SICK
yar.. i am sick todae.. long time no fall sick liao.. todae woke up earli, thn sms huiyu told her i not feeling well.. in fact yest already not well.. last nite couldnt slp, feel so terrible.. flu lah.. thn with the sore throat.. haizz.. went dwn see doctor liao.. cost mi 30bucks.. tml haf to go bac office.. sure alot of stuff to do wan.. well.. todae actualie planned to start dieting wan.. but thn now 12noon, i already ate 2 slices of kaya loti, thn tat time go food fair buy the chicken wing, thn i toast and eat.. thn now i eatin egg muffin.. damn jia lat.. hopefulli in the afternoon i will not go find more food liao.. i sms xiong told him i sick.. thn he told mi jon aso mc.. thn he sae sure is jon tat dae mahjong tat time thn spread to mi wan.. so the guys nw at hougang mall ther eat dim sum.. coz jon goin bac tekong tonite.. actualei all of a sudden abit of headache.. juz nw qing sms mi wor.. sae wan meet mi.. ermm.. duno lah.. feel like slpin.. remember i got the wu jian dao VCD.. but thn duno throw wher liao.. feel like seein wu jian dao 2 leh.. wan to see the first wan again..

Wat a borin dae.. Didnt even step out of the hse. Errmm.. Its not that noone asked me out, and also not that I dont have any where to go. Just not in the mood to go out, just feel like slacking at home.. Today Qian and Le went to Simei.. Both bring their doggies along.. I wanted to join them. But then partly I was lazy, and partly also coz I'm afraid that its hard to get a cad with the doggies.. And I couldnt make up my mind to bring which doggie. and I know I cant possibly handle 2 dogs.. So in the end with all these factors, I decided to stay and home and continue slacking.. So ended up realie doing nothing. Somewhere in the afternoon, someone ask me out for a show. But then, once again I was in the lazing mood, so I decline the offer. So it seems like I have wasted my sundae just like this.. And now, I seemed to be having a sore throat. And also a slight flu. Duno will it turn worst tomolo. Well, its definately a chance to take MC. But then there is still alot of things to be done in the office. And all racing against time. If I didnt go work tomolo, then it might cause delays in some of the projects.. There are still projects where it have not kick off yet.. I am still pendong for the Quotations.. Its 9plus now. I realie dont know what should I do. Its realie a boring day.

Saturdae liao.. juz reach home.. feelin tired.. well, seems like i am tired everydae.. waitin for sis jon and one of their frwen to cum over for mahjong now.. last nite actualie planned to cum bac earli thn update the journal and all.. but thn wat happen is i Ot again, thn yest i left office at 7plus.. thn by thn time i home already 9plus liao.. damn tired.. so in the end i aso never cum online.. thn i fall aslp on the sofa.. thn whn i wake up this morn, got 11 sms.. scary ah.. so aniwae, i aso cant remember much on wat i did tis week liao.. i knw i went for a show with xiong, thn got one dae had dinner with yk, thn thursdae went dinner with the girls loh.. and two guy.. thn go suntec eat tat jap food.. duno hw to spell lah.. but thn its tat marche style jap food.. thn everyone sit ther tok cock.. thn by the time i reach home aso bout 12am liao.. so its like another tiring dae.. haizz.. actualie these few daes, i am quite happie at wrk.. busy but tired.. alot of tings to do.. still feeling stress, but thn ermm.. duno lah.. maybe with all the responsibility, thn haf tat satifactory feeling.. but thn i still find the pay alittle low.. ermm.. nemind nemind.. take a step at a time see hw ba.. the guys real slow wan.. i wait till i wan slp liao.. tis morn i was almos late.. so i was actualie in quite a bad mood todae.. but thn whalewhale sms mi wor.. he long time no sms mi liao.. so its liek sort of brighten up my dae abit lah.. and after wrk todae went to lunch with huiyu.. thn walk all the wae wan eat the chong pang nasi lemak thn never open.. haizz.. but thn we ended up eatin nasi lemak too lah.. aso not bad lah.. thn feelin damn full nw.. nowadaes realie is fat liao.. its like my own body, thn i can see wan loh.. sad ah.. realie sad.. got to do sumting bout it liao.. i knw i can wan.. juz give mi sum time n determination.. haizz.. wher are the guys....

Like long time no update tis liao leh.. todae fridae liao.. feeling damn tired.. todae huiyu mc.. she finaly cant take it, high fever liao.. partly aso coz yest morn raining, thn we share umbrella, thn i tink she abit drenched, thn sick liao.. haizz.. actualie dun realie feel like cumin wrk todae wan.. but thn in the end i aso cum liao.. ermm.. todae realie tired.. i aso cant remember i update till wat dae liao.. so todae i am goin home straight after wrk.. thn i can update at home.. and one ting.. girlgirl die liao.. she dies last nite.. sad.. yest is 25th sept. 2 years ago, on 22nd sept, i bought her bac home.. still can remember on tat dae, i was at serangoon north ther with yk. thn she was in a small container, thn got this big stray dog keep following us. i was so scare. thn even yk was ard, nth we could do.. we cantrun, coz the dog will chase. thn the dog like interested in girlgirl.. so scare he will eat her up.. back thn, she was sooo small u knw.. brought her home liao thn she fight with baby.. see hw she bully baby.. thn see her givin birth.. and thn.... i duno lah.. actualie after i got the dogs, i knw i nelected my hammy.. but thn.. i still feel so damn sad.. haizz.. duno lah..

todae tues.. yest mondae had a admn bad dae in the office.. how bad, i aso cant desicribe. but thn definately top 5 worst daes here.. aniwae, yest went to see a show wif sis.. nice show lah.. thou endin lame. shall not sae much, in case u intend to see the show.. aniwae, damn broke ah.. haizz.. duno will have enuff to survive till my pay cum out anot.. but thn feelin extrememli fat todae.. coz had a very late dinner last nite.. haizz.. todae meetin yk for dinner.. well.. duno lah... todae a very bz dae.. alot of tings to do.. jia lat liao.. tink todae will need to do OT liao..

at home nw leh.. todae ot till bout 7pm thn leave the office.. well.. on my wae home, i suddenly got alot of tots.. alot of sad tots.. suddenly enter depress mode again..

todae mondae, i'm bac in the office.. todae mood still not bad lah.. saturdae after wrk went to tamp to meet xiong, jon and roy.. they all juz booked out, thn roy sae he signed on leh.. thn sis sae he pass his ippt.. thn will be out for 10daes.. he so hapie leh.. after tat went food fair, thn damn tired.. bought quite abit of stuff lah.. thn at nite went to jon hse mahjong.. they played 20-40cent.. thn i won 2bucks.. heng leh.. coz initaly i losin wan.. thn gt tis guy send mi home.. thn his drivin skills damn lousy, i sit till i scare ah.. so aniwae i reach home, thn i sclaked abit, thn slpt ard 4plus loh.. thn sundae i woke up damn earli.. coz my cousin weddin. so woke up damn earli, went to my granny place loh.. thn ther alot of pple.. thn buffet abit, thn left ard 12noon go home slp.. reach home liao brought the doggies go dwn for a walk.. they sooo hapie leh.. see thm hapie i aso hapie.. hehe~* thn after tat i fall aslp. thn by the time i wake up thn time to go dinner liao. thn went to pan pacific.. thn the food ther nice wor.. thn haf a ncie evening loh.. but thn see the weddin couple i like so envy leh.. haizz.. i duno hw to explain lah.. but thn i aso hope one dae i could aso juz be like thm, happily married. thn my granny was tellin mi the nxt one shld be mi liao.. she actualie forgot i still got a couple more older cousins.. acutalie over ther, i'm the youngest girl.. and after mi its my brother they all liao.. well.. she said i beta be quick, coz if not she cant see it liao.. haizz.. duno lah.. feelin quite hapie todae wor.. aso duno why.. maybe yest tat joyous mode still lingers.. haizz.. whn's my turn cumin leh.. hehe~* i tink still farfar ah..

firdae nite.. but thn instead of feelin hapie, i actualie feel bad.. had a bad dae at wrk.. i tot i could juz get busy, thn the daes will juz pass by dae by dae, thn juz like earn a living like tat loh.. all for the sake of money.. but thn once i got nth to do.. thn life is a torture.. todae the urge to resign is very strong. i told myself to give mi a chance, and aso the company a chance. its like i got to give everyting a try. i dun wan to give up without even tryin.. when haf i becum so brave.. i tink it actualie required alot of courage to stand up to ur own belifs.. so tat even shld i fail, i will not regret.. so tat i can tell myself, at least i tried rite.. wat am i tokin bout.. i realie duno.. all i knw is i am in ultra depress mode todae..
todae sis msg mi wor.. he said he pass, cumin out todae.. well.. i duno wat did he pass , but thn shld be the ippt ba.. thn got disrupted.. so nice hor.. thn he sms mi and sae we can mahjong and all liao.. todae i feel so lonely, so forsaken.. like in tis bigbig world, thers onli xinyi, xinyi and still onli xinyi. wher are my frewns.. wher are my loved ones.. its like all of a sudden i feel i got noone.. huiyu went off to meet her twin.. all of a sudden i am so envy of her.. no matter wat, she haf her twin.. wat bout mi.. wat do i haf.. its like i duno hw to explain tat feelin.. realie had a bad dae at wrk.. todae lunch time i was lookin tru the bdae pics tat huili put up online.. you knw hw i feel whn i see those pics?? i was wondering whn could i be smilin like tat again? its like i felt so loved bac thn.. everyone remembered my bdae.. celerating for mi.. its like everyone loh.. i am realie hapie. and nw at wrk, i feel so bad.. and after a bad dae, ther is noone i could turn to like tat.. nw i sit dwn here i aso feel like cryin.. sound damn pathetic rite.. wher are my memoriesmemories...

thursdae liao wor.. hehe~* suppose to go to the poly girls nite out wan.. but thn i forgot to bring my hp out.. thou i manage to get est during lunch tru icq, but thn the feelin of not havin hp thn sian liao loh.. haizz.. nemind nemind.. we sae nxt week thn comfirm meet up.. todae in quite a good mood wor.. duno why.. nth much pop up at wrk todae.. and both mi and huiyu left the office ontime todae.. hehe no ot wor.. ermm.. mondae nite meet hengheng for dinner at amk, thn tues go eat macdonald wif huiyu.. thn wed meet up wif heng again to go pasar malam at yishun ther.. ermm.. nth much happen lah.. but thn meetin up old frewns.. nice feelin loh.. see frewns tat didnt see for such a long time.. i wan go see holland V wor.. write later ba..

In the office nw. if i sae i feel like cryin nw, will u believe mi? tat fucker kept sayin i do tings damn slow, thn haf alot of stuff outstanding.. bt thn did she actualie realise tat i am doin all her stuff tat she dun wan do.. like all her paper wrk.. all her forms and all.. all the little little tings.. all these tings thou might be little, but thn it could get damn tedious, thn it will take time wan loh.. and haf to go after pple chasing for stuff, thn on top of it, i still got my own outstandin stuff.. its like damn fed up wan loh.. i am here, tryin my best to settle all tings i haf on hand, thn all u ever do is to dump more stuff to mi.. and thn keep complanin i slow. i feel damn miserable. izzit a wise choice to stay?? i realie wonder.

todael iek got alot of entry hor.. maybe coz todae i whole dae at home loh.. thn free mah.. hehe~* so todae i found out that Twins got new album again leh.. so happie~*its call evalution.. and i am downloadin it liao.. thank god mh got 8 of the songs.. so all i haf to do is to go d/l the last 2 thn i haf the complete album liao.. thn nw waitin for the last song, thn i can burn into disc liao.. thn in the meanwhile wait for it to cum out thn i can buy the original wan..
and tat dae i go book my advance theory again liao.. itso n the 8th oct.. tis time round cant fail again.. acutalie find myself quite useless.. why did i fail leh.. but thn i didnt study lah.. dun see ani reason to pass aniwae.. but thn tis time round i very determine to do well liao.. coz i aso go get my PDL aso.. thn valid for half year onli.. so cant waste the money n time.. gotta pass the advance tis time round.. thn qian gave mi the instructor num liao.. i Oct thn can start the lessons.. coz i haf to wait till my pay cum out.. hehe~* so excited..
feelin damn full todae.. but thn didnt eat much todae leh.. duno why.. jia latzz.. tml lunch eatin loti again.. thn i bought wei ta nai~* sianzz ah..

and lastly.. my grad photo.. finaly, todae i remember and all, thn go see.. and wif sum help of my classmate, i actualie dun haf to go buy the pic, thn can see my pic wor.. hehe~* but thn i actualie find it quite ugly.. the hair lah.. shld haf tie it up or sumting.. aniwae, tis is mi...

Juz took a test thn tis is the result.. The follwon is the link.. go take liao thn let mi knw wat are u kaekae..

Love Test

Are you Giving or Taking?
You are Giving. You are a generous, unselfish person. This does not refer specifically to money, but also to less tangible things like your time, your help and your emotional support. You'll be best-matched with someone who's opposite to you in this respect, so look for someone who's a Taker if you want to make your life complete. You're best matched with a Taker.
Are you Committed or Free?
You are Committed. You have a tendency to seek a relationship that is close, intimate and exclusive. This can be a beautiful thing, but you should avoid making it too clinging or possessive. Committed people like yourself are likely to be happiest with a partner who is also Committed. You're best matched with another Committed person.

Are you a Boss or a Slave?
You are Boss. Your result indicates that you prefer to be the dominant partner in your relationship. The boss role in sex is often a reflection of this position in general life, but there are always exceptions. Some people who are tyrants in the office come home and submit totally to their partners. As a boss, you'll be happiest in a relationship with someone who is your opposite. Every boss needs a slave. You're best matched with a Slave.

Are you Quiet or Exciting?
You are Quiet. In general you tend to be a quieter, retiring, introvert personality and you'll do best with someone else who is similarly inclined. You could therefore share subdued interests such as reading or golf. You're best matched with another Quiet person.

Your Love Style is Giving - Committed - Boss - Quiet.

You are likely to be most compatible with someone whose Love Style is Taking - Committed - Slave - Quiet.

My inner child is sixteen years old!

Life's not fair! It's never been fair, but while
adults might just accept that, I know
something's gotta change. And it's gonna
change, just as soon as I become an adult and
get some power of my own.


How Old is Your Inner Child?
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did i mentioned tat SQ wans to meet mi up to haf a tok?? well, frm duno wher, she got my number and sms mi.. i was kind of shock to see her sms. and whn i see it, i was actualie eatin sushi wif huili they all.. so its tat thursdae nite.. so after i got tat sms, in fact i tink its bout 4, i didnt sms bac, till sat, i ask her wat she wans to knw. thn she sae she wans to meet mi.. u tink i will go meet her?? pple who knws mi well shld knw the ans.. ermm.. aniwae, todae is a borin dae.. its another home sweet home dae.. tml is the dae i haf to go bac and tok to my boss.. and i aso hopin the 4D tat huiyu and i bought will open.. even if it cums in the consolation prize i aso dun mind.. hehe~* in fact i tink noone will mind wan.. i was readin bac my blogger juz nw.. frm the dae i was still in sch takin exams.. how time flies ah.. haizz.. and aso the dae i meet up wif whalewhale.. well.. how do i feel and all.. i duno. but thn i tink as my job more or less settles dwn, i will start to yearn for tat sumone to cum liao..

I tink i had post this up before.. but thn this email actualie circulate back to mi.. and i cant help but want to post this up again..

Things That A Perfect Guy Would Do!!!
>
> 1. Know how to make you smile when you are down.
>
> 2. Try to secretly smell your hair, but you always notice.
>
> 3. Stick up for you, but still respects your independence.
>
> 4. Give you the remote control during the game.
>
> 5. Come up behind you and put his arms around you.
>
> 6. Play with your hair.
>
> 7. His hands always find yours.
>
> 8. Be cute when he really wants something.
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> 9. Offer you plenty of massages.
>
> 10. Dance with you, even if he feels like a dork.
>
> 11. Never run out of love.
>
> 12. Be funny, but know how to be serious.
>
> 13. Realize he's being funny when he needs to be serious.
>
> 14. Be patient when you take forever to get ready.
>
> 15. React so cutel! y when you hit him and it actually hurts.
>
> 16. Smile a lot.
>
> 17. Plans a romantic date full of cheesy things he wouldn't normally
like
> to do, just because he knows it means a lot to you.
>
> 18. Appreciate you.
>
> 19. Help others out.
>
> 20. Drive 5 hours just to see you for 1.
>
> 21. Always gives you a peck on the cheek when you depart from each
others
> company, even when his friends are watching.
>
> 22. Sing, even if he can't.
>
> 23. Have a creative sense of humor.
>
> 24. Stare at you.
>
> 25. Call for no reason.
>
> 26. Quit smoking, chewing, drinking, or drugs - just because he loves u
> that much to quit it.
>
> 27: NEVER curse in front of YOU!
>

SATURDAE~*

hehe.. i got the entire weekend to myself.. and now, in fact i got the entire hse to myself.. benben go out liao.. mummy aso go out liao.. left mi.. and its a sat n i'm stayin at home.. kinda pathetic hor.. hehe~* but thn nemind.. i can go slp later, haf a good rest.. thn can play wif my doggies aso.. long time no sat do hse wrk liao leh.. but thn todae not in the mood leh.. feeling tired.. but thn hse dun feel too clean either.. hehe~* todae i first ting reach office, i go QA settle sum stuff.. thn the min i cum dwn, at 9am, huiyu told mi got meeting.. so i go meeting loh.. blurblur like tat go meetin liao loh.. thn the meetin damn draggy.. drag till 11am thn fire drill.. thn in the end i got sooo much wrk cant finish.. realie is alot of wrk not done.. thn huiyu aso waiting for mi to go.. so i chopchop finish the more urgent wan thn i leave liao.. thn went haf lunch with huiyu, thn walk ard.. thn got the weighin machine mah.. so we both took our weight.. and i gain weight liao.. so sad.. frm todae onwards i MUST realie jian fei liao.. and this time round i'm serious wan.. but thn aniwae, we did a damn stupid ting loh.. we actualie use our weight go buy 4D loh.. thn her weight b4 mine, coz she older thn mi.. hehe~* older thn mi by 2mths.. so we buy for todae n tml.. thn we sae if open thn we mondae both tell our boss we resign.. but thn if didnt open, thn we will stay.. hehe~* not exactly stay lah.. but thn will be on the pendin stage loh.. hehe~* tired ah..

Its fridae todae.. and guess wat, i am at home.. i took a half dae leave todae.. goin for the interview at paya lebar ther.. haizz.. contridicting.. suddenly abit bu she de leave sei woo.. coz actualie i sort of like my job scope. but thn the onli ting bad bout it is its damn stress.. stress till i duno how to sae.. aniwae, yest my boss actualie was tellin mi, if i realie feel stess n not happie, he gave mi another alternative is to transfer dept.. well.. i dun tink i am goin to take up tat offer. its either i'm stayin put, or i'm leavin.. shall decide again after todae's interview.. tired.. real tired.. yest haf sushi wif the girls.. can realie see the effort everyone is makin to keep in contact.. so frm nw on, every wed, i cant be lazy.. haf to report to city hall rite after wrk.. even got ot aso haf to go dwn after tat.. coz everyone is makin an effort, so i aso haf to do my part rite.. haizz.. hw time flies.. i realie miss the good old daes.. whn i am still in sch, foolin ard.. till nw, i haf still not tok to drea.. 1 week. it has been one week liao.. haizz.. duno lah.. stubborn her, stubborn mi.. noone wans to give in.. but thn no worries, the nxt time we see each other, everyting is goin yo be alrite liao.. but thn whn are we goin to see each other?? karen's bdae?? i duno.. yest zhong qiu jie wor.. msg dennis.. i can still remember our first date is on zhong qiu jie.. we went to see xin yu xin yuan, thn went to ponggol park, thn seng kang ther play candle.. haizz.. those was the dae.. and last year, if i'm not wrong, i was wif baofa.. bought the mooncake, pay liao thn i forget to collect it. so the nxt dae he went dwn wif mi to collect it. and the fair actualie ended already, so haf to get auntie julie's son to go in and take for mi.. hehe~* i realie blur n careless rite.. pay liao thn didnt collect it.. tis year no candle, no nth.. no time for it.. haizz.. guess this is the price i haf to pay for growin up.. but thn why izzit such a heavy price..

nw lunch time.. actualie wan to update wan.. but thn lookin bac at the time not earli liao.. so i tink i will do it at a later date~* but thn zhong qiu jie kuai le~* todae ba yue shi wu.. so nice.. tonite meetin the girls.. thn after tat meetin yk.. so tats my schedule for the dae. thn i tok to my boss bout the resignation stuff.. haizz.. update sum other daes ba..

Wednesdae liao wor.. time acutalie passes qutie fast.. actualie i had a nice dae at wrk todae.. yesterdae after wrk i went out wif huiyu.. not exactly went out lah.. juz tat we went to haf dinenr together at yishun.. thn we chit chat bout alot of stuff.. shes realie a nice girl.. say if ther's aniting i will miss leavin sei woo, its definately goin to be her.. shes a nice girl.. so i actualie reach home pretty late.. and tired.. thn todae tat auntie mc.. noone orders mi ard, noone give mi face.. so i actualei feel damn happie at wrk.. and todae fred gave mi a new part to handle all by myself.. hehe~* i actualie hold the meeting all by myself.. and it actualie went on smoothly~* so nice leh.. i actualie feel so proud of myself.. tml my boss cumin bac, thn haf to tell him bout the reason i leavin n all.. thn todae got pple call ask mi fridae go interview.. hehe~* happie leh.. but thn duno fridae hw am i goin to apply leave.. nemind nemind.. i will go tink bout it thn see hw ba.. but thn todae i haf a nice dae.. but thn tired lah.. so i goin to bed early.. tml zhong qiu jie leh.. can go play candle and all.. hehe~* i tinkin of bring lizzie go dwn tml to play the lantern.. hehe~*

todae mondae.. not exactly very blue.. coz i haf tis sloppy attitude at wrk todae.. i offended tat lao char bo again.. but thn who bothers.. and todae, i emailed tat benjamin, tell him i cant take it animore liao.. sae i wan resign liao.. duno how he will react to it.. acutalie i aso one kind wan lah.. haven find a new job thn wan to leave liao.. haizz.. so i guess by the end of the mth, i will be jobless again.. but thn wat to do.. haizz.. nemind lah.. take a step at a time ba.. i aso duno wat i'm doin is correct or wrong leh.. but thn onli hope i will not leave to regret.. juz nw went to haf dinner wif cle.. damn hungry.. never eat lunch todae.. so go eat the ban mian.. yumyum.. thn see a movie.. see legally blond 2.. nice show leh.. damn funny.. hehe~* so now, i juz set up the yahoo group for sec 4/4.. i duno how the respnse will be, but thn i hope they will all be supportive and join loh.. coz its like all effort loh.. in order to stay in touch, its realie alot of effort loh.. all along i already did my part liao.. so now its all up to thm.. sicne tat dae i quarrel wif drea, we haf not contacted each other.. well.. duno lah.. acutalie i now aso nth liao.. duno she still angry anot.. but thn haiz.. duno lah.. and whn i came home todae, i realise lizzie spoil my rubber band.. tat time i went shoppin thn i bought tis rubber band, its a pair wan.. thn got tis start shape wan.. i actualie like it quite alot.. and tis dog actualie chew it up, thn the start duno liek wat liao.. haizz.. angry leh.. she spoil my ting.. and tis rubber band not cheap leh.. tink its bout 5bucks.. imagine rubber band aso cost 5bucks.. haiz..

i knw i didnt reali update tis for quite sum daes.. so now, on tis sundae nite, i'm goin to fill in all the blanks..
Thursdae
tat is my graduation dae.. i feel so happie on tat dae.. went to sch, was abit late, but thn it doesnt realie matter lah..thn meet dennis on at the bus stop to TP.. actualie quite iorinc loh.. whn i was in sec school, on the dae i took my o level results, his aso the one i saw.. i still remember i went to his hse after i took my results.. well, nemind.. thn saw alot of pple cum bac sch, saw jere.. he came bac in his ns uniform.. he lost alot of weight wor.. hehe~* nw look shuaishuai wor.. so happie to see thm leh.. thn went in to TCC, thn they play the TP sch song.. and tears start to roll in my eyes.. i feel so upset.. thn after the sch song, the VIp start to give speech, thn it got so boring.. juz thn, xiong called.. hehe~* he said his cumin out on tat dae, taking the 8pm ferry, thn jon takin the 7pm wan.. so he sae we can go out, maybe see a dinner.. thn i was like so happie to hear frm him wor.. thn after tat, wait for all the speeches liao, thn time to go on stage to take the diploma.. so excited.. so tat is the moment liao.. finaly, i got my diploma liao.. and tat realie end my dae in Temasek Poly.. after tat got a reception, thn stay awhile in school, tok to all of thm.. and i realie feel like crying wor.. coz tis is the last time liao.. after tat everyone went on different wae.. thn i went to tamp wif huili n yk, hang ard abit, wiat for xiong to cum. thn cl aso came dwn.. thn we went to see a movie.. see the pirate movie.. its like so nice loh.. see the movie wif 3 guys.. so tat ended my dae.. i was realie veryvery happie tat dae.. even the tot of hafin to go bac to wrk the nxt dae didnt manged to damped my mood.. hehe~*

Fridae

So wif still a very happie heart, i went to wrk.. i was even earli for wrk.. thn even wif tat idiot lao char bo, i still feel happie.. till lunch time.. coz fridae nite i goin to haf dinner with my sec school frewns.. thn drea not too happie.. coz i aso duno lah.. coz myabe is mi and qian plan wan.. thn she keep sayin we didnt tell her till the very last min.. cum on loh.. we called her on tuesdae nite to tell her goin marina south eat leh.. late notice meh?? thn i got damn fed up loh.. so quarrel loh.. thn she said sumting like if everyone so fedup thn she dun go loh. thn i told her dun go fine wif mi thn i hang up the fone liao.. i hang up liao i call qian loh.. thn drea aso call her loh.. expected wan loh.. whnever ani 2 of us quarrel, we will alwaes call the 3rd girl wan.. haizz.. but thn eventuali at nite, we still went to marina south.. qian, mi, jiale, chokie, shuana and shirlynn came.. so we 6 girls haf fun loh.. thn drea realie didnt cum.. but thn at times i realie hope she will understand loh.. coz to arrange for a outing is realie not easy.. and tis is not a small group.. we cant possibli accomodate everyone wan.. and to call everyone up one by one is realie a tedious job.. and to make it worst, i'm wrkin liao, and i'm sure u pple can understand the circumstances i'm in.. i'm realie damn stress at wrk.. and everyting realie need alot of effort on my part liao.. i realie cant stand all these nonsense wan loh.. she sae she sore throat thn we arrange go eat tat steam boat.. cum on loh.. whn i arrange it, u aso never tell mi u sick, and i aso not expectin u to be sick.. she wan like tat i aso lanlan loh.. all i can sae is i haf done my part loh.. if she tink arrangin all these stuff is easy, thn let her do it thn.. so due to all the pressure at wrk, and drea, on fridae, i final break down and cry in the office liao..

SATURDAE

went home late on fridae nite.. in fact, ever since tuesdae, i seems to be home late.. so by sat, i'm realie beat.. haizz.. but thn still haf to go to wrk.. bo bian wan.. so went to wrk loh.. thn tat lao char bo still gimi alot of problem.. i reali cant take it liao.. so after wrk thn i wan go home slp liao.. but thn on my wae home, thn jon called, ask mi to go out eat.. thn they nan de weekend cum out mah.. so i sae okie loh.. thn after tat after i went home liao, thn they sae play mahjogn instead, thn actualie beta loh.. like tat i dun haf to go out mah.. hehe~* so they came over mahjong loh.. wif cle.. thn in the end i lost money ah.. lost 6bucks.. xiong won.. onli he win.. he win bout 19bucks.. thn after tat thy left liao.. actualie arrange to go la kopi wif thm ard 10pm.. but thn i too tired liao lah.. thn i fall aslp liao.. hehe~* cle got call, but thn i slp liao.. actualei whn playin mahjong, i realie tired liao.. tats why i lose money loh.. hehe~* but thn nemind lah.. so nan de can see sis and all..

SUNDAE

mornin woke up by mummy loh.. thn they bring lizzie to see vet.. thn after tat went dwn to my wai po hse.. my cousin baby full mth.. thn go dwn eat buffet.. didnt stay long loh.. thn after tat went dwn to my granny hse.. thn went dwn too earli, thn noone ther.. so i actualei fall aslp ther.. slp till san ku came dwn wif her daughters.. thn after tat one by one all cum dwn loh.. thn stay till bout 9pm thn uncle william sent mi home.. thn sian loh.. haizz.. feel like changin my explorere.. dun like the explorer nw.. whnever they usem y comp liao, sumting bond to change wan .. thn see liao i aso sian.. but thn aso sian lah.. tml haf to go bac wrk liao.. haizz..

yesterdae had fun.. hehe.. actualie wan say bout wat happen yest.. but thn juz argue wif drea.. no mood. update again at a later date ba.. sianz.

At home now ah.. so happie.. a thursdae mornin no wrk.. took leave todae coz later haf to go bac sch for graduating ceremony.. so happie leh.. last nite went to zouk.. actualie very tired.. whn i reach home after wrk liao i dun feel like goin out liao.. but thn coz not alot of pple goin, thn i'm aso the idiot who saes i wan to go wan.. so i went aniwae.. so its on mi, huili, emi and xw.. thn xinhui and her frewn aso came dwn later.. i didnt exactly drink alot last nite.. but thn i got abit high n drunk.. well.. its like tat.. i knw i'm not a good drinker.. hehe~* last nite.. ermm.. we got to knw sum guys ther.. frm wat i remember got tis guy came up n tok to us.. he intro himself n ask for name.. actualie i didnt manage to hear his name.. thn he ask mi for a dance but i rejected.. coz i knw i'm gettin abit not stable liao.. i would rather sit dwn.. thn after tat got another guy.. he in a grp wan.. he aso cum up n ask for a dance.. so tats the pick up sentance at zouk huh.. hehe.. thn i rejected again.. n went to hide behind emi.. by thn huili n xinhui already left liao.. left mi n xw and emi.. but thn tat 2nd guy continue tokkin to emi n ask for all the names and all.. so we hang ard togehter till the very end.. actualie i till nw aso duno his name.. he did sae lah.. but thn i cant remember liao.. hehe~* thn aso got to knw cum black girls ther.. tat girl name i remember.. she's called lilian is i not wrong.. thn they realie very happening wan leh.. thn we so hang ard with thm.. so aniwae.. we left bout 10mins b4 3am lah.. thn reach home liao i damn tired thn go slp liao loh.. thn todae wake up liao thn i go iron my stuff liao.. waitin for 11.30am to cum, thn i will go prepare thn go sch liao.. so excited.. seein everyone again.. lookin my very best.. hehe~*can see jere and all again.. and todae xiong and jon cumin bac frm tekong.. but thn i tink no chance to see him wan.. coz he shld be bz wif his own stuff.. but thn no matter wat.. hope he okie loh.. tis mornin i wake up on tv, thn got pple die in ns again.. haizz.. poor ting wan leh.. 2nd case in 2 weeks.. nemind nemind.. actualie i realie cant help but feel happie todae loh.. thou todae is like a no plan dae.. thn alot of time will be spent in school doin nth, but thn the fact tat i dun haf to go bac wrk todae ah, thn can wear nicenice n go see everyone, realie happie loh.. hehe~*

lunch time again.. but seems like its goin to end soon.. sianzz.. well.. last nite went shoppin wif qian and bought a top and skirt.. like the top quite alot.. frm zara wan.. thn after tat actualie spent moz of the time juz walkin ard and tokkin loh.. haf a nice evenin out loh..
well.. yest yk and i sort of haf a last tok.. so he admitted ther's tis girl.. well, maybe they are not together yet.. but thn ther's realie tis girl.. he ask mi a qus.. why am i behavin tis wae whn i learned of tat girl.. if the one who haf a gf nw is xiong, cle or whoever, will i react tis wae?? good qus.. i got no ans to it.. for certain i knw if sis or cle got a gf nw, i will feel happie for thm.. bt why izzit nw yk haf tis new girl n i'm so unhappi bout it. well.. the fact seems to juz lies ahead, but i'm not wellin to face it. thn i told him, i dun wan to be together. and tats my final verdict. do i regret it.. frankly speakin, i do.. i even tot of smsin him tis morn and tell him i regret wat i said last nite.. but thn i did not do it.. why.. i aso duno.. so now, i haf lost him forever.. a guy who loves mi and dote on mi.. why did i not accept him bac to my life.. good qus again.. but i dun haf an ans.. an ans tat he haf been pressin mi for so long.
and the job here.. huiyu said she's goin to resign soon.. either todae or tml.. how i do i feel?? i feel like givin up. i knw its not sensible of mi to do tat nw.. coz financialy, i cant afford to idle.. but thn the life here is getin disastrous.. wifout her, i guess its goin to get worst.. how?? i kept makin mistake.. and sum is due to my carelessness, while others is due to my lack of knowledge or coz xiao ren suo hai.. haizz.. life is so miserable.. i was tinkin of hangin on to it till the end of the mth, thn get the one mth pay liao thn resign, thn serve 2wks.. but thn its onli 3rd nw. can i hang on till tat long?? i realie doubt so.. haizz.. how??
seems to hit bottom low again. why am i alwaes hittin the lowest recently.. seems like ever since i grad, nth seems to be goin on well like tat.. either cant find job, or got job liao thn all the job is sum sucky jobs. or like my love life liek tat.. haizz.. i dun even wan to recall liao.. howhowhow?? i knw noone can ans mi.. i mean i choose it tis wae.. i choose to leave him, i choose to take up tis stupid job. god.. pls help mi..

Lunch time again.. tokkin to qian nw loh.. haizz.. todae another bread dae.. i duno eat hw many dae of loti liao.. sianzz.. todae after wrk goin shoppin wif her.. hw i wish my wkend will faster cum.. cant concentrate on tis ah.. coz i tokin to her.. nemind..

Back at home liao.. well.. todae overtime till 6.45pm like tat thn leave the office.. alot of tings to do.. been too busy wif my wrk liao.. sort of never tot of my love life.. well.. i dun haf much of a love life nw liao aniwae.. i got no target at all nw.. all the guy frewns i haf nw.. all is realie juz frewns, and nth else.. i mean noone tat is u knw.. aso duno hw to sae lah.. nw aso not realie tryin to look for tat sumone nw.. why am i sayin all tis nw.. coz i tink yk haf a new gf again.. am i sad?? well, i duno. and i aso duno wat to sae.. i hate sq..i hate tan shu qing. why?? the reason is simple. coz she dun like mi either. and pple who knw mi shld knw mi well.. pple who dun like mi, dun expect mi to be nice to thm either.. i'm tis type of pple.. and tink his new gf is her best frewn.. i duno if the person who realie shld be unhappie is to be her loh.. coz imagine the guy she likes ended up wif her best frewn.. so how do i feel.. frankly speakin, i do yearn for sumone to love and care.. sumone to be ther for mi alwaes.. like wat sq saes, i'm not good to yk.. well.. wat do she knws.. she said she dislikem i coz i'm bad to yk.. so fine loh.. in the entire world, onli mi whose bad to him. everyione is the good guy but mi loh..i feel so damn unfair.. hate everione of thm.. realie hate. i dun ever wan to see him again. i'm not goin to even call him again.. tis time round, his realie getin out of my life once and for all.

mondae.. now lunch time.. had qutie a bz mornin.. todae, i tink i feel more customed to the wrk liao.. so everyting seems to be beta.. hehe.. well.. the whole weekend i was pretty bz, so didnt update tis tingy.. so sat, after wrk, i went dwn to meet qian and des.. thn we went paya lebar ther to see a job fair.. actualie nth much loh.. so waste my time n transport.. thn went dwn to suntec ther walkwalk.. thn saw huili and xinhui ther.. so in the end sit ther for an hour thn chit chat.. hehe.. like long time time no see liao.. thn after tat saw qx aso.. thn we went to see a movie.. see the madelion.. thn yest went to celebrate huiling bdae.. thn meet 9am at pasir ris.. thn 9am loh.. abit the too earli loh.. i 8.20am thn wake up.. hehe.. thn abit late liao loh.. so i went dwn to iris hse thn uncle william drove us dwn to pasir ris park.. thn go ther alot of stuff, thn after tat went to the country club.. the kids go ther swimmin.. thn i go jacuzzi thn went steam room.. i cant swim lah.. coz my hair lah.. a week ago juz go do my hair so cant swim lah.. thn after tat go bac to granny's hse thn eat more stuff.. so in the end i was like eatin the entire dae.. todae feelin damn fat ah.. kae lah.. actualie nw tokkin to qian now.. she aso lunch time thn too free thn call mi chit chat.. hehe~* kae lah.. gotta get bac to wrk liao..