Dear Blog, its mi again.. its 5.51m on my pc clock.. why am i still in the office..

a) Thunder Storm here... Lightning and thunder and large amount of rain...
b) Waiting for Huiyu.. Tink we need to tok about my resignation tml.. the whole dae she's hinting mi to tink bout my decision, and finally ard 5pm, she ask mi can i dun resign..

Okie.. so onli 2 point.. but the power to this 2 points is soooo great.. to keep mi in the office whn i got nth to do, and aso whn i am to meet xiang in orchard.. haizz.. i wan GGggooo.... what am i doin here.. haizz.. Bad life ah..

Todae email andrea abit.. Thn found out tat she tml last dae.. yar.. she resigned.. and nw she wan take a break frm wrk.. might wan go aussie study, or SIM for a part time coz.. yar.. aniwae.. haizz.. thn i sms qian, thn she sae she wan go bac to sch.. damn funni de.. wrking de cant wait to get out of the wrk and back to sch.. schooling de cant wait to get out of sch and go back to wrk.. haizz..

and now huiyu tell mi she tml dun wan cum wrk.. so she can no need see mi tender.. fuck loh. i waited for her till nw and tis is the nonsense i got frm her. fed up loh. fuck it lah.. leavin office now liao.

Dear Blog,

Its fang gong time again.. Todae actualie is a relatively pleasant dae till now.. ermm.. or maybe about 15min ago.. realie dampen my mood.. I already hated tat idiot for taking awae my V180 awae.. and nw, it seems like its more thn V180.. Seems like even the A1000 his gettin involved too.. and God knws wat else his goin to take awae frm mi.. Fuck man.. Realie fed-up.. Wrk starts to build up todae.. Mostly the Telian stuff.. my C340 and V240.. Heng the Koreans onli realie look for mi.. so i was still tinking, maybe wrk is still not tat bad mah.. coz its like i am doin wat I like.. so i startin to haf 2nd tots about the fridae resignation stuff.. But now, seems like I did not make a wrong choice..

told huiyu about it this ting just now.. her reply was aso not wat i wan hear.. after being here for so long, i'm realie disappointed at her.. i mean all along i tot onli she knws hw i realie feel, wat i realie wan.. but thn guess i'm wrong aso.. tis time round, she's not leavin.. coz her sis just resigned.. I knw tis sounds practical.. but thn wat i see, is tat she cant bear it here too.. cant bear to start all over again.. so yar.. i'm angry.. veryvery angry.. and i haf to go dinner wif her tonite.. thou xiang's havin off, but thn coz i dated her first.. i mean its still effort on my part.. and tis is all i go..

Fuck. tat fucker got my Razor file tat i just set up TODAE.

Dear blog,

I am in the office now. Its about 1/2hr to fang gong. Todae is quite a horrible dae. Coz I didnt have much to do. Normally at wrk, pple are hopin for less wrk, but mi on the other hand, is hopin for more. Funnie rite.. yar.. Finally, its the end of the dae.. I realie waited so damn long for this moment. Hw I wish I can dun cum wrk tml.. but thn its quite impossible.. For the entire mth of April, I have not had a complete wrk week.. Its either MC, or leave an urgent leave.. Kind of regret taking so much leave and MC since the begining.. How??

This morn I had a short talk with my mum. Told her bout my intension of resignation. Actualie i onlie intend to inform her of my resignation, and not to ask for her opinion.. I knw i am stubborn.. coz i realie dun wan stay here ani longer. Thus i knw if I start askin, thn if she start to contradict my decision, i will start to shake frm my own decision. But surprisingly, she did not qus my decision, and neither did she show any disapproval. In fact she is still pretty supportive. So yar.. with my mum liek tis, it gives mi more confidence to carry on with my decision.

Actualie i'm reallie glad my mum gif mi this response. Coz i guess i am still pretty much of a kid. I will still want parent approval. I dun wan to do tings tat they tink is wrong. I mean i still wan to be their good girl.. So i'm glad tat i went to tok to her about it. hehe~*

So nw, its just up to my enduring skills.. see how am I goin to survive till then.. the more I tink, the more heartpain I got. Coz tat fucker took my V180 Project awae.. I realie put alot of time n effort in it. And he just took it awae like tis. I realie realie hate him!! I knw this is wrk. But thn i still cant take it. maybe i'm childish.. but thn haizz.. duno lah..

Xiang is reallie supportive too.. I knw these few daes i start to PMS liao.. so my tolerance level is veri low.. we will kick up a quarrel damn easily.. But thn he aso damn encouragin about my resignation. He onli earnin a miserable 600plus frm his NSF.. but thn he sae we can survive on this de.. hehe~* no shoppin, no restaurant.. thn can survive liao.. actualie like tat tink aso quite sweet.. thn he just nw sms mi tell mi recently alot of pple driving all first time pass.. so he ask mi to jia you.. hehe~* but thn if fail aso nemind.. he will be my chauffer... hehe~*

Getin damn fat recentli.. damn jia lat.. todae later goin gym with xiang.. go wrk out abit.. tis will be 2nd time i go gym leh.. so scary.. the last time i go i still in sec sch, go ther playplay onli leh.. i scare later alot of pple.. thn i scare later i do wrongly thn pai sey.. hehe~* but thn nemind lah.. everiting aso got first time de mah rite..

Goin fang gong liao.. thn nw gt pple ask mi do wrk, so haf to OT.. damn stupid de.. i whole dae nth to do, thn nw fang gong liao thn ask mi open wavier.. damn stupid..

At the office now.. all of a sudden tink the blog i posted the dae b4 sounds to er xin.. hehe.. tink i was thn in a damn sweet mood.. so everyting i wrote all so tian.. thn tian till nw read liao aso feel er xin myself.. hehe.. not sae now no tian liao.. but thn yar.. hehe..
aniwae, nw in the office, dyin to leave.. but thn waitin for my ai ren to finish her wrk first.. everytime aso she wait for mi.. nw i wait for her aso correct lah.. well.. sian.. the desire to resigned is all over mi again.. in fact tis mth rite.. i took quite alot of leave n mc.. so now even more reluctant to cum back office.. yar.. so i am tinkin of tenderin up the resignation end of mth.. yar.. i knw pple are so sick of hearin mi wantin to quit, but thn in the end still here.. but thn frankly speakin lah.. noone understand wat i'm goin try here.. at times, i tink even xiang duno.. on mon i told him about mi feel like tenderin end of the mth.. the respond frm him dun realie sound supportive.. aso cannot sae not supportive lah.. he is all hands and legs up for mi to leave.. but thn he aso duno why am i still hangin on after so long.. actualie i aso duno why.. its a indescrible feeling.. guess onli my airen knws.. so mi and her got this special bonding coz of tis.. yar..
aniwae.. yar.. tats wat i feel like doin loh.. haizz..
aniwae.. my granny was in hospital for bout 2 weeks ard the begining of the mth.. she was out frm the hospi last week.. actualie i am soo upset bout it.. coz thers tis bacteria in her blood.. i duno if ther's an entry for this, but thn i'm realie upset.. among all my grandparents, she is the least i wan to lose.. coz i am the closest to her.. yar.. so i kept goin to visit her.. thanks thers xiang ard.. i dun mean to sae his my chauffer, but thn i realie appreciate it as he realie drives mi ard.. thanks kae dear.. but thn thanks god she's feelin beta liao loh..
and yar... sumting provoke mi last nite.. i was home earli last nite.. thn i went online mah.. thn i read yk's tat ex the blog.. thn as i read on, she still likes him loh.. thn the wae she sae till like damn er xin aso.. haizz.. realie dun like this girl.. like so damn fake.. i mean why do she haf to be like so hoo-haa over yk leh.. worth it meh?? i realie dun understand.. but thn the worst ting is a statement she said tat realie realie irritates mi.. i mean she mention mi in tat particular blog.. and i mean its sumting pretty personal.. and she actualie published it out like this.. i'm realie angry.. but thn nemind.. guess wrkin life realie brush mi up.. coz i is like furious at it.. but thn i hold my cool and didnt do aniting about it.. fed-up leh..

At the office now.. all of a sudden tink the blog i posted the dae b4 sounds to er xin.. hehe.. tink i was thn in a damn sweet mood.. so everyting i wrote all so tian.. thn tian till nw read liao aso feel er xin myself.. hehe.. not sae now no tian liao.. but thn yar.. hehe..
aniwae, nw in the office, dyin to leave.. but thn waitin for my ai ren to finish her wrk first.. everytime aso she wait for mi.. nw i wait for her aso correct lah.. well.. sian.. the desire to resigned is all over mi again.. in fact tis mth rite.. i took quite alot of leave n mc.. so now even more reluctant to cum back office.. yar.. so i am tinkin of tenderin up the resignation end of mth.. yar.. i knw pple are so sick of hearin mi wantin to quit, but thn in the end still here.. but thn frankly speakin lah.. noone understand wat i'm goin try here.. at times, i tink even xiang duno.. on mon i told him about mi feel like tenderin end of the mth.. the respond frm him dun realie sound supportive.. aso cannot sae not supportive lah.. he is all hands and legs up for mi to leave.. but thn he aso duno why am i still hangin on after so long.. actualie i aso duno why.. its a indescrible feeling.. guess onli my airen knws.. so mi and her got this special bonding coz of tis.. yar..
aniwae.. yar.. tats wat i feel like doin loh.. haizz..
aniwae.. my granny was in hospital for bout 2 weeks ard the begining of the mth.. she was out frm the hospi last week.. actualie i am soo upset bout it.. coz thers tis bacteria in her blood.. i duno if ther's an entry for this, but thn i'm realie upset.. among all my grandparents, she is the least i wan to lose.. coz i am the closest to her.. yar.. so i kept goin to visit her.. thanks thers xiang ard.. i dun mean to sae his my chauffer, but thn i realie appreciate it as he realie drives mi ard.. thanks kae dear.. but thn thanks god she's feelin beta liao loh..
and yar... sumting provoke mi last nite.. i was home earli last nite.. thn i went online mah.. thn i read yk's tat ex the blog.. thn as i read on, she still likes him loh.. thn the wae she sae till like damn er xin aso.. haizz.. realie dun like this girl.. like so damn fake.. i mean why do she haf to be like so hoo-haa over yk leh.. worth it meh?? i realie dun understand.. but thn the worst ting is a statement she said tat realie realie irritates mi.. i mean she mention mi in tat particular blog.. and i mean its sumting pretty personal.. and she actualie published it out like this.. i'm realie angry.. but thn nemind.. guess wrkin life realie brush mi up.. coz i is like furious at it.. but thn i hold my cool and didnt do aniting about it.. fed-up leh..

Todae 20th April.. i had a fantastic weekend leh.. i took leave on sat and mondae.. coz xiang's bdae. thn i got the chalet for him.. realie realie had fun. actualie it meant to be a surprise for him.. but thn he actualie found out a mth ago.. thn actualie abit sian loh.. all my plans like gone dwn the drain.. he sat early in the morn cum to my hse liao.. i haven even collect the cake.. actualie he knw bout the chalet and all liao.. he is pusposely cum dwn pick mi up de.. but thn haizz.. make mi excited for soo long.. but thn actualie seems like eveyone knows bout the chalet, know xiang knows bout the chalet, except mi.. so seems like i am the one kept in the dark, i am the stupid one.. hehe..
but thn yar.. my frewns came, his frewns came on sat nite for the bbq.. i realie had fun loh.. see all his frewns.. hehe.. thn his frewns like all praise for mi liek tat.. hehe.. actualie deep dwn i realie realei hapie.. thn after tat played dai dee with huili mich and clement.. lost abit, but thn nemind lah.. i realie realie had fun leh.. yar..
so the entire weekend, onli got mi and him.. sundae earli in the mornin we stroll to inter eat mac breakfast.. hehe.. so sweet like tat.. imagine last person i saw whn i go slp is him, thn ther's sumone to hughug u to slp.. thn the nxt morn wake up see him still slpin.. wakin him up.. i mean its like so sweet leh.. hehe.. thn yar.. slack whole dae, thn mondae liao.. thn check out.. thn go his hsey.. yar.. stay quite awhile at his place.. wait for his mum to get ready thn sent her to his aunt place.. yar.. tat dae his mum liek not bad to mi.. hept tokin to mi.. hehe.. actualei feel hapie aso.. thn after tat we still go catch a show.. yar.. like quite long never see show liao..
ermm.. realie had a great wkend.. i wonder whn can we haf a break like this again.. real relax, realie comfy.. with him with mi.. hehe.. deardear.. love u leh..

ermm.. todae is good fridae.. i posted up the previous msg sumtime back.. but thn wat happen eventualie is he called mi and make tings up with mi.. yar.. thn as i didnt update tat part in.. so wat happen is frewns haf been smsin and callin mi up and askin if i'm alrite.. but realie thanks!! thanks to dennis, and thanks to my Sista~* actualie till now i didnt knw pple still read tis.. but thn nw i knw liao.. thanks kae.. but thn no worries.. i'm fine with him now liao.. realie realie realie..
last wed i went zouk.. had a hell of a time.. hehe~* thurs went to see doc get mc.. coz got a slight hang over lah.. thn i aso sick.. now got flu lah, sore throat and everyting aso cum liao.. so yest didnt went wrk.. but thn evening time i still can go meet my colleauges go ktv.. at cck.. which is damn freakin far for mi.. but thn wat to do.. they all live either wooldlands or cck.. but thn nemind lah.. i actualie had fun.. thn xiang last nite sent mum to airport, thn he frm air port cum all the wae dwn to cck to pick mi up.. hehe~* thn we went back hougang eat the midnite curry rice.. thn go ponggul park slack abit.. so by the time i home, already bout 4pm liao.. actualie tis wk, i realie feel happy.. its like thers alot of activities line up.. todae qian ther jio clubbin, thn huili ther jio mahjong.. it realie seems like the good old daes loh..
and so fast.. one week frm now is the his bdae liao.. still didnt buy pressent.. duno wat to get for him leh.. ermmmm....