Cottage by the River

firdae nite.. but thn instead of feelin hapie, i actualie feel bad.. had a bad dae at wrk.. i tot i could juz get busy, thn the daes will juz pass by dae by dae, thn juz like earn a living like tat loh.. all for the sake of money.. but thn once i got nth to do.. thn life is a torture.. todae the urge to resign is very strong. i told myself to give mi a chance, and aso the company a chance. its like i got to give everyting a try. i dun wan to give up without even tryin.. when haf i becum so brave.. i tink it actualie required alot of courage to stand up to ur own belifs.. so tat even shld i fail, i will not regret.. so tat i can tell myself, at least i tried rite.. wat am i tokin bout.. i realie duno.. all i knw is i am in ultra depress mode todae..
todae sis msg mi wor.. he said he pass, cumin out todae.. well.. i duno wat did he pass , but thn shld be the ippt ba.. thn got disrupted.. so nice hor.. thn he sms mi and sae we can mahjong and all liao.. todae i feel so lonely, so forsaken.. like in tis bigbig world, thers onli xinyi, xinyi and still onli xinyi. wher are my frewns.. wher are my loved ones.. its like all of a sudden i feel i got noone.. huiyu went off to meet her twin.. all of a sudden i am so envy of her.. no matter wat, she haf her twin.. wat bout mi.. wat do i haf.. its like i duno hw to explain tat feelin.. realie had a bad dae at wrk.. todae lunch time i was lookin tru the bdae pics tat huili put up online.. you knw hw i feel whn i see those pics?? i was wondering whn could i be smilin like tat again? its like i felt so loved bac thn.. everyone remembered my bdae.. celerating for mi.. its like everyone loh.. i am realie hapie. and nw at wrk, i feel so bad.. and after a bad dae, ther is noone i could turn to like tat.. nw i sit dwn here i aso feel like cryin.. sound damn pathetic rite.. wher are my memoriesmemories...