Cottage by the River

Dear Bloggie,

It’s the month of July and it is MY Month and I am supposed to feel happy. But I am feeling damn frustrated now and I cannot find an avenue to vent it out.

[1] I spent approximately close to 4 hours and finally completed my 1st batch of Black Pepper Mushroom Pies. Comments 好坏参半, but even thou not nice but put it across to me subtly and not just throw it away. ALL the pies are done with a lot of effort and time; do not simply just put it down.

[2] I sent an Order to a Fucked-up Supplier 2 week back and she acknowledged the Order. I sent another Order to her yesterday and she called me this morning and say she cannot do it due to the low quantity ordered. Hello?!?! Then why did you acknowledge my first Order? And why didn’t you tell me earlier that you can’t do it? So that Fucker intends to just sit on my Order and let it pass? She didn’t even have the basic business courtesy to call and tell me she can’t complete the Order a couple weeks back. And when she called me her tone is super ya ya papaya, she made it sound like it’s my fault that the quantity ordered it low. WTF?! I still have the First Ordered sign-ed by her, don’t make me angry and I will INSIST that you come down and do the work for me. I got the black and white; it is a legal contract.

[3] A brief exchange with SBK a couple days back is still looming overhead. I am simply down-right disappointed thou Bestie asked me not to jump into conclusion as that few words don’t mean a thing. I still can’t believe that 我又看走眼了.

I resorted to do filing the entire morning to prevent myself from doing anything drastic that I will regret later.

I feel very vengeful now…
I cannot control my emotions at all now…
I just want to scream and do something to get all that anguish emotions out of my body….