Cottage by the River

Dear Bloggie,

Its me again. 4th post of the day. I just reached home. Exhausted.

Meet up with mao after work. Went to see handphone. But well, cant make up my mind so didnt buy it in the end...

Please give me opinions about the Razor V3. I really like the phone, but then there's really a couple of flaws in it that I kind of mind.

1. There's no FM function.

2. The buttons are like damn flat, pretty thou I must say, but is it hard to navigate with it??

3. Okie, there's no point 3.

So well, I'm damn fickle minded. But its alright, I got till Saturday to decide. Huili will accompany me to see the handphone again on Saturday... :)

So anyway, saw another movie today. "Bewitched". Not too bad a show.

Feeling a little confused today. In fact, I feel like as thou I am restraining myself the entire day. He contacted me today, and yet I have to like stay away from him. What else can I do??

I really dont know what to say. Lots of mixed feelings.

I got no idea is he just like contacting me coz its simply out of sympathy coz maybe to him I seemed like a very poor unwanted thing now, or its really just out of his instinct to still care for me but only out of instinct and not coz he still likes me, or maybe his begining to regret his decision.

I got no idea.

And I really dont want to go think too much about it. The truth might hurt. I really dont want to torment myself again. I dont want to read too much about his actions. I know I am overly sensitive to everything related to him now. Thus I am prone to making wrong judgements. I dont trust myself on all these at this moments.

Feeling damn tired now. Waking up in the middle of the night is really bad.

Recently I seemed to be torturing myself.

Pushing myself to the limit.

Do I have to do this??

Haizz.. No idea.

Well, still the same old word again.

Its okie. :)