Cottage by the River

This will be my 2nd post todae.. so its still sundae, but th sky is already dark.. sun has set hrs ago.. feelin veri upset todae.. realie upset.. no news frm him the entire dae.. is this the end of us?? i realie got no idea.. i didnt tok to him last nite whn we were at orchard. all ques was unanswered.. i remained silent all the wae home in the car.. guess i was too tired, i fall aslp on the wae back.. whn i woke up, the car was already parked at my hse dwnstairs of my hse liao.. i duno reach hw long liao, but he didnt wake mi up..

after i woke up, i opened the door, turned and walk off to the lift.. he sent mi up, rite to my door step. but he didnt cum in.. onli said bye to my mum, who is in the livin rm, and he went off liao...

frm thn till now, he didnt contact mi. no sms, so not to even mention a fone call.. i spend the whole dae at home looking at my hp.. but starin at it doesnt help, it didnt ring at all.. seein the hands of the clock movin.. hours by hours passed, and i duno wat am i doin. forced myself to slp, so tat time passed faster, but thn whnever i opened my eyes, onli mins passed....

its 10plus now.. i am upset.. veri veri upset.. i feel like cryin. is this the end?? i realie got no idea.. if it is, i rather u tell mi. yest, he mentioned tat he realie duno hw to spend the rest of our lifes together.. coz its like i will alwaes flare at him at the slightest stuff.. i realie dun wan to go into this topic again and again.. but thn why do i flarE? its not out of the blue, ther will definately be a cause to it. did he actualie spend time go find out wats goin on?? or even whn he find out liao did he do aniting bout it?

maybe its realie my fault.. but thn why do i feel so pain todae... i feel like a zombie walkin ard the hse.. i hope he can appear in front of mi and hold mi in his arms again.. no appetite todae.. didnt eat aniting.. maybe its aso coz i didnt eat and tat make mi feel worst..

i duno lah.. i duno wats goin on.. upset. just plain upset.. hoW?