Sundae again~*

Another beautiful dae.. tis week, much has happen.. with all the festive season and all.. actualie realie wan to update all in de.. but thn so much has happened, tat i realie tink its hard to account it one by one.. so i guess i will juz haf to try my best..

TUESDAE

Celebrated xmas with andrea qian and karen.. went to TPY ther yum cha eat dian xin.. but thn it realie sucks loh.. TPY tat yum cha realie ex and the food not nice de.. so we had a quick dinner thn we left liao loh.. thn andrea meet adrain.. adrain is the guy wher we knw whn we were in sec2 ba.. andrea's first bf.. he actualie change so much.. its like ever since sec3 like tat we haf not seen him liao. well.. but thn i guess to him we shld aso haf change much loh.. thn after tat drea drive dwn to cosy bay, thn went up the tower to haf a drink, slack abit loh.. thn we sit ther tok abit.. actualie the feeling aso real nice loh.. hehe~* thn after tat drea let qian drive the car, all teh wae bac frm cosy bay to tamp.. qian first time drive car sicne she got her lic.. can see she realie scare.. but thn she quite steady aso leh.. hehe.. up ecp and all.. not bad not bad leh..

WEDNESDAE

Wed is xmas eve leh.. i was like so excited in the office.. cant wait to leave the office.. The dae before got tis xmas party in the office.. thn actualie i realie had fun in the office loh.. in the QA office.. thn for the xmas exchange i got bac a hair dryer, and in the lucky draw, i drawn out a fone.. actualie i was sort of lucky.. hehe..

Well.. thn after wrk, i went dwn to meet him at ermm.. wher's tat palce call ah.. tiong bahru ah. hehe.. thn he came dwn to pick mi up ther, thn we drive in sentosa.. so tat is the beginin of my romantic nite.. ermm.. everyting juz seems sooo nice loh.. the beach, the sand, the waves, the sky, the stars and every everyting.. hehe.. thn he went to collect the log cake, and bought mi chocolates n lays.. he aso bought light sticks dwn.. pretty sweet of him hor.. hehe~* ermm.. we played hang man in the sand.. actualie we didnt do aniting much lah.. but thn the time seems to fly tat nite.. before we realise, its already past mid nite.. thn andrea they all called.. they all meetin at bugis mah.. so juz after 12 we left sentosa.. so while we were leavin for bugis, he asked.. ermm.. tis time round i didnt sae aniting much lah.. but thn i guess his realie nice loh. given his character, he actualie follow mi to meet andrea and the girls.. i realie appreciate it loh..
thn after we meet up with drea they all, thn we sent drea and the girls dwn to drea's place to collect her car. thn we went fong senf for prata.. thn the police actualie came wor.. thn realie created a commotion.. coz everyting was like rushin to go shift the car.. hehe.. ermm.. i duno lah.. but thn see him like tat its like all my fault loh.. coz its mi who sae hungry.. tats why went dw nall the wae to fong seng eat.. haizz. but thn ermm.. alrite lah.. after tat he sent mi and qian home.. thn andrea send karen n qiying home.. actualie the feeling quite nice lah.. ermm.. thn i went back to pasir ris loh.. coz i go bac stay at my granny's hse.. the nxt dae they goin zoo mah.. thn settin off at 8.30am.. so might as well go ther stay loh.. thn by the time i reach pasir ris already 4plus liao.. real tired leh.. but thn i realie had fun.. b4 i went up, he ask again.. ermm.. i didnt sae aniting lah..

25th December 2003 (C H R I S T M A S D A E !! )

well.. i earli in the morn i wake up, with barely tat few hrs of slp.. thn went to bath n all.. thn all the girls had their hair tied up in 2 plaits, so i aso want.. thn the maid aso tie for mi.. abit the act cute lah.. thn went zoo loh.. actualie i realie tired lah.. thn see hippo n all.. had fun loh.. thn after tat ard 2plus go bac to my granny hse, thn they got the cathering for the xmas late lunch.. thn i eat loh.. eat liao actualei wan slp.. but thn ermm.. xmas leh.. liek tat go slp abit wasted.. so i meet him loh.. ermm.. actualie is aso i wan see him loh..

so he came dwn to pasir ris to pick mi up loh.. thn frm ther we went dwn to tamp, want see a show or sumting loh.. but thn tamp its either we miss the timing liao, or no haf the show i wan see.. so in the end we went dwn to yishun to see ju-on 2.. ermm.. quite a lame show lah.. thn meet up with his frewns at kahti, thn went to tamp to meet his another frewn, thn they go for a late dinner.. or shld i sae supper.. thn i was like quite pai sey loh.. in fact i actualie ermm.. duno wat lah.. at kahti, we meet his frewn n gf mah.. thn they aso drivin mah.. thn whn we reach tamp, at the petrol kiosk, tat coupld alighted the car loh.. thn they walked towards us loh.. thn the first comment tat girl made was,'wo dui ni tai shi wang le'.. well.. i was actualie quite pissed loh.. tis statement, could be on aniting or nth.. but thn i actualie took it pretty personal.. thn i sms andrea tell her and all lah.. but thn tat doesnt make mi feel ani beta.. thn while on the wae to the eatin place frm the petrol kiosk, i told him i dun feel like goin dwn liao.. wat a 'Good' impression tat girl gave huh.. frankli speakin loh.. i duno lah.. its his frewn, i aso dun wan sae aniting. but thn since the whole supper ting was more or less initated by him, so we had to go.. but thn he knws i dun feel like goin de.. so he realie rushed tru his food, and we were off in half hr time. ermm.. actualie its realie nice of him lah.. whn we left his frewns were still eatin.. well.. i realie appreciate it loh..

thn after tat we went pungol park ther slack abit loh.. thn b4 we realise i cant remember its 1 or 2 plus liao loh.. thn he send mi home.. nxt dae fridae ah.. i still had to wrk ah.. but thn nemind.. hehe..

B O X I N D A E

for the entire xmas, i actualie recieve quite alot of gifts.. frm the office and aso frm my aunties.. tis year actualei got back quite alot of presents loh.. but thn had to go wrk.. thn lag of slp ah.. realie cham.. but thn ermm.. hehe.. good mood lah.. i manage to pull tru the dae, in a damn good mood, juz feedin on my happie tots.. nth could dampen my mood tat dae.. hehe.. thn he came dwn to pick mi up after wrk.. he off till mondae lah.. atualie ns even beta thn mi leh.. i xmas eve haf to wrk whole dae, 26th and 27th aso haf to wrk.. but thn he acutalie off till mondae.. haizz.. but thn its realie sweet of him loh.. he scare i tired, thn he wan mi go home slp.. thn he realie is cum pick mi up, thn send mi home. its realie frm yishun to hougang and HOME. thn i actualie need to do over time.. coz sat got to sales meeting.. thn haf to rush out the report.. so i actualie ot bout an hr.. so he actualie haf to wait.. ermm.. hehe.. actualie deep dwn i still feelin damn sweet loh.. frm tamp to yishun, thn to hougang. and its all juz to send mi home. not even stopin for dinner or wat.. i aso realie is fu le ta loh..

SATURDAE!

tat will be yest.. yest i went wrk loh.. thn he cum pick mi up frm wrk.. actualie he merely wanted to send mi to clement ther to play mahjong.. but thn i manage to physco im to acc mi for the mahjong game.. so in the end, we went dw nto pongol to pick up huili, thn to hougang to pick up xiong, thn go hougang mall for lunch, thn to clement hse.. thn my luck was real dwn yest.. i actualei was losin.. thn i got kind of sian thn he played for mi.. thn actualie start winin wor.. hehe.. actualei whn i was losin, i was pretty happie de.. coz huili alwaes saw, qing chang shi yi, du chang de yi.. so tis will onli imply i am like u knw.. hehe~*

thn we played till bout 5pm, thn alex came to pick up huili loh.. thn we aso left loh.. in the end i am the sole winner.. won bout 10plus lah.. hehe.. its all thanzz to him loh.. thn we went dwn to tamp, thn we loiter abit, thn meet up with qian and drea for a show loh.. scary movie 3.. its a damn LAME show.. even LAMER thn ju-on.. real regret seein tis stupid show.. see liao mood aso will get pek chek tat type loh.. a damn f*cked up show loh.. but thn nemind lah.. after tat 4 of us went to pavilion ther slack loh.. slack till bout 11plus, thn we went bac loh.. thn he sent mi bac lah.. thn ermm.. sat mah.. so dun feel like goin home.. thn so we stay dwnstairs ther slack ard abit lah.. ermm.. well.. like tat lah.. thn in the end i 4plus thn go home loh..

and on tis fateful dae.. ermm.. i aso cant remember is he who start holdin my hand, or izzit the other wae round.. but thn either wae ther's no rejection.. so ermm.. actions speaks louder thn words lah..

TODAE

Actualie i started writing tis whn i woke up.. i last nite slp ard 4plus, thn i ard 8am i wake up liao.. thn he slack till bout 10am he called mi.. thn we chatted till 12plus ba.. thn i wrote till the WEDNESDAE thn i got to go bath n all liao loh.. coz meetin him loh.. so i now, 8plus 9plus thn continue..

todae i went dwn tamp to meet him.. thn we went swimin.. thn he haf to go to his granny's hse.. his granny's bdae lah.. thn he ask mi to go with him.. but thn ermm.. i dun wan loh.. its like ermm.. duno lah.. pai sey lah.. hehe~* but thn feels kind of sweet loh.. so we went swimin lah.. thn ermm.. go dinner thn i go home liao loh.. he juz called mi.. thn actualie he wans cum dwn meet mi first.. but thn ermm.. duno lah.. i ask him not to cum.. tml he haf to go bac camp.. i dun wan him go bac too late..

Angel says:
tell mi frankli, how do u tink of him?
Andrea says:
er... not bad.. quite a good catch.. look honest and seems to be the more carin type

tis is wat andrea saes bout him.. i tink ermm.. i tink xin is xing fu now loh.. he once told mi tat xin got a very blessed life.. and now, i actualie believes.. its like i got good frewns ard mi.. so caring and all.. and i got a good family.. alwaes ther for mi.. as for job.. actualie cum to tink of it, its aso not tat bad loh.. at least over ther i meet my ai ren, and i aso learnt alot.. and now. i meet him..

Sundae~*
wat a beautiful dae.. hehe.. firdae, skye called up andrea, and they are formerly over. andrea was like cryin like duno wat over the last few daes.. see her like tat realie break my heart.. she is such a strong girl.. and nw.. tis onli goes to show how much skye means to her.. actualie i aso dun realie knw wat haf been goin on tru out the 9 mths they are togehter.. but thn tis is defintaely not sumting i wan see.. it realie breaks my heart to see tis girl like tat.. haizz.. guys can be juz so cruel at times..
aniwae.. sat went to wrk.. ermm.. the feelin still not bad lah.. maybe coz its a half dae.. so ermm.. my mood seems to be beta.. thn after wrk he came pick mi up frm wrk.. hehe~*yar.. he drives dwn frm camp to my office to pick mi up frm wrk.. its such a nice feeling.. hehe.. add points to him lah.. thn after tat we went amk to see my brother bear~* finaly i got a chance to see tis show.. real nice leh.. its bout the brotherly bondin.. ermm.. it realie touched my heart.. and the baby bear is juz sooo cute.. thn after the show it start rainin.. rain bigbig.. so we got the car thn went to his place to drop the car.. aniwae, i got a fright at the carpark ther.. duno hw to sae lah.. but thn xia si wo le.. so we drive bac to his place.. ermm.. first time at his place.. thn saw his room.. ermm.. a typical guy's room.. actualie still not tat bad lah.. almost as messy as mine.. hehe.. thn frm his place its realie got a damn good view of tp.. haizz.. miss those daes in sch.. realie miss loh..
thn we went for my xmas shoppin~* i tink i spent bout 200bucks yest.. but thn nemind lah.. thou i ended up tired and broke, but thn i'm realie happie.. duno hw to sae lah.. but thn realie happie.. imagine whn the kids saw thier presents, the smiles on their face whn they open up the presents.. hehe~* wat a nice moment.. thn i actualie meet up with qian and karen for a breif moment last nite aso.. they aso doin their xmas shopin.. but thn i didnt go with thm loh.. i ended up meetin thm for a quick half hr dinner onli.. thn he sent mi home..
overall, i had a great dae yest.. ermm.. thou ther's still alot of decsion hangin in mid air, but ermm.. duno lah.. i realie duno wat's stopin mi now.. but thn i juz dun wan to regret my decision mths or years dwn the road.. i mean i am no longer a kid in sec sch.. its no longer a playplay tingy.. i wonder can we go on trial.. ermm.. guess he will freak out if he knws.. nemind nemind..
todae sundae.. beta enjoy myself to the fullest b4 i haf to go bac wrk on mondae.. tml actualie aso not bad lah.. will brin all the chocolates to office.. thn can do sum present wrappin with my ai ren.. thn after tat tues office got sum xmas party.. thn after wrk goin for dinner with andrea n qian and karen.. and andrea called and sae she hopin we can spend xmas even with her.. but thn haizz.. i already ordered my log cake n all liao.. thn yest i ask qian, she sae she aso got plans liao.. she goin meet her poly frewns.. and XXX will aso be ther.. hehe~* so we are all tryin to see how still.. i told him bout it liao.. he says its fine if i wan go join my frewns.. i tink drea realie needs us nw.. but thn tis xmas eve i am sort of realie anticipating de.. haizz.. realie duno how lah..
kae lah.. i goin to be a good girl.. i wan do hse wrk todae~* long time no do liao loh.. hehe.. thn after tat see my huan zhu ge ge thn can go bath thn go for my drivin lesson liao.. all the best pple~* Merry xmas!!

Another sucky dae at wrk.. nowadaes i realie cant stand wrk more n more.. its juz like.. haizz.. duno hw to sae.. realie realie wan to go.. nemind nemind. but thn todae actualie passes in a nice manner.. finaly, he asked. hehe~* tat realie make my dae.. but guess wat.. i sort of rejected it. i told him its not time yet.. why ah.. hehe.. the first ting tat cums to my mind is i dun like 18th.. whn dennis and i were together, its aso the 18th.. but thn nth lah.. juz tat its not a special dae loh.. but thn the main reason is aso i tink we shld knw each other beta.. i dun wan to jump in thn realise tat tis is not i wan.. but thn no matter wat.. it feels sweet.. so very sweet.. hehe~* actualie now rite.. thou we not together, but thn we are juz like kind of close loh.. aniwae, tis is wat happen todae.. write it dwn.. so in future whn i look bac i can still smile.. hehe~*
i called him during the last 5min of my lunch.. thn ermm.. after a couple of min i hang up loh.. thn he sms mi,'ur existence is becuming famous in my camp.' so obivously i will ask why mah.. thn he sae coz pple are always askin him who is he tokkin to loh.. thn i replied sumting like fewn loh.. if not wat else.. thn he replied,;wat u wan mi to sae, gf meh..' thn i forget wat i replied liao.. but his reply is if u wan mi to call gf aso can loh.. thn i didnt replied.. so he replied bac,'no objections on ur side..' thn in between ther's more sms which i cant realie remember.. but thn i ended by sayin its not time yet.. hehe~*
well.. so ermm.. final conclusion xin is still single.. hehe~* but thn nemind.. thou its like tat.. but thn deep dwn i still feel so damn sweet.. yest i got the log cake liao.. i mean go order liao.. huili ordered it for mi wan.. hehe.. yest meet up with thm at suntec eat fish n co loh.. thn ermm yar.. so huili go booked for mi loh.. realie lookin forward to xmas~* whn izzit cuming.. whn can i resign.. hehe.. last nite on my wae home, i was as usual lah, complainin i hate to wrk.. whn can i leave tat sort of ting lah.. thn he sae he yang wo.. with his pathetic 680 a mth, hw to yang wo.. hehe.. i still earn mroe thn him leh.. but thn pple ns leh.. hehe.. but thn got the xin i tink liao aso sweet.. hehe.. actualie everyting now to mi aso sweet lah~*
and now lah.. actualie i dun mind being back on tokin terms with yk.. realie loh.. ermm.. coz i tink i'm feelin xing fu liao.. so we see hw lah.. hehe..

Todae had a bad dae at wrk.. duno hw to sae lah.. but thn juz bad dae lah.. nowadaes realie dread goin wrk.. haizz..
but i saw the rainbow whn i on my wae home.. soooo nce.. the most beautiful moment of the dae.. sun set with rainbow..
last nite.. ermm.. alot of clarifications were done.. ermm.. not bad lah.. feelin quite sweet deep down.. ermm.. but thn duno lah.. noone knws the future mah..
recently alot of nice song.. feel like goin d/l all the songs thn burn into a cd.. but thn no time to go d/l leh.. nemind lah.. see whn i free lah..

Backie~*
From the chalet.. ermm.. firdae took half dae leave.. thn after wrk rushed bac hm to see my OO.. thn feed him his water n all, thn i went to bedok to meet shuana and jiale and her bf.. thn we went to ecp to check in the chalet at costa sand.. check in liao thn we like slack in the chalet abit.. they actualie got us a good chalet.. its facing the sea.. near to the entrance, to the carpark, and aso to the gate leadin to the beach..
tat evenin we went to parkwae giant to do our marketing.. haf fun loh.. i like to go around with the trolley, buyin all the food.. ermm.. realie had fun loh.. i mean i actualie feel happie.. but thn quite a funny combi lah, shuana mi n jiale.. but thn i still miss my OO.. duno hw is he doin loh..
huili came dwn to to the chalet on fridae nite too.. she lied to her dad sae she cumin to the chalet, but thn actualie she is wan go her bf hse stay.. ermm.. so wat happen is tat we waited for her to cum over loh. thn in the mwanwhile farhani and yinghui aso came in liao loh.. so long never see farhani liao.. hehe~* she actualie grown fatter leh.. ermm.. so her breast aso grown out.. hehe~* quite sad for her loh..
thn coz i wan go home mah.. so he came dwn pick mi up.. pick mi up to go home loh.. ermm.. thn the girls all wan on the wae loh.. so he on the wae send jiale's bf to eunos mrt, thn send jiale go mount pleasent see her dog. and thn send huili to her bf hse.. and lastly send mi back home to see OO.. thn OO actulaie same loh.. haizz.. guess nw is onli pending for him to remove his stiches onli loh.. thn frm my place send us bac to chalet thn he go home liao.. ermm.. so like tat we spend bout 2 hrs on the road.. hehe~*
thn the nxt mornin woke up earli coz got these ns pple joggin and singin on the ecp ther.. thn woke mi up loh.. thn i go bath, thn i went bac home.. left the chalet with jiale.. thn shauna and farhani cont slpin.. went bac home to see my OO. thn feed him water n all loh.. thn i slack at hm abit, pack my stuff abit, thn i went bac to the chalet loh.. thn in the mornin i go take the portable radio frm jonas.. so imagine whn i go bac the chalet i was like big pac small pac de.. thn he offer to cum pick mi up.. but thn i wait till i damns sianzz.. so i sms him sae i goin bac to chalet liao loh.. thn if he wan can mt mi at bedok for lunch.. ermm.. in the end he ask mi drop at eunos, thn he go ther meet mi.. so meet him liao thn go eat my fried prawn mee.. eat liao thn he send mi bac to the chalet.. thn reach the chalet liao thn we all start preparing all the food loh.. thn wait for the girls to cum.. ermm.. quite alot of pple cum loh.. but thn jean tat grp never cum.. so in the end quite fed up loh.. coz everyone was like promise promise but thn all never cum loh.. but thn in the end the turn out rate still not tat bad lah.. thn i lend my t-shirt to chokie, thn bo bian loh.. so i dun wan a change of clothes loh.. thn ermm.. he actualie brin a t-shirt dwn for mi to change.. but thn in the end i aso never change lah.. coz too tired liao loh.. so u jus fall aslp like tat.. didnt even take out my lens.. thn whn he pass mi the top thn we stroll ard abit lah..
thn last ntie andre aso ermm.. not tat well lah.. she broke up with skye.. actualie kind of sad loh.. coz its like. ermm.. i aso duno hw to sae lah.. but thn quite sudden loh.. thn we sat on the bench, thn we start tokkin loh.. thn she started cryin loh.. haizz.. knw her for sooo long, realie first time see her like tat break dwn loh.. thn huili aso called mi last nite sae alex broke up with her.. haiz... wats with last nite.. everyone seems to be out of love..
thn tis mornin woke up, thn prepare to go home loh.. overall i had an enjoyable weekend.. and the sad part is tml mondae liao.. haf to go bac wrk.. reallie good to see all the girls again loh.. real good loh.. duno whn's the nxt time i will haf the chance to see thm again..
actualie alot more tings happen de.. but thn realie hard to write it dwn loh.. but thn i realie enjoyed myself.. and thanx so much for everyting pple~* all of ur pressence realie make my dae.. and aso him loh.. thanks for takin leave sendin mi up n dwn.. thanks everyone~* once sumone told mi my life's a blessin.. ermm.. at tat time i realie dun tink so.. coz all along i tink i onli haf a so-so life.. but thn at times whn i look bac. i realie tink its realie a blessin, coz the existance of all you my frewns, are realie the biggest blessin i could ever recieve..

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	Friend Bear You are everyone's ideal friend because you are sincere and genuinely kind. Sometimes you worry about your friends' problems so much, you forget about your own responsibilities, which can get you into trouble. For you, it's the little things that really count. You also happen to be the main driver of the Cloud Car. No speeding!
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todae is the 9th.. its 7.01am now.. i am not goin wrk todae.. coz OO is injured.. he injured his left eye, thn the whole eyeball is like goin to drop out.. we rushed him to the vet last nite.. and he had a minor operation.. they push the eyeball into the eye, and sew up the eye lid.. his usual marble size eye, has becum a ping pong ball.. seeing him like his, realie breaks my heart.. esp whn the vdet saes his chances of recovery is onli 20%.. and if he completely lost his sight, and its painful for him, they will haf to remove the eyeball.. well.. i duno wat to sae.. imagine oo goin to lose his black round eye.. it realie breaks my heart..

hehe~* its mi again.. i'm updating tis again liao leh.. hehe~* now at home.. feelin damn tired.. tml gota go wrk again.. and after tat goin to pasir ris.. goin granny hse for lunch.. late lunch ah.. todae tok to jere in icq durin my lunch. thn he sae yk went hk liao wor.. ermm.. duno he is go bac for good or juz a short break b4 ns.. thn so qiao, cle sms mi thn aso tok bout yk.. sae he saw yk and audrey.. guessed its sum time bac de lah.. sae the ba ba girl.. ermm.. nemind nemind.. all these doesnt bothers mi liao..
now.. ermm.. wat can i sae.. i wonder who read tis aniwae.. hope 'he' dun.. hehe~* coz i wan to win.. i dnu wan him to knw all wat i wan, wat i tinkin.. he knw liao thn its like i lose liao.. hehe~* but thn ermm.. actualie its realie sweet loh.. ermm.. duno wat to sae lah.. hehe~*

wow.. the last time i updated tis is 22nd november leh.. now already december liao.. ermm.. let mi see wat happen recently.. actualie alot loh.. tis week pretty happening for mi leh.. got mahjong lah.. ktv lah.. plus my regular dinner and aso to embargo last nite.. well.. hard to realie go tok it out one by one.. coz its actualie quite alot.. thn plus karen's bdae last week.. realie had fun loh.. suddenli my life like quite filled up with activities.. thn nxt weekend goin chalet.. hehe~* its not so much of goin.. tis actualie i opened de.. so exciting leh!!
ermm.. juz to let u all knw i am fine.. and recently, i have tis secret.. i actualie ermm... well.. nemind nemind.. well annoucned to the world at a later date.. coz i knw ermm.. ya..
kae pple.. i realie miss the daes wher i actualie update tis everydae.. i mean coz i actualei cum in to update it, thn its like i more or less got the time to go summarised wat haf i did lah and all loh.. its like i am given the chance to look bac to se wat haf i done and all loh..
huili got a new bf recently.. his name is alex.. actualie quite a nice guy.. another rich guy lah of coz.. drive tis S class mec.. but thn todae heard huili sae his lic got revoked liao.. but thn aso canot sae much lah.. coz he can be drivin along orchard road at 120kn/hr de.. xia si ren ah.. hehe~*
i am actualei tired.. might be goin slp liao.. pple.. all take care kae~*

haf not been updating tis for a long time.. ermmm... got 10 daes liao ba.. well.. tis week is a very eventful week.. jas went on leave.. thn i got to tkae over her wrk.. which is like too much for mi to handle.. so tis realie turn out to be damn stress.. esp whn alot of her projects i duno wat is goin on de.. thn all the sales are out of station.. for the motorola account, i am theo nli one left in the office.. and haf to tahan tat stupid kenny.. every lottle ting aso haf to cum find mi.. realei fed up loh.. i already one man show liao. thn tis new guy still jia li hai like tat.. realie fed up.. thn all of a sudden juz dump mi into it.. reallie is huai ren.. so aniwae, after alot of arguements with her, my chemist, and god knws how many pple i haf offended tis week, finialy everyting is over liao ( or i hope so lah ).. tis week in the office, duno shed how many tears liao.. i was runnin up n dwn the 3 storey building.. skipped all my lunch.. and tis is not coz jian fei.. is simply i got no time to eat.. and i got so damn fed up tat vulgarities were all over.. realie is all of xin is out loh.. no xing xiang liao.. but thn nemind lah.. who cares..

so thou my wrk is damn busy.. i still manage to haf fun, relieved stress tis week.. thursdae had dinner with the girls.. thn joined the guys for a ktv.. play till 12 plus thn reach home.. coz huili sent mi home loh.. thn tok on the fone till 1plus ba.. thn fridae went to wrk.. thn after wrk went to shan's hse play mahjong with shan eugene and one of their frewn.. till like 4am, thn tat guy sent mi home.. thn imangine i 4plus thn slp, thn 6plus haf to wake up n wrk.. thn its liek realie tiring.. todae got one pimple pop up liao.. ai ren told mi its coz i not enuff slp..

and the chalet booked liao.. tis on the 12th to 14th.. so exciting loh.. mi and jiale tokkin bout it in the office everydae.. in emails lah.. thn called up quite a number of the girls liao.. the response still not bad... realie happie bout it leh.. hehe~* planned to take leave on the 12th, thn will check in with jiale.. she already submit her leave form liao.. i will submit mine in dec.. realie so excited leh.. hehe~*

ermm.. still got wat wan sae leh.. tis week realie had my up and dwn loh.. got a secret tat i dun wan share.. ermm.. personal.. and i am happie bout it.. hehe~* ermm.. aniwae, guys are funny pple.. last time, whn i like sort of haf a crush on whalewhale, evey msg tat cums frm him is like so damn valuable.. even if its a simple morning i will aso store it in the hp like bao de.. but thn he aso seldom msg mi de lah bac thn.. but thn nw as the crush starts to fade awae, his msges are cumin in mroe n more often.. but thn it doesnt matter animore lah.. hehe~* how to sae leh.. ermm.. duno lah..

wednesdae.. ermm.. todae qian pass her TP.. so happie for her leh.. hehe~* hope nxt time i can aso be like tat.. dun haf to take too many times.. but thn first, i muz pass my advance first loh.. cant get the chalet leh.. so sad.. alot of place fully booked.. so nw hopefully can book the one on the 12th.. thou i knw alot of pple will haf comments bout it, but thn i dun haf a choice rite.. cant please the world rite..

Realie unhappie.. todae had a bad dae at wrk.. actualie its aso i mood swing loh.. enter the depression mode again.. but thn todae aso realie not my dae.. tat dae, saturdae, went shoppin.. spend alot of money.. 200plus ba.. thn plus the driving and all, got 300 i tink.. haizz.. nemind lah.. money earned is to be spend de loh.. todae realie not my dae ba.. even now i feel so damn pek chek.. i aso duno why.. actualie i had a good weekend.. meet up wif alot of my frewns.. sat after wrk i went shoppin, thn evening meet qian, thn meet up with the poly pple for dinner at swnsens.. thn at swensens i meet denise.. so long never see her liao.. realie nice to see her loh.. thn at nite they go clubbin, but thn i too tired to go.. so i went bac instead.. thn sundae actualie wan go swimin with xiong.. to jian fei de.. but thn my period came.. so i ended up eatin macdonald breakfast with him at like 9am.. thn after tat i went bac bath and all liao thn went tamp with thm.. saw roy and shawn.. ermm.. nice to see thm aso.. thn after tat went driving.. thn ard 5pm thn start to rain bigbig.. thn i was liek stuck there.. thn once again i mood swing liao loh.. i feel like the whole world is doin mi wrong.. its like.. ermm.. duno lah.. thn after tat went to granny ther for verene's bdae party.. thn i was like so late loh.. thn realie haizz.. dun wan sae liao.. todae at wrk everyting seems so wrong aso.. and its like onli mondae.. wat the.. haizz..

ermm.. recently i tink i realie abit the wat loh.. theres a secret hidden deep dwn.. tink i like sumone liao..

yest in the end didnt go to the advertising interview.. meet up with jere and xiong at lavendar to eat the tang yuan.. thn the guys went to stock up their camp stuff.. thn went bugis eat macdonald.. thn i went dwn orchard for the other interview.. actualie the job is realie not bad loh.. ermm.. realie not bad de.. so after tat went bac to cityhall to meet jere.. xiong left to meet his frewn. but thn he sae will cum bac join us later.. thn huili came ard 5.30.. thn we went to eat auntie annies while waitin for clement.. thn at auntie annies there saw emi.. hehe~* and her tat guy lah.. ermm.. no comments bout him lah.. still prefer dexing lah.. ermm.. thn mi jere n huili went nydc~* my potato salad.. hehe~* did u notice i was like eatin the entire dae.. realie cant make it ah.. realie gettin fatter n fatter liao loh.. thn the 3 of us start eatin lah.. the baked rice was like yumyum~* thn xiong came.. thn cle came.. thn xw came.. thn my mudpie came~* hehe~* thn emi came.. so in the end 7 of us loh.. hehe~* juz like a normal thursdae liek tat.. and with jere n xiong ard.. its like the good old daes like tat.. so happie like tat.. thn we sit till nydc close.. thn went to the fountain ther sit ard n tok.. thn i complain bout gettin fat.. hehe~* thn they taught mi how to lsoe weight.. the guys teachin mi the army style.. the girls the yoga style.. thn see thm all in jeans n pants, thn all doin all the stants.. damn funny.. hehe~* thn 11plus we parted.. emi drove dwn, thn she send us bac.. thn on the wae duno who suggested prata.. so we ended up at sum prata shop.. eat n tok till like 1plus.. omg.. wat a dae.. realie tiring loh.. hehe~* but thn i realie had fun.. its realie like the good old daes which i miss so much..

Mondae.. 7.56am.. and i am at home.. plannin to go take mc later.. not coz i'm sick.. but thn i got 2 interviews to go later.. actualie i aso duno why am i tinkin of changing jobs nw.. actualie i am gettin use to everyting at sei woo liao.. everyting seems okie liao, thn the tot of leavin my ai ren is realie bad.. but thn duno lah.. todae actualie take leave aso juz nice lah.. jere and sis last nite came bac frm outfield.. thn tonite goin ktv with jere huili they all, thn in the afternoon might be able to meet sister.. ermm.. seems to be gettin fatter n fatter.. gotta do sumting bout it.. ermm.. shld start excercising liao.. tinkin of goin kayaking wan.. but thn gotta wait till qian finish her driving thn can go.. coz if not it will clash with her lesson.. acutalie it clashes with my lessons aso loh.. but thn nemind nemind. i seriously will need to do sumting bout it tis time round liao.. runnin swiming or watever aso can.. haf to lose weight~*

saturdae.. another tiring dae.. went for my 2nd driving lesson todae.. so scary.. went out to the main road todae.. well, ermm.. seems to be updating this less often.. realie you xin er li bu zu.. at times, i realie wan to update wan.. but thn i aso duno write wat.. recently, i am getin pretty colse to tis person.. close till ermm.. he himself mentioned its gettin unhealthy.. yar.. i understand wat he mean.. but thn.. ermm.. duno lah.. actualie now i aso duno who reads my journal.. aniwae, tonite showin the song sister.. i actualie seen this show b4 liao.. but thn i cant help but like it alot, so actualie juz came bac frm bbq, but thn i am still watching it.. it reminds mi of the history class we use to haf in sec school..

After i started the friendster, i seemed to be like ermm.. forgotten my blog.. realie leh.. damn jia lat.. why like tat.. cannot cannot.. i am actualie online everydae, but thn i am not like updating tis everydae.. realie bad xin.. no good no good. i am feelin abit miserable.. ermm.. after tat faithful dae, images of the past kept flashin tru my mind.. whenever sum happie memories flashes tru my mind, i will tink of a bad memories.. ermm.. duno lah.. ermmm... on my wae home, i wanted to write a tribute to him.. hehe~* sae till as if his dead like tat.. but thn i aso one kind wan loh.. whenever i alone thn tink, i will still miss the times wher we are together.. thn got the tot of wan to try be together wan.. but thn whnever i see him liao, i will alwaes attitude him wan.. maybe fated wan lah. duno hw to continue writing tis liao.. ermm.. see how ba..

Hey pple.. Todae i started the Friendster.com tingy.. and guess wat.. its realie interesting.. damn regreted why did i start tis late.. hehe.. i started tis morning.. and frm now, to date i got 19 pple in the list.. hehe.. see liao i aso happie.. tink this will continue to grow.. the bigger the beta.. thn frm the links, actualie saw a few pple whom realie long time no contact wan.. those frm my sec school for example.. hehe~* happie leh.. nemind.. actualie i todae whole dae never go out.. the comp aso on whole dae liao.. wan go slack liao.. hehe~* take care pple~* in a damn good mood now.. hope tat by tml morn i could still sae the same ting~*~*~*

Saturdae.. actualie planned to meet drea qian and karen. but thn last min qian sae she not feelin well. so i ended up at home doin nth.. wat a borin saturdae.. thursdae nite went to eat crabby with sis and jon and a girl. sis's classmate. thn went to play mahjong till 6plus in the mornin.. fridae went to granny hse for lunch coz her bdae.. i was like tired like duno wat ting.. realie cannot make it.. 5pm reach home slp till tis mornin thn go wrk..
i feel lonely leh.. i duno how to sae.. at times like tis.. i realie hope there will be tis one.. sumone tat belongs to me.. i duno how to sae lah.. realie miss the daes where i haf a bf.. duno will i haf the chance to haf a guy like tat in my life again.. i realie duno.. i realie ermm.. lonely ba.. i duno how to sae..

Wednesdae..
This week didnt realie go out.. end of the mth leh.. no money liao.. realie wan to save up the money.. juz in case if i realie resign, thn at least will haf sum cash to fall bac on.. duno lah.. but thn todae realie a damn unpleasant dae.. got scolded by this stupid man.. he realie attitude loh.. thn after i hang the fone.. i realie is wan cry ah.. thn mr te came and ask mi,' jin yu, why the mouth like tat??' thn i broke into tear.. hehe.. tink i muz haf scare him.. coz huiyu told mi he kept cumin up and ask how am i.. can see his worried.. i tink in the office, other thn huiyu, i like him most like.. realie so nice.. thou his onli 13years my senior, but thn he realie treat mi n huiyu damn nice loh.. juz like our god-daddy like tat.. well.. tat idiot realie upset mi todae.. i dun wan to go tok bout it aso.. after tml, got one public holidae.. so nice.. hehe~* kae loh.. meant to be a short note onli.. wan log off soon liao.. tml haf to wrk.. so i wan slp earli aso.. recently alot of pimple..they is one pop up, thn subside liao thn the nxt one will pop up.. so they liek tat one by one, like a never ending story.. huiyu sae is coz i not enuff slp.. so muz recover all my beauty slp.. tml 23rd wor.. tis baofa bdae. will sms him happie birthdae.. wonder how is he celebrating his bdae.. last year if i never remember wrongly, he sae wan celebrate with mi.. but thn in the end he haf to go celebrate with his mum.. cant realie remember.. but thn nemind lah.. all is past is past liao.. no matter wat, i still wish him happie always~*

Tuesdae..
so damn tired.. sundae went to sentosa with the girls.. ermm.. had fun ther loh.. actualie wanted to go sun tan abit.. but thn emi lah.. she alwaes like a surse with the sun.. wherever she is, the sun will hide.. so in the end i didnt manage to get dark.. but thn its alright.. will alwaes haf the chance.. and sundae.. b4 i went sentosa, i had my first driving lesson.. first time leh.. i was sooo scare leh.. tat uncle afer explaining to mi abit, thn went 2 rounds, thn he made mi drive.. imagine mi driving leh.. hehe~* so excited.. anywae.. my first time on the round.. the rngine dead 2 times.. hehe~* and i went up to the 4th gear.. not bad for a first timer hor.. thn after sentosa went to xw granny hse for dinner.. her cousin bdae.. the food damn yumyum.. so by the time i reach home, i was real tired.. thn on my way home, whalewhale msged mi.. ermm.. he got gf liao.. ermm.. how do i feel ah.. ermm.. okie lah.. not as bad as i tink lah.. hehe~* well, wats mine will be mine rite.. not mine will not be mine.. or maybe coz i already hopin tat sumone else will be the one taking tat place?? hehe~* duno lah..
yest mondae i go open the letter box, thn i failed my advance theory again.. haizz.. 2nd time liao leh.. why like tat.. sui bian abit let mi pass aso cannot.. well.. nemind loh.. take a 3rd time loh. .tis time round i will take leave stay at home n study, thn make sure i pass ah.. realie waste my time wan leh.. thn wrk aso not realie very fine.. lizzie now standing on the sofa.. duno wat she want.. now she sit dwn liao.. thn held her head damn high.. duno wat she lookin at.. actualie tis journal.. i realie too busy to update it.. compare to the time whn i was bac in school, i will update it everydae.. but thn now.. i onli like update it a couple of times a week.. thn all the info like damn filter liao.. but thn still beta thn nth rite.. haizz.. realie miss the times whn i was in school..
at times, i realie hope time can turn bac.. bac to the daes where i was in scool.. bac thn i was like so much more happier.. last time got a bf who is always there for mi.. but thn now knowin alot more fact, i am actualie thankful tat he is not there animore.. thou i would realie like sumone to be there for mi.. but thn i would prefer sumone not tat complicated.. wellwell.. dun tok about all the unhappie stuff liao.. i believe i will find tat sumone soon wan.. hehe~*
tml onli wed.. but thn heng fridae s a public holidae.. thursdae 23rd liao.. its baofa's bdae.. ermm.. how do i feel.. duno aso.. no matter wat is a guy i once like.. sumone i sincerely like.. actualie seems like tis period of time i aso like quite a number of pple hor.. well.. nemind lah.. haizz.. want slp earli.. tml still haftat go wrk.. and my stupid hp.. realie damn jia lat.. want buy new wan.. i wan buy the sony ericsson wan.. duno ex anot leh.. nemind nemind.. i will go check it out whn i free..

Saturdae.. has been a busy week.. tuesdae went to celebrate xw bdae at orchard.. i got ot, thn rushed like mad.. thn wed went to meet up wif a frewn loh.. thn thursdae went ktv wif huiyu.. juz the 2 of us.. i booked the 6-9pm package.. thn left the ofice ard 5.50pm, thn kenny sent us dwn.. thn tat dae he drives tis audi 2 door converterble.. wao lao.. damn impressive.. first time sit tis type of car.. the pick up speed is damn fast.. i duno how to describe lah.. but thn reallie an experience.. hehe~* thn he dropped us off at orchard.. thn mi and huiyu each hold a mic thn we sing for 3hrs straight.. sing till i got no voice leh... thn reach home liao thn i tok on the fone till 2am like tat .. the nxt dae still haf to go wrk.. i was like so damn tired.. realie is bua tahan.. hehe~* fridae went for dinner with the sec sch girls.. qian, drea, jiale shauna.. had fun loh.. thn todae went to wrk.. wrk liao thn go home slp.. tired ah.. slp till now.. tml i goin dwn to take my first driving lesson leh.. so damn excited.. thn after tat goin sentosa with the girls.. long time no go outdoor liao.. even more excited.. hehe~* thn xw sae she goin to bring bikini for mi.. hehe~* first time wear leh.. but thn my figure kana sai liek tat.. wear liao later xia si ren.. xiong juz called and ask mi go movie.. but thn i not goin dwn lah.. too tired.. rather rest at home first.. thn tml can go all out to play.. recently i am pretty close to a frewn.. ermm.. thn last nite he msg mi tell mi, his frewn told him they find him overly caring to mi.. ermm.. nth lah..

mondae.. not enuff slp.. so damn tired.. the weekend so fast over liao.. sat meet qian.. ermm.. celebrating bdae for the entire weekend.. but thn abit lazy to go over it. aniwae, yest went to celebrate hao's bdae.. thn after tat rushed dwn to juring frm pasir ris. to xw hse.. ermm.. overall had fun ba.. thn emi send us home.. tis cumin sundae will be the first dae i will be takin my driving lesson.. so scare.. so excited.. recently tink i might be having tis new crush on tis new guy leh.. ermm.. dun wan sae too much.. but thn craving for the feeling of feeling loved again.. tml meeting up wif the poly girls again.. it was brought forward coz esther thursdae need to wrk late.. thn tis cuming fri meetin up with the sec sch girls.. all girls gathering.. seems like i am onli goin out with the girls recently.. roy goin in ns tis wednesdae.. haizz.. realie no chance to mahjong liao.. but thn nemind.. tink i found new mahjong kahkis liao.. the world aso damn small loh.. tat dae got to knw tis guy, thn he turn out to be shan's best fren in acjc.. hehe~* see whn got chance can meet up with thm ba.. tired.. tink i will slp earli tonite..

Tired.. Todae didnt go out.. dun haf the energy to go out.. yest i recieve the PO for m-0788185n.. thn its like quite happie loh.. coz i have been chasing after this PO for quite sum time.. and it total up to bout USD 20k. thn after i got tat PO, at first gance i realise that they didnt put in the cost for 2items, which amounts up to USD 8400.. tat was on tues i got the PO. thn wed was too busy with other stuff.. thn todae i used the mornin to clear up the mess.. thn i realise tat i actualie overbilled thm.. its like ther are stuff which i haf not billed thm, and aso stuff which i over billed thm.. haizz.. i duno wat lah.. thn in the afternoon my wrk is juz mountainin up.. thn i duno lah.. till now i haf to settle my 0788185 problem.. and the whole dae i kept 0788185 till now everyone know bout it. tml i am goin to use my enitre mornin to clear it up.. haf to write a nice nice email to motorola.. damn jia lat.. i knw i got alot of wrk not done yet.. haiz.. still got phone calls to make.. why like tat leh.. tml aso another busy dae.. got to meet up with qian, thn go des bdae, thn go yz bdae.. thn haf to buy xw bdae present, thn sun might hf to meet yz again, thn haf to go xw bdae party.. my weekend like tat seems over liao.. haizz.. guess tis is the wrkin life.. tis morn as i was clearin the 0788185 mess, i suddenly enter depression mode.. its like i suddenly feel so depress.. sit dwn ther aso can cry wan.. actualie i aso duno why.. its all of a sudden wan loh.. noone offended mi or wat.. its juz liek a sudden mood swing like tat.. thn lunch time huiyu still cum ask mi wat happen.. she can see depression written all over my face for the entire morn.. she sae nxt time whn i give birth, comfirm will get the post pregnency depression wan.. now already like tat, nxt time will be worst.. haizz.. duno lah.. damn tired.. tis wrk is realie wearin mi out..

i juz made a cup of cup noodles.. and i left it there too long coz i was like tryin to on the comp.. thn i forgot all bout it.. thn the noodles absorbed all the soup and its like dry noodles like tat.. but thn nw i totally got no appetide.. haizz..

Todae thursdae.. the week pass so fast.. and i totally got no time no time clear my emails, not to mention to update this.. well.. juz been to take my advance, the test to start at 6.30pm, but thn i onli arrived at 7pm.. heng they still allow mi to take the test.. hehe~* anywae.. dun wan to tok much lah.. sian.. actualie plan to haf a quiet week tis week.. but thn all of a sudden i like damn occupied. mon dinner wif yk, tues went out wig cle. wed i came home after wrk, but thn i ot till 7plus, so by the time i reach home aso late liao.. well, i is everydae aso 7plus thn leave the office wan lah.. thn todae rush like mad go dwn to take the theiry.. tml haf to meet up with the girls.. thn sat aso jia lat.. des bdae thn goin dwn his ther with drea and qian. thn at nite drea goin to yz the bdae.. yz sms mi todae askin mi if i'm free on sat to meet up anot.. i was so bz tat all dates simply slipped off my mind. i actualie overlooked his bdae.. so damn pai sey.. so now sat is i aso duno wat.. with the ting with mi and him.. ermm.. duno lah.. pai sey lah.. thn sundae goin dwn to xw bdae.. seems liek alot of pple bdae nowadaes.. sianzz.. now everyone who called mi to meet up, i will tell thm nxt week.. jia lat lah.. damn tired aso.. everydae wrk till so late.. dun write liao lah.. want to clear my mails.. oh yar.. i alot of daes no on icq, thn todae on icq, thn pple are askin mi for email add to add mi into sum duno wat freinster tingy.. did i spell it correctly?? i liek so damn behind times like tat.. i dun even knw wat izzit.. tink i haf to go check it up whn i free liao.. how? i like a old lady like tat... haizz.. and whalewhale goin in ns tis sat.. goin to be in ther for 3weeks and four daes.. ermm.. all the best to him ba..

sundae.. so fast.. haf to go bac wrk tomolo liao.. went to johor earli tis morn.. damn tired now leh.. bought 2 skirts and a pair of shoe.. like the skirts leh.. got one veryvery cute.. like abit act cute like tat.. but thn nemind.. who bothers.. todae at jb.. suddenly tot of yk.. realie miss the daes wher i was with him.. the daes where we went jb with drea and daniel.. and the daes we were in hk.. ermm.. duno lah.. tis few daes suddenlie want the feeling to be loved.. want someone to love mi, to dote on mi and to patpat mi to slp.. i must be dreaming.. nemind mi.. last nite went to see wu jian dao with xiong, jon and roy.. the show okie loh.. see liao aso haf alot of after tots.. wat tots.. ermm.. i aso duno how to explain.. sian lah..

So fast.. Fridae liao.. Juz came bac home.. yest meet up with the girls at city hall again.. the feeling so nice wor.. realie miss the daes wher we were still in school.. everyone turn up in their office wear.. who will believe we are onli 20?? hehe~* but thn its alrite.. tml nite they goin clubbin.. duno i can make it anot.. coz tml i meetin sis they all for movie.. thn xiong juz sms mi sae gotta see at nite, coz jon is goin to book out late.. ermm.. thn i will be like damn free in the afternoon.. still tryin to find sum stuff to slot in the empty space.. nemind, worst cum to worst i can cum home slp wan.. tink i can do with abit of rest.. thn if can tml after movie they got no plans we can all go clubbin.. nxt thurs i takin my advance again.. gotta start studying liao.. i rather kiasu abit thn fail.. so since i goin to take my advance nxt thurs, thn the girls planed to meet on the fridae instead.. thn goin sing ktv wor.. and tat is goin to end at 12.. so emi tryin to get the car thn we can all save on the midnite cab.. nxt sat maybe can meet qian.. long time no see drea liao.. wonder how is she.. well.. duno lah.. actualie more or less settled dwn at wrk liao.. but thn i still feel like changin job.. but thn i tink i am juz not determined enuff.. but thn one ting i gotta admit.. tis job realie gives mi the sense of job satifacotory.. like my baby is out and completed liao.. the samples is out liao.. thou we cheated abit lah.. do sum stuff to the samples so tat the dimensions are in, thn sent the samples out thn sent the tool out for repair liao.. hehe~* but thn no matter wat, i am realie hopin my baby got approved and qualified.. tink i aso duno wat i am tokkin bout rite.. well, nemind nemind.. tml sat liao.. one week haf pass juz like tis.. todae had dinner mif mummy at yishun.. she came to pick mi up.. she wanted company tonite wor.. tats why she came all the wae to yishun.. coz todae is her wedding anniversary with daddy.. but thn daddy coulnt make it bac to singapore.. so she onli got to make do with mi.. but thn i treated her dinner.. spent quite abit of money.. but thn nemind lah.. mummy leh.. hehe~*

Wednesdae.. So far my dieting plans are not wrkin out.. after wrk tdae i had kfc with huiyu.. thou we skipped lunch todae, but thn seems like i had a fatening dinner.. haizz.. todae i ask thm whether my face has becum rounder.. thn jas saes nope.. thn huiyu sae i all along is tis round.. damn jia latzz.. haizz.. nemind nemind.. todae had a bad dae in the office.. whn i woke up tis morn i got tis uneasy feeling liao. so it turned out to be rite.. seems liek everyting went wrong todae.. till i couldnt take it, thn so juz nice todae is the first, the urge to tender in resignation is very strong. called mummy during lunch.. tok till i was crying.. thn whn i went up to the office, huiyu tok to mi again, thn i realie burst out crying.. and its more thn a few drop of tears. she got a shock.. coz for the past one week, i was like so hapie during wrk.. everyting was like so well, i was like ermm.. so into the job. thn all of a sudden todae, i like tat.. haizz.. bt thn no matter wat, we managed to went tru the dae.. thou alot of stuff cock up, but thn well.. manage to continue to let it drag.. tml thursdae again liao.. so duno am i meetin up with the girlss.. and my pay slip came in todae.. ermm.. not alot.. but thn at least.. this is the first time my POSB acc passes the 1000 mark.. tat time whn i went to hk with yk, i saved up to more thn 1000bucks, but thn the acc didnt manage to pass tat 1000 mark coz i lend a sum of money to drea, thn she paied mi bac in cash.. thn whn i took my CK money, thn first time before i bank the cash in, i already spend close to 400buck to buy my wallet, thn the 2nd time i lend 500bucks to huili.. so tis is realie the first time wor.. hehe~* so happie~*so todae i onli ate dinner.. hope tml will be beta lah..

SICK
yar.. i am sick todae.. long time no fall sick liao.. todae woke up earli, thn sms huiyu told her i not feeling well.. in fact yest already not well.. last nite couldnt slp, feel so terrible.. flu lah.. thn with the sore throat.. haizz.. went dwn see doctor liao.. cost mi 30bucks.. tml haf to go bac office.. sure alot of stuff to do wan.. well.. todae actualie planned to start dieting wan.. but thn now 12noon, i already ate 2 slices of kaya loti, thn tat time go food fair buy the chicken wing, thn i toast and eat.. thn now i eatin egg muffin.. damn jia lat.. hopefulli in the afternoon i will not go find more food liao.. i sms xiong told him i sick.. thn he told mi jon aso mc.. thn he sae sure is jon tat dae mahjong tat time thn spread to mi wan.. so the guys nw at hougang mall ther eat dim sum.. coz jon goin bac tekong tonite.. actualei all of a sudden abit of headache.. juz nw qing sms mi wor.. sae wan meet mi.. ermm.. duno lah.. feel like slpin.. remember i got the wu jian dao VCD.. but thn duno throw wher liao.. feel like seein wu jian dao 2 leh.. wan to see the first wan again..

Wat a borin dae.. Didnt even step out of the hse. Errmm.. Its not that noone asked me out, and also not that I dont have any where to go. Just not in the mood to go out, just feel like slacking at home.. Today Qian and Le went to Simei.. Both bring their doggies along.. I wanted to join them. But then partly I was lazy, and partly also coz I'm afraid that its hard to get a cad with the doggies.. And I couldnt make up my mind to bring which doggie. and I know I cant possibly handle 2 dogs.. So in the end with all these factors, I decided to stay and home and continue slacking.. So ended up realie doing nothing. Somewhere in the afternoon, someone ask me out for a show. But then, once again I was in the lazing mood, so I decline the offer. So it seems like I have wasted my sundae just like this.. And now, I seemed to be having a sore throat. And also a slight flu. Duno will it turn worst tomolo. Well, its definately a chance to take MC. But then there is still alot of things to be done in the office. And all racing against time. If I didnt go work tomolo, then it might cause delays in some of the projects.. There are still projects where it have not kick off yet.. I am still pendong for the Quotations.. Its 9plus now. I realie dont know what should I do. Its realie a boring day.

Saturdae liao.. juz reach home.. feelin tired.. well, seems like i am tired everydae.. waitin for sis jon and one of their frwen to cum over for mahjong now.. last nite actualie planned to cum bac earli thn update the journal and all.. but thn wat happen is i Ot again, thn yest i left office at 7plus.. thn by thn time i home already 9plus liao.. damn tired.. so in the end i aso never cum online.. thn i fall aslp on the sofa.. thn whn i wake up this morn, got 11 sms.. scary ah.. so aniwae, i aso cant remember much on wat i did tis week liao.. i knw i went for a show with xiong, thn got one dae had dinner with yk, thn thursdae went dinner with the girls loh.. and two guy.. thn go suntec eat tat jap food.. duno hw to spell lah.. but thn its tat marche style jap food.. thn everyone sit ther tok cock.. thn by the time i reach home aso bout 12am liao.. so its like another tiring dae.. haizz.. actualie these few daes, i am quite happie at wrk.. busy but tired.. alot of tings to do.. still feeling stress, but thn ermm.. duno lah.. maybe with all the responsibility, thn haf tat satifactory feeling.. but thn i still find the pay alittle low.. ermm.. nemind nemind.. take a step at a time see hw ba.. the guys real slow wan.. i wait till i wan slp liao.. tis morn i was almos late.. so i was actualie in quite a bad mood todae.. but thn whalewhale sms mi wor.. he long time no sms mi liao.. so its liek sort of brighten up my dae abit lah.. and after wrk todae went to lunch with huiyu.. thn walk all the wae wan eat the chong pang nasi lemak thn never open.. haizz.. but thn we ended up eatin nasi lemak too lah.. aso not bad lah.. thn feelin damn full nw.. nowadaes realie is fat liao.. its like my own body, thn i can see wan loh.. sad ah.. realie sad.. got to do sumting bout it liao.. i knw i can wan.. juz give mi sum time n determination.. haizz.. wher are the guys....

Like long time no update tis liao leh.. todae fridae liao.. feeling damn tired.. todae huiyu mc.. she finaly cant take it, high fever liao.. partly aso coz yest morn raining, thn we share umbrella, thn i tink she abit drenched, thn sick liao.. haizz.. actualie dun realie feel like cumin wrk todae wan.. but thn in the end i aso cum liao.. ermm.. todae realie tired.. i aso cant remember i update till wat dae liao.. so todae i am goin home straight after wrk.. thn i can update at home.. and one ting.. girlgirl die liao.. she dies last nite.. sad.. yest is 25th sept. 2 years ago, on 22nd sept, i bought her bac home.. still can remember on tat dae, i was at serangoon north ther with yk. thn she was in a small container, thn got this big stray dog keep following us. i was so scare. thn even yk was ard, nth we could do.. we cantrun, coz the dog will chase. thn the dog like interested in girlgirl.. so scare he will eat her up.. back thn, she was sooo small u knw.. brought her home liao thn she fight with baby.. see hw she bully baby.. thn see her givin birth.. and thn.... i duno lah.. actualie after i got the dogs, i knw i nelected my hammy.. but thn.. i still feel so damn sad.. haizz.. duno lah..

todae tues.. yest mondae had a admn bad dae in the office.. how bad, i aso cant desicribe. but thn definately top 5 worst daes here.. aniwae, yest went to see a show wif sis.. nice show lah.. thou endin lame. shall not sae much, in case u intend to see the show.. aniwae, damn broke ah.. haizz.. duno will have enuff to survive till my pay cum out anot.. but thn feelin extrememli fat todae.. coz had a very late dinner last nite.. haizz.. todae meetin yk for dinner.. well.. duno lah... todae a very bz dae.. alot of tings to do.. jia lat liao.. tink todae will need to do OT liao..

at home nw leh.. todae ot till bout 7pm thn leave the office.. well.. on my wae home, i suddenly got alot of tots.. alot of sad tots.. suddenly enter depress mode again..

todae mondae, i'm bac in the office.. todae mood still not bad lah.. saturdae after wrk went to tamp to meet xiong, jon and roy.. they all juz booked out, thn roy sae he signed on leh.. thn sis sae he pass his ippt.. thn will be out for 10daes.. he so hapie leh.. after tat went food fair, thn damn tired.. bought quite abit of stuff lah.. thn at nite went to jon hse mahjong.. they played 20-40cent.. thn i won 2bucks.. heng leh.. coz initaly i losin wan.. thn gt tis guy send mi home.. thn his drivin skills damn lousy, i sit till i scare ah.. so aniwae i reach home, thn i sclaked abit, thn slpt ard 4plus loh.. thn sundae i woke up damn earli.. coz my cousin weddin. so woke up damn earli, went to my granny place loh.. thn ther alot of pple.. thn buffet abit, thn left ard 12noon go home slp.. reach home liao brought the doggies go dwn for a walk.. they sooo hapie leh.. see thm hapie i aso hapie.. hehe~* thn after tat i fall aslp. thn by the time i wake up thn time to go dinner liao. thn went to pan pacific.. thn the food ther nice wor.. thn haf a ncie evening loh.. but thn see the weddin couple i like so envy leh.. haizz.. i duno hw to explain lah.. but thn i aso hope one dae i could aso juz be like thm, happily married. thn my granny was tellin mi the nxt one shld be mi liao.. she actualie forgot i still got a couple more older cousins.. acutalie over ther, i'm the youngest girl.. and after mi its my brother they all liao.. well.. she said i beta be quick, coz if not she cant see it liao.. haizz.. duno lah.. feelin quite hapie todae wor.. aso duno why.. maybe yest tat joyous mode still lingers.. haizz.. whn's my turn cumin leh.. hehe~* i tink still farfar ah..

firdae nite.. but thn instead of feelin hapie, i actualie feel bad.. had a bad dae at wrk.. i tot i could juz get busy, thn the daes will juz pass by dae by dae, thn juz like earn a living like tat loh.. all for the sake of money.. but thn once i got nth to do.. thn life is a torture.. todae the urge to resign is very strong. i told myself to give mi a chance, and aso the company a chance. its like i got to give everyting a try. i dun wan to give up without even tryin.. when haf i becum so brave.. i tink it actualie required alot of courage to stand up to ur own belifs.. so tat even shld i fail, i will not regret.. so tat i can tell myself, at least i tried rite.. wat am i tokin bout.. i realie duno.. all i knw is i am in ultra depress mode todae..
todae sis msg mi wor.. he said he pass, cumin out todae.. well.. i duno wat did he pass , but thn shld be the ippt ba.. thn got disrupted.. so nice hor.. thn he sms mi and sae we can mahjong and all liao.. todae i feel so lonely, so forsaken.. like in tis bigbig world, thers onli xinyi, xinyi and still onli xinyi. wher are my frewns.. wher are my loved ones.. its like all of a sudden i feel i got noone.. huiyu went off to meet her twin.. all of a sudden i am so envy of her.. no matter wat, she haf her twin.. wat bout mi.. wat do i haf.. its like i duno hw to explain tat feelin.. realie had a bad dae at wrk.. todae lunch time i was lookin tru the bdae pics tat huili put up online.. you knw hw i feel whn i see those pics?? i was wondering whn could i be smilin like tat again? its like i felt so loved bac thn.. everyone remembered my bdae.. celerating for mi.. its like everyone loh.. i am realie hapie. and nw at wrk, i feel so bad.. and after a bad dae, ther is noone i could turn to like tat.. nw i sit dwn here i aso feel like cryin.. sound damn pathetic rite.. wher are my memoriesmemories...

thursdae liao wor.. hehe~* suppose to go to the poly girls nite out wan.. but thn i forgot to bring my hp out.. thou i manage to get est during lunch tru icq, but thn the feelin of not havin hp thn sian liao loh.. haizz.. nemind nemind.. we sae nxt week thn comfirm meet up.. todae in quite a good mood wor.. duno why.. nth much pop up at wrk todae.. and both mi and huiyu left the office ontime todae.. hehe no ot wor.. ermm.. mondae nite meet hengheng for dinner at amk, thn tues go eat macdonald wif huiyu.. thn wed meet up wif heng again to go pasar malam at yishun ther.. ermm.. nth much happen lah.. but thn meetin up old frewns.. nice feelin loh.. see frewns tat didnt see for such a long time.. i wan go see holland V wor.. write later ba..

In the office nw. if i sae i feel like cryin nw, will u believe mi? tat fucker kept sayin i do tings damn slow, thn haf alot of stuff outstanding.. bt thn did she actualie realise tat i am doin all her stuff tat she dun wan do.. like all her paper wrk.. all her forms and all.. all the little little tings.. all these tings thou might be little, but thn it could get damn tedious, thn it will take time wan loh.. and haf to go after pple chasing for stuff, thn on top of it, i still got my own outstandin stuff.. its like damn fed up wan loh.. i am here, tryin my best to settle all tings i haf on hand, thn all u ever do is to dump more stuff to mi.. and thn keep complanin i slow. i feel damn miserable. izzit a wise choice to stay?? i realie wonder.

todael iek got alot of entry hor.. maybe coz todae i whole dae at home loh.. thn free mah.. hehe~* so todae i found out that Twins got new album again leh.. so happie~*its call evalution.. and i am downloadin it liao.. thank god mh got 8 of the songs.. so all i haf to do is to go d/l the last 2 thn i haf the complete album liao.. thn nw waitin for the last song, thn i can burn into disc liao.. thn in the meanwhile wait for it to cum out thn i can buy the original wan..
and tat dae i go book my advance theory again liao.. itso n the 8th oct.. tis time round cant fail again.. acutalie find myself quite useless.. why did i fail leh.. but thn i didnt study lah.. dun see ani reason to pass aniwae.. but thn tis time round i very determine to do well liao.. coz i aso go get my PDL aso.. thn valid for half year onli.. so cant waste the money n time.. gotta pass the advance tis time round.. thn qian gave mi the instructor num liao.. i Oct thn can start the lessons.. coz i haf to wait till my pay cum out.. hehe~* so excited..
feelin damn full todae.. but thn didnt eat much todae leh.. duno why.. jia latzz.. tml lunch eatin loti again.. thn i bought wei ta nai~* sianzz ah..

and lastly.. my grad photo.. finaly, todae i remember and all, thn go see.. and wif sum help of my classmate, i actualie dun haf to go buy the pic, thn can see my pic wor.. hehe~* but thn i actualie find it quite ugly.. the hair lah.. shld haf tie it up or sumting.. aniwae, tis is mi...

Juz took a test thn tis is the result.. The follwon is the link.. go take liao thn let mi knw wat are u kaekae..

Love Test

Are you Giving or Taking?
You are Giving. You are a generous, unselfish person. This does not refer specifically to money, but also to less tangible things like your time, your help and your emotional support. You'll be best-matched with someone who's opposite to you in this respect, so look for someone who's a Taker if you want to make your life complete. You're best matched with a Taker.
Are you Committed or Free?
You are Committed. You have a tendency to seek a relationship that is close, intimate and exclusive. This can be a beautiful thing, but you should avoid making it too clinging or possessive. Committed people like yourself are likely to be happiest with a partner who is also Committed. You're best matched with another Committed person.

Are you a Boss or a Slave?
You are Boss. Your result indicates that you prefer to be the dominant partner in your relationship. The boss role in sex is often a reflection of this position in general life, but there are always exceptions. Some people who are tyrants in the office come home and submit totally to their partners. As a boss, you'll be happiest in a relationship with someone who is your opposite. Every boss needs a slave. You're best matched with a Slave.

Are you Quiet or Exciting?
You are Quiet. In general you tend to be a quieter, retiring, introvert personality and you'll do best with someone else who is similarly inclined. You could therefore share subdued interests such as reading or golf. You're best matched with another Quiet person.

Your Love Style is Giving - Committed - Boss - Quiet.

You are likely to be most compatible with someone whose Love Style is Taking - Committed - Slave - Quiet.

My inner child is sixteen years old!

Life's not fair! It's never been fair, but while
adults might just accept that, I know
something's gotta change. And it's gonna
change, just as soon as I become an adult and
get some power of my own.


How Old is Your Inner Child?
brought to you by Quizilla

did i mentioned tat SQ wans to meet mi up to haf a tok?? well, frm duno wher, she got my number and sms mi.. i was kind of shock to see her sms. and whn i see it, i was actualie eatin sushi wif huili they all.. so its tat thursdae nite.. so after i got tat sms, in fact i tink its bout 4, i didnt sms bac, till sat, i ask her wat she wans to knw. thn she sae she wans to meet mi.. u tink i will go meet her?? pple who knws mi well shld knw the ans.. ermm.. aniwae, todae is a borin dae.. its another home sweet home dae.. tml is the dae i haf to go bac and tok to my boss.. and i aso hopin the 4D tat huiyu and i bought will open.. even if it cums in the consolation prize i aso dun mind.. hehe~* in fact i tink noone will mind wan.. i was readin bac my blogger juz nw.. frm the dae i was still in sch takin exams.. how time flies ah.. haizz.. and aso the dae i meet up wif whalewhale.. well.. how do i feel and all.. i duno. but thn i tink as my job more or less settles dwn, i will start to yearn for tat sumone to cum liao..

I tink i had post this up before.. but thn this email actualie circulate back to mi.. and i cant help but want to post this up again..

Things That A Perfect Guy Would Do!!!
>
> 1. Know how to make you smile when you are down.
>
> 2. Try to secretly smell your hair, but you always notice.
>
> 3. Stick up for you, but still respects your independence.
>
> 4. Give you the remote control during the game.
>
> 5. Come up behind you and put his arms around you.
>
> 6. Play with your hair.
>
> 7. His hands always find yours.
>
> 8. Be cute when he really wants something.
>
> 9. Offer you plenty of massages.
>
> 10. Dance with you, even if he feels like a dork.
>
> 11. Never run out of love.
>
> 12. Be funny, but know how to be serious.
>
> 13. Realize he's being funny when he needs to be serious.
>
> 14. Be patient when you take forever to get ready.
>
> 15. React so cutel! y when you hit him and it actually hurts.
>
> 16. Smile a lot.
>
> 17. Plans a romantic date full of cheesy things he wouldn't normally
like
> to do, just because he knows it means a lot to you.
>
> 18. Appreciate you.
>
> 19. Help others out.
>
> 20. Drive 5 hours just to see you for 1.
>
> 21. Always gives you a peck on the cheek when you depart from each
others
> company, even when his friends are watching.
>
> 22. Sing, even if he can't.
>
> 23. Have a creative sense of humor.
>
> 24. Stare at you.
>
> 25. Call for no reason.
>
> 26. Quit smoking, chewing, drinking, or drugs - just because he loves u
> that much to quit it.
>
> 27: NEVER curse in front of YOU!
>

SATURDAE~*

hehe.. i got the entire weekend to myself.. and now, in fact i got the entire hse to myself.. benben go out liao.. mummy aso go out liao.. left mi.. and its a sat n i'm stayin at home.. kinda pathetic hor.. hehe~* but thn nemind.. i can go slp later, haf a good rest.. thn can play wif my doggies aso.. long time no sat do hse wrk liao leh.. but thn todae not in the mood leh.. feeling tired.. but thn hse dun feel too clean either.. hehe~* todae i first ting reach office, i go QA settle sum stuff.. thn the min i cum dwn, at 9am, huiyu told mi got meeting.. so i go meeting loh.. blurblur like tat go meetin liao loh.. thn the meetin damn draggy.. drag till 11am thn fire drill.. thn in the end i got sooo much wrk cant finish.. realie is alot of wrk not done.. thn huiyu aso waiting for mi to go.. so i chopchop finish the more urgent wan thn i leave liao.. thn went haf lunch with huiyu, thn walk ard.. thn got the weighin machine mah.. so we both took our weight.. and i gain weight liao.. so sad.. frm todae onwards i MUST realie jian fei liao.. and this time round i'm serious wan.. but thn aniwae, we did a damn stupid ting loh.. we actualie use our weight go buy 4D loh.. thn her weight b4 mine, coz she older thn mi.. hehe~* older thn mi by 2mths.. so we buy for todae n tml.. thn we sae if open thn we mondae both tell our boss we resign.. but thn if didnt open, thn we will stay.. hehe~* not exactly stay lah.. but thn will be on the pendin stage loh.. hehe~* tired ah..

Its fridae todae.. and guess wat, i am at home.. i took a half dae leave todae.. goin for the interview at paya lebar ther.. haizz.. contridicting.. suddenly abit bu she de leave sei woo.. coz actualie i sort of like my job scope. but thn the onli ting bad bout it is its damn stress.. stress till i duno how to sae.. aniwae, yest my boss actualie was tellin mi, if i realie feel stess n not happie, he gave mi another alternative is to transfer dept.. well.. i dun tink i am goin to take up tat offer. its either i'm stayin put, or i'm leavin.. shall decide again after todae's interview.. tired.. real tired.. yest haf sushi wif the girls.. can realie see the effort everyone is makin to keep in contact.. so frm nw on, every wed, i cant be lazy.. haf to report to city hall rite after wrk.. even got ot aso haf to go dwn after tat.. coz everyone is makin an effort, so i aso haf to do my part rite.. haizz.. hw time flies.. i realie miss the good old daes.. whn i am still in sch, foolin ard.. till nw, i haf still not tok to drea.. 1 week. it has been one week liao.. haizz.. duno lah.. stubborn her, stubborn mi.. noone wans to give in.. but thn no worries, the nxt time we see each other, everyting is goin yo be alrite liao.. but thn whn are we goin to see each other?? karen's bdae?? i duno.. yest zhong qiu jie wor.. msg dennis.. i can still remember our first date is on zhong qiu jie.. we went to see xin yu xin yuan, thn went to ponggol park, thn seng kang ther play candle.. haizz.. those was the dae.. and last year, if i'm not wrong, i was wif baofa.. bought the mooncake, pay liao thn i forget to collect it. so the nxt dae he went dwn wif mi to collect it. and the fair actualie ended already, so haf to get auntie julie's son to go in and take for mi.. hehe~* i realie blur n careless rite.. pay liao thn didnt collect it.. tis year no candle, no nth.. no time for it.. haizz.. guess this is the price i haf to pay for growin up.. but thn why izzit such a heavy price..

nw lunch time.. actualie wan to update wan.. but thn lookin bac at the time not earli liao.. so i tink i will do it at a later date~* but thn zhong qiu jie kuai le~* todae ba yue shi wu.. so nice.. tonite meetin the girls.. thn after tat meetin yk.. so tats my schedule for the dae. thn i tok to my boss bout the resignation stuff.. haizz.. update sum other daes ba..

Wednesdae liao wor.. time acutalie passes qutie fast.. actualie i had a nice dae at wrk todae.. yesterdae after wrk i went out wif huiyu.. not exactly went out lah.. juz tat we went to haf dinenr together at yishun.. thn we chit chat bout alot of stuff.. shes realie a nice girl.. say if ther's aniting i will miss leavin sei woo, its definately goin to be her.. shes a nice girl.. so i actualie reach home pretty late.. and tired.. thn todae tat auntie mc.. noone orders mi ard, noone give mi face.. so i actualei feel damn happie at wrk.. and todae fred gave mi a new part to handle all by myself.. hehe~* i actualie hold the meeting all by myself.. and it actualie went on smoothly~* so nice leh.. i actualie feel so proud of myself.. tml my boss cumin bac, thn haf to tell him bout the reason i leavin n all.. thn todae got pple call ask mi fridae go interview.. hehe~* happie leh.. but thn duno fridae hw am i goin to apply leave.. nemind nemind.. i will go tink bout it thn see hw ba.. but thn todae i haf a nice dae.. but thn tired lah.. so i goin to bed early.. tml zhong qiu jie leh.. can go play candle and all.. hehe~* i tinkin of bring lizzie go dwn tml to play the lantern.. hehe~*

todae mondae.. not exactly very blue.. coz i haf tis sloppy attitude at wrk todae.. i offended tat lao char bo again.. but thn who bothers.. and todae, i emailed tat benjamin, tell him i cant take it animore liao.. sae i wan resign liao.. duno how he will react to it.. acutalie i aso one kind wan lah.. haven find a new job thn wan to leave liao.. haizz.. so i guess by the end of the mth, i will be jobless again.. but thn wat to do.. haizz.. nemind lah.. take a step at a time ba.. i aso duno wat i'm doin is correct or wrong leh.. but thn onli hope i will not leave to regret.. juz nw went to haf dinner wif cle.. damn hungry.. never eat lunch todae.. so go eat the ban mian.. yumyum.. thn see a movie.. see legally blond 2.. nice show leh.. damn funny.. hehe~* so now, i juz set up the yahoo group for sec 4/4.. i duno how the respnse will be, but thn i hope they will all be supportive and join loh.. coz its like all effort loh.. in order to stay in touch, its realie alot of effort loh.. all along i already did my part liao.. so now its all up to thm.. sicne tat dae i quarrel wif drea, we haf not contacted each other.. well.. duno lah.. acutalie i now aso nth liao.. duno she still angry anot.. but thn haiz.. duno lah.. and whn i came home todae, i realise lizzie spoil my rubber band.. tat time i went shoppin thn i bought tis rubber band, its a pair wan.. thn got tis start shape wan.. i actualie like it quite alot.. and tis dog actualie chew it up, thn the start duno liek wat liao.. haizz.. angry leh.. she spoil my ting.. and tis rubber band not cheap leh.. tink its bout 5bucks.. imagine rubber band aso cost 5bucks.. haiz..

i knw i didnt reali update tis for quite sum daes.. so now, on tis sundae nite, i'm goin to fill in all the blanks..
Thursdae
tat is my graduation dae.. i feel so happie on tat dae.. went to sch, was abit late, but thn it doesnt realie matter lah..thn meet dennis on at the bus stop to TP.. actualie quite iorinc loh.. whn i was in sec school, on the dae i took my o level results, his aso the one i saw.. i still remember i went to his hse after i took my results.. well, nemind.. thn saw alot of pple cum bac sch, saw jere.. he came bac in his ns uniform.. he lost alot of weight wor.. hehe~* nw look shuaishuai wor.. so happie to see thm leh.. thn went in to TCC, thn they play the TP sch song.. and tears start to roll in my eyes.. i feel so upset.. thn after the sch song, the VIp start to give speech, thn it got so boring.. juz thn, xiong called.. hehe~* he said his cumin out on tat dae, taking the 8pm ferry, thn jon takin the 7pm wan.. so he sae we can go out, maybe see a dinner.. thn i was like so happie to hear frm him wor.. thn after tat, wait for all the speeches liao, thn time to go on stage to take the diploma.. so excited.. so tat is the moment liao.. finaly, i got my diploma liao.. and tat realie end my dae in Temasek Poly.. after tat got a reception, thn stay awhile in school, tok to all of thm.. and i realie feel like crying wor.. coz tis is the last time liao.. after tat everyone went on different wae.. thn i went to tamp wif huili n yk, hang ard abit, wiat for xiong to cum. thn cl aso came dwn.. thn we went to see a movie.. see the pirate movie.. its like so nice loh.. see the movie wif 3 guys.. so tat ended my dae.. i was realie veryvery happie tat dae.. even the tot of hafin to go bac to wrk the nxt dae didnt manged to damped my mood.. hehe~*

Fridae

So wif still a very happie heart, i went to wrk.. i was even earli for wrk.. thn even wif tat idiot lao char bo, i still feel happie.. till lunch time.. coz fridae nite i goin to haf dinner with my sec school frewns.. thn drea not too happie.. coz i aso duno lah.. coz myabe is mi and qian plan wan.. thn she keep sayin we didnt tell her till the very last min.. cum on loh.. we called her on tuesdae nite to tell her goin marina south eat leh.. late notice meh?? thn i got damn fed up loh.. so quarrel loh.. thn she said sumting like if everyone so fedup thn she dun go loh. thn i told her dun go fine wif mi thn i hang up the fone liao.. i hang up liao i call qian loh.. thn drea aso call her loh.. expected wan loh.. whnever ani 2 of us quarrel, we will alwaes call the 3rd girl wan.. haizz.. but thn eventuali at nite, we still went to marina south.. qian, mi, jiale, chokie, shuana and shirlynn came.. so we 6 girls haf fun loh.. thn drea realie didnt cum.. but thn at times i realie hope she will understand loh.. coz to arrange for a outing is realie not easy.. and tis is not a small group.. we cant possibli accomodate everyone wan.. and to call everyone up one by one is realie a tedious job.. and to make it worst, i'm wrkin liao, and i'm sure u pple can understand the circumstances i'm in.. i'm realie damn stress at wrk.. and everyting realie need alot of effort on my part liao.. i realie cant stand all these nonsense wan loh.. she sae she sore throat thn we arrange go eat tat steam boat.. cum on loh.. whn i arrange it, u aso never tell mi u sick, and i aso not expectin u to be sick.. she wan like tat i aso lanlan loh.. all i can sae is i haf done my part loh.. if she tink arrangin all these stuff is easy, thn let her do it thn.. so due to all the pressure at wrk, and drea, on fridae, i final break down and cry in the office liao..

SATURDAE

went home late on fridae nite.. in fact, ever since tuesdae, i seems to be home late.. so by sat, i'm realie beat.. haizz.. but thn still haf to go to wrk.. bo bian wan.. so went to wrk loh.. thn tat lao char bo still gimi alot of problem.. i reali cant take it liao.. so after wrk thn i wan go home slp liao.. but thn on my wae home, thn jon called, ask mi to go out eat.. thn they nan de weekend cum out mah.. so i sae okie loh.. thn after tat after i went home liao, thn they sae play mahjogn instead, thn actualie beta loh.. like tat i dun haf to go out mah.. hehe~* so they came over mahjong loh.. wif cle.. thn in the end i lost money ah.. lost 6bucks.. xiong won.. onli he win.. he win bout 19bucks.. thn after tat thy left liao.. actualie arrange to go la kopi wif thm ard 10pm.. but thn i too tired liao lah.. thn i fall aslp liao.. hehe~* cle got call, but thn i slp liao.. actualei whn playin mahjong, i realie tired liao.. tats why i lose money loh.. hehe~* but thn nemind lah.. so nan de can see sis and all..

SUNDAE

mornin woke up by mummy loh.. thn they bring lizzie to see vet.. thn after tat went dwn to my wai po hse.. my cousin baby full mth.. thn go dwn eat buffet.. didnt stay long loh.. thn after tat went dwn to my granny hse.. thn went dwn too earli, thn noone ther.. so i actualei fall aslp ther.. slp till san ku came dwn wif her daughters.. thn after tat one by one all cum dwn loh.. thn stay till bout 9pm thn uncle william sent mi home.. thn sian loh.. haizz.. feel like changin my explorere.. dun like the explorer nw.. whnever they usem y comp liao, sumting bond to change wan .. thn see liao i aso sian.. but thn aso sian lah.. tml haf to go bac wrk liao.. haizz..

yesterdae had fun.. hehe.. actualie wan say bout wat happen yest.. but thn juz argue wif drea.. no mood. update again at a later date ba.. sianz.

At home now ah.. so happie.. a thursdae mornin no wrk.. took leave todae coz later haf to go bac sch for graduating ceremony.. so happie leh.. last nite went to zouk.. actualie very tired.. whn i reach home after wrk liao i dun feel like goin out liao.. but thn coz not alot of pple goin, thn i'm aso the idiot who saes i wan to go wan.. so i went aniwae.. so its on mi, huili, emi and xw.. thn xinhui and her frewn aso came dwn later.. i didnt exactly drink alot last nite.. but thn i got abit high n drunk.. well.. its like tat.. i knw i'm not a good drinker.. hehe~* last nite.. ermm.. we got to knw sum guys ther.. frm wat i remember got tis guy came up n tok to us.. he intro himself n ask for name.. actualie i didnt manage to hear his name.. thn he ask mi for a dance but i rejected.. coz i knw i'm gettin abit not stable liao.. i would rather sit dwn.. thn after tat got another guy.. he in a grp wan.. he aso cum up n ask for a dance.. so tats the pick up sentance at zouk huh.. hehe.. thn i rejected again.. n went to hide behind emi.. by thn huili n xinhui already left liao.. left mi n xw and emi.. but thn tat 2nd guy continue tokkin to emi n ask for all the names and all.. so we hang ard togehter till the very end.. actualie i till nw aso duno his name.. he did sae lah.. but thn i cant remember liao.. hehe~* thn aso got to knw cum black girls ther.. tat girl name i remember.. she's called lilian is i not wrong.. thn they realie very happening wan leh.. thn we so hang ard with thm.. so aniwae.. we left bout 10mins b4 3am lah.. thn reach home liao i damn tired thn go slp liao loh.. thn todae wake up liao thn i go iron my stuff liao.. waitin for 11.30am to cum, thn i will go prepare thn go sch liao.. so excited.. seein everyone again.. lookin my very best.. hehe~*can see jere and all again.. and todae xiong and jon cumin bac frm tekong.. but thn i tink no chance to see him wan.. coz he shld be bz wif his own stuff.. but thn no matter wat.. hope he okie loh.. tis mornin i wake up on tv, thn got pple die in ns again.. haizz.. poor ting wan leh.. 2nd case in 2 weeks.. nemind nemind.. actualie i realie cant help but feel happie todae loh.. thou todae is like a no plan dae.. thn alot of time will be spent in school doin nth, but thn the fact tat i dun haf to go bac wrk todae ah, thn can wear nicenice n go see everyone, realie happie loh.. hehe~*

lunch time again.. but seems like its goin to end soon.. sianzz.. well.. last nite went shoppin wif qian and bought a top and skirt.. like the top quite alot.. frm zara wan.. thn after tat actualie spent moz of the time juz walkin ard and tokkin loh.. haf a nice evenin out loh..
well.. yest yk and i sort of haf a last tok.. so he admitted ther's tis girl.. well, maybe they are not together yet.. but thn ther's realie tis girl.. he ask mi a qus.. why am i behavin tis wae whn i learned of tat girl.. if the one who haf a gf nw is xiong, cle or whoever, will i react tis wae?? good qus.. i got no ans to it.. for certain i knw if sis or cle got a gf nw, i will feel happie for thm.. bt why izzit nw yk haf tis new girl n i'm so unhappi bout it. well.. the fact seems to juz lies ahead, but i'm not wellin to face it. thn i told him, i dun wan to be together. and tats my final verdict. do i regret it.. frankly speakin, i do.. i even tot of smsin him tis morn and tell him i regret wat i said last nite.. but thn i did not do it.. why.. i aso duno.. so now, i haf lost him forever.. a guy who loves mi and dote on mi.. why did i not accept him bac to my life.. good qus again.. but i dun haf an ans.. an ans tat he haf been pressin mi for so long.
and the job here.. huiyu said she's goin to resign soon.. either todae or tml.. how i do i feel?? i feel like givin up. i knw its not sensible of mi to do tat nw.. coz financialy, i cant afford to idle.. but thn the life here is getin disastrous.. wifout her, i guess its goin to get worst.. how?? i kept makin mistake.. and sum is due to my carelessness, while others is due to my lack of knowledge or coz xiao ren suo hai.. haizz.. life is so miserable.. i was tinkin of hangin on to it till the end of the mth, thn get the one mth pay liao thn resign, thn serve 2wks.. but thn its onli 3rd nw. can i hang on till tat long?? i realie doubt so.. haizz.. how??
seems to hit bottom low again. why am i alwaes hittin the lowest recently.. seems like ever since i grad, nth seems to be goin on well like tat.. either cant find job, or got job liao thn all the job is sum sucky jobs. or like my love life liek tat.. haizz.. i dun even wan to recall liao.. howhowhow?? i knw noone can ans mi.. i mean i choose it tis wae.. i choose to leave him, i choose to take up tis stupid job. god.. pls help mi..

Lunch time again.. tokkin to qian nw loh.. haizz.. todae another bread dae.. i duno eat hw many dae of loti liao.. sianzz.. todae after wrk goin shoppin wif her.. hw i wish my wkend will faster cum.. cant concentrate on tis ah.. coz i tokin to her.. nemind..

Back at home liao.. well.. todae overtime till 6.45pm like tat thn leave the office.. alot of tings to do.. been too busy wif my wrk liao.. sort of never tot of my love life.. well.. i dun haf much of a love life nw liao aniwae.. i got no target at all nw.. all the guy frewns i haf nw.. all is realie juz frewns, and nth else.. i mean noone tat is u knw.. aso duno hw to sae lah.. nw aso not realie tryin to look for tat sumone nw.. why am i sayin all tis nw.. coz i tink yk haf a new gf again.. am i sad?? well, i duno. and i aso duno wat to sae.. i hate sq..i hate tan shu qing. why?? the reason is simple. coz she dun like mi either. and pple who knw mi shld knw mi well.. pple who dun like mi, dun expect mi to be nice to thm either.. i'm tis type of pple.. and tink his new gf is her best frewn.. i duno if the person who realie shld be unhappie is to be her loh.. coz imagine the guy she likes ended up wif her best frewn.. so how do i feel.. frankly speakin, i do yearn for sumone to love and care.. sumone to be ther for mi alwaes.. like wat sq saes, i'm not good to yk.. well.. wat do she knws.. she said she dislikem i coz i'm bad to yk.. so fine loh.. in the entire world, onli mi whose bad to him. everyione is the good guy but mi loh..i feel so damn unfair.. hate everione of thm.. realie hate. i dun ever wan to see him again. i'm not goin to even call him again.. tis time round, his realie getin out of my life once and for all.

mondae.. now lunch time.. had qutie a bz mornin.. todae, i tink i feel more customed to the wrk liao.. so everyting seems to be beta.. hehe.. well.. the whole weekend i was pretty bz, so didnt update tis tingy.. so sat, after wrk, i went dwn to meet qian and des.. thn we went paya lebar ther to see a job fair.. actualie nth much loh.. so waste my time n transport.. thn went dwn to suntec ther walkwalk.. thn saw huili and xinhui ther.. so in the end sit ther for an hour thn chit chat.. hehe.. like long time time no see liao.. thn after tat saw qx aso.. thn we went to see a movie.. see the madelion.. thn yest went to celebrate huiling bdae.. thn meet 9am at pasir ris.. thn 9am loh.. abit the too earli loh.. i 8.20am thn wake up.. hehe.. thn abit late liao loh.. so i went dwn to iris hse thn uncle william drove us dwn to pasir ris park.. thn go ther alot of stuff, thn after tat went to the country club.. the kids go ther swimmin.. thn i go jacuzzi thn went steam room.. i cant swim lah.. coz my hair lah.. a week ago juz go do my hair so cant swim lah.. thn after tat go bac to granny's hse thn eat more stuff.. so in the end i was like eatin the entire dae.. todae feelin damn fat ah.. kae lah.. actualie nw tokkin to qian now.. she aso lunch time thn too free thn call mi chit chat.. hehe~* kae lah.. gotta get bac to wrk liao..

Lunch time nw.. sitin at my table alone.. todae is jzu another sucky dae.. earli in the morn tat fu*ker ask mi to do the wrk.. thn huiyu nt here todae. so i got to depend on myself.. nemind. i try to do it. thn i manage to do everyting myself. but thn careless mi actualie attached the wrong file to the email. so tats the first stupid ting i did todae.. thn todae i attitude her loh. she tokkin to mi, thn i dun ans her. thn i tink she knw i attitude to her todae.. can sense wan loh.. but thn u tink i bother?? sorie i dun. aniwae. tontie my advance theory. sure fail wan loh.. onli last nite i took out the book frm a pile of comics on the bedside table and start flippin it. and before 5min is up, i fall aslp liao wor. so i brought the book to the office loh.. planin wan nw study wan. but thn its not kiddin matter loh. the book is thick. dun tink i can finish studyin everyting aniwae.. jia lat liao loh.. waste my 6bucks. and duno whn i'm i free again to go dwn n rebook the advance theory again.. sianzz.. real sianzz.. cant absorb ani of the car ting in nw.. damn jia lat.. how pple?? haizz.. why is everyting goin wrong for the past few mths? why nth good seems to be happenin? i wan job, and all i got bac is those sucky stuff.. nw i'm stuck here, wan go aso like not correct, go aso duno hw to tell thm.. why izzit like tis..

Thursdae.. todae onli thursdae.. well.. i got nth to sae.. as usual, i feel bullied again.. i dun wan to remind myself of wat tat woman did to mi lah.. the tot of goin bac ther tomolo sucks.. how am i goin to survive ther for the rest of the year?? shld i leave?? or shld i go?? todae, huiyu, one of the girl wrkin ther told mi the girl b4 mi actualie left after 2wks.. tat girl aso bua tahan thn left.. haizz.. but thn i dun wan pple tp sae i am the typical type of fresh grad, face abit of problem thn will choose the easier wae out by leavin.. how?? and if i leave nw, i will face abit of financial problem.. all my bills and all.. haizz.. hate tis wrkin world.. why izzit like tis.. its realie so hard to find a job i like.. actualie the tot of wakin up so damn earli in the mornin realie sucks.. or shld i go bac to the sales line?? thn over ther, i will haf irregular wrkin hrs, thn i can slp in late on certain daes.. how huh?? haizz.. pple, pls advice..

Bac at home now.. the tot of tml haf to go bac wrk sucks.. todae tat auntie realie bully mi.. i drew up the flight duno wat form.. thn passed it to the other girl to process it mah.. thn is tat auntie ask mi do wan. thn i do liao, bout an hour later, she actualie cum ask mi did i make a fotocopy of a pc of paper tat was sent out juz now. thn i said no mah. thn she sae die liao loh, forget to ask mi to send out a fotocopied copy thn keep the original wan.. thn i was like okie.. thn she went on. she sae:' why didnt u ask mi whether tis haf to be fotocopied anot.." idiot rite.. wher got pple like tat wan.. its like she damn the man bu jiang li loh.. fed up.. realie wan ask her go n die.. its obvious rite.. thn tis is juz one of the example. she entire dae keep stunts like tis.. damn fed up..

At the office nw.. juz ate lunchie.. the lunch is good todae.. nasi lemak.. but thn juz tat i not int the mood to eat.. so i aso didnt eat much.. at tis rate, bu jian fei ye nan loh.. still dun realie like it here.. being order srd by tis auntie.. like being bullied like tat.. haizz.. duno lah.. tired aso.. sianzz.. why like tat.. hopin so hard for a job and tis is wat i get.. why like tat.. damn jia lat.. pple.. howhowhowhowhowhow????

haiz.. juz came bac frm wrk.. actualie dun realie like the wrk loh.. ermm.. the wrk is fine lah.. its more of the environment i dun like.. haizz.. i realie duno how to sae lah.. but thn i'm goin to try it out for a mth or so, thn see hw loh.. the lao ban de sons all wrk ther.. thn the atmosphere very weird.. very ridgy.. very tense liek tat.. thn i dun like lah.. its not like ermm.. duno how to sae lah.. but thn nemind loh.. try it out for a couple of mths thn see how ba..

At the new office nw.. got my own desk and comp and all.. juz like at mediacorps.. but thn the feelin still feels funny.. maybe i dun feel settledwn yet.. still feelin kinda strange here.. liek very out of place.. nw lunch time.. but thn goin to end soon liao.. they got tis catherin tingy here, wher u palce order ard 10plus, thn will be delivered to the office.. so i juz ate.. but thn coz i'm damn picky wif food.. so i tink i bound to lose weight as ther is not much choice.. hehe.. tis is good lah.. actualie todae first dae, still too earli to tell anting, but thn i feel damn out of place.. dun realie like it here.. goin bac to wrk liao.. go home thn cont ba.. and last nite aso never update.. but thn nw notime liao.. do it at home ba..

Todae sundae liao.. yest another tirin dae.. seems liek everydae aso tirin for mi.. duno why.. aniwae, yest i woke up ard 8plus.. thn qian in the office. thn she sae she bored, so she called mi up for a chat. thn after she hang up the fone, ard 9am, thn i go do the hse wrk loh.. i vacume n mop the hse, thn wash the kitchen floor, thn baoth oo.. thn after tat i go bath liao thn go out liao.. lizzie came bac to my hse yest.. she's here wif mi nw.. she grew bigger again.. so nice to see her bac here once mroe.. realie miss her.. like the wae she will look at mi.. hehe~* thn i was at orchard, waiting for qian to fang gong thn cum dwn orchard shoppin mah. coz her new job, thn need new clothes loh.. thn we meet liao thn i feel like eatin sushi, so went to eat sakae.. which is definately a wrong move leh.. coz eat liao i got damn full.. thou i got the shoppin mood, but thn try everyting aso like damn fat.. all like not nice like tat wan.. but thn in the end i end up buyin a top n a skirt.. actualei wanted to buy more stuff wan.. saw nother skirt which i like alot too.. but thn i dun wan to spent animore money lah.. so bo bian loh.. got to give it up... now, i wan to go do my hair liao.. tat is goin to cost mi another at least 250bucks.. haizz.. and tats at least loh.. but thn nemind.. sian.. another borin dae like tat.. and my tat desktop icon like got problem.. duno which idiot again loh.. nw the desktop icon cant be used like tat.. muz i reinstall my os to get it bac?? i duno lah.. but thn see liao aso pek chek..

Home liao.. mondae is a brand new start for mi.. hehe~* cant help but feel excited.. juz like every 1st of jan, juz about to start school like tat.. todae, other thn mi last dae, amanda and denise aso last dae.. seems like the system is not goin to be up after all wor.. so they ask thm to leave too. and the notice came at 5.30pm.. which is like very sudden for thm loh.. bu thn to mi, its nth loh.. coz todae is my last dae mah.. well.. tis wkend i wan go do my hair.. diedie aso wan do liao.. has been puttin it off for too long liao.. so its not onli a brand new job, but thn aso a brand new mi.. hehe.. but thn i tink aso not much diff loh.. tink u pple all shld haf seen mi wif the nicenice hair liao rite.. but thn duno shld i go for the perm.. mich sae it might suit mi coz i got a pointed face.. but thn i tink my face gettin rounder and rounder leh.. coz recently fat liao lah.. tink dietin is hard nw coz start wrkin liao.. maybe shld try excercisin liao.. last nite b4 i slp i did 20 situps.. thou not much, but thn all tings muz haf a start mah.. hehe.. tonite b4 i slp another 20 ba..

Todae is my last dae here.. cant help but thn you yi dian bu she de wor.. juz had lunch.. my last meal here.. haizz..last nite i realie slpt at 9plus.. i tink b4 9.30pm i knock out liao.. till nw noting interestin happen lah.. sms drea, thn qian called.. both of thm seems to be doin fine loh.. kae lah.. gettin bac to wrk.. take care pple~* love, xin..

Thursdae liao.. actualie time aso passes quite fast.. tml is my last dae at mediacorps liao.. actualie kind of she bu de.. actualie tis is mi loh.. typical xinyi.. i tend to be a little bit sentimental.. all tings i aso she bu de.. feelin damn tired now.. last nite went to celebrate emi's bdae.. went to eat marche.. thn went to esplanade wat wind.. haf fun loh.. saw everyone.. but thn wifout jere leh.. haizz.. reach home ard 1am.. damn tired now. tis morn sis call mi frm tekong.. hehe~* he sae he bo tah liao.. haizz.. miss thm.. thn todae jon aso go in liao.. martin and jay aso goin in todae.. everyone's goin in.. nemind.. 2 weeks.. juz 2 weeks later thn i will see thm again liao.. actualie aso duno wan write wat todae lah.. jz feelin tired tat my mind like cant tink.. and todae den and ric goin taiwan.. so qiao ah.. haizz.. all of a sudden everyone is leavin mi like tat.. cant help it aniwae.. all the best pple.. do take care~*
qian and drea todae all first dae at wrk.. thn both aso got call mi sms mi lah.. thn they okie lah.. all seems to be doin well loh.. haiya.. duno wat am i doin lah.. my processor switched off liao.. dun tink i am tinkin too well todae.. continue tml ba.. nite pple~* and i realie do miss all of u..

Wed liao.. my last few daes in the office.. actualie feelin quite glad bout it. well.. qian called mi tis morn. she found a job liao.. its sumting related to her diploma wan.. but thn she's startin off as admin.. well.. her pay 1400.. thn drea aso got her yellow pages job liao.. hers sounds a like sales exec.. but thn its coperate sales.. her basic is 1100. but thn juz on transport allowence is 700 liao coz of her car.. haizz.. so ultimately, i got the lowest pay.. nemind nemind.. its alrite.. hope everyting turns outwell for all 3 of us.. hehe~* actualie its a nice tot loh.. all 3 of us startin wifin these few daes.. haizz.. realie grow up liao.. no turnin bac liao.. tonite goin to meet up the poly pple. to celebrate emi's bdae.. thn todae jere n xiong go ns liao.. earli in the morn i still call sis and tok to him. he sae all the guys ther all wif parents.. onli he alone like tat.. hehe~* thn he says he seems to brin too much stuff in liao.. but thn nemind lah.. all the best to thm.. i will realie miss thm lotz wan..