Its 2 in the morning and i'm wide awake. Thought i could catch hold of boyfriend, but no such luck. Feeling the dread, lost and all other negative emotions. Not only coz of the lonliness.. Its something more then that. Daddy is still in hospital, but he seemed to be doing fine. Glad there is insurance, at least we do not need to think twice putting him in an A class ward. Thats the little comfort and privacy we could offer him now. Work is horrible as i am trying to find my directions again. Nope, not elsewhere. But just have to regain my bearings again. I felt all odds against me and i have to fight it out all alone. My body is at its all time weak again. Down with all the virus and that makes me vulnerable. My emotion support is thousands of miles away from me. I pray that this week goes by in a flash. I could bear it no more.

Dear bloggie, Life has been stressful in the office. I have not handle the working relationship well and its coming back to hunt me now. Nothing to biggie that I cant handle, but just hoping that You're beside me; going through this path with me.

Dear Bloggie,

Anyone seen my Fat One (picture as above), please contact me ASAP. I am missing my grumpy fat boy to the max. This is going to be a tough period ahead.. =(

Dear Bloggie,

Haiz.. Somehow, it felt different.

The sense of loneliness has set in. I miss the fact that He is so far away from me. You know, its just a sense of lost. Yar, its not forever.. but then.

I wonder how could Bestie handle it.

Dear Bloggie,

I've.. been gaining back all the weight I lost previously. =(

Thou there are still compliments around saying I still look slim, but I know my own body best.. So.. its back to all the zero carbo diet!!

Please let me know the determination once again. *pray hard*

走在一条不知什么路的提防上
眼泪却不争气得往下掉
忽然觉得世界只剩下一个轮廓
连高楼大厦在河中的倒影
也像裹了一层果冻般的不真实
我好想有你在旁边
回想自己究竟在别人生命中
扮演过什么样的角色
我真的应该好好成长了吧
去摔去痛
才能让我更成熟些
期待我还是可以常常写些东西给你
希望真的能够感受而记录下来微妙的改变
说不定哪一天我也会找到属于我真正的幸福