about it all in Dan Brown's Angel and Demon.. So I would like to see the process in real life.. And I guess today, everyone would have forgotten about the old Pope, John Paul 2.. Well, in that case I will say a silent prayer for him and may he rest in peace..

Its only 1.38pm.. Still got ermm.. 4hours more to go... Die Die Die..

What a dreadful day..

Yesterday, it was quite an okie day in the office.. Went for the meeting at 4pm, and I actually took minutes.. Monday go back office have to go draft it out.. But then I missed the first part of the meeting. I wonder what am I going to do about it...

Meeting ended around 6.30pm, then went back to my table, only to find out that I had quite abit of missed calls.. Well, my mummy in one of her cranky mood yesterday.. So she asked me to go home feed doggies and all, when I already ahd plans to go Esther hse to celebrate her birthday.. Can you just imagine how upset am I... After alot of quarrelings with Ben, for not helping me out before he left home, and also with Mummy, who kept saying I have to take sole responsibilities for OO and Lizzie coz they are "my dogs", I really freak out. So I went straight home, thinking maybe I can still head down to Esther house after feeding the dogs, since mummy and ben was like so anti-me after I freak out at them.. But then that fucker ben, didnt clear the house when he came back from school.. That stupid OO actually dirtied the whole house.. So, I took about an hour clearing the house.. Can you just imagine how upset am I.. I reached home around 8plus, then by the time I am done with the house, its around 9pm. Then when I was about to feed the doggies, xiang came.. He came to pick me up. So I went bath, and by the time I was ready to leave the house, its already like 9plus.. I was soo soo soo soo angry. Really really angry with all of them.

Then I dont went to stay home, and it looks too late to go over to Esther house. So I went to xiang's house to stay for the night. Had a late dinner with him and his dad, then I was so tired (from rushing around, and clearing the house) that I knock out right after dinner..

Then this morning I woke up, then prepare abit then I drove myself to work with xiang's car... But then its with him with me so he can drive back the car.. Then today didnt do much work, spent most of the time chatting with Irene coz alex didnt come work today, so abit of rest and relax mood..

Then xiang came pick me up from work, then back to his place.. Then I took a napnap.. Byt the time i wake up, its already 4pm.. So we left his house, go to Beach Road Goldern Mile Complex there to book our Sunway Lagoon trip for the next weekend..Pretty excited about the trip. I wonder if its okie to wear bikini at the water theme park and if xiang will allow me to wear bikini ther.. Coz right now I dont own any swimwear except for that 2 bikini.. Well, the service that agency provide was actually pretty good.. I think can plan another trip further.. Take a plane next time round...

I was like damn freaking hungry by that time, and we went to had our dinner at the Goldern Mile Hawker Centre.. Had chicken rice.. Think the last time I ate that chicken rice, its when I was still in Primary school.. Then walked past that Prawn noodles stall, reminded me of Heng²...

And after that, 6plus daddy called me.. Seems like the doggies made a big mess of the house again.. And he said wants to talk to me about the doggies.. So I totally had no mood to go anywhere else thou its a Saturday evening, and Xiang sent me home. Till now, its like 10plus, they have not talked to me at all. But then daddy is angry about the doggies, and want me to send then away... Mummy have not even talk to me at all.. Well, and I kept myself in the room since 6plus till now.. With Oo and Lizzie of coz..

Feeling confused now.. Feeling damn upset that I didnt go to Esther Birthday Celebrations yesterday.. And also angry that I cant spend the night with xiang coz tomorrow is his birthday... I think this is one of the worst weekend I ever have..

But then Happy Birthday Girl, may all your wises come true kae.. I just been to her blog, and seems like they had so much fun last night and I miss it all.. Hope she like the pressent we got for her..

And also to xiang.. Happy sweet 23rd.. And I love you.

Dear Blog,

Thursday morning.. The time now is 9.02am.. Reach office around mins ago, just finish checking my mails and all.. Have not really start working.. Today thou its only a Tursday, but then I am feeling bight and gay!! Maybe its coz I am not wearing my usual black and white.. I am wearing this colorful skirt (pink, orange and yellow strips..) and a plain top to match my ever so sweet skirt.. Its been ages that I have worn this skirt out.. Bought it at bugis that pasar malam.. Xiang paid for it while I was changing out coz he really think it really look nice on me...

And today Horoscope says my lucky color is pink!! My skirt has lots of Pink.. But too bad I only heard the Horoscope after I left home.. If not I would have worn a Pinky top to match my skirt.. But then I guess this is good enough.. *wink² ;P*

Enough about that skirt.. For the past few days, actually I was not on very good terms with xiang.. We quarrel again.. Yupz.. About some stuff that happened donkey months ago.. Dont know hows our status are like now.. Well, but then we are still going to our Sunway Lagoon trip next week... Actually I am kinda looking forward to that trip.. Its like been soooo long since I took a trip out of Singapore. But no doubt, I will be happier if we are able to travel further..

Well, today hopefully will be a fast day.. After lunch, I need to cover the reception for an hour.. And that will bring time to around 2.30pm minimum.. Then 4.30pm I have the Dinner and Dance 2005 Commitee Meeting.. So excited leh.. I am selected into the D & D commitee this year.. I wonder what theme will we come out with today.. *excited*

I was flipping through my organizer last evening, and I realised that May is coming, and all your birthdays are coming.. I want to celebrate for Huiyu, Heng², Huili, Huishan, Beast² and who else have I missed out.. And you know what.. All these 5 people birthday fall in the same week.. (Going to be a busy week ah..hehe~*)

Okie, guess its time to head back to work.. If not my afternoon will get all jamed up.. I am happy today guys, hope you are happy too kae!!

Dear Blog,

Today the Horoscope says I've got 4stars for all sectors.. Meaningly my Love, Work, Health and Overall.. So today is a good day for me!! Its also says works that I found hard to do earlier on will seemed easy today.. Well, lets hope so ba okie..

Called Huili yesterday, glad to know that she's actually starting to do fine after her meeting with the phychatrist (Dont know how to spell that.. I tried my best..) Well, actually at the end of every relationship, either one or both parties will feel very bad about it. I think its unavoidable, but then since things have come to an end, really no point to keep laminating over the same question over and over again..

And today, finally I got some good thing to say about my hair.. With the short fridge, its totally covering my eyebrowns.. So, this means that it doesnt matter if I draw or dont draw my eyebrowns.. hehe~* Coz its totally hidden away from sight..

Cant wait for the weekend to come.. Thou today is only Tuesday.. I kept thinking today is Wednesday when I woke up this morning.. Dont know why.. This friday, going to Esther's house for her birthday celebration dinner.. Then Sunday will be xiang's birthday.. Actually I was thinking of bringing him to the zoo (I used to LOVE zoo alotalot when I was in Poly.. My record is I can go there 3 times in 7days.) and I shall prepare a pinic for us.. But then he told me his going to tomb sweeping on that day with his parents, so means we cannot go zoo... *sad* So I got totally ZERO idea on what are we going to do on that day..

Well, maybe celebrations will only come next week instead, coz I took leave, and we will be heading for a short trip.. Actually wanted to go Bangkok, but then now Bangkok like not save so I cancelled off my bookings, then wanted to switch to HongKong, but then its too expensive in the end.. So now, I am thinking of Sunway Lagoon.. Plans still not finalized yet, but then I have started calling agencies to check it out.. So that shall be his be-lated bdae celebrations..

An hour more to 5.30pm, so i thought i shall just drop a few notes since i want to upload the entry for last friday..

In the office now, feeling muchmuch better.. Went to see a doctor on Saturday morning, which cost me like 41bucks plusplus.. After taking the meddy, i took a nap, and went to do my hair..

Yupzz, i rebond it again.. But then this time, with something different.. I cut my fridge short. Short as in right across my face, just above my eyebrowns that short.. I took some pictures, will try to upload it when I have the mood.. Well, i actually regretted cutting the fridge as i really find it damn ugly.. Its like compared to a year ago, i think i look like a nut now.. its like soo ..... I wonder how high are the chances that once the hair grows long, i am able to do up the parting, and i am going to look 'pretty' like last year.. Well, xiang says i look okie.. Just that maybe i am not used to it only.. But then i really think its more then NOT USED TO IT.. But then nothing can change the fact.. so well, just got to wait till it grows long, and see how it goes..

Okie, actually I am really upset about my hair.. Ben² told me last night,'Jie, its really "PRETTY" ah..' I was like ..... He actually put up his hand and do the exclaimation mark right at my face.. I was so damn sad... Even my own brother said that to me.. And my mummy laugh at me.. If OO and Lizzie could communicate with me, i wonder what will they say about my hair... And the stupid short fridge is like making me so uncomfy.. Its like ended in the middle of nowhere.. Its quite disturbing and annoying.. Really dont know what to say... Well, shall just end here.. Please let me know you comments about my new hairstyle should you see me kae..

8th April 2005 (Friday)

Wrote the below last Friday, but cant log in to update it.. So let it be a belated entry then... (Better then nothing..)

Well, actually I guess I am in this state is also partly due to me, attending the aerobics dance class yesterday.. Thou Irene couldnt make it yesterday, I brave through the entire class alone.. The class was fun, but then I doubt I am going to lose any weight there.. I was like jumping around trying hard to follow the steps, but then overall I think I was simply fooling around and I didnt even sweat one bit..

Haizz.. Actually I'm feeling quite xing ku now. But then looking at the time, around 1hour has passed. And I did practically nothing yet.. Hopefully today will passed in a fast and easy way... Cant wait to leave office.. And I will be meeting Andrea tonight, to have my hair done up.. Yup, rebonding again.. The same old boring hairstyle.. Xin's hairstyle have been the same for the past 4-5 years.. But then I look pretty in long straight hair right?? At least, this is the way I like it..

Feeling soo sick..

I hate Patrick.. How can he actually be such a blur sotong at work. And now everyone is suffering under his poor project management. I really have NO IDEA what is he doing.. All the work that comes out from his desk, seemed to be extra work.. His simply wasting my time and effort. Things that I have already done up, have to be done up again and again.. I know he have too much work on hand now. And I am also trying to help relieve him of his work load. But then due to his extrememly poor project management skills, his not only adding more workload to himself, and to others (expecially me..)

Note: His not even my boss.. His only a Project Executive..

Dear Blog,

I am not happy today.. In fact I seemed to enter a depression stage. I wonder if its coz of my period is finaly here or is it becoz I had too much fun today or maybe its coz the Horoscope said that I have only 2 out of 5 stars today in terms of work..

Just came back from lunch. Didnt eat anything. Dont feel like putting any food to my mouth.. But funnily I should be feeling hungry today coz I skipped dinner last night.. So for the past 24hours, I didnt exactly put any food down to my stomach..

I actually wrote a whole chuck of all the mistreatment I have recieved this morning.. But I have deleted it, coz... I dont want pple to know what I have gone through.. Know liao also no point right, its not going to help anyway...

Anyway, I have so much fun last night.. Thanks Heng².. And all the best in Saturday's competition kae..

Ermm.. I went KTV last night with Heng².. Sung alot of songs and all.. So nice to see him after such a long time.. Seen some photos on his Handphone and all.. Ermm.. haizz.. Really didnt see him for so long le.. His best frewn already got married, and so is his sister.. Time really pass.. So when's your turn Heng²??

Thou I was really happy last night, but then I am still feeling damn upset now. Think I shall go back to work, and leave on the dot today. Today really seemed like a bad day for me, or at least thats how I am feeling.. I want to go home...

Today is Monday.. The weather is like so un-Monday.. Its raining cats and dogs, making the office look like its 9pm instead of 9am early in the morning.. So the day goes on, and as Monday always was, a busy day.. So I OT till 6plus, then xiang came to pick me up. So that we could got to Serangoon North so I could buy the Doggie Food.. And that cost me 100bucks..

Well, my weekend. Nothing fasinating.. Went to Orchard for 2 days in a row, spent 7plus on parking on both days.. So that adds up to about 15bucks for 2 days.. Didnt buy anything thou we walk around alot.. Well, meet up with poly friends, at least its something..

Next week will be xiang's birthday.. And I have thought of the perfect place to bring him on that day.. But I am not going to disclose any information here, just in case he sees it.. And as for the pressent, I am still thinking about it.. Chances are either I can get it and he loves it.. Or he gets nothing this year..

Well, nothing much to add on. I wonder when will Level 4 finishes the renovations.. I cant wait to shift down.. I will bring my barang barang and make my place 'homely'..

Okie, nothing interesting.. Shall end here, hope the weekend come fast.. And oh yes, I am going for re-bonding again this Saturday with Andrea. My 5th rebonding.. Or should I try Perm?? Ermm.. Actually I prefer re-bonding, but then I have been having straight hair for the past 4years, really hope to have a change.. How??

Dear Blog,

Another entry from me.. Today is a busy day.. Things just starts pouring in.. Patrick is really getting on my nerves.. He really damn blur.. And his blurness is adding on my work burden.. But haizz.. What to do.. Think everyone in the office knows that I am like very over-worked due to his blurness..

And I think I sprained my hand, the wriast part.. How?? It hurts alot when I exert force.. I even have abit of problem writing..

My auntie Junice just called me.. She wanted to go for a Shanghai/Beijing tour with her.. we agreed to go together during the chalet last week. She just called me tell me the tour is on 19th April.. I was like SHOCKED.. And what shocked me more is its a 8days tour.. How am I going to get 6days leave.. You think Alex will go approve it?? Haizz.. hard loh... Trying to convince her to arrange it in June instead.. She mentioned that if we're going in June, she might consider bringing my little cousins along too.. hehe~* How nice..

Today my company got function. Its the Supplier's Night. They ordered cathering and all, and invited the suppliers over for a get-together.. To show them we appreciate them and all.. Nice right?? But this also means OT for us.. Damn sianzz.. The function starts at 6.30pm, but then the suppliers have start arriving since 5plus.. Dont really like the cathers. The last time they came, they have those waitress walking around serving drinks.. Red wine, beer or those non-alcoholic drinks. Ask them what is the non-alcoholic drinks, that girl replied,'Orange Juice.' Then my colleauges were all doubting, coz the color looks too yellow for Orange.. And it turned out to be a Super-Duper Sour Lime Juice..

Dear Blog,

Been some time since I blogged in an entry.. Been a busy week..

Anyway, today is one of most most not busy day for the entire week.. I was working like hell in the begining of the week.. Everyday got so much unfinished work. But its alright.. And currently, my office is at Level 5. Heard that they are renovating Level 4 now, and we might be moving down soon.. Kind of excited about shifting new office..

Well, went out with Emi on Tuesday. Didnt do anything much, just meet her at Orchard. Shop around abit. Bought this biscuit at Taka B2 under the recommandations of Emi.. Its damn yummy!! I simply love it.. Its Meiji Petit Brunch (Chicken Flavor..).. Simply delicious.. hehe~*

Its mummy birthday yesterday. Bought her a cake from Angie The Choice. The cake is still in the fridge, not cutted yet. Have not been talking to her for the past 1 week plus. And also no intention of me breaking the ice. So well, we shall just see.

Xiang's sis going to USA today.. Bon voyage to her!! She said she want to be a baker.. So she's trying to save up as much cash as possible now so she could fullfill her dreams.. Actually quite hard to imagine her being a baker.. She graduated from NUS chemical with 1st class honours.. Imagine her hiding at the kitchen baking cakes and breads?? Giving up her high-paid job in exchange for something lower in pay and long working hours... Well, if she's happy with it, what can we say??

Ate lunch at Changi Airport Staff Canteen with my colleauges.. The nasi Padang there is yummy.. And I eat and eat, and I can see my tummy bludging out.. I was still thinking of having a nice dinner with xiang today.. (I was like thinking of pasta or ramen, or China town for porridge or dim sum..) Think I can forsake the plans.. Really cannot take it.. But I going for the Dance Aerobic tonight..

Todae is Easter Sunday.. How nice..

So anyway, stayed over at the chalet from Thursday till Saturday. Enjoyed myself there with my cousins, took plenty of pictures.. Will try to upload it up here when I know how.. Friday went swiming.. And I got sun-burnt. My face starts peeling today, and my shoulder is red like lobster..

Today is 27th March, its also Qian's birthday. Happy Birthday girl!! So meet up with Qian and Karen for dinner at Plaza Singapura. Andrea didnt managed to make it.. Frankly speaking, I am pretty disappointed about it, but then well.. As we grow up, each and every of us got our life and schedule.. So ermm.. haizz..

On my way back home, quarrel with xiang again. Not really quarrel, but then more of I am upsetted about it. He never treat me as good as his ex-her. Why?? Coz i dont treat him as well as she does.. But then I really think everyone is an individual. Its not fair to be comparing us like this right? So, I ask for a break-up.. Maybe more of a cooling off period. If his not going to change this mentality, I told him not to ever look for me again. I am who I am. I wanted to be treated with respect. What in the fucking world do I have to be the 2nd best?? I dont think all this is in a moment of impulse. Things having been brewing for the last coupld of weeks.. Especially last week. I am really really upset by all things he did.

I think he really change. Recently, I am really putting in alot of effort in our relationship. But then he is simply like taking everything for granted. I've enough.

So, I make this decision.
Either he change, or we can go separate ways. I am really tired. If his going to be so un-loving after our being-together for 1year plus, then how can I trust this guy to be 'the one' for the rest of my life...

Dear Blog,

In the office now.. So thought I will come in and leave a blog as I will be heading to the chalet tonight. No access to the internet.. And I scare by the end chalet, I will be like enjoying myself, and forgetting what I am feeling now..

I am so upset. No words to show how am I feeling now. I have not talked to my mum for the past one week. Going though cold war. Tuesday, I meet up with Andrea and we went shopping for Qianhui's present. We bought her a Burberry's bag. And Andrea also bought one for herself, and I bought 2. I was thinking I will give one to my mum for her birthday. But then right now, the bag is still locked up in my room. Coz I have not been talking to her, I dont know how to give it to her..

Well, I quarrel with Xiang.. Not really quarrel, but then I am truely upset coz of him.. His driving yesterday, he didnt come pick me up thou he said he will. Well, long story and I dont want to repeat. I have not called him since then. And I have no intention to call him either.

Luckily there is chalet tonight.. I can go there and just hide. Burry myself there away from my mum.. And maybe him. I dont want to see them till I feel better. I am so upset this time round, maybe is because both thing happen at the same time. I really feel like siting here and cry..

Dear Blog,

its me again. after so many entried of perfect english, let me just slack for one day. i will still maintain the good english, just that without the Caps okie.. let me just be lazy for a day since today is monday..

feeling so ever tired.. last night saw quite a few friends online. so stayed online longer to talk to them abit.. firstly, saw that hengheng and ivan got the same nick in msn.. so the curosity gets hold on me so i msged them and ask them wats with the angel and wings nick.. then they told me it comes from a very nice song.. okie.. i abit the mountain tortise.. but then cant help it too..

then talked quite abit with heng.. ermm.. talked about the good old times.. well.. memories are meant to be held tightly near our hearts.. no point turning back and asking why didnt certain things happened at certain time. things happened or dont happen for a reason. everything is predestined. but then still glad that somewhere in my life, hengheng appeared.. so special friend he shall be to me always kae.. but noone knows what the future will brings, and as he had wished me last night, i too hoped he will be happy always..

yz was also online last night.. but then didnt really talk much to him.. anyway, saw ryan online yesterday morning, and he asked me out for a ktv tonight.. kind of looking forward to it. its been quite some time since i have been to ktv. thou i am looking forward to saving money, but then hehe~* i still welcome the break..

tml meeting andrea go buy qian's birthday present. i have already call my cousin, she will meet me at dfs tomorrow, so she can get the discount for us. i told her i want to buy a bag. she told me she thinks that burberry suit me best.. actually i was tinking of a gucci.. wat do u think?? well, maybe she is right, coz gucci seems abit too old for me. if i were to buy a burberry, its going to be much cheaper too.. dior is also on my wish list actually... (all of a sudden i am remined of the key pendent hengheng gave me last year.. hehe~* maybe the pink dior gave me the girlgirl feeling, and the pendant he gave me is also along that sweetsweet line..)

and yesh!! xiang bought me the twins album.. well, about half the album is their cantonese translated to chinese songs, while the other half are new songs.. i actually kind of like the songs.. thou the cantonese one seems nicer (even xiang think so when we played the songs in the car yesterday..)but then overall, i still love it!!! they have those ermm.. what you call that.. cant remember that word for it but anyway. they are soo soo soo pretty!!!! hehe~*

tired tired... so chatted with them till quite late, and after that i went on to read my dan brown book.. deception point is really not as nice as the previous 2. in fact, i think is am dreading to finish it now.. haizz.. regret buying. shld have buy the other book.. and the air-con is damn cold last night, so i kept waking up.. too cold i cant sleep.. so today, haizz.. and to make it worst, i was like so busy in the morning.. running up and down, so much stuff to do.. so that makes me feel even worst now.. but good thing is 1 more hour to fang gong.. hehe~* shall slowly clear my stuff, and i shall leave office on the dot and go meet ryan for my ktv liao..

well, yesterday went suntec food fair and all, bought a skirt from this dont know what fair.. i just posted the picture in friendster.. i wanted to post it up here too. but then i couldnt figure out how to.. anyone can teach me?? coz i really dont have the time (plus i am simply too lazy) to go figure it out.. haizz.. anyway, that skirt is nice.. mummy was asking me why recently i kept buying those mini skirt.. coz what to do, recently all the nice skirt seemed to be those short skirt...

kae.. think i end here liao.. hope this last hour will FFffllllyyyy......

Hey pple, early in the morning, let me share 2 pieces of good news with you...

Yesterday, I was in the office, then my boss called me into his room.. And he broke into a smile (which was like very seldom..) and told me,'how could I missed your comfimation..' So, he finally remembered it.. I was getting abit pek chek over the overdue comfirmation matters.. He asked me if what I'm getting now is enought, then I jokingly told him money where will enough.. Then he smile at me and told me,'okie, then i give you 1.7k now.. Enough??' Then I was *nod nod my head*, trying to hide my smile.. Then he went on to ask am i happy working here, and anyone bully me.. Actually I am his secretary, who dares to bully me when Ihe is my boss.. hehe~*

So, I got a 200bucks pay increment.. And wasnt I a happy girl yesterday..

And, xiang told me he got feeling he will strike 4D last thursday.. So ask me go buy 4D. Buy his car plate number, motor number, his pay(after after pay increment) and I also buy our birthdays.. And guess what.. Last night the 4D open his motor number.. But then I buy alittle only.. So only win 65bucks.. But then this is the first time I stike 4D leh.. hehe~*~*

So, thats the 2 good news yesterday..

And yesterday I go parkway eat sakae sishi.. Yummy.. And I paid with my Visa mini.. hehe~* Then bought a pair of shoes at Charles and Keith.. It looks nice.. The heels is like sooo slim.. So spent 30bucks on that.. And after that, saw Twin's new chinese album... The packaging is like so nice.. And Esther is telling me now there are alot of picture and all inside.. So tempting.. And they are giving out this Giant size poster while stock last.. So, I have just ask xiang, to buy me the album today.. hehe~* Since we strike 4D.. hehe~* So happpy!!!

I just typed in an entry and due to the stupid server, it didnt get posted up.

Fuck.

Dear Blog,

Time flies, today is the 19th of March.. One look at the Calendar, I think March is one of the hardest to pass month.. Coz with the long holiday breaks in Febuary, March simply looks too long. But then right now, its already 19th and there will be a public holiday next week.. So time and tide, really waits for no man.

Next Sunday will be Qian's birthday.. 22nd birthday. Everyone of us seemed to be aging. Be it you like it or not. How I miss those days in school.. But then, growing up is a process where noone can stop. So instead of me looking back at the past, might as well see what the future holds for me..

Life goes on.. Nothing really interesting.. More arguements and loving moments with Xiang.. Its like a cycle.. Why? I dont understand why we quarrel so much.. Is it really my problem? I really dont want it to be like this.. But is it really my problem? Or is he asking too much from me? I really think for his sake, I have changes a little.. Thou not alot, but then definately a little. Well, I guess its still not enough.

I miss my friends.. Everyone seemed busy with their own life now and have no time for each other. Is this healthy? I got no idea.. I miss everyone so much. Friends are so important to me. As I grow up, these are people who helped me and matured me. Without them, I will not be what I am today.. Am I happy now? Well, I dont know. I guess at times life simply looks like it has lost its meaning.. Working so hard everyday is for what? To make money and to keep life going? And before you realise you have already die and rot away.. Bringing nothing with you to heaven.. So what the point of all? To survive till I die? Sounds ridiculous right.. Well, its alright. Think I am just in a cranky mood today...

To survive till I die.. Sounds lame right? Its like making myself miserable while waiting for death.. Might as well die now?? Save myself from all miseries.. Hehe~* Think I went overbroad.. I love myself too much to get myself killed.. But then just settle down and quietly think, I reallye find everything kind of meaningless.. I dont know who still reads this. But then if you happen to read this, please do me a kind deed. Send me a sms, and ask me out. Please believe me, I really miss you..

Dear blog,

I know its been quite some time since I came in.. Well, reason being xiang started another blog for us.. Yupz, its us.. So I am a good girl still, updating occasionally at the other side. Not that I dont want to come in here, but thn just that I dont know what to write..

Well, been weeks since I came in I think. I dont want to go into boring details.. Work comes and goes as it. But one interesting event was my parents went for a short trip last week. So, I had the car to myself.. So last Thursday, I got the car and went on my virgin trip to the office all by myself.. I will skip the details, but then I am damn exicted about it.. And Friday too, I sent myself to work..

Ermm.. And then I bought the Angel and Demons from Dan Brown. Think I can finish the book within the next couple of days.. The story is very captivating till I am damn reluctant to put down the book. Truely a book I will recommand to all..

Nothing much happened, Ben's birthday come and passed. I got him to invite his friends back for a small party. And I ordered pizza for the kids. Looking at them, it strucked me how much I have aged. And how much I am longing to go back to that time, when I was still a kido myself..

Okie, just a short note (ermm.. doesnt really look that short right..) Shall update more again okie.. And for those who care, OO is fine now.. Stiches removes, and his happily sleeping at home now I guess..