Cottage by the River

Dear blog,

I am now in the office.. Todae is a Mondae, a rainy mondae morning.. time nw is 8.53am.. but thn my PC clock is i tink 9min faster.. Well.. hw nice is it if I can stay home and sleep todae.. BenBen didnt wakie go school todae.. Guess their holis started liao.. Hw nice.. Actualie its getting quite boring at work. I dun like tat boriness at wrk.. I realie feel like resigin, coz i wanted sumthing challanging, sumting alwaes makin my dae busy.. once I'm busy, my dae aso pass by faster.. like now, the time realie crawls..
Anywae, did I mention in my last log tat I failed my TP?? I tink I did lah.. but thn nemind, i didnt expect myself to pass either.. My nxt test date book liao.. its on the 28th July.. Does this date ring any bell? Well, its a dae before my bdae.. So if I reallie pass, this will be the best bdae present I'm goin to recieve liao.. thou I tink I can make it this time round liao.. but thn i aso dun wan be overly confident.. thn I got all my lessons date liao.. after calculating all the dates, this retest will cost mi about 500over bucks.. actualie if its onli 500bucks, tink i can tender my resignation on 1st june, thn wrk till end of june.. thn like tat, with may + june's salary, will haf 2k plus.. after taking awae the 500, and all my expenses, i tink i is can make it liao de.. over the wkend actualei wan discuss with xiang de.. but thn it slip my mind..
huiyu resignin end of this mth.. actualie i tinkin once she left, maybe i will be more busy, coz i might haf to mroe or less cover up her wrk.. but thn if this is not true, thn i aso got no idea hw am i goin to boring 2mth here.. but thn may actualie passess pretty fast.. too many pple's bdae, so alot of events to look forward to, and aso got my drivin test(took 2 daes leave;so tat is a damn short wk for mi..) and aso all the mother daes celebration n stuff like tat.. actualie realie quite eventfull loh.. tis wk got no events leh.. nth much to look forward to, except pay dae, wich is end of tis week.. hehe~* so realie hope time will pass faster ah~*
Okie.. start doin abit of wrk liao.. time is onli 9.30am.. after I have updated this customer into the system, i wonder wat other stuff i can do.. seems like wat i can do is nth much liao leh.. later got to go dig sum stuff out to do.. wonder wat xiang is doin.. till nw never sms mi.. tink he must be hiding in his bunk, slpin.. ns life nw like veri hao ming liao.. duno todae will meet him anot leh.. mondae he is dun haf nite off de.. but thn he aso bo chup de.. but thn duno leh.. i duno wher shld i go after wrk leh..
Todae on my wae to wrk.. I kept tinkin about wrk.. I dun realie like wat i'm doing now. I'm tinkin of resigning, thn go get those part time sales job.. like sum cake shop or sell clothes de or wat.. coz i all along do sales, i am okie with it de.. so i tinkin maybe i shld go bac to sales for the time being.. i might be happier.. ermm.. as for pay wise, i aso dun tink will get ani lower.. my take home onli 1k plus abit.. if i go into sales, i believe aso ard the same de.. the onli ting is haf to wrk on sats and sundae.. tats the onli draw back.. but thn actualie off during the wkdaes aso not tat bad mah rite.. less pple ard, thn got more time to myself..
now 10.42am.. i spent the last hour searchin for an email leh.. but thn tink for tis issue, tat time due to time constriants, there is no time for ani emails.. haizz.. nemind, wait till my COO come bac thn see wat he saes ba..
11.29am liao.. the past hour didint do aniting muchie.. ermm..
now 1.38 liao wor.. like tat 2 hr pass liao.. bt one hr was lunchie.. haizz.. now i deng fang gong liao.. boring ah.. reale boring.. juz now go frewnster ther seesee looklook.. thn saw tat yk got new pics wor.. thn go in seesee looklook abit.. he like didnt change one bit leh.. still the same old him.. die lah.. feel like slpin now.. the slpin spell is all over mi.. how how??
duno if xiang is cumin out todae anot.. butthn nemind lah.. got the sat tat slpy feeling.. if he not cumin out,
Mr te now with us.. he telling us he end of tis mth goin to tender, thn nw huiyu sae till like so overjoy, coz got pple accompany her to leave. i mean i am irritated loh.. thn he kept rubbing in.. and mr te aso. wat can i sae.. i realie hate it here. a mth ago whn i wanted to leave, she is the one who hold mi back. thou i haf to admit i aso got my reserve bout leavin, but thn she realie plays a big part loh. thn nw coz she got in ntu liao, thn like tat sae wan leave.. how do u wan mi to feel.. damn betrayed loh. i knw its for her own good. so i understand, and i kept quiet. in fact i tink i was pretty encouragin loh. and nw she haf to rub in like tat.. hw do u wan mi to feel. thn i flare, mr te still sae might as well ah ger aso go loh. she still got the cheek to tell him is all coz i got the finicial problem. cum on loh.. i've been telling her i have my drivin expenses counted out liao. i can actualie resigned end of tis mth de. thn she is the one who asked mi stay. wat the fuck. angry. realie angry.
damn pissed. dun wan tok to her. in fact i dun feel like tokkin to her again. wonder i can tahan how long. but thn i realie dun feel like tokin.. hate her. in fact i tink its all coz her i am in wat i am now. if not i will leave long ago liao. still tink she's my best frewn here.. wat crap. am i kickin a big fuss out of nth?? do u tink i'm in the wrong? duno lah.. damn angry now. todae i goin to leave on the dot. let her go ahead and tender tis mth.. i haf to calm dwn and tink about it.
Okie.. about 20min haf passed frm just now, the time is now 3.11pm. i feel more clam dwn liao. but thn still cant forgive her. tink tis matter haf been in my heart for a longlong time liao. thn todae she like tat, its just trigger off and i exploded. till nw, i dun tink i am in the wrong. its not i stubborn or wat. just one word loh. selfish. but thn cant help it loh. she dun even tink bout her own twin, not to mention mi. but thn please loh, dun rub in liao. i already need to constantly remind myself to look on the bright side. w/o her havin to remind mi of the dark side. still got 2hr plus thn can go home liao. tink xiang is not meetin mi todae.. tink aso rush for him to be cumin in and out. but its okie, i can go home rite after wrk.. go back and slp on all my stuff.. i'm a very direct person.. like means like, dun like means dun like. and whn i no like, i realie show it. tats mi. i'm a straight forward ger. and rite now, i'm feelin damn pissed.. very angry.. i dun wan yi qi yong shi. no point resign coz her.. thn in the end shou ku de shi zi ji.. so tonite, must reallie tally out my final conclusion. thn if all odds points to mi leavin, thn i'll tender tml.. but thn actualie i dun mind abit more cash de.. its like 1k more leh.. but thn it aso means 1 more mth of sufferin here loh.. so todae got to go back tok to xiang and all abit.. 3.49 liao.. in bout 2hrs more i believe i'll be out of tis place liao..
haizz.. damn sian.. realie sianzz.. mr te just cum tok to mi abit.. well.. he is ask mi to leave aso since not hapie.. and given my calibre, sure can find job sumwher else. but thn nw aso huiyu sae prefer us not to leave together. everyting aso she sae. fuck loh. but thn i dun wan get manuliplitated by anione.. i wan to do wat i wan. i wan go tink bout it thn see how. actualie feelin slightly beta liao. and now 4.17pm on my clock liao. so in an hour time, thn i can start to count dwn to go home liao.. todae i realie didnt do aniting much.. but thn aso quite li hai hor.. neber do ting aso pass one dae liao.. not bad ah.. i finaly learnt the power to use a long time to do a simple task.. guess tis is wrk smart ba.. thou not exactly smart, but thn at least yar.. guess tis is aso one wae of wrkin ba..
she tried tokin to mi. but thn i dun wan tok to her. nw she aso like not too hapie liao. bt thn her prob. cant be bothered with her..
nw 4.37pm.. actualie i frm tis morn write till nw.. aso not bad hor.. like todae xiang busy in camp. so his reply aso abit slow.. haizz.. feel beta nw liao. but thn still dun feel like tokin to her.. in an hour time,i will be on my wae home liao. thou todae is not a busy dae, the time aso passes reasonably fast.. HEHE..4.57pm liao wor.. left half hour more to go.. realie looking forward in goin home.. hehe.. at least my mood beta now..
5.49pm liao.. i am leavin the office liao.. xiang sms mi sae his meetin mi at my place ther.. thn go my hsey watch a vcd liek tat.. tink he knws i upset.. so purposely wan accompany mi.. realie apprecaite him for bein ther for mi alwaes.. i knw i at times aso not too nice to him.. but thn he still so nice to mi. love u dear~* haizz.. he aso never reads tis de.. got write and no write same de.. leavein liao.. tml tink i can write another lenghty lenghty de..