好累呀..

 搬砖人努力了一周.. 也算圆满落幕!

Its a stressful week at Fairmont, but well.. executed another high profile workshop. This should add plenty of brownie points to my KPI this year. 再往下一个9%前进!

这周是早出晚归的.. 周五在公司看到了日出. 我到底是多早到公司啊!

Listening to my washing machine in the background.. it kept reminding how stupid i am. I am washing a clean set of bed sheet.. kns. Supposed to wash BB de, but i took out WW de. Argh.. 浪费我的时间.

要开始清假啦~ 

烦恼着要干嘛.. 想做的很多. 可是又很怕到头来.. 什么都没做到. 

Anyway.. 

今日之良言: 聪明的不必教, 笨蛋怎么教都不会.

In over-drive mode

 Dear Bloggie,

I realised i am in a hyper active mode lately. I feel that my brain is contantly on the move n my actions cannot keep up with it. I start to do something, but before i did anything.. my attention has already floated to the next thing. 

Extremely busy period at work. The global leaders are coming to SG next week for an offsite workshop that has an direct impact on the 生死存亡 of my SC folks. I'm handling the ground logistic matters n i'm dying.. 😭 Definately not helping when i still have the 101 office matters to handle.

Thou i have so much on my plate.. but still feeling loved. My finance SD came over today n told me about a townhall (是滴.. 又是我的工.. tmd) after the workshop. But there is a Checker Board day event that happening too, n he told me to do a total hands off n leave it to the others. 

忙死啦! But 加油吧 xin! 希望今年也是可丰收年. ☺️

Oh yar.. my current favorite lunch place. Super love macha latte lately.

And lastly.. a huge congrats to Bestie de 老二! 生日快乐哦. ❤️

Proud Mummy Moment

 Dear Bloggie,

I am never the studious one.. but somehow, I got a baby who is a 学霸. Year after year, she continue to excel and score.

Mummy is so proud of u BB.. ❤️

Another 搬砖人的一天

Dear Bloggie,

Woke up with a headache. 

But have to head into office today, have to settle an event for the week of 10 March. 

Busy days ahead.. today's target is 3pm!

Still have leave to clear before end March. Thinking if i should do the C2C, or even partial C2C, again. 

Anyway.. hope i survive the work day!

哈哈哈哈.. 自己给自己喊话.

Back on the roll

Dear Bloggie, 

I spent the last 2 days reading through pages n pages of my own history. I created this journal with the intention to look back at my life, and I am glad I did it. The things that matters to me back then appear so insignificant, some people around me might no longer be around. And the photos, hahaha.. I am such a young little thing back then! 

Writing a journal is addicting. I am working from home today as I stayed up late for the last couple days to rush out some stuff for my Boss. But glad it all went well in the end (reads: visa approved). Got another event to plan thats happening in 2 weeks with many Leaders flying in. A little stress - as its happening in 2 weeks and I have not even ink the venue contract. 

 Anyway.. I digress. 

Reading my old posts, stirs up emotions from the past. I used to be Xin, I used to be me. I love hanging out with my Friends, I love clubbing, the mahjong and the ktv. I love travelling and baking/ cooking and reading. 

But now.. life happens. Adulting happened. 

With all the added responsibilities, at work and at home, so many things have to be placed at the back-burner. Am I happy - yes and no? I love my babies and the financial freedom, but yet at the same time I am locked in a cell with my hands tied. 

I guess its the same for everyone. We had joy and fun in our twenties, and we are now grounded with work and family.

Many many years later..

 Its 23 Feb, 2025.

I suddenly remember this little space of mine.. keyed in the add and surprise! This space is still around.. clicked on some of the older post and was reminiscing the past, and Qian texted me at that very same moment.. I told her i was reading my old blog and happened to chance on the bit where i recorded the day she got her class 3 license. She commented that i always have the habit of recording my daily life and suggest i do it again. Yeps.. i should, why not? So here i am, many moons later.. back to my Cottage by the river. 

I hope noone is reading this.. i should figure out how to make this a private domain. 

But anyway.. Its a sunday, its a hectic day as i go through my weekend chores and suddenly got caught up with some urgent matters at work (reads: Honduras visa). Read through more old posts.. and realised that the matters that matter and affected me so much previously are all so insignificant now. And oh.. my english seriously sucks. Not that its good now, but my english is omg cringey back then. *argh* As i took a trip down memory lane.. i also took time to reflect. What could have been done differently and why was i so immature. But well, i guess all these leads to ME now. Every bit of experience forms a part of me. 

Probably at the mid-life crisis stage now, hah. Everyday is a busy day, rushing around for work, for kids.. but quiet times like this, i'll look back and think.. what have i accomplish today? 

Okay, enough ranting for the day.. 

I still find joy reading back the old posts.. lets see if i'll continue updating this space, where i can read back again, many many years later. :)

Dear Bloggie,

Feeling so upset.. :(

I've been following this Korean Variety Show - 2 Days 1 Night; for over the past 1 year. I started watching when they start the new season.. I watch how the 7 men grew from strangers to brothers and also how affectionate Bird PD became. And without any notice.. ok, just my lack of updates, I watch the 31 March episode on tablet last night.. only to know that its Bird PD and the 大哥's day episode.

Super upset lah... :(

Anyway.. this morning I started on the next episode. New PD together with a new member. Given my pattern, it'll take some time for me to get warm up to these new people.

Bleah

Dear Bloggie,

Been ages.. a real long time since I last updated. 

I cannot say life has been a bed of roses; but it had not been too bad either. I suddenly thought of this site a couple of days back; and find it a real pity that I am not writing anymore. My life has not been that interesting.. its mostly work and home. So there is also not much materials for me to write.

Anyway.. I really am getting married. Thou I did not manage to get married at the age of 25; but well.. better late then never. :) Its my 过大礼 day yesterday. Where LW came up and present my parents with the many items in exchange for my hand in marriage.

He came over at 9am with CCY.. Well well... 我真的要嫁人了. 

We spent the rest of the day running up and down delivering all the cakes to the relatives. So well well.. that is not over; and I am looking forward to the wedding. Cant say I am EXCITED; but I am really looking forward to that long break after the wedding. *smile*

Realised that many relatives are getting ready for the wedding.. buying new clothes, going to salon for hair appointsment, etc. So blessed that everyone's making all the effort for me; really feel so loved. I adopted a nonchalant attitude for the wedding.. alot of things I learned to 看开. Have I take.. dont have its okie. That makes things simplier and easier.. and I'm also not that stress out. 

So well well.. :) 

Dear Bloggie,

Ages since I last wrote.. :) Anyway, July is always a happy month.

Friends.. are the fundamental of my social life and pillar of my emotional self. Layman terms.. They are the people that laugh and cry with me, explore new adventures and reminisce on the memories that we preciously shared.

I treasure that few dear friends I have and hold them closely to heart. We have not meet up as often as I wish and fewer memories are being made as we aged. *sigh* I would have love to have us meet up more regularly, just to catch up on the happenings in life and nothings of each passing day.

So so... Friends, love you many many.

失眠夜

好累。。可是不想入睡。

好无聊啊！

Dear Bloggie,

.Random.

1. Back from my long holiday.. it has been one good trip where I truly enjoy myself. The weather is perfect, the people are polite, the food is fantastic and most importantly.. I had loving company.

2. Don on my first ever white gown. It might not be the perfect one.. but we are in search of THAT ONE. The hunt is now on.. so am trying hard to shake off that extra pounds and down a couple of size.

3. Work is less stressful after the trip.. Chevron has an happy ending and NLB is next. But thankfully I play a minor role this time round.

4. Despite all the happy things.. I am not happy.

Dear Bloggie,

This has been an extremely busy week.

After 5 weeks of intense preparation, the event at Chevron House finally ended. Well.. no major glitches during the past 3 days, I guess my Bosses are all happy. My boss even told me I truly deserve this long break.

Unfortunately, no thanks to the weather and I am a little not in an excellent condition. There is this weird lumpy feeling at my throat and I am feel very very tired. I left office at 3pm today, oh yes.. the bosses literately chase me home! And have been packing from then till now.

So I guess... I have to go lie down abit and try to get myself in a better condition.

Ermm.. ok.

人生

做人还真是无奈。。

我以为我做得很好了，但事非如此。

以为在工作上做得尽善尽美了，可是还是徒劳无功。

以为在友情上尽心尽力，到头来蓦然回首空无一人。

心寒阿。。

手机永远没朋友真心的问候，有的只是源源不绝的公司电邮。

好累啊。

Disappointed

Dear bloggie,

Disappointed to the max. Work is horrible. So all the more i am looking forward.

Can i just call in sick tml. I really just wanna be alone.

Dear Bloggie,

.Random Updates.

1. Sooo busy at work. I have got this Road show coming up from 2 - 4 April at Chevron House. This is the first time we are having a road show and have offered our SAS Clients free booth. So much co-ordination work is involved. My BD is ermm.. just cant see the bigger picture and its a pain in the ass at times. So well well, I just cannot wait for the Road show to be over.

2. Heading to Japan on the 5 April, right after the Road show finish. Had planned to travel to USA but the plan got postpone due to unforeseen circumstances. But well well.. this is going to be a 12 days F&E trip and we'll be heading to Tokyo and Osaka. I am quite excited as I've never been to Japan, and I am glad to have a break from work and to spend quality time with Boyfriend.

3. I am all excited about the Wedding plans again. I am now actively looking around (virtually thou.. hehe) for Bridal Studio and Photographer. Have no target yet but I just got excited looking around.

Dear Bloggie,

I miss Granny..

How nice will it be, if she is still around.

Sigh..

待嫁女儿心

Dear Bloggie,

This is a very family oriented weekend or me. Attended Boyfriend's cousin's wedding on Saturday and spent the entire Sunday with my Aunts and Cousins.

Well.. That's how weekend should be like. Hanging out with all the Loved Ones.

So anyway.. After attendin the wedding dinner yesterday, it kind of ignited that wedding fire in me again.

I am super 三分钟热度. I was super excited about the wedding matters right after my XP had proposed. But after we settled on the date and banquet, my heart flew to preparation for the coming Tokyo and Osaka trip. Not that the itinerary is out.. But i'm all set to just armed myself with the guidebook and get lost in the streets and alleys of Tokyo in the hopefully not too cold weather. And well.. Now i am all excited about the wedding. Hohohoho.

But first, i have to lose that couple of kilogram before i can even look decent in any gowns. So do me a favour Okk... I have to work out more and cut down on carbo and oil.

So.. Yupz, 加油哦!

Bad habbit

Dear bloggie,

I realised i have a very bad habbit lately. I have ran out nice korean dramas to watch (most cant be stream online.. Might hafta start renting or buying it). So i start looking for nice China 古装 shows. Well.. Coz i was very impress with 步步惊心, so i think can give the other shows a chance.

So so.. But what happen is.. Once i find a not tok bad China show, i will start googling for the sypnosis. So.. I ended up knowing the entire story thou i'm only at episode 4. And i end up with no more shows to see.

So so.. I have juz finish reading the sypnosis, hence no need to continue watching the show.

So so.. Time for bed then. Nitez world!

PKK

Dear bloggie,

Boyfriend bought me Pkk n Akk for brekkie. Okok.. More of Pkk for me and Akk for my parents.

I left it on the dinning table when i got home.. And went to the room. I had wanted to ta bao the Pkk into the lunch box and.. Only to find out they ate my Pkk. :((

Upset to the max.

Very tired lately.. But cant slp. Insuficient rest leads me feeling giddy and kept feel like puking.

So so.. Very the not well. :((

Valentine's Day

Dear Bloggie,

Its Valentine's day again.. Had dinner with Besties. Its a rather impromptu arrangment. But it warms my heart to know that everyone is very dear to each other. Thou its v day and a random work day, everyone still gathers and give tries to tide each other tru difficult patches.

Its not easy.. Zero signs indicating the end of a relationship. How could one juz walk out from years of relationship. We are no longer in our teens, should be more responsible i feel. Its never easy to maintain a relationship.. But well, you also cant juz throw in the towel like that.

Sigh sigh.. I feel there is no need to go figure out why and seek that closure. Whats the point in seeking out the truth, and he might not even give the real truth. Why not juz focus more on moving on. Learn a lesson from this and not repeat what went wrong. It is a period to grief, and certain tings are easier said then done.

So well.. Time for bed.