亲爱的日记，

今天延续了昨天的心情，我还是有一种很“显”的感觉。做什么都力不从心。

虽如此，这一篇日记，还是要献给好友。

星期六早上，我对你是超凶。我知道你此刻的心情已陷入谷底，可是我不想看着你一直穿牛角尖，让自己堕落下去。

我知道你们认识的不久，可是爱情这种事。。不是时间的长短和三言两语能说得清的。我也不怀疑你对这个人所放进的感情，也不会说那些"早知今日何必当初"的那些话。这些，已经不重要了。对我而言，眼前重要的是要如何把你从这状况中拉出来。

良药苦口，忠言逆耳。好听的话，大把人会对你说。。我不是他们，我不会说好听的话来哄你，这些就留给他们做。对，我知道身为好友的我不应在此时还在你伤口撒盐。。可是，我希望你明白其中的道理。

你对他的了解有多少，我是真的不知道。不过，我对他的了解就限于那几次短占的接触。我一点都不很清楚知道他的过去，也不知他的可靠度有多高。一直以来，所有的一切，都是“他说的”。我们就凭着“他说”的一切，作了许许多多的假设，你也为此喝了不少酒，伤心了多少次,周遭的人都为你担心着。

他，就这样失踪了26天。连你都能理智的告诉我，认识他仅仅两个月，却等了他26天。对我而言，不管他有什么难言之隐，能够这样放着心爱的女人不理，这是哪门的爱啊？把自己的一切当成一可迷的不说出来，是不容接受的。虽然我活在我的小小世界里，不是很懂人情世故。可是你以为我们在拍什么武侠小说啊。。事情，真的有这么复杂吗？就算是那么复杂，你认为拥有着这样复杂生活的人是一个你可以托付终生的人吗？

可能你们这段青还处于甜蜜期，所以是难分难舍的。可是，理智点想一想，他是一可说了一些莫名其妙的话，就消失的无影无踪的男人。你真的认为至此一次，下不为例吗？试问，如果现在是我，或是倩。。碰到了这样的男人。你还会鼓励我们坚守这份爱情吗？

理智点吧，好友。

我乘经对你说过，反正没事做，等着也是等着。。现在的你坚持着要等，我也会默默的支持你。因为，我不希望看到你以泪洗脸，那么痛苦。。我还是爱你的。

Dear Bloggie,

Home on a Sunday, wanted to do my assignments. But its near 5pm, but I've not even started on it.

After so long, photos time.. =)

Did some baking a few weekends back..

Ta dah.. My first little blue box from my Besties.

My new lappie... Toshiba M800. She actually quite a beauty.

Okie, main aim is just to upload the photos...

This sunday, still not in the best of mood. The drinking session at DF last night ended up with us almost getting into trouble with another group of girls, who obviously push their limits too far with us. The girls, calling their God-father, and bestie rounding up friends nearby. So old school... -_-"

But well... nothing happened. As if we that free to wait for your God-pa, and come on.. you think you shooting 无间道or something... 新加坡是法治之区，你当警察叔叔们是死的啊。I woke up at 8am and went for a morning jog, followed by a KTV with HF... By 1am, I am tired.

Feeling so damn sian on a Sunday... No mood for anything. =(

亲爱的日记，

今天的我，好忙好忙。

忙了一整天，想到感到精疲力尽，脑袋正在罢工。。

女人天生爱美不要命。我，身为女人当然也不例外。前一阵子，和1975逛街时买了两双鞋。鞋是好漂亮，在那是传世我已感到有点不合脚。可是，我又对那款式情有独钟，又想想拿那卡出来刷一刷。。所以虽然不是很和脚，我硬把鞋给买下了。

这礼拜，是我第二次穿那双鞋。。痛死我了。

不过，还是咬紧牙根，挨过一天。

今天传另一双平底鞋，咳。。可能是昨天已经把脚给弄伤了，所以今天。。还是痛死我了。

好，发完牢骚了。

要去开会了。

亲爱的日记，


今天已是星期五。。


昨天放了工，独自一人去了乌节路走走。


先去了Tiffany & Co., 终于取了好友们送我的生日礼物。心，的第一个小蓝盒。“X",真的好漂亮，我真的好喜欢。。我今天已把它给戴上。谢谢AC, QH, KL和DL送我这昂贵的礼物。带着它，就好像每天都带着你们的祝福。=）之后去了Kinokuniya, 买了三本书。心情渐渐愉快起来，原来购物真的是一种治疗伤口的方法。。好友放了工，就过来找我。去了一趟Marks & Spencer,买了饼干和巧克力，之后就去了面包店，好失控的买了好多好多面包。两个人买了$13+ 的面包，可以想象有多少吗？

大包小包的，我们俩终于甘愿坐下来吃晚餐了。。Sun with Moon，我吃了Unagi Don。

感觉超幸福。。与好友两人坐在哪，聊到天南地北。我们俩都是受了伤的人，可是两人都很努力的把自己的伤口掩饰起来，极力的再帮对方重新站起来。虽然我知道我们不能为彼此做得很多，可是我们俩已近很尽力在尝试把彼此所受得伤害减到最低。

这，就是真挚的友谊。AC,我很庆幸这一路上有你。

真的。

昨晚，我们两人搭了巴士，搭了地铁，也搭了得士。。十一点多，终于到家了。我的心情，也稍微好了点。没前几天那么的沮丧。。所以，正在担心我的好友们，别担心！我没事。。=）

PS:HY,我真的好多了。。谢谢你告诉我老天爷没遗忘了我。如你所说，它可能征得太忙了。有你们在我身边，我可以等的。就算天塌了，我知道你们都会一路陪在我身边不理不弃的。。谢谢你爱人。=）

亲爱的日记，

还是没办法把那低落的心情收拾起来。。

昨晚八点就熄灯睡觉。。不知道应该做什么，就把自己送入梦乡。

今天，好想出去走走。。

亲爱的日记，

在当全世界的人在帮我渐渐恢复以往的开朗乐观的心情时，我。。收到了一则简讯。

自从在我生日那天收到了他转来的祝福之后，就再也没跟他联络了。

就这样一则简讯，弄垮了一天以来，所有人慢慢帮我建立起的愉快心情。。

他说，他爸爸问起我。。他很惊讶，因为爸爸一路来对所有的事漠不关心，没想到爸爸会问到我。其实，爸爸也有点慢。我最后一次上他家，应该是五月的事。四个月过了，他才发现到我不见了。他说，爸爸也没直接问他，而是发了电邮问了远在美国的姐姐。接着，就问我近况。

我认为，当长辈已知晓状况时，已决定我们以步上了一条不归路。。

那两三则简讯，内容是如此简单及礼貌，可是字字里藏着另一成意思。。

我。。是想念你的。每当我再做每一件事时，我都会想到你。可能在一起时间太久了，一起做的是太多了，所以每一个场所，每一件事都似乎有着你的影子。

就这样，回忆涌勇而上，快要把我淹没了。。

我。。好难过。

亲爱的日记，

写华文，是应为我知道有小部分的人不会停下脚步来阅读着一篇。。

近日的我，情绪越来越不稳定。。并没什么大事发生，可是心情一直处于低落。

不知为什么最近重是又种孤单的感觉，就算身边围绕着许多人，可是心里还是寂寞的。。

有时静心一想，不知为什么到现在我还是孤家寡人。老天爷啊，你是不是在编写心怡的一生时，没把天长地久，结婚子放在里面呢。。

好累啊，好希望这一路来有个可以让我依靠的人。。不过到了这地步，我也不奢望什么了。我没想过我也会有这种样弃的一天。因为一路来，就算身边的人已放弃，我还是依然相信在天涯海角的那一方，还有那命中注定在等着我。

好友说要一人出去走走，虽然我知道让她一人去散散心是好的，可是难免还是好担心。我知道我没她那种独立，没可能一人出国散心。不过，这可是一个可以让自己看看过去，平复心情，展望未来的好机会。。

现在的我，还真不知道因该如何。。有人乘经跟我说，很羡慕我和好友那真挚的友谊。可是，她可否知道我更羡慕她与爱人的那份真爱。

不过，我还是打从心里感谢在这一路上陪伴着我，不理不弃的好友。感谢上帝让我们相遇相识。

咳。。感慨啊。

我真的有那命中注定吗？

Dear Bloggie,

Saw a rather sweet sight on my way to work this morning.

I was in the bus, and its caught in a slow moving jam. There's this Volvo in the lane right next to me... The driver appeared to be a man in his early 40s, and there's a lady right next to him and shes sleeping.

Well, nothing interesting right... But what happened next attracted me.

The man reached forward to the console, and was adjusting a node... Then he opened up his handrest compartment, and took out a piece of fabric. He opened up the fabric, it turned out to be a shawl.

And he carefully placed the shawl on the lady.

I... find this gesture so sweet.

I think... no guy has ever done that to me.

Yar... they'll ask me if I'm cold and will turn the aircon lower. But I guess none has actually bother to take out a jacket or something and cover it on me.

*sweet*

TGIF!!

Hope this is going to be pleasent day ahead!! =)

Dear Bloggie,

I planned for a BBQ for my Poly frewns this Saturday. Everyone said they'll come, but right now when it comes to food... Noone even want to tell me what to do.

I do not mind ordering from shops, I do not even mind buying it from NTUC and prepare it all by myself.

Ordering could be costly, but I have no cost constrain hence I'm perfectly fine with ordering. Its going to save me much trouble anyway. But I know there's a couple who have budget concerns, hence I'm willing to go for the cheaper way of doing it myself so we could save on labor cost.

Well... I started off the BBQ because I'm a sucker for all these gatherings. I love Chalets and BBQ... But DQ might be right... We are already too old for these. These are stuff for the youngsters, no one will ever put in that much effort for such gathering as its too much of a hassel.

This is bad week for me.

[1] Lappie died; and I just spent $1,725 on a new one.
[2] Router down hence no network.
[3] And I have a 4500 words essay to hand in this Saturday. No lappie, no network... That got me damn pek check.
[4] I took on new responsibilities at work... So I'm really quite busy at work now.

Anyway, I cancelled the BBQ.

I would have really love to carry on with it, but doing such a thing alone is really not easy.. I feel so silly.. *sigh* Time and time again, I have tried to plan for such things but failed. But I never learn from lesson and will ended up planning for another one again.

*sigh*

Dear Bloggie,

Early in the morning, Boss 'Active' sent me an email with ALL my colleauges in it, telling me off.

Okie, its me fault... I made a mistake.

But well... I'm feeling kind of upset over it now.

And I've just been to AC's blog.

No comments girl... Not for now.

My thoughts are all swirling in circle, I cannot think.

Let me get back to you in a while kae darling...

Dear Bloggie,


I have been busy...


Random kae.. =)


[1] Lappie died on me sometime back... I'm in the midst of sourcing for a new lappie... Feel so heartpain to part with so much money...


[2] My 25th birthday photos and Hongkong photos are all in lappie... JT is trying to recover it from lappie now...


[3] I am in the midst of working on my 2nd 4500 word essay... This is slightly more under control, 10 days is actually sufficient.


[4] And I got only 3700 words now, I seriously need to work on it. But this is not easy without lappie...


[5] And my router/ modem at work is screwed up... I cannot even get up to the net with Daddy's lappie... Trouble doesnt comes solo.

I am super suay-ed.

Dear Bloggie,

.Super.Emo.Today.

Xin

Dear Bloggie,

Today.. is the first day that I cannot wake up.

Somehow, my mobile didnt snooze well.. It didnt not ring at 6am. So when I reached out for my mobile and checked, its 6.32am... -_-"

I quickly jumped out of bed, on my lights.. The clock on my wall is 6.20am.

So well, I quickly went through my normal routine.. And my eyes kept darting to that clock on the wall.. I left the house at 6.50am.. (which is 10min later then usual) And literatelly ran to the bus stop... Oh, did I mention its raining. I'm so afraid that I'll slipped and fall. Abit 'dak glam' right.. This is just so not Xin, so super un-composed.

But well, somehow.. I manage to catch my usual bus, and the traffic was terrific. So, I reached pretty early that I could walk (with grace this time) to buy my Loti and proceed to wait for my company bus... =)

Anyway!!

I had dinner with HY last evening.. Its at ermm.. This Japanese Marche style place at Raffles City. The variety of the food really gets me all excited.

No photos as I left my camera at home.. But between 2 girls, we polished off:-

[1] Unagi Steam Rice
[2] Umu Rice with Chicken Chop
[3] Rossti with Japanese Curry
[4] Unagi Ommlette
[5] Banana & Chocolate Crepe with Cookies & Cream Ice-cream

Super full can... But this meal is pretty cheap. With beverages, its only $45. And the Crepe.. Its delicious!! Omg, I am already thinking about it now..

Okie, I foresee a busy and bad day ahead. Engineers at Israel are making noise at my Taiwan Reel Supplier, and I seemed to be arrowed.

Got to go back to work now!!

Its Friday!! Have a Great Weekend ahead kae.. =)

Dear Bloggie,

You know there are just some days where you wake up, and find that everything will go terribly wrong.

Today, 3rd September… Happen to be one of such.

[1] I woke up at 2.50am with a tummy ache…

[2] And I cannot get back to sleep after it woke me up. I was tossing and turning on my bed in the middle of the night.

[3] Woke up extremely tired and not to mention grouchy. But I still stick to my diet plan, I woke up 10min earlier to cook myself a simple lunch to pack to the office.

[4] I am just like… 15seconds away from the bus-stop, and the bus reached the stop. I’m too sian-ed to give chase. So I miss the bus…

[5] While waiting for bus, I realized my ‘Lock Lock’ overturned… And my baked beans spilled over to the other side of the compartment… My nuggets are all soaked in baked beans and the sauce.

[6] Reached office, to find a Post-It from my colleague. She said the PO that I did yesterday needs to be signed off by my Snr Mgr; which I’m totally cool about it. But the thing is, how did she find that PO of mine which is hidden somewhere in the pile of paper on my desk. She must have been going through my stuff everyday after work I guess… And the free newspaper which I took every morning is also missing; she told me she took it.

[7] Log on to Unisim’s website. But my Strategy Essay 1 results are not out yet. EVERYONE has got their results… ALL but my class.

[8] MP3 low batt; No 933 for me this morning.

[9] My Lappie died on me once more… ALL my Birthday and HK Photos are still inside with zero backup. WTF.

[10] I wanted to see the Lotus show, which I guess should be coming down soon and I’m going to miss it. I wanted to see the F4 Jap show, which I got the feeling I might miss it too.

I want to sing KTV… I want to sing Duets… I want to eat Banana… I want to be hugged… I want to feel that my opinions count… I want to be respected… I just want to stay at home and hide under my blankie and not come out to see the sun today.

Okie… This is just a sulky Xin, for 3rd September.

No worries, I’ll be better tomorrow.

I think.

Dear Bloggie,

I was chatting with AC the other day, and she mentioned that LT is actually pretty envious of the friendship we had.

Actually not only LT, alot of people are very amazed that we girls have kept this friendship since Primary School. In fact, I myself am pretty surprised that we are able to with-stand time and circumstances, and instead of drifting apart we became closer...

Another thing that she mentioned sets me thinking... LT mentioned that we girls compliment each other. This rings a bell in my head... X used to tell me that too. He said it is not easy to find a whole group of girls of the 'same standard'..

AC, QH, KL and myself... We are all independent young ladies, diligent and with good career paths.. We dress well, present ourself well, and are composed with grace.. (okie, to a certain extent..)

We are all individuals with different characters; noone is the same. But yet, we are all aware of each others' short-comings and instead of putting each other down, we help each other to achieve the best in each area. I guess, this is what makes the four of us so special to each other.

You know that a hug is never too far away, and everyone is just a phone call way. Frankly, in this tele-age, everyone is just a phone call away.. Let me repharse it. The girls are not only a call away, but they will put down all the work onhand and will devote their full attention to you when in need.

Well, I really appreciate having these wonderful girls in my life. Thanks for being there there for me when I'm down and out, and there to celerbrate with me during joyous events. Thanks for not ditching me aside when I've been a bitch, but instead patiently sits me down and talk to me about it.. Thanks for forgiving all my mistake and my spoilt ways in handling things. Thanks for everything...

Three cheers to my wonderful darlings!

Friends Forver... =)

Dear Bloggie,

Its Monday.. a brand new week, a brand new month. =)

2008 is flying pass in a wink.

Anyway, I foresee a busy ahead.. Hence a random post.

[1] Had a very very busy weekend. Did all my favorite which includes KTV, Dragonfly, Mahjong and Chalet... =)

[2] I have not prepare the case study notes for my 13hr class this coming Sunday, that got me a little on panic mood.

[3] Today is my baby cousin HL's Birthday.. Happy Birthday Darling!

[4] I love my Aunts!! They're professional BBQ-ers.. They are equipped with EVERYTHING!

[5] I think... I gain ALOT of weight. I seriously need to start jogging.. Tomorrow, I'll start jogging tomorrow...

[6] I did eye lashes extension again with QH on Saturday...

[7] There are many many funny happenings this week, that got laughing till tears were rolling down my cheeks..

I cannot think of anything else..

Darlings, have a great week okie... =)