Cottage by the River

Dear Blog,
Ermm, since why is the last time i updated the blog.. ermm.. quite long liao. how haf xin been recently?? Bad. Veri bad. Once again, i didnt manage to plucked up enugg courage to resign. so i'm feelin so disappointed with myself. realie disappointed and angry with myself.
well, put that aside ba. i guess everione is used to mi sayin i wan resign but i am still here rite, so its nth new to you pple aniwae.. i am in the office now. recentli i am feelin quite free. coz for my Grassykey project, i am no longer the center person. the motorola guy has gone dwn to suzhou with raymond, and frm there they haf sorted out alot of tings.. and aso frm then on, for ani issues, they will just cc angel in the emails, thus saved alot of troubles on my side to be repeating the same story over n over again.. but coz tis, i am feelin bored.. nth much to do.. so i am realie stuck here, tryin to clear all my paper wrk. which is bored. veri veri bored.
ermm.. xiang todae goin for an interview.. at bugis.. guess its either his havin the interview now, or his still waitin.. actualie i aso duno wat job izzit.. hope its sumting good thou..
tml i goin zouk.. ermm.. clubbin.. why do i feel so old like tat.. actualie i am still veri young mah. but thn why do i feel so old.. sumwho, write till here liao, i find this entry abit funnie.. but thn no doubt, i am still lookin forward to the clubbin trip. its realie a nites out for the gers, and we can all haf fun..
thursdae i am hopin to get an mc.. but thn raymond ther duno can take it anot. actualie i am quite a bad wrker hor.. on average i gets an mc once a mth.. i scare raymond will start to attitude.. at times he is just like a kid.. haizz.. i am feeling giddy now. the whole world seems to be spinin, round and round.. heng todae xiang is cumin to pick mi up frm wrk..
recently i received sms frm alot of long time no realie contact frewns.. haizz.. those daes wher i cna alwaes meet thm out as and whn i lke is gone.. nw with xiang ard, its realie harder to keep up with certain frewns.. the onli pple i have been meetin on a regular basis are my poly frewns.. pple like emi, esther and xingwei and huili..
last sun is xiong's bdae.. sista finaly 22 liao.. sat nite he treated us dinner.. a seafood dinner.. got crabbies, steam fish, tiger prawns, the pai ku wang and the froggie legs.. quite a spread loh.. thn i bought him a cake.. so at least tat dae saw sista, jonas and roy.. my long time no see A,B and C..
thn clement sms mi the yest for a show.. will try to an pai abit, so cna meet up with him.. tink didnt see him since emi's bdae party.. haizz.. i wan see everione.. duno how is everibody.. todae is a frewn's bdae.. guorong bdae.. haf not even sms him for i tink the past one year.. wonder how is he.. used to be quite close to him, whn i was still in sec sch.. i can still remember.. he treats mi like a xiaomeimei like tat.. his the first one who gave mi my first necklace.. and i still kept it.. still remember he told mi tat the bought mi tis necklace, coz ther's the purple stone, which is meant to bless mi with intelligence in sch wrk.. my 15 year old bdae prezzie.. actualie he is realie a frewn whom i knwn soo long, and quite close, but thn we are alwaes frewns, those brotherly and sisterly feeling frewns.. so nice to haf frewns liek these.. later i tink i will go sms him, wish him hapie bdae..
and did i mentioned tat i forgot to brin my hp out todae.. i realie duno wats wrong with mi liao.. twice in a week.. xiang's been tellin mi i am changin frm ginko nut to pea nut liao.. i am losin my memory.. cannot take it..
actualie i realie find it nice to keep blogs like tis.. not for anione's info, but for xin to read years dwn the road.. imagine after i successfulli leave tis place, i will be readin this blog, and sences of tis place will be floating out frm my brain.. and yar.. ah ger's granny passed awae.. tis couple of years realie not her year.. all her grand-parents are leavin her one by one like tat.. aniwae, haizz.. after she left office, thn i realised tat wat a good frewn she is.. normalli haf to wait till times like tis, thn will knw who treats u best.. frankly speakin, i tink she treats mi beta thn andrea and all.. whn asked who is my best frewn, it will be andrea and qian. but thn how much of thm do i knw now.. its like i realie duno who are they hangin ard with lah, and all of these stuff animore.. like qian took up wind-surfing.. quite surprising loh, coz i tot she is just as in-door as mi de, but thn now she doin all these out-door sports..
who is my best frewn now?? i aso got no idea.. ah ger treats mi as her zhi ji.. i like tis feelin. it makes mi feel important. i am important in her life.. but wat bout my "Best Frewn". Karen didnt even cum to my bdae party. I have to call and call to get thm in coz i wan to cut the cake, And ah ger left crying, coz she cant bear to leave mi, and emi and the rest already standby to take pics liao.. u knw wat i mean, so frm tis senerio, who are my best frewns?? my bdae party, in the end onli the poly pple stayed overnite.. the nxt dae we went to WWW.. wat bout my "Best Frewns"?? all rushin off coz they got their own programss.. andrea meetin new guys, qian got wind surfin the nxt dae.. haizz.. u knw wat i mean..
well, its 5.46pm now liao.. xiang said he will cum pick mi up at 6.30pm.. so i got 45min more to go.. but thn i dun feel like wrkin liao leh. but thn i dun dare leave too.. so i shall just continue stay on, write my blog..
finally, no matter how difficult it is, time still pass.. now is time to fang gong.. guess xiang is on his wae to my office. later duno wher we goin for dinner.. yest my colleauges told mi i slim dwn *smile*.. must be the effort of mi eatin either loti or nth for lunch..
hafta keep up the good effort.. todae aso loti for lunch. so later goin for dinner.. will try to curb, will not eat aniting too heavy..