亲爱的日记，

今天，是我一位前男友的生日。

今早穿了条简讯给他，为他献上我的祝福。没过多久他打回给我，告诉我，他今年不过生日。。应为三天前，他父亲突然过世了。

一位生活作息非常健康的人，也没任何身体状况，就突然倒地不醒，四个钟后就走了。

我。。愣了一下。

在一起时，我也常上他家。他父亲是一人做生意，挑着重重的负担，独自一人养着他们一家七口。母亲是位家庭主妇，养家糊口的重担都落在父亲身上。他虽不是超富有，可是每个孩子都丰衣足食，过得跟幸福的日子。可想而知，这位父亲是多么的伟大。

前男友是五个孩子中，唯一一个回到父亲公司帮忙的。现在事发突然，他不但得承受丧父之痛，还得在最短的时间内接管爸爸留下的生意。父亲是整个家的金钱支柱，现在这个重担就落在他身上了。母亲一路来对前男友疼爱有加，他在这个时候他还得充当妈妈的精神支柱，真的是难为他了。

咳。。世事无偿，人生苦短。我们就珍惜身边的人与事吧。

不过，我还是希望他能振作起来。献上我最盛的慰问，节哀顺便吧。

Dear Bloggie,

After 5 long days away from work, I'm back in office once again.. =)

Its going to be 11am, and I'm just done reading all the emails and the regular stuff. Got to finish up my month end closing now... =p

Anyway, just a quick one yar... =)

[1] I was on MC on Friday, doctor said I caught the virus. So with it came the regular flu and headache. I have not been sleeping well last week, hence the headache elavated to a migraine. But after 5 full days of rest, I've fully recovered!

[2] Other then a trip to the library, a BBQ chalet, a trip to the park and pets' cafe with Toffee and a friend and his Yummi ,and a birthday dinner, I'm home most of the time. Well, I've got a Marketing Report to finish up...

[3] Okie, other then the Marketing Report... There's another thing that's keeping me at home.

I... finished all 22 episode. In fact I was up till 4+am on Monday morning to finish it up... It is super exciting can...

[5] And whats worst is... I'm seriously hooked on this now.

I know I'm super slow... Many of you have already finished watching the entire series. But well, better late then never right... I'm on episode 11 now. From now till I'm done with all 40 episode, it'll be a little difficult to get me out of the house. Okie, other then the pre-planned events this weekend, coz I do not want to be a spoiler.

[6] And since I'm on this... Let me rant a little. I so hate "Sa Yi" now can... Fucking Bitch!! A money grabbing bitch... I just wish she can just drop dead in the show and not put me through the torture of seeing her. Why can't she just stay in Portugal and not return to Hong Kong. And I do not understand why do they have to give Li Siqi a role which is so god-damn similar as Moonlight Resonance Part 1. She's still that 可怜兮兮的慈母, and Ha Yu is still that 一夫多妻role. But overall, this show is great... =)

[7] Its end of month, and I've just paid a 2.3k credit card bill... What the f**k did I buy again last month... I thought I've been prudent and have tighten reign on my purse. But the bill told me otherwise...

[8] I... want go KTV.

Guess that's about all for now.. I'm more/ less done with my Marketing Report, but a Powerpoint Slide and a Presentation Video still awaits my action... *sigh*

Have a good week ahead people!!

Dear Bloggie,

Its going to be 3am.

I cannot sleep.

My head is killing me..

亲爱的日记，

刚到好友的日记看了看得知好友也病倒了。原来，我们俩还蛮有默契的。。

我真的病倒了。

昨晚六点到了家，我把自己关在房间里，从六点一只睡到今早六点。以为多休息今天会好点，可是我还是觉得不适。可是又因为睡太多了，躺在床上很闷，所以就来做工了。

最讨厌生病。

让我觉得自己很脆弱，很无助。。

咳。。

Dear Bloggie,

Its rainning heavily... Very heavily.

现在真是饿又累。喉咙有点不适，鼻子又有点赛，体温好像也有点高。好像。。要生病了。

好忙，好多事等着我去做。。来个短的吧。=）

[1] 刚过周末跟朋友到了新山吃肉骨茶，接着又到了HL加大麻将！当晚运气超好，真是要什么牌，什么牌就来。这就是所谓的情场失意，赌场得意吧。当天我带了相机，照片都在我这儿。回家一定要照片给放出来。

[2] 十二月要去台北和香港的飞机票都订好了，台北的酒店也预定了，澳门的行程也定的七七八八了。好期待哦！！这是我第一次去台湾和澳门，也是我第一次自个儿出远门。希望一切顺利。

[3] 考试日起一天天逼近，真糟糕。

[4] 接下来两个月，假期好多。。感觉上时间过得很快。。

[5] 最后一点了。。我，还是好想他。我现在似乎还不可以接受任何人，他在我心里还是占着一个很重要的位置。感谢那些对我好的人，可是。。我还是放不下。那感情还在心里揪着，揪着。可能是放不下，也可能是因为不喜欢。。希望没人再开口说喜欢我，因为一旦说出口，是连朋友都没得做的。.

Dear Bloggie,

Time for some positive news!

[1] Year End Trip

I am on leave from 20th - 28th December.. Not wanting to spend 9 days slacking at home, alone. So what is a better way to spend 9 days away on a holiday! If nothing goes wrong.. I will be going to Taipei, and then Hongkong (again!)..

I'll be traveling to Taipei alone this time round, and I'm kind of looking forward to it. I have never travel overseas alone, hence this is really going to be an experience for me. People has been telling me its not safe for a girl to travel alone and has offered companionship, but frankly lah... I rather travel alone then with the guys, even more dangerous right... -_-"

Then... HF will be relocating to HK for work, YJ will be coming back to Singapore from US for holiday, and have plans to Macau, Bestie will also be flying over to HK (I suspect the BIGGEST reason is to pay her arty friend a visit.. =p).

Since everyone is there for X'mas, I can't miss out right.. =) I'll go over from TW to HK on the 24th Dec, for our X'mas dinner... Right now, we're planning a atas dinner at Peninsula Hotel, HK.

I... am so looking forward to it. (Did someone say economic downturn? What's that... O_o)

[2] I have finished and submitted my 4500 word Strategy essay! I exceeded the word count by 500 +/-, slightly more then the 10% bench mark. But well, I have to say I'm pretty happy with this essay. This got to be the best output I ever had for Strategy. =)

[3] Despite not eating dinner for close to a week, I realised that my waist line has reduce, and has reach a stagnent stage (How I know, coz I'm measured and keep track of it on a daily basis). Guess that's how much dieting could do for me now, so meaning... I need to get my big fat ass back on the running track. *sigh*

[4] Yesterday was a very very festive day... I actually know 4 people, who celebrated their arrival onto this Earth on the same day!

Happy Birthday to XW, MM, YZ and my Passive Boss!

Celebration will be this Saturday for XW and MM... Going for Bak kut teh at JB. =)

That is all for now I guess... Tomorrow, is the birthday of another special friend. Well, not exactly keeping in contact now as I guess it's not too convinient and his busy with work... But still, I'll still send a sms over with my best wishes tomorrow.. =)

2 days to Friday!!

Dear Bloggie,

Its been ages since I did a photo post!

Since I'm more or less done with my Strategy... Its time for a little break. =)

3rd - 4th Oct (Bintam, Indonesia)



This is the first time I travelled to Bintam, and first time I'm traveling via Tanah Merah Ferry Terminal (TMFT), and first time I'm taking a ferry all on my own. =) Took half day leave, and drove down to TMFM. And this begins my impromtu short break with Bestie, at Boarding Gate 4...

Ferry was delayed... But its alright... I'm equiped with my favorite book, btw... this is a good book. Its the 3rd installment that stem out from eragon.

And not forgetting... Hipopo! How can I travel without him... =)

Walking to the jetty... That's the ferry I'm going to take.

Gloomy weather... The water's pretty choppy. I got a little sea-sick.

Finally, I reached!! This is the room I'm going to bunk in with Bestie for the next day or so. We're at Nirawana (I think..), the room is good!! I'll definitely go back there again.

While Hipopo rest in the room and help us look after the room, Bestie and myself went for a teabreak.. =) The orange juice is fresh.. I like it!

Sky turns dark after 6pm.. This is the edgeless pool, its pretty!

We took a internal shuttle bus to this restaurant, Kelong. For a long-awaited seafood dinner at a restarant on silts.. =)

The food is so-so, nothing fantastic to boost about. We ordered the set meal for two, and there is a little too much food for 2 girls.. Oh, the chicken is nice!

Take a look at the crab... The claw, is the size of the metal spoon. -_-"

There is a little walkway constucted on silts connected to a bar. Bestie and I walked out and stood in the middle of the walkway. Lots of stars shinning bright above us, and the moon casted a long trail of light on the sea. It is breath-taking... We simply stood there basking in the pretty sight, and time seemed to have stopped as the sea is calm and still. And oh, Besties saw a shooting star! (I missed it... Damn it.)

We hopped on the shuttle bus again, and it brought us to a Beach Club - La Luna. (Angel sings 'La.. la luna luna le. La luna lu.. Na na na...') I tried Korean Shoju! I had it cold... and.. its too strong for me. I cannot take it. You know in the Korean dramas, when they gulp down the Shoju, they will squezze their face into a lump. I can now fully understand the rationale behind it. Shoju has a bitter and pungent taste, you cannot help but give that squashed expression. The alcoholic content is damn high that the burning sensation down your throat is instant. Well, I didnt manage to finish the entire bottle. Even my alcoholic Bestie starts waving her white flag at the bottle of Shoju...

And with that, we called it a night... =)

Woke up bright and early the next morning... We still have time to spare, so we took a walk down the beach.

I'm never a 'Beach' person.. Give me a city and I can go shopping in a pair of heels from 10am - 10pm. But the beach really took my breath away... (in a way..). Look at the color of the sea.. Pretty right?

Let's take a closer look... The water is clear! It is enticing enough for me to take off my slippers, hold it in my hands and walk alond the costal line... Frankly, I do like it. And I am surprise that I actually enjoyed myself at a Beach.

After the walk, we went back to the room to wash the sand off our feet. And we lay back, and watched 'Bugs Life' on cable.. Ironic right. Two girls who are terrified by bugs are actually watching 'Bugs Life' till we almost miss check-out time.

After check-out, we still had time to spare before catching the ferry back to Singapore. So we went back to the cafe once more. For my 2nd glass of orange juice. And that nachos you see at the background, its damn delicious!

The cafe is located at a prime sport; it sits right in the middle of the Resort. We're seated at the balcony area, and thats the view of the resort.

Me and Bestie... =)

Journey back to Singapore. Bright and sunny, but the water's choppy again...

And with that... its the end of my short get-way with Bestie. =)

Its not the end....

14th Oct (Ah-mei Concert)

After we reached TMFT, I sent Bestie home then went home. Time's running out, I rushed home and took a quick shower. RL came by and sent me down to Singapore Indoor Stadium. All thanks to him, I manage to reach on time! Coz upon arrival, I realised that I do not know how to get to the road that leads to Singapore Indoor Stadium, and demand seemed to have exceed supply for the parking lots.

Before the concert starts...

Ah-mei is pitch perfect, and her voice is damn powerful! We could sing to all her love ballets, and her dance numbers also got us on out feet.

Well, I had a fantastic time... =) The concert got into a very high 'mode', and with reluctance (from both Ah-mei and the audiences), we call it an end at 11.20pm.

Last photo before my camera went low batt. =)

DQ swing by and pick me up... Had supper and I reached home at 2am.

And you know what's the best part... I have to attend a 13hr class on 6th Oct. =p

Dear Bloggie,

I'm still slogging on my 4500 words Strategy paper. And I really think my besties are all alcoholic. Why am I that sure? This is because one is drinking at Pan Pac, the other is drinking at Chijmes. And me, at Mac churning out my Strategy paper.

Had a long conversation with my Strategy Lecturer on Friday, and just saw and email from him.

Hi Angeline,

Just the following comments on your case notes.

Pages 1 and 2 are basically descriptive (recap of case facts): could look for opportunities to do a little analysis here and there.

Page 3: descriptive up to part "An Agency Relationship". Starting at that point, some good observations seen.

On structure - note that you're descriptions of structure sound about right (since the case evidence only gives facts and descriptions). Note however that the only way to know for sure just what type of structure you are looking at is to look at the actual org chart in order to evaluate.

On SBU form... item a): Why not related constrained?

Hope this helps,
Sherman

PS only spoke to maybe four of you, so don't know yet about Tuesday afternoon. Will try and chase a couple of people for their views.

PPS it was a pleasure talking to you yesterday afternoon and evening - really appreciate you going to your marketing class late to talk to me - hope you found it worthwhile. After exams (say December) would like to share a coffee with you. I feel you can handle grad school, would like chance to see if I can convince you of this.

Did you see the PPS... His really serious about it I guess. He talked to me on Friday, saying that he spotted qualities in me moving on to MBA after my degree. I told him I wasn't too sure about it and somehow, I think his just kidding me. Well, I'm one who scored like 41/100 for my past 2 Strategy papers, and now you're telling me I have the cut for a MBA? But deep down, I am flattered. It pleased to me know that someone of some academic standing actually thinks I can make it for higher learning... =)

Dear Bloggie,

Remember the short note my Lecturer for Strategy has sent me earlier on.. I replied back a short "Thank you" note as a form of politeness.

My Thank-you note:-

Hi Sherman,

Thank you for the email! It is very encouraging to hear from you!

Indeed, speaking up infront of a huge group is definitely not one ofthe thing that I usually do. But it is a good experience, and I do thank you for helping me out when I got cornered by the questions. =)

Frankly, I'm starting to miss class already. It sadden me to know its all over. But still, thank you so much for all the help rendered during this period.

Cheers,
Angeline

Lecturer's reply:-

Hi Angeline,

It's a pleasure to help. This is what we are supposed to do when we teach (at least I try to do it, anyway) - it's all about getting our students to stretch. Then they realize that something they thought they could not do, they are able to do. It doesn't matter that the first time is not perfect; practice makes perfect, right?

Some feedback for you was that you came across very calm and collected, also you knew what it was you wanted to say, and you said it. Finally, after I spoke up, you came back and added some additional comments - this was good because it showed you could think on your feet. (BTW I realize that you might have felt terrified inside, but I want you to know that it did NOT show - in fact, just the opposite.)

As for the student in the other tutorial group - normally I would not have intervened, at least not in that way. But I felt that the other student was a little too aggresive in her style and didn't quite have all her facts in place. So I spoke up because I thought you were being unfairly targeted and because I felt that the case was new enough that you would not have been able to defend yourself properly. I have every confidence that if you had finished TMA03, you would have put up one hell of a fight.

You did good.

Cheers!
Sherman
PS It might not be quite all over yet. I'm going to see if I can arrange that revision session. So maybe you have one last chance to see your classroom kakis!

See... Told you I meet a Bitch in class, even my Lecturer thought I'm being unfairly targetted. And frankly... Before the presentation, I already know my Group for to go up for it, and I sure will kanna as I'm the one who pen down the Presentation. I was still sms-ing DQ, telling him I am trembling badly, and I'm not sure if its the low temperature of the Lecture Hall or I'm dead down nervous.

But still, I am proud of myself... Abit 不要脸I know, but well... =)

Dear Bloggie,

Some random updates:-

[1] I am working very hard on my 4500words Essay now, thou I have only pen down 10% of the Essay, but I'm confident that I can do it.

[2] I am itching for mahjong.

[3] I will not be spending Christmas in Singapore this year.

[4] I'm planning for a long holiday to 2 countries end of the year.. One of it, I'll be travelling alone. A first for Xin.

[5] I have successful reached a new peak - weight wise.

[6] Dieting plans are back in place again... =(

[7] I have 3 datelines in October... Stress. And because of that I've been having bad nights. I kept waking up every other hour throughout the night. And that leads to disrupted rest.. And I'm so tired..

[8] Have not been clubbing and ktv-ing. And I miss ktv.

[9] I must remind myself to be contented in life. I lead a blessed life, I do not need anything else.. Lemming for things that are not possible is just going to make me feel bad.

[10] Its finally Friday.. I want to sleep till 9am tomorrow!

亲爱的日记，


累死了。


节目排得满满的，工作也越积越多，学校功课也多到把我压得喘不过气。压力很大，每晚都没睡好。每隔一两个钟我都会醒过来，搞得我现在真是疲惫不堪。


咳。。


人，每天忙忙碌碌的度过。到地真正是为了什么？


为了多赚点钱，买那个名牌包包，驾那名牌大房车，住那有地方产？还是为了人们心理的那虚荣心，那身份地位？人往高处爬，水往低处流 - 这道理我明白。每个人都要往上爬，为了能够过更好的生活。。可是在争取这一些的当儿，我们是不是忽略了周遭的一切。人生，真的只不过如此吗？

这篇日记还真的是深奥到我也不知我到底要表达些什么。

Dear Bloggie,

Just a short post before I head off to bed.

I saw this email sitting in my mailbox.

A short message from my Lecturer for Strategy class:-

Hi Angeline,

Just reflecting on this past Sunday evening...

At the final plenary (with Chari and Atul's groups)
I just wanted to let you know that I was really
pleased with how you stood up for your group in
explaining the group position to questioning from
he other students. I suspect that speaking up may
not be quite your favorite thing to do but I feel
you did quite well. Be sure you remember you have
it in you to handle this sort of thing the next
time it comes up.

Three cheers!
Sherman

Its nothing much.. But it's very nice of him to drop me a message telling me that I did well that day.

*sigh*

I miss Strategy class even more now...

Dear Bloggie,

Life... goes on.

I've got plenty of photos coming up. From Bintam with AC and Ah-mei's concert with JT.

But before that, saw this bag... And the bad news is, I think I like it.

Louis Vuitton Mini Lin Angèle in Platine. Priced at SGD2170, I know AC will tell me to get a full calf leather Miumiu instead. But... this is pretty. Just look at the color, and it complements my LV Mini Lin Agenda perfectly... =)

If moolah could just drop from the sky... =p

Dear Bloggie,

Just reached home not too long ago from my Strategy class.. My last Strategy class.

I know I complain alot about Strategy. I mean, who will not. Its a 13hr class that is held on a good Sunday and the content is kind of heavy. Expecting us to get all critical in our train of thoughts, looking out for details and thinking in a out-of-box manner while gathering as many facts as we could from the case study which is thin on facts to support the ever confusing models from the text book. After the miserable Sunday what follows is a 4500 words essay that needs to be churned out within 10days.

But still... I am upset. Coz this is my last Strategy class.

You know... Xin does not take departures well. I understand that the only thing is life that does not change - are changes. People comes in and out of our lifes. And this is not the first time I'm graduating from school, but still...

It is also partly due to the nature of how the Strategy class.. Unless you've been through it, if not you will not know what exactly have I been through in this 13hr class. How we gather in groups for discussion within an extremely short time frame, how we helped each other to understand the very difficult strategy concepts, how we arrow each other to do presentation in our own tutorial class, how we gather together and bitch about our tutor, how we went for merged classes presentation, how unite together and debate with the other classes.

You know.. its very heart-warming when we faced critical assessments from other classes and everyone will get all united and defend each other, of coz armed with facts from case study and definations from text book.

I gave my first presentation yesterday; to the big combined class. Its a very big challenge for me, giving a presentation to a big group of strangers. And oh, did I mentioned that the guys 'arrowed' the girls and the suay-ed me kanna the arrow. But I think I did a good job! Coz the presentation flip chart was very well-done by my group-mates.. And when I got shoot by some bitch from other class during the Q&A, my classamates (and even my own tutor) retaliate back to help defend me..

I felt so good about it.. Its a very special bond, shared by the 15 of us. Somehow, I guess noone can understand it. Unless you've been though the super tedious and challenging process.

The love-hate factor for Strategy class is indeed very strong.

I miss BUS499 T08.

*sigh*

Okie... I know good things always comes to an end. This is life isnt it? Time for me to shift my focus back to reality.. I've got a 4500word essay due on 15th Oct, 10 days from now.

Wish me luck people, I scored a all time low of 41 for my previous 2 essay... No time for me to sit around and get all emo... =)

亲爱的日记，

这是个礼拜过得很快。今天已经星期五了。

星期三是个共定假日，可是应为这个周末的节目排得满满的，所以我留在家里，哪儿也没去，乖乖的做了一个网上测验和两个Case Study Summary。

这个周末真的是忙死我了。今天请了半天假，我要单枪匹马的独自一人坐船上民丹岛。好友要去散散心，我又不放心她一人，所以就跟着去。好友昨天已经过去了，我工作有点忙，所以今天去，明天回。星期六又买了张惠美演唱会的票。星期天又要去学校上十三钟头的课。节目接二连三，好像连喘口气的机会也没有。。

可是，我会带着愉快的心情去面对一切。。应为，在周遭发生的每一件事都是上天给的恩赐，一种考验。历尽了艰苦，相信幸福就在不远处。=)

PS: 昨天在电视上看到了一位久违了的同事上了节目。。节目结束前，男友竟当着全国人民面前向她求婚。她落下了幸福的眼泪，在电视机前的我和HY也跟着傻傻的热泪盈眶。好感动！已有三-四年没联络的朋友，竟能在这种的书的情况下得知她的近况。在此，我也为她献上我最真琛的祝福。=）