Dear Blog,

So fast, a week has passed. Todae is the last dae of January. Time realie flies, 1/12 of a brand new 2005 has passed. Thou it still seems like yest we had just celebrated Xmas.

Ermm.. wat has been happenin last week? Let mi take a look at the calendar... Tink noting much has been happening last week. Everidae is more or less wrk home wrk home.. And i am supposed to wrk last sat, but i changed it to this wk instead.. Coz hafta go attend my grandpa's tat death anniversary tingy.. its been 7wks since he has left us.. But its still not hard to recall the details on tat fateful dae, and the few daes tat follows. I realie haf to sae tat the impact of his death is veri positive to us. Coz we cousins haf realie got close. Benben and a couple of my younger male cousins haf been hagin out with the older cousins everi wkend.. stayin over at their hse.. And whn we meet up everi sat for the prayer session, its more thn a nod and hi..

Saturdae evening, xiang came pick mi up on his scrambie to chinatown. I went to queue for the famous lim chee yuan bak kwa.. The waiting time is actualie shorter thn expected, onli ard an hour.. And i got orders from my aunties and cousins. So in turn i bought 11packs..

Xiang alwaes sae i am high in IQ, but zero in EQ. Coz i tot we can go walkwalk after we buy teh bak kwa, so i do not hafta carry so much cash with mi just in case i get pic-pocketed. but thn its like after we cought soo much bak kwa, its simply too heavy for us to realie walk and squeze tru the crowds. So we spent another like hour or 2 thn we proceed home liao.

Sundae mornin, xiang realised sum idiot stole my helemt. coz he lock the helmet on the handle bars.. ermm.. and duno wat did tat follow did, but thn he stole my helmet.. and my helmet is like still in a tip-top condition de.. huai ren ah.. well, but nemind lah.. coz mine got stolen, xiang gota buy mi new one... hehe~* told him i not goin to on his scrambie till he got mi my own helmet.. coz his helmet i wear liao like those da tou wa wa like tat... guigui can fit in after i put it on.. he go too fast, the helmet might fly awae... hehe~*

aniwae, last nite didnt slp well.. coz OO in my room.. thn he kept upsetin my dustin lah, step on all my bags lah, plastic bags lah.. everiting lah.. and he kept cumin onto my bed, wakin mi up.. so todae i realie in quite a zombie stage.. to make it worst, its a mondae.. realie sianzz.. tonite aso cannot go back earlie and slp.. coz i meetin the gers for a dinner... at park's mall fish and co.. haizz.. dun realie like fish and co.. but thn no choice.. and emi just sms sae to aso celebrate jessica's bdae... she ask if wan chip in for the cake.. so means todae hafta spent more money..

ermm.. last nite i go signed up for a new line.. so soon, i am goin to cancel off my current line.. abit bu she de.. coz no matter wat, aso use for bout 3 years liao... haizz.. but thn dun haf a chocie do i.. the line under joa's name.. do wat aso ma fan..

benben just call, sae OO eye bleedin, and they are at the vet now.. shit lah.. duno wat's happening.. i realie duno why like tat..

no mood to update further..

Dear Blog,

In the office now again todae.. Ermm.. Alex is back todae, and actualie todae quite busy.. I nw aso issue PO halfwae, thn abit sianzz.. so thn decided to drop a “short” note.. hehe~*

Had a wonderful long wkend.. thou good times alwaes passes so fast… Thursdae nite I was like so tired, ermm.. cant realie remember wat I did, but thn I knock out rite after I reach home..

then fridae wakie earlie.. so nice to see xiang once I open my eyes.. the sense of security… but thn he piggie lah.. I woke up liao he still slpin, I aso didn’t wake him up.. thn slack till afternoon, we went to bugis.. went to sim lim.. I wanted to buy a mp3 player.. so ermm.. yar, went sim lim to source ard abit… thn after tat went to eat desert at xu liu shan.. it’s a veriveri famous desert store in hong kong.. I tried their water melon single sago… YumYum.. damn delicious.. love it soooo much.. thn after tat went home.. arranged for an overnite mahjong session with clement and mao… hehe~* half wae tru the game xw drove dwn from jurong to haf supper with us… so I aso took the car out… went to macperson ther for supper.. after tat went back to my hse, to cont. the mahjong… played till ard 6am… hehe~* thn I won 6bucks.. thou not a lot.. but thn I realie feel veri happie tat nite.. realie duno hw to describe.. but thn I realie feel so happie..

Thn didn’t haf time to slp, coz Sat need to go bank earlie in the morn with mummy… went to the UOB in Orchard, and opened my saving account… I applied for the Visa mini.. hehe~* thou visa mini already veri common liao, but thn I still feelin kinda excited bout it… duno whn will my card cum leh… thn went to my granny place ther, for my grandpa’s prayer session.. I was like sooo tired, tat I didn’t haf the appetite for the vegetarian food.. cant wait to go home and slp… thn kept paster mummy to go home.. finalli, ard 12noon, I reach home and I totally knock out…

Woke up at 5pm…. To be exact, it shld be 4pm.. coz mummy like got nth to do, thn she kept cumin to my room and bother mi… came in to wake mi up at 4pm, askin mi if I am late for my appt… thn I told her nope, thn I cant remember wat exactly happened, coz I was realie shag, but thn vividly I can remember she’s still like roamin ard my room…. Thn finalli woke up at 5pm, prepared my stuff, and waited for xiang to cum pick mi up for the Joachim Steamboat at Suntec with esther and jere… The dinenr was like not bad.. actualie I kinda realie realie like the soup, thou the spread was like so-so onli.. but thn still not tat bad lah… after tat we walked over to the esplanade… thn happened to haf a life band performing at the outdoor ermmm.. (wat u call tat place I got no idea..) it’s a local band by the name serenade (I tink tats hw its spelled).. but aniwae, their music was like OOohh… Its actualie nice leh.. hehe~* their bassist was a a ger, and the drummer was like sooo damn stylo.. hehe~* StunnEd..

So went home, and was like still tired, and I knock out like a log again.. Sundae I wakie REAL earlie.. b4 the sunrise.. hehe~* and I woke xiang up… but thn I aso not tat bad lah.. I wakie b4 the sunrise, but thn I woke him up ard 8plus.. thn we slack till like ermm.. 3plus 4pm, before heading dwn to bugis… actualie wanted to go sim lim to see the mp3 player de.. but thn reach ther liao I abit the no mood.. so dropped the idea… so we meet up with esther and jere, ate my xu liu shan again, thn we headed home…

Haizz.. so this is more or less my entire wkend… I was like quite happie, coz its like damn filled up with activites… and with xiang by my side like tat… hehe~* and u mite haf noticed, I changed the whole blog tingy again.. mao saes its nice.. wat do u tink???

Dear Blog,

I am in the office now.. Ermm.. TOdae is a Thursdae.. but thn tml is a public holidae.. so ermm.. yar.. will haf an ultra long wkend.. but thn aso not much of a use, the entire wkend will pass with a twinkle of the eyes..

Aniwae, had the poly gers dinner last nite.. ermm.. mao and lao da came dwn and join us too.. esther and jere didnt make it.. thn it was actualie veri enjoyable. Till the veri end.. we were ther till like 11plus.. coz lao da was ther lah, so all sitted at cafe cartel(wher we had our dinner) and tok cock.. tokin bout the past, gossiping bout certain pple.. and ermm.. overall its realie a frewns nite out. and i had a good time..

Okie, so at the veri end of the nite, thn xiang quarrel with mi. Too tired to go recall the whole encounter again.. but thn till now i still haf not contacted him. he sms mi to getb ack to him once ready to tok bout it.. well, i am still angry.

All the bosses are out to Tokyo for the director's meeting.. so its like the whole office no gorvenment like tat.. which is kinda nice.. we had an extra long lunchie yest, and i left home on the dot last evening.. even irene has got no wrk on hand tat ard 4plus, she's already seated ther readin magazine..

Half the dae is nearly gone, lunchie is goin to be here again soon.. hope tat the afternoone will fly just like yest.. aniwae, the whole week practicalli i didnt do much wrk.. hehe~* but thn its okie.. coz not much wrk is cumin in.. so aso not my fault.. cant possibly i purposely realie go dig wrk out to do rite...

Haizz.. why i alwaes quarrel so much with xiang.. but thn normally, thou we quarrel but thn i knw its i who created all the nonsense.. but thn this time round, i realie beg to differ liao.. sian sian.. realie sian.

recentli veri free in the office, thn went to join the hi-5 stuff.. actualie quite a number of my frewns already in it wor.. this wkend whn i free i will go in add the pics.. feel like buyin a new dress for new year.. bought a lite purple top in mango the other dae.. tinkin if realie cant get aniting for this new year, i will wear tat top with jeans.. at least it sumting.. but thn feel like buyin a tube dress... haizz.. too much to buy, but too little money to go ard... sianzz..

recently, on top of my wan-to-buy list is a i-pod mini.. can ani kind souls actualie buy it for mi?? or sponser mi abit for it?? i am tinkin of cashing the singapore shares, which is a solid 400bucks and buy the i-pod mini with it.. but thn ermm.. like kinda wasted.. coz i-pod mini is definately not an nessicity.. So its like... haizz.. whn i am broke and all, thn i will realie look at the i-pod and cry ah...

kae lah, end here first... damn sianz..

Dear blog,

Reached home not long ago.. Feeling tired. Have to go back work tomolo.. Haizz.. tats the prob with alternate sats.. ther will be this sat wher i will feel so sianz... but thn wat to do.. went to catch the down town east open air show jsut now.. it was showin mean gers, happened to saw the email tat the ntuc club sent mi, so xiang and i went dwn to see the show after wrk..

The show's nice, ermm.. atmostphere aso not bad.. and all we had to pay was the 3buck parking fees.. not a bad deal loh.. cinema definately cant find this price.. hehe.. and after tat i drove back.. thou didnt touch the steering wheel for quite sum time, but thn realized tat my drivin still not bad leh.. the whole juorney home frm pasir ris was good, and i even went up the multi storey carpark myself, and i manage to park the car.. not bad rite.. hehe~*

tml is jere's bdae party.. tinkin if i will haf the chance to drive ther.. ermm.. actualie its onli january, but thn i already tinkin bout my bdae liao.. tis year, i aso wan celebrate.. thou its not 21st this year liao.. and i tink it will not be an as big event like last year, but thn i tinkin i still wan a chalet of sum sort.. hehe.. liek the feelin tat everione will cum up to mi and gif mi their best wishes lah.. still half a year more to go.. we shall see how lah..

works okie, not so busy liao.. at times i still fear tat i will haf nth to do.. but thn so far still so good.. seems like ther will alwaes be sum stuff popin up for mi to do.. and i can still manage to leave the office b4 6pm..

kae.. goin to bed liao.. tml still got half a dae of wrk waitin for mi.. kinda guilty, coz i didnt go for my granpa's prayer retreat last week, and i am going to miss it again this week.. like kinda infillial hor.. but thn realie cant help it.. last sat i was at morris allen, and tml is the sat which i need to go back.. haizz.. and seems like grandpa left alot of money behind w/o ani will.. the cash and stuff still not so bad.. its his shares tat seems to be ermm.. ma fan.. coz ther's no will, and the governement is goin to take 30% of it.. and seems like tat will tally up to a couple of millions.. knw his rich, but thn never knw his tat rich..

take care pple.. i shall update again soon.. love u. esp to the pple tat i miss.. u knw who are u??

This will be my 2nd post todae.. so its still sundae, but th sky is already dark.. sun has set hrs ago.. feelin veri upset todae.. realie upset.. no news frm him the entire dae.. is this the end of us?? i realie got no idea.. i didnt tok to him last nite whn we were at orchard. all ques was unanswered.. i remained silent all the wae home in the car.. guess i was too tired, i fall aslp on the wae back.. whn i woke up, the car was already parked at my hse dwnstairs of my hse liao.. i duno reach hw long liao, but he didnt wake mi up..

after i woke up, i opened the door, turned and walk off to the lift.. he sent mi up, rite to my door step. but he didnt cum in.. onli said bye to my mum, who is in the livin rm, and he went off liao...

frm thn till now, he didnt contact mi. no sms, so not to even mention a fone call.. i spend the whole dae at home looking at my hp.. but starin at it doesnt help, it didnt ring at all.. seein the hands of the clock movin.. hours by hours passed, and i duno wat am i doin. forced myself to slp, so tat time passed faster, but thn whnever i opened my eyes, onli mins passed....

its 10plus now.. i am upset.. veri veri upset.. i feel like cryin. is this the end?? i realie got no idea.. if it is, i rather u tell mi. yest, he mentioned tat he realie duno hw to spend the rest of our lifes together.. coz its like i will alwaes flare at him at the slightest stuff.. i realie dun wan to go into this topic again and again.. but thn why do i flarE? its not out of the blue, ther will definately be a cause to it. did he actualie spend time go find out wats goin on?? or even whn he find out liao did he do aniting bout it?

maybe its realie my fault.. but thn why do i feel so pain todae... i feel like a zombie walkin ard the hse.. i hope he can appear in front of mi and hold mi in his arms again.. no appetite todae.. didnt eat aniting.. maybe its aso coz i didnt eat and tat make mi feel worst..

i duno lah.. i duno wats goin on.. upset. just plain upset.. hoW?

Todae sundae.. weather seems good.. sunny but not hot.. but thn with tis weather, i aso got nth to do.. aniwae, a couple daes back i cut my hair liao.. its bout 5inches, which is consider alot alot... but thn others seems to tink its still veri long.. well.. doesnt matter lah.. i nw is tinkin shld i go do rebonding again.. just the top part.. tat stylist said i shld rebond liao thn color it.. but thn my hair nw is like totalli colorless.. dun realie like it leh.. ermmm.. let mi tinktink first lah..

yest my last dae at morris allen.. well.. i told thm i couldnt cum frm nxt wk on, but thn they sun seemed to take it seriously like tat.. like i will still go back like tat.. but thn dun care thm lah... let thm settle it thmself.. first dae of class, as expected lah, realie busy.. but thn nemind, its another dae gone..

after class rainin, thn xiang came pick mi up.. he went back to office yest.. so he came pick mi up straight after wrk.. thn we went orchard.. ermm.. nth much loh.. just tat we quarrel again.. he ended up askin mi, did i alwaes quarrel so much with my exs.. ermm.. i didnt answer him.. but thn maybe i realie do.. so means tat its my prob, not his.. but thn ermm.. left it hangin ther.. duno wat will happen nxt. but thn ermm.. nemind loh.. i mean i am realie not happie.. dun sae go shopin, and ended up curning mi frm buyin mi everiting. if tats the case, thn dun brin mi go walk lah.. duno lah.. i aso dun like it whn our everidae ended up like tat.. its not tat i wan de aso.. maybe its realie my big prob.. but thn.. this is mi ah.

even if tats the end, i guess i am okie with it.. ermm.. am i??

Dear Blog,

I am in the office now.. time is 11.24am, still got loads of wrk not done, and todae is the last dae for closing.. so all the stuff gota be completed by todae. But thn I now totally no mood to do aniting leh.. its not only coz todae is Fridae. Its just tat I cant brin myself to do aniting now. Its just tat realie dun haf the xin qing..

All of a sudden, I realie duno wat am I doin like tat.. thou todae is fridae, but thn I dun feel happie at all.. the tot tat I hafta go dwn to morris allen tml realie sucks.. and my keys are still with huimin, and I haf to go dwn to cck tml to take it. Imagine I haf to go dwn frm change here all the wae dwn to cck.. so later I is practically takin the mrt frm 1 end of the island to the other end.. and after tat frm cck go home.. by tat time aso duno hw late liao.. and I haf to do tis all alone.. coz xiang is havin dinner with his parents todae.. realie sian. I tinkin can dun take keys anot, just hack it..

I realie duno wat is life all about now.. everidae go wrk, and after wrk go home.. even my wkends aso duno wat am I doin.. its like I got nth to do.. or maybe its not nth to do.. its nth tats realie significant, or aniting tat I realie realie wan to do… u knw wat I mean??

Life is like ermm.. not much of a meaning.. pple sae its like a roller coaster.. but thn so wat?? We are just goin round in circles dispite the ups and downs…

Am I realie happie now?? I duno.. everidae cum work, thn after wrk go home. Thn at times go out with xiang… its not tat out with xiang is no fun or wat.. but thn its like a routine, tings are just repeatin.. but thn wat change do I wan?? I got no idea.. do I wan the the change?? I aso got no idea.. how?? Is this how I am goin to spend the rest of my life??

Tink I might need a change of job soon. I dun like a desk bound job tat much.. haizz.. I duno lah.. how?? Tell mi wat shld I do?? Work coz everyone needs a job, its for a living.. but thn live till so not happie, thn wats the point leh.. suddenly miss the daes back in school.. shld haf treasure it more.. xiang told mi to go back to sch thn.. its doesn’t matter de.. but thn easier said thn done.. how much issit goin to cost if I were to go study now.. and if I was realie to go back to sch, its onli a form of escape.. a coupld of years later, I still need to cum out wrk.. isn’t it the same?? So life

12.04pm now liao.. I didn’t realie spend the last hr siting here typin.. I was actualie doin other stuff, thn occasionally back to type a couple of sentence.. goin for lunch soon..

The time is now 7.42pm.. I am still in the office.. at 6pm, I is on the verge of crying.. its like I am about to pack up and go liao.. or shld I sae I haf ALREADY PARKED.. thn sumone came along and asked mi to typed out a quotation. Damn idiot loh.. I am alwaes typin her quotes, while ALL others actualie did it on their own.. dun understand WHY do I have to do ti for her.. STUPID WOMAN.. aniwae, while doin the quote, more pple came in, and ask mi to do their Pos.. this is do is obliging, coz todae is the last dae, generally they are all nice pple, so I aso wan help thm. If aniting after todae, they will be dead meat, coz my bigbig boss is not goin to be happie as the accts cant close todae..

Update more whn I am home ba.. more upset bout the stupid morris allen…

Happie new year pple.. last year was a dreadful year, with tat killer tsunami cumin into the pic to end the year.. well, its realie disaterous, killing so many pple. hope tat tis cumin year will be a beta one...

didnt realie haf ani entry last mth, too many tings happenin.. realie no time for it, so maybe i could do a fast recap...

kingsmen was actualie beta thn i tot.. ther was tis d&D on the 22nd dec, which i realie realie enjoyed myself.. ther's this inter-dept performance, and my dept won the first. the prize is 1200 cash.. happie to get the cash, but thn aso happie durin the practice session, coz it actualie let mi got to knw the pple ther beta.. and durin the lucky draw, i got the 116th price, winin a total of 50bucks robinsons vouchers and 50bucks cash.. hehe~*

wrks busy recently, due to the year end closing.. but thn i am still copin well.. busy but happie.. vendors cumin in everidae, callin mi up everidae to chase for the POs.. but thn u knw wat, i still felt pretty hapie.. feels like everione's at my mercy, coz they are waiting for mi to issue out the Pos, and they cant realie rush mi, or be rude to mi.. nasty hor mi.. but thn ermmm.. try be a purchaser nxt time round, and u will understand my feelin..

aniwae, sumting bad happen todae.. OO hurt his eye again.. 3rd time round.. the vet stitched up his eye again.. haizz.. the vet said we got to separate lizzie and OO.. coz everitime the eye popped out, its a realie painful experience for OO.. thn they put him under anesthia. sayin he will be slpin the enture nite.. but thn ermm.. maybe tis is his third time, it didnt realie wrk on him.. whn i was rushed home frm wrk, his actualie bouncing ard, like nth the matter.. but aniwae, hope he can get well soon, it realie hurt m heart to see my little one like tat..

10plus now, ans xiang is already slpin on my bed.. not exactly on my bed, but he got my pillows and blankie.. EVERITING... well, but thn i cant disturb him, coz his not feelin well tonite.. tats why his stayin over.. duno if his goin wrk tml anot..

ermm.. so long didnt write, like got so much to sae.. aniwae, hope everione had a fantastic xmas and a happie new year.. xmas i got a pair of diamond earings frm xiang.. and i've got him a fossil watch.. he was just tellin mi his sis said the watch is nice, so means i got good taste..

haizz.. shall not continue.. goin to off my comp, and go bed.. see if i can squeeze in beside him anot, didnt haf a good nite slp last nite as OO puke in my room last nite, i woke up at 4am to clear the room and all.. nitez pple.. and its my whale whale bdae tml.. hope i can remember to sms him a happie bdae. but thn just in case i forget, i shall offer up to him my best wishes here..

Happie Birthdae WhaleWhale!!!