Cottage by the River

Dear Bloggie,

Its me, without him.

I am really upset. This made me feel how blessed my entire life is. Throughout all these years, I have been never ever felt like this before. This simply shows what a lucky girl I am all along, just that I didn’t treasure it, taking everything for granted.

His really firm about his decision, I think nothing that I do and say will make him change his mind, at least at this very moment.

That, is his traits. Something that I loved about him. Contradicting right. Before he hake any decision, he will really go think about it. And once decision is made, he will stand by his ground and regardless of the consequences, he will never regret. That is my man, a man of principal.

But this time, his decision to leave me left me dumbstruck. His right, sensitivity is definitely something I don’t possess. He has started thinking about it for a couple of weeks, and yet I didn’t manage to pick up any hints of clues.

I really regret. Really regret not treasuring the time we spent together and taking him for granted. Everything I do, my mindset is he will always be there for me, never leaving me. But it’s too late. I am a lucky girl. I was given the opportunity to be with such a good guy, but yet I didn’t grab hold of the opportunity tightly in my arms. And now, it has slipped away.

But right now, I need to try get my life back on track ASAP. Actually I have been spending way too much time in the office, trying to burry myself in work to forget about this matter. I think on a long run its not going to be healthy, but I really felt lost. His the only one that I want see right now. I really don’t have the energy to go meet others, and start explaining to others about what happen. I am really tired.

I love him.

I really love him. In fact, I think he can do without me, but I can’t do without him.

I wonder how is he now. Happier without me? Or he too is thinking about me… I hope is the latter.

PS* Dear Frewns, thanx for standing by me during this period of time. I really appreciate it.