Dear Blog, its mi again.. its 5.51m on my pc clock.. why am i still in the office..

a) Thunder Storm here... Lightning and thunder and large amount of rain...
b) Waiting for Huiyu.. Tink we need to tok about my resignation tml.. the whole dae she's hinting mi to tink bout my decision, and finally ard 5pm, she ask mi can i dun resign..

Okie.. so onli 2 point.. but the power to this 2 points is soooo great.. to keep mi in the office whn i got nth to do, and aso whn i am to meet xiang in orchard.. haizz.. i wan GGggooo.... what am i doin here.. haizz.. Bad life ah..

Todae email andrea abit.. Thn found out tat she tml last dae.. yar.. she resigned.. and nw she wan take a break frm wrk.. might wan go aussie study, or SIM for a part time coz.. yar.. aniwae.. haizz.. thn i sms qian, thn she sae she wan go bac to sch.. damn funni de.. wrking de cant wait to get out of the wrk and back to sch.. schooling de cant wait to get out of sch and go back to wrk.. haizz..

and now huiyu tell mi she tml dun wan cum wrk.. so she can no need see mi tender.. fuck loh. i waited for her till nw and tis is the nonsense i got frm her. fed up loh. fuck it lah.. leavin office now liao.

Dear Blog,

Its fang gong time again.. Todae actualie is a relatively pleasant dae till now.. ermm.. or maybe about 15min ago.. realie dampen my mood.. I already hated tat idiot for taking awae my V180 awae.. and nw, it seems like its more thn V180.. Seems like even the A1000 his gettin involved too.. and God knws wat else his goin to take awae frm mi.. Fuck man.. Realie fed-up.. Wrk starts to build up todae.. Mostly the Telian stuff.. my C340 and V240.. Heng the Koreans onli realie look for mi.. so i was still tinking, maybe wrk is still not tat bad mah.. coz its like i am doin wat I like.. so i startin to haf 2nd tots about the fridae resignation stuff.. But now, seems like I did not make a wrong choice..

told huiyu about it this ting just now.. her reply was aso not wat i wan hear.. after being here for so long, i'm realie disappointed at her.. i mean all along i tot onli she knws hw i realie feel, wat i realie wan.. but thn guess i'm wrong aso.. tis time round, she's not leavin.. coz her sis just resigned.. I knw tis sounds practical.. but thn wat i see, is tat she cant bear it here too.. cant bear to start all over again.. so yar.. i'm angry.. veryvery angry.. and i haf to go dinner wif her tonite.. thou xiang's havin off, but thn coz i dated her first.. i mean its still effort on my part.. and tis is all i go..

Fuck. tat fucker got my Razor file tat i just set up TODAE.

Dear blog,

I am in the office now. Its about 1/2hr to fang gong. Todae is quite a horrible dae. Coz I didnt have much to do. Normally at wrk, pple are hopin for less wrk, but mi on the other hand, is hopin for more. Funnie rite.. yar.. Finally, its the end of the dae.. I realie waited so damn long for this moment. Hw I wish I can dun cum wrk tml.. but thn its quite impossible.. For the entire mth of April, I have not had a complete wrk week.. Its either MC, or leave an urgent leave.. Kind of regret taking so much leave and MC since the begining.. How??

This morn I had a short talk with my mum. Told her bout my intension of resignation. Actualie i onlie intend to inform her of my resignation, and not to ask for her opinion.. I knw i am stubborn.. coz i realie dun wan stay here ani longer. Thus i knw if I start askin, thn if she start to contradict my decision, i will start to shake frm my own decision. But surprisingly, she did not qus my decision, and neither did she show any disapproval. In fact she is still pretty supportive. So yar.. with my mum liek tis, it gives mi more confidence to carry on with my decision.

Actualie i'm reallie glad my mum gif mi this response. Coz i guess i am still pretty much of a kid. I will still want parent approval. I dun wan to do tings tat they tink is wrong. I mean i still wan to be their good girl.. So i'm glad tat i went to tok to her about it. hehe~*

So nw, its just up to my enduring skills.. see how am I goin to survive till then.. the more I tink, the more heartpain I got. Coz tat fucker took my V180 Project awae.. I realie put alot of time n effort in it. And he just took it awae like tis. I realie realie hate him!! I knw this is wrk. But thn i still cant take it. maybe i'm childish.. but thn haizz.. duno lah..

Xiang is reallie supportive too.. I knw these few daes i start to PMS liao.. so my tolerance level is veri low.. we will kick up a quarrel damn easily.. But thn he aso damn encouragin about my resignation. He onli earnin a miserable 600plus frm his NSF.. but thn he sae we can survive on this de.. hehe~* no shoppin, no restaurant.. thn can survive liao.. actualie like tat tink aso quite sweet.. thn he just nw sms mi tell mi recently alot of pple driving all first time pass.. so he ask mi to jia you.. hehe~* but thn if fail aso nemind.. he will be my chauffer... hehe~*

Getin damn fat recentli.. damn jia lat.. todae later goin gym with xiang.. go wrk out abit.. tis will be 2nd time i go gym leh.. so scary.. the last time i go i still in sec sch, go ther playplay onli leh.. i scare later alot of pple.. thn i scare later i do wrongly thn pai sey.. hehe~* but thn nemind lah.. everiting aso got first time de mah rite..

Goin fang gong liao.. thn nw gt pple ask mi do wrk, so haf to OT.. damn stupid de.. i whole dae nth to do, thn nw fang gong liao thn ask mi open wavier.. damn stupid..

At the office now.. all of a sudden tink the blog i posted the dae b4 sounds to er xin.. hehe.. tink i was thn in a damn sweet mood.. so everyting i wrote all so tian.. thn tian till nw read liao aso feel er xin myself.. hehe.. not sae now no tian liao.. but thn yar.. hehe..
aniwae, nw in the office, dyin to leave.. but thn waitin for my ai ren to finish her wrk first.. everytime aso she wait for mi.. nw i wait for her aso correct lah.. well.. sian.. the desire to resigned is all over mi again.. in fact tis mth rite.. i took quite alot of leave n mc.. so now even more reluctant to cum back office.. yar.. so i am tinkin of tenderin up the resignation end of mth.. yar.. i knw pple are so sick of hearin mi wantin to quit, but thn in the end still here.. but thn frankly speakin lah.. noone understand wat i'm goin try here.. at times, i tink even xiang duno.. on mon i told him about mi feel like tenderin end of the mth.. the respond frm him dun realie sound supportive.. aso cannot sae not supportive lah.. he is all hands and legs up for mi to leave.. but thn he aso duno why am i still hangin on after so long.. actualie i aso duno why.. its a indescrible feeling.. guess onli my airen knws.. so mi and her got this special bonding coz of tis.. yar..
aniwae.. yar.. tats wat i feel like doin loh.. haizz..
aniwae.. my granny was in hospital for bout 2 weeks ard the begining of the mth.. she was out frm the hospi last week.. actualie i am soo upset bout it.. coz thers tis bacteria in her blood.. i duno if ther's an entry for this, but thn i'm realie upset.. among all my grandparents, she is the least i wan to lose.. coz i am the closest to her.. yar.. so i kept goin to visit her.. thanks thers xiang ard.. i dun mean to sae his my chauffer, but thn i realie appreciate it as he realie drives mi ard.. thanks kae dear.. but thn thanks god she's feelin beta liao loh..
and yar... sumting provoke mi last nite.. i was home earli last nite.. thn i went online mah.. thn i read yk's tat ex the blog.. thn as i read on, she still likes him loh.. thn the wae she sae till like damn er xin aso.. haizz.. realie dun like this girl.. like so damn fake.. i mean why do she haf to be like so hoo-haa over yk leh.. worth it meh?? i realie dun understand.. but thn the worst ting is a statement she said tat realie realie irritates mi.. i mean she mention mi in tat particular blog.. and i mean its sumting pretty personal.. and she actualie published it out like this.. i'm realie angry.. but thn nemind.. guess wrkin life realie brush mi up.. coz i is like furious at it.. but thn i hold my cool and didnt do aniting about it.. fed-up leh..

At the office now.. all of a sudden tink the blog i posted the dae b4 sounds to er xin.. hehe.. tink i was thn in a damn sweet mood.. so everyting i wrote all so tian.. thn tian till nw read liao aso feel er xin myself.. hehe.. not sae now no tian liao.. but thn yar.. hehe..
aniwae, nw in the office, dyin to leave.. but thn waitin for my ai ren to finish her wrk first.. everytime aso she wait for mi.. nw i wait for her aso correct lah.. well.. sian.. the desire to resigned is all over mi again.. in fact tis mth rite.. i took quite alot of leave n mc.. so now even more reluctant to cum back office.. yar.. so i am tinkin of tenderin up the resignation end of mth.. yar.. i knw pple are so sick of hearin mi wantin to quit, but thn in the end still here.. but thn frankly speakin lah.. noone understand wat i'm goin try here.. at times, i tink even xiang duno.. on mon i told him about mi feel like tenderin end of the mth.. the respond frm him dun realie sound supportive.. aso cannot sae not supportive lah.. he is all hands and legs up for mi to leave.. but thn he aso duno why am i still hangin on after so long.. actualie i aso duno why.. its a indescrible feeling.. guess onli my airen knws.. so mi and her got this special bonding coz of tis.. yar..
aniwae.. yar.. tats wat i feel like doin loh.. haizz..
aniwae.. my granny was in hospital for bout 2 weeks ard the begining of the mth.. she was out frm the hospi last week.. actualie i am soo upset bout it.. coz thers tis bacteria in her blood.. i duno if ther's an entry for this, but thn i'm realie upset.. among all my grandparents, she is the least i wan to lose.. coz i am the closest to her.. yar.. so i kept goin to visit her.. thanks thers xiang ard.. i dun mean to sae his my chauffer, but thn i realie appreciate it as he realie drives mi ard.. thanks kae dear.. but thn thanks god she's feelin beta liao loh..
and yar... sumting provoke mi last nite.. i was home earli last nite.. thn i went online mah.. thn i read yk's tat ex the blog.. thn as i read on, she still likes him loh.. thn the wae she sae till like damn er xin aso.. haizz.. realie dun like this girl.. like so damn fake.. i mean why do she haf to be like so hoo-haa over yk leh.. worth it meh?? i realie dun understand.. but thn the worst ting is a statement she said tat realie realie irritates mi.. i mean she mention mi in tat particular blog.. and i mean its sumting pretty personal.. and she actualie published it out like this.. i'm realie angry.. but thn nemind.. guess wrkin life realie brush mi up.. coz i is like furious at it.. but thn i hold my cool and didnt do aniting about it.. fed-up leh..

Todae 20th April.. i had a fantastic weekend leh.. i took leave on sat and mondae.. coz xiang's bdae. thn i got the chalet for him.. realie realie had fun. actualie it meant to be a surprise for him.. but thn he actualie found out a mth ago.. thn actualie abit sian loh.. all my plans like gone dwn the drain.. he sat early in the morn cum to my hse liao.. i haven even collect the cake.. actualie he knw bout the chalet and all liao.. he is pusposely cum dwn pick mi up de.. but thn haizz.. make mi excited for soo long.. but thn actualie seems like eveyone knows bout the chalet, know xiang knows bout the chalet, except mi.. so seems like i am the one kept in the dark, i am the stupid one.. hehe..
but thn yar.. my frewns came, his frewns came on sat nite for the bbq.. i realie had fun loh.. see all his frewns.. hehe.. thn his frewns like all praise for mi liek tat.. hehe.. actualie deep dwn i realie realei hapie.. thn after tat played dai dee with huili mich and clement.. lost abit, but thn nemind lah.. i realie realie had fun leh.. yar..
so the entire weekend, onli got mi and him.. sundae earli in the mornin we stroll to inter eat mac breakfast.. hehe.. so sweet like tat.. imagine last person i saw whn i go slp is him, thn ther's sumone to hughug u to slp.. thn the nxt morn wake up see him still slpin.. wakin him up.. i mean its like so sweet leh.. hehe.. thn yar.. slack whole dae, thn mondae liao.. thn check out.. thn go his hsey.. yar.. stay quite awhile at his place.. wait for his mum to get ready thn sent her to his aunt place.. yar.. tat dae his mum liek not bad to mi.. hept tokin to mi.. hehe.. actualei feel hapie aso.. thn after tat we still go catch a show.. yar.. like quite long never see show liao..
ermm.. realie had a great wkend.. i wonder whn can we haf a break like this again.. real relax, realie comfy.. with him with mi.. hehe.. deardear.. love u leh..

ermm.. todae is good fridae.. i posted up the previous msg sumtime back.. but thn wat happen eventualie is he called mi and make tings up with mi.. yar.. thn as i didnt update tat part in.. so wat happen is frewns haf been smsin and callin mi up and askin if i'm alrite.. but realie thanks!! thanks to dennis, and thanks to my Sista~* actualie till now i didnt knw pple still read tis.. but thn nw i knw liao.. thanks kae.. but thn no worries.. i'm fine with him now liao.. realie realie realie..
last wed i went zouk.. had a hell of a time.. hehe~* thurs went to see doc get mc.. coz got a slight hang over lah.. thn i aso sick.. now got flu lah, sore throat and everyting aso cum liao.. so yest didnt went wrk.. but thn evening time i still can go meet my colleauges go ktv.. at cck.. which is damn freakin far for mi.. but thn wat to do.. they all live either wooldlands or cck.. but thn nemind lah.. i actualie had fun.. thn xiang last nite sent mum to airport, thn he frm air port cum all the wae dwn to cck to pick mi up.. hehe~* thn we went back hougang eat the midnite curry rice.. thn go ponggul park slack abit.. so by the time i home, already bout 4pm liao.. actualie tis wk, i realie feel happy.. its like thers alot of activities line up.. todae qian ther jio clubbin, thn huili ther jio mahjong.. it realie seems like the good old daes loh..
and so fast.. one week frm now is the his bdae liao.. still didnt buy pressent.. duno wat to get for him leh.. ermmmm....

I tink its the end of mi n him..
i still feel very stone.. in fact whn nw i start to express it out now, i actualie feel like crying. and i cant help but blame my frewns for it. all thanks to you girls. maybe its aso my fault, but thn i realie cant help but blame my frewns. realie thanks so much girls. i realie hate the girls now. but thn wat can i do. noting. he just sms mi. at 9.28am. and now is 10.17am. and i didnt reply. wat can i sae? nth. to him its aso my fault. i'm stubborn. thn so be it. fine. i realie like him alot. realie.. fucked it loh. if taats the wae it turns out, thn nth i aso lah. but thn thanks girls. i realie hate andrea for it. i hate all of u who added all the salt and peper into it.

todae didnt go wrk.. went for an interview at kallang.. but thn freak it loh.. tat palce is far, and the place ulu.. so i tink i beta stick to my present job.. actualie i feelin damn excited todae.. coz last nite comfirm on the wat liao.. so now i starting to make plans.. i dun wan to elaborate too much on it.. in case his readin it.. hehe.. at times very hard to sae de.. thou he sae he will not read, but thn noone can be too sure mah hor..
aniwae, i'm feeling damn excited about it.. i realie hope everiting will wrk out loh.. well.. recently i am still feelin damn stress up at wrk.. everydae OT and alot of tings keep happening.. and i am handling alot of projects.. actualei feeling damn happie about it.. okie.. end here liao.. tokin to huili on the phone now.. hehe~*

Guess wat.. its the 12th march todae.. its been like 1 mth since i last update.. i at his placey now.. yar.. he came pick mi up after wrk.. recently feelin damn stress at wrk.. my workload gettin heavier n heavier.. but thn the funny ting is i actualie feel hapie.. its like the job satifactory.. ermmm.. funny rite.. i sort of like the responsibility that i hold.. its like ermm.. yar.. feel tat there will definately be sumone in the office who cant do without mi.. hehe..
so yar.. actualie nth muchie happen nowadaes loh.. just tat i busy at wrk loh.. thn once a week will go dinner with the poly girls.. this custom hasss been goin on for ages liao.. hehe.. feel quite proud tat almost a year after we left sch, but thn we are still just as close.. todae supposed to haf dinner with thm.. but thn in the end i didnt go.. coz ermm... nemind nemind.. tml 13th leh.. benben bdae.. happie bdae to him leh~* 14th year old liao leh.. big boi liao.. hehe.. tml evening got a buffet dinner got him.. thn junling 14th bdae... her 21st bdae.. celebratin tml aso.. at the arandaa country club.. thn its aso dinner.. duno how to spilt myself up.. haizzz.. both i aso feel like goin leh.. nemind lah.. tml thn will know liao.. the boat reach the bridge thn the bridge will be straight de.. hehe.. got pple sae i tokkin rubbish leh.. so smart thn ask him to type lah..

i love my dear dear :D and my dear dear loves me

tats frm him.. nt frm mi.. hehe.. well.. wher was i just nw.. ermm.. damn tired nw.. recently feels tat wrk simply drain off all my energy.. reallie feel damn stressed up.. its like ther are times wher i simply breaks dwn in the office.. actualie twice.. i broke dwn twice last weeks.. and its the whole office knew i cried.. coz its realie bad.. nemind nemind.. tml sherry's last dae.. tink i am goin to miss her muchie.. actualie as times goes by, i realie gettin close to thm.. so i realie she bu de leh..
haizz.. and recently.. coz i feelin damn stress up at wrk.. it affected my mood on the overall.. i actualie flare up more easily.. so he easily became my easy target.. actualie he aso quite suay lah.. gettin all the nonsense frm mi whn he obviously dun deserve it.. but thn at times its him who sparkle it off de loh.. so cant blame mi.. well.. thou i still feel damn happie with him.. but thn we still haf our ups and dwns.. tings like nt alwaes tat smooth de loh.. but thn no regrets lah.. tings eventualy can tok out de loh.. ermm.. and my drvin date cumin liao.. how how how ??? i tink i still damn lousy leh.. haizz.. and its all coz of this stupid drivin thn i cna resign.. okie. i do like the job.. but thn i realie cant take the pressure.. its mi whose weak and wan to give up.. but thn i haf to keep goin coz haf to support all my drivin lesson.. like damn ke lian like tat..
haizz.. dun type liao.. todae actualie goin devils bar.. but in the end aso never go.. tired lah.. so ended up slackin at his hsey.. late liao.. goin back soon liao.. so take care pple.. free call mi.. i haf not forgotten u wan kae..

Todae is the 10th Feb, 1.18pm.. i in the office, juz came back frm lunchie.. went to eat macdonald with my ai ren huiyu.. yar.. so now eat liao i feel like slpin leh.. damn tired..
i'm real tired of wrking.. realie veryvery tired.. cant wait to get out of tis place leh.. todae like suddenli alot of pple remembered mi.. raymond called to remind mi of our date tis thursdae.. thn dennis aso sms mi.. to let mi know he passed his tp.. well.. glad for him loh.. haizz.. wonder i can anot.. i aso wan pass the first time round.. i dun haf much cash to spare.. well.. last sundae, i went for my first circuit.. i actualie feel i not tat bad leh.. i mean i prefer the circuit beta thn on the road loh.. ermm.. i realie hope by 18th may i will not cock tings up.. hehe..
and yar.. qian has already resigned.. her last dae will be i tink 3rd march.. thn huiyu aso has prepared her resignation letter.. she will tendered her resignation on the 13th.. fridae the 13th.. haizz.. so if nth goes wrong.. her last dae will be the end of the mth..haizz.. if by thn my ai ren leaves liao.. i aso duno how.. it'll realie be lonely for mi.. and thou we are realie realie close now lah.. but thn deep dwn we both knw once we leave sei woo rite.. we will never be the same again loh.. its like it will never be the same again.. all we haf is the memories..
but thn yar.. i am realie keen to tender my resignation on the end of the mth.. i duno whether i can survive with the cash on hand, i dun tink its alot aniwae.. maybe juz pass the 1k mark.. but thn hopefulli can last mi till i pass my stupid driving, and aso hope i can find a part time like huiyu.. but thn the part time she havin now is on the wkends de leh.. if i start wrkin on the wkend, thn i will not haf time for my deardear liao.. haizz.. but thn i realie hate the life i'm leadin now.. i realie hope tis will not last.. and its like i'm still young.. if i dun be decisive now, and i kept draggin, thn wait till i old liao thn wan chiong meh.. impossible de rite..
i've given tots on studyin.. i've not discuss it with mum.. maybe taking a diploma in earli childhood, or maybe a part-time degree in ntu/nus.. or maybe can go SIM.. or i can wait till he ORD liao, thn plan abit, thn go overseas study with him.. yar.. all now still tokin on paper.. actualie not even paper ah.. tokin in the air onli.. hehe..
haizz.. xiang at home now.. todae he actualie can booked out earli.. in fact damn earli.. like 10 in the morning.. tis wkend v dae leh.. but thn we like abit no plans yet.. ermm.. aso not sae no plans lah.. i is tinkin on tat dae.. each person get 10bucks thn go buy a gift for each other.. thn haf to tink of a theme so noones play cheat.. ermm.. i still tinkin of mine leh.. hehe.. actualie i find it pretty silly.. but thn aso quite sweet loh.. thn at nite tinking of go camping.. but thn sat leh.. i comfirm is veryvery tired de.. still go campin comfirm die till very nan kan de.. haizz.. by thn see how ba.. hehe.. now time is 2.16pm.. so i took bout an hour to write tis..
nemind nemind.. take care pple~*~*

Juz reach home.. Feeling quite pissed actualie.. after wrk, i left the office at 5.35 like tat.. coz i meetin him,. so i make the effort to leave the office earli.. thn meet him at hougang, thn frm hougang went to seng kang.. actualie i wan go seng kang is coz i wanted to go see the comic.. recently got these series i like alot.. its call mong huan you xi.. like it alot.. thn tamp tat comic connection selling at 50%.. coz tat comic tat brand closed dwn liao.. so actualie its like quite hard to find the complete set, so now sellin cheap.. but thn seng kang ther no half price leh.. so disappointed.. nemind lah.. find one dae go back tamp ther buy.. hope noone buy..
thn go walk ard.. thn i saw tis pair of shoes i like alotalotalot.. its a pair of flats. it actualie look nice loh.. and its like ermm.. duno lah.. but thn he dun let mi buy. he sae recently i bought alot of shoes liao.. but thn wher got.. the last pair i bought is at the genting ther.. and the 2nd time i wear it, he actualie step on the back of the shoe, thn the side like tore loh.. its still can wear lah.. but thn haizz.. duno how to sae lah.. abit spoil spoil liao.. so i attitude him all the wae home.. didnt even sae bye, no hug no nth..
nxt time go shopin realie cant go with him.. last time shopin was one of my fav past time with yk.. can never recall whn did yk ever stopped mi frm buyin stuff.. he onli will acc mi go see, thn let mi buy.. duno loh.. angry ah.. nxt time dun wan go shopin with xiang liao.. shopin with bf n frewns is realie a diff feeling de loh.. coz ermm.. well.. i duno how to sae lah.. haizz..

Fed liao.. ermmm.. well.. todae went in jb.. benben bought PS2.. hehe..actualie aso not bad lah.. tink i will aso play.. thn can spend more time at home.. aniwae, tis weekend ermm.. still not bad lah.. but thn i now is yearning to go shopin de.. coz pay juz came out.. yar..
miss my xiang leh.. didnt see him todae.. in fact last nite i aso attitude him.. coz of a tissue box.. so on sat, went to jere hse.. actualie i didnt realie enjoy myself.. so we left earli.. i tink its pretty bad on my side.. coz its obvious tat i'm not too happie, thn i sort of attitude thn i left loh.. actualie wan see show with him.. but thn tired lah.. scare will fall aslp in the cinema, so we went to chagni beach loh.. thn we sit on the bench, thn i lie on his lap, thn i lie lie thn i fall aslp.. i aso duno i slp how long, thn till i finally wake up thn he sent mi to my granny hse liao..
sat nite stay my granny hsey coz sundae they goin to jurong lah.. to my xiao yi po hse loh.. so might as well stay ther if not i sure cannot get up thn lazy to go over liao.. yar.. so i went ther, by late noon thn go back pasir ris.. thn i reach pasir ris first ting i fall aslp. real tired lah.. thn by the time i wakie, thn i dinner thn i go tamp meet him liao loh.. thn we see a show.. thn after tat went to sum reservior, thn slack till 3am thn go back.. thn went to serangoon ther eat prata, thn by the time i reac hhm aso ard 4am liao.. after the prata, got tis stupid tissue boz, which i reminded him to remember throw awae, thn he throw it at mi ask mi throw.. thn i angry.. thn i attitude him all the wae back to my hse.. i didnt tok to him, didnt look at him.. even whn i reach home, i knw he dwnstairs.. thn i didnt even pull over the curtain to wave at him.. actualie i took a peep loh.. i knw he still purposely walk back so he could see my window.. but thn i is bu shuang loh.. yar.. thn tis morn rushing to go jb mah.. so i onli manage to send him an sms tell him i wakie liao.. tats all..
so actalie now i kinda miss my deardear leh.. he now with heagen at kbox singing ktv leh.. yar.. like tat loh.. actualie yae.. miss him loh.. but thn ...
yest bought tis comic.. in fact is tat dae at his hsey he show mi tis anime, thn i quite like it leh.. so been hunting for tis comic.. but thn is turned out tat the taiwan publisher,'daren' actualei closed dwn liao.. thn tis series of comic rite, in total got 18 books.. thn the first 2 books cannot find leh.. so i bought 3-6.. thn i read finish liao.. nice leh.. so i wan to cont buy.. tamo ther selling half price leh.. i tink they tryin to clear stocks loh.. but thn they onli got till 17.. no 18 which is the last book.. haizz.. hope i can find the whole set!!
kae.. loggin off liao.. see if tat idoit got sms mi or aniting.. or he realie still playin his head off..

Hiyee..
I'm now in the office.. wellwell.. todae is the first dae i'm back at wrk after my new year holis.. its been a long break.. reallie reluctant to cum back wrk.. tis mondae, i actualie fall sick.. dwn with a bad flu, bad throat, and a slight fever.. thou now already more or less recover liao.. but thn i'm still with a blocked nose, and a real bad cough.. wellwell.. new year loh.. eat too much, play too much and slp too little liao.. ermm.. overall tis new year i realie had fun.. been to quite number of pple hsey.. and watched quite alot of movie and aso to the ktv.. i realie enjoyed myself loh.. tis sat goin to jere place.. hehe.. realie lookin forward.. his mum made onoe of the best chicken wing in the world.. well.. bu yong wo shuo u aso shld knw how much fats i haf added on mi liao.. been eatin n eatin.. at xw hse aso eat.. emi hse eat tat jap steamboat.. thn clement hse got the tom yam soup.. the carb meat i is eat n eat.. and aso not forgetin the pine apple tarts.. hehe.. esther hse aso eat.. her mum's cooking aso fabulous wan..
well.. so yar.. now back to the office.. overall aso not say very busy lah.. i aso not exactly rushin.. juz takin my own time loh.. now outside rain bigbig.. here aso coldcold.. yar..
xiang off till nxt tuesdae.. so nice.. i aso dun haf.. like not fair like tat.. but thn he tml sae he haf to go back camp got duty.. tml i got dinner with the sec school girls.. shuana and farhani leavin sg to aust for studies.. so it will be a farewell tingy for thm ba.. actualie thou we dun meet up often, but thn i knw i will realie miss thm.. esp shuana.. esp during our bdae.. haizz.. all grow up liao, all goin diff path.. heng its not andrea of qian.. if not i realie duno how to take it.. yar.. so i guess it back to wrk liao.. take care pple.. Happie new year ah!!

Todae Chinese New Year!!

Happie chinese new year pple.. may this be a properous year for all!! And may all wishes cum true.. Alot have happened since i last update.. like i came back frm my genting trip.. i realie had fun ther loh, with him.. hehe~* ermm.. dun wan to realie go into detals lah, but thn realie had fun.. realie enjoy myself.. tink we'll planned for our nxt trip pretty soon liao.. thn nw he at my hse, with jere, xiang n jonas.. playin mahjong.. and i lost quite alot.. but thn mood still pretty good.. hehe.. well.. tink i'll go back to him ther liao.. coz he dun realie knw hw to play.. but thn ermm.. yar.. no doubt i'm still real happie recently..

Wednesdae.. actualie todae my mood still not bad de.. but thn i was like surfin ard juz now, thn i sae tat girls journal.. actualie wat's her chinese name ah.. actualie i cant realie remember liao.. but thn its yk tat girl tat name lah.. audrey tat best frewn.. wat the fucking hell lah.. frm the journal, tat girl was sayin tat audrey was complainin to her for like duno how many hrs, about how pple like mi, desmond zk and duno who is unfair to yk.. fucking hell lah.. i dun even know tis audrey.. how can judge mi liek tat.. i hate it whn stuff liek tis happen. i realie hate it.. i dun like it whn pple judge mi like tis..

nemind. dun let tis fucker spoil my mood.. i 2daes never see xiang liao.. thn todae make the effort to meet him.. ermm.. quite miss him leh.. lokoing forward to my trip with him.. tats why i was actualie feelin quite hapie, till i see wat tat bitch gota sae.. am i being too vulgar?? i realise ever since i start wrkin, i am like tat.. i tend to flare up easily.. tink i too stress liao..

wrk was fine todae.. my dae passes pretty smoothly.. tink tml will be a hectic dae.. coz got 2 part FOT.. nemind nemind.. busy aso good, thn time will pass faster.. pass faster thn my sat will cum faster.. 4 whole daes just mi n him.. hehe.. so exciting..

and yar.. huili.. she yar.. i aso duno wat to sae lah.. but thn ermm.. yar.. nemind lah.. dun wan to share it here.. but thn yar.. like tat loh..

i go do my stuff liao.. hapie new year kae pple.. duno whn will be the nxt time i will update tis.. but thn yar.. atualie xin feel very hapie nowadaes.. coz i realie feel very loved, very doted on.. its liek very xin fu loh.. and with all teh festives seasons goin on.. yar loh..

MONDAY~*
todae my mood damn good leh.. duno why leh.. hehe... wrk was fine.. thou got a lot of ting cock up.. and its realie cock up loh.. but thn i still manage to keep a very positive mindset todae.. duno why leh.. huili broke up with alex again.. haizz.. duno is the how many times liao.. and todae my hp low batt. thn ermm.. i tink she might be still waiting for mi to call her back leh.. but thn ermmm.. later see how lah.. i tokin on the fone now.. with him.. hehe.. well.. ermm.. nth much loh.. just wan sae todae i in a good mood onli loh.. kae loh.. tats all liao..

1pm.. juz came back from driving.. well.. the lesson starts at 10pm.. but thn i was kind of late.. couldnt wake up.. he still wakes mi up at 9am, but thn still too late.. but thn it doesnt matter..
he goin his poly classmate, this girl her son 1mth tingy.. thn well.. i'm not goin.. actualie feelin damn pissed.. its like yar.. i am being unreasonable.. after my drivin i realie dun feel like goin home.. its like all change n ready to go out liao.. realie dun feel like goin home mah.. thn fine loh.. i duno lah.. why cant he juz persuade mi abit more to follow him to cck to the baby tingy..
nemind. fine loh.. i in these unreasonanle mode lah. he actualie sae why not meet mi now whn i start to attitude. but thn freak it loh. make arrangements with frewns liao haf to go de loh. i dun wan be the bad girl in the senerio.. dun wan him to be damn gf-oriented.. but thn why cant he juz persude mi tat abit more to go with him..
nemind. suan le.. he actualie wan meet mi after tat.. but thn i no mood to go out liao.. i knw girls are hard to please.. but thn well.. duno lah. bad mood. AAArrgghh...

I am in the office now.. todae is thursdae.. so fast hor.. thursdae liao.. the last time i update my journal is sundae.. xiang sae if i were to update it once a week like tat, thn its like juz a summary of wat haf i done tis week.. no feelings no nth.. totaly lost the meaning liao.. actualie aso quite true loh.. so ermm.. yar.. so i shall see how loh..
well.. so i am in the office now.. thn todae lunchie i had macdonal.. like gettin fatter liao.. shld realie stop eatin all these fattening stuff.. but thn i haf just ate a rocher.. hehe.. die liao lah..
todae after wrk i goin dwn to china twn walkwalk.. last sat got the fire cracker.. but thn i didnt get a chance to go see.. went to the chalet with him.. heng the chalet turned out to be still not tat bad.. i still sort of enjoy myself.. its like gettin to knw his frewns.. so ermm.. at least i didnt regret tat much.. aniwae he promised to brin mi dwn to see the fire crackeron the new year eve.. sure very crowded de.. but thn nemind lah.. once in a lifetime experience leh.. never got to see fire crackers before.. hehe.. so excited..
tis weekend goin shopin with him.. actualei tis weekend i wan to haf alot of tings done.. like i wan buy the new year clothes, i wan go china town walkwalk again.. thn wan go book the genting trip, thn i wan do my hair if i got the time.. ermm.. seems like got alot of tings hor.. thn sundae still got driving..
ermm.. did i mention tat my drivin tp date is fixed on the 18th may.. actualie quite excited loh.. hope i dun haf to take it too many times.. but thn coz aso for tis drivin, i actualie planned to quit on the 1st Feb.. but thn it might get delayed coz i will need money to go for the lessons and all.. haizz.. money money money..
tml i goin to meet up with the sec school girls.. with shuana n farhani n mich.. last time b4 they left for aust.. haizz.. realie goin to miss the girls much.. tis year my bdae, no more soffie, no more shuana.. onli left mi in sg.. haizz.. so i guess tis is life as we all grow up.. everyone will realie go diff paths.. heng its shauna they all.. if one dae qian or andrea tell mi they are goin.. i tink i realie will break dwn.. thou there are times wher we dun meet up for a couple of mths and all.. but thn i simply cant accept the idea tat they are physically sooo far awae from mi..
nemind nemind.. he juz sms mi sae he already verballi booked the genting liao.. he goin apply for leave now, thn tml he say goin dwn book wor.. hehe.. quite efficient hor.. so if everyting goes fine.. nxt week we can set off to genting liao.. hehe.. so exciting.. tis is realie exciting.. atualie i haven tell mummy.. actualie i have to been tokkin to her for a couple of weeks liao.. aso duno she attitude mi wat ting.. but thn i aso cant be bother loh.. she dun wan tok to mi i aso dun wan be the first to break the ice.. haizz... see how ba..
now 3.54pm liao.. haizz.. realie hope time will pass faster.. kae lah.. take care pple~*~*
xin realie is hapie now..

Sundae sundaE~*

Todae is sundae again.. actualie much has happened again for the past one week.. and actualie i cant realie rememebr all in details to write it dwn.. but thn i'll try kaekae..

Todae i am due to go for my driving lesson.. at which i will knw my test date liao.. actualie i still tinkin how in the world can i resign whn i need cahs sooo badly.. haizz.. nemind nemind.. take a step at a time.. still wonderin shld i meet him up b4 i go drivin or after.. ermmm...

SATURDAE..

yest i had to go wrk.. after which i meet him.. thn we went to parkwae for lunchie.. thn walk ard abit.. actualie realie wanted to buy sum new year clothes.. but thn i coudnt find anyting i like.. haiz.. so we got sum papers, thn went to see movie at balastier.. saw the golden chicken 2.. actualie he found it a stupid show.. but thn i still kind of like it leh.. not bad loh.. thn after tat went dwn to his frewn's chalet at changi.. at a real real ulu ulu place.. thn we meet up his frewn, han and lian at the changi beach ther.. thn after tat went dwn to the chalet together loh.. thn the chalet aso damn happpenin like tat.. so tat sam is a cheerleader in tp.. thn she got sum deejay frewns to cum spin sum music and stuff like tat.. thn ermm.. but thn in the end we four stayed in a room, and eat.. hehe.. seems like the pple ther dun realie knw each other de.. but thn frm tis outing, i got to knw han n lian beta.. thn actualie they are not as bad as tat prata trip.. ermm.. they are acutalie nice pple lah.. so overall i had quite a nice saturdae~*

FRIDAE

fridae.. ermm.. went to wrk loh.. thn he came pick mi up frm wrk.. actualie i was kind of attitude tat dae.. coz he went bac camp in the morn, thn about 3pm thn was released, thn actualie he was kind of tired, thn he asked if he can dun cum dwn.. i said okie loh.. thn i start attitude liao.. but thn he still cum dwn eventualli.. thn we went to eat the laksa in yishun, thn went dwn to the longlong road ther slack.. ermm.. yar.. tats all..

THURSDAE

thurdae was a public holi.. new year DAE~* so fast ah..
didnt do much on thursdae lah.. meet him up for a late lunch like tat onli loh..

WEDNESDAE

nye.. ermm.. still not bad lah.. actualie abit lazy to update liao.. but thn nye i was off wrk earli.. so he came pick mi up go his hse.. thn after slack abit thn went to tamp for dinenr.. for fish n co.. he likes it.. thn after tat i bought 2 new skirts.. and i like it alot leh.. thn went dwn meet drea they all for ktv.. thn nth much liao lah.. but thn tat nite he abit pissed wit mi i tink.. coz whn we goin bac, i ask him to send qian and yuanhui home while i hopped onto a cab with karen they all.. coz on the wae mah.. i see him so tired, dun haf to the hear to make him drive round n round.. but thn ermmm yar.. he still not tat happie loh.. said he came to the ktv coz he tot could haf sum time with mi after the ktv.. but thn overall i still find it pretty sweet loh.. hehe..

TUESDAE..

actualie dun realie feel like goin out on tuesdae.. but thn raymond booked mi sicne like a couple of weeks bac.. and he said its a task he wans to complete b4 the year end.. so ermm.. yar.. i went dwn eventualie.. thn i called andrea to go aso.. so ermm.. he sae i auntie ah.. so sad sia.. we did abit of catchin up loh.. so ncie to be able to meet up old frewns and juz sit bac, relax and chat abit..

so overall, i had a great week.. haf been seein him almost everydae.. but thn ermm.. yar.. hehe.. like to see him aniwae..