Haizz.. tink girl's sixth sense very accurate wan.. juz nw huili called n say coz tml public holis, so tonite need pay cover.. thn she no money.. i told her i got.. thn she say she go ask the rest.. sure got pple draw out wan.. thn tonite no need go liao.. damn sian wan leh they like tat.. nemind lah.. tis wan later thn see how loh.. haizz.. raining dae.. weather so ncie.. can slp in.. and btw.. my fav song nw is Eeason chan de Shi Nian~* the melody nice.. the lyrics even nicer.. nw my winamp playin onli 2 songs~* the XiaoGang de huang hun and Eeason de shi nian~*
and juz nw i was seein SQ de online journal.. thn i saw my name..tis is wat she saes,
"and ya, xinyi once said she felt sorry for me..
somehow, i jus feel like telling her " no need."
no one owes me any apology, any responsbility"
i mention tis in an email.. till nw, i haf never seen tis girl.. but thn i said sorie to her coz i knw yk has treated her as a subsitude of mi.. and i reali hated yk for their relationship, and i tink i shld hate tis girl too.. but thn to a certain extend, she's innocent.. but thn she's a strong girl.. frankli speakin, i till nw still dun haf ani good feelings for her.. tat dae at ktv, sumone wans to sing Eeason de dan che. but thn i immediately eject tat song.. coz its her fav.. well.. sounds abit lame lah.. and very man bu jiang li.. but thn tis is mi loh.. take it or leave it~*

Todae is Wednesdae.. Felt abit uneasy tis morn whn i wake up.. duno hw to describe lah.. its juz like got a feelin todae will not go on smoothly.. later got to go take the contact lens.. and i duno wher's the place.. and my pattern ask mi like tat go alone.. thn after tat the zouk.. got a feeling surely got idiots draw out wan.. thn sian liao loh.. nemind lah.. wat will cum will cum. later see hw loh.
Tonite i goin to be home alone.. abit lonely feeling. last time yk will cum over n stay the nite wif mi wan.. but thn tonite cannot liao. actualie last nite, suddenly got the notti girl mood. i suddenly longing for pple's cuddle.. well.. juz the notti girl feelin loh.. haizz.. nemind nemind..

I finish my FYP report liao.. finally ah.. so nw left the references page onli.. thn i waitin for jp to sent mi his copy thn i can edit, coz the lecturer say my format sala.. but thn after tml hand in liao, even if bounce bac, its onli goin to be minor editin, and not to rewrite aniting liao.. its like haizz.. finish liao loh~* borin leh.. nth to do..

Todae Tuesdae.. juz another normal dae.. supposed to be goin dwn to take the contact lens wan.. but thn postponed to tml.. 4-6pm.. thn tml goin zouk.. wonder shld i go home first.. coz i dun reali intend to brin bag tml.. nemind lah.. tat wan tml thn see how.. i was online since bout 10plus tis mornin.. went irc.. and the world is damn small... got tis guy cum tok to mi.. thn he said he was wrkin at siemens buildings.. and he said he knw sum sip students from my sch.. and turned out his issac. the technician whom yk is attached to. he was like damn close to yk wan loh.. went to chalet together, thn duno is xmas or new year, still can go pple house warming tat type.. during wrkin hours, they can go play lan game wan.. thn last week, yk still call him ask him cum dwn help mi do the survey wif his wife.. i dun dare tell him its mi.. hehe~* but thn the world is juz tis small..
juz finished writein my fyp report chap 5.. nw goin to compile into one, thn add in page numberings, thn can zip it up thn send to yk, ask him tml go sch print.. kae lah.. nth much happen todae.. so nth much to write liao..

Todae is Mondae~* 28th of April 2003~* Last paper todae.. so finally, its like the end of everyting.. the bb paper i last nite study till 3am plus.. i knw i'm not exactly not too confident about tis paper, but thn aso on no account am i suppose to do tis bad rite.. i was in abit late, thn i flip open the paper, i almost cry ther.. all the qus is like either i totalli never see b4 wan or its those diagrams i purposely skipped.. those tat i reali memorise, the diagrams onli cum out 2, thn its liek 5-6 marks each onli.. after sum calculaions, i tink high chances i will fail tis paper.. but thn reali hope got enuff to scrap off loh..
tis mornin, yk came over to my hse. as in to pick mi up to sch.. and he da bao the geylang tat you tiao da wang de dou hua shui and the shao bing~* all my fav.. thn i ate the shao bing on my way to sch.. yumyum~* actualie i was reali touched tis mornin whn he came over.. and even more touched whn i see the breakfast.. and its all the way to geylang.. i feel like goin over to hug him, give him a kiss and sae thanks.. but thn i kept remindin myself we are no longer together.. i dun wan to misled him or wat.. at times like tis, i reali wonder if i shld go bac to him.. he reali is loves mi wan loh..
todae went to eat sakae sushi to reward myself for finishing everyting so smoothly.. wif emi and huili.. thn after tat went to catch a show wif huili.. sum french show.. quite dumb show loh.. but thn entertaining loh.. thn juz before the movie, i met Raymond leh.. hehe~* so coincident loh.. reali jzu like tat see him in orchard road.. thn he called mi during the show, thn we met up after my show. thn we accompany huili wait for her new 'frewn' cum, thn went coffee beans wif raymond and his colleauge.. thn hang ard till like 9plus thn i leave.. coz they last minute got sum duno wat assignment.. actualie i did enjoyed myself tonite wif their company.. its juz like we are teasing each other, havin fun loh..
and oh yar.. supposed to meet andrea todae.. but thn sumting last minute happen last min, but thn we still did meet up outside sch, thn took 23 dwntown loh.. thn on the way tok abit.. mentioned bout yz.. well.. so his new 'frewn' a pretty girl.. hear liao feel abit funny deep dwn.. well.. nemind lah.. its all hist liao.. tis morn whn i goin sch, 933 playin the liu dehua song lian xi, thn i tot of him.. thn i feel funny all over again.. so tink he nw not onli lian xi cheng gong liao.. its already becum a xi guan liao. nemind lah.. shi qu de bu neng cong lai..

Todae sundae ah.. tml bb paper.. how how?? haven study finish.. woke up in the morn, i was still slackin away.. thn went dwn to meet yk and gl ard 3pm, thn go eat lunch, thn go mac study.. thn huili came, thn emi came.. thn we studied ther.. actualie frankli speakin lah.. i didnt managed to reali study alot.. but thn as we seat dwn ther discussin, i finally narrow dwn my scope, like nw i knw which are the diagrams i wan to memorise, and which are the definations i need to knw.. so okie lah.. hopefulli by tonite i can finish everyting.. saw joa aso.. and tis is by chance.. he was queuein up at the atm, thn he saw mi, so he called mi. thn he came over n tok to mi.. thn yk came thn they duno go wher for their man's tok.. and aso met aaron dwnstairs aso.. he seems so relax.. diff to believe we are goin to take the same paper tml leh.. stress ah~*
haizz.. tot of yz last nite.. actualie its juz all of a sudden.. thn i sms him.. thn he got reply.. but thn his reply kind of short, i was not expectin aniting aniway.. his online nw aso.. i msged him hi juz nw.. and all he did is hi bac.. not even a regard frm him.. maybe he doin his fyp or wat.. but thn.. duno lah.. suan le.. cannot let tis type of ting affect my mood... kae lah, gotta go bac to my books liao.. wish my all the luck in the world kae~*

Todae is Saturdae.. its 2 more daes to my bb paper.. and i onli start to study todae. and i look tru the lecture notes.. i realise tat the notes inside is damn minimal.. especialy for chap 7 and 8. coz for these 2 chaps, i was ruchin all my projects and presentation, so i got no time to go to the lectures.. thn reali is die liao loh.. coz seems like got alot of tings need to memorised. and time is runnin out. tink i put in too much time n efforts into nms liao.. how leh?? nw i'm still copyin out the ans to the bb past year paper.. and my scedule for todae is to finish all the calculations. i haf been tru it for term test, so i hope it will not be too much of a problem later lah..
todae actualie wan go dwn to the macdonald's to study wan.. but thn i was waiting for yk, and partly coz i feelin lazy, thn in the end never go. so actualie till nw, i onli look tru the lect notes, haven start on aniting concrete.. tml reali got to rush liao.. thn i did not eat dinner, thn yl went out about 10pm to buy mi dinner. thn i was like wan to diet, thn dun wan eat solid stuff, actualie was tinkin might as well dun eat wan.. but thn in the end he still go buy mi satay.. he still need to take bus to hougang green buy.. so its like reali an effort on his part.. haizz.. his still so nice to mi.. well.. not the time to be tinkin bout tis.. and a good news of the dae~* my period finaly cum liao.. its bout 10daes late.. and actualie i'm gettin kind of worried.. coz i knw i had not been a good girl tis mth.. thn i haf been consolin myself for the past 10daes, it muz be due to all the stress i had for the past couple of weeks, where i had a deadline almost everydae.. hehe.. but thn its reali a relieve whn it came todae.. okie lah, tats it for todae.. muz reali go bac to my books liao~*

Feelin borin leh.. Noting mych to do nw.. Wan go slp aso sui bu zao.. You knw tat type of stupid feelin.. Thn everyone seems to be outside enjoyin, except mi, like so poor ting stay at home.. Sianzz..

Todae is Fridae.. I had the nms paper tis mornin.. Last nite, I came home tinkin I could study the lab sheets as planned.. But tings dun always turned out as wat pple intended rite.. My aunt sms mi tellin mi sumone called my granny house lookin got for mi.. Its a guy called Steven Ong, and he aso left his number behind. Well.. Frankly speakin, I reali dun recalled knwin tis guy, so i send him an sms askin him if he got the wrong person. Later tonite, tat guy called bac.. So he was a Steven tat I used to knw.. In fact pretty closed wif. He was one of my ex.. I almost fainted whn he told mi tat coz I was not expectin it at all. After we seperated whn I was in sec3, we lost contact. so we tok for a while. And actualie I got quite irritated by him. My impression of him was he was like an ha beng bac thn, bad in studied too.. Thn last nite he told mi he went to aust. and got a degree in IT. He went on n on, and I got so damn fed up. So eventualy I got damn pek chek and I got Den to called mi and found an excuse to hang up the phone. I didnt even bothered to save up his number. I NEVER wan tok to him again..
Den called mi last nite.. Even before tat Steven called. In fact rite after I logged off last nite, went bac to the room, he called liao. He was not in a good mood last nite, his parents was quarreling. Haizz.. I was dying to get bac to my books, but thn I dun haf the heart to hang up his phone, coz I tink his reali upset.. To a certain extend, his upset not onli bout his parents, but aso bout his own love life.. Tis girl reali means so much to him.. I reali dun understand loh.. Coz they are together for such a short time onli, how cum he so fang bu xia leh?? And at times, hearin him went on n on bout the girls, sumwhere inside went abit sour.. But thn nemind lah, I tink its normal wor.. coz we were once together mah, and he realie used to be a guy I realie loved alotalotz..
Todae nms paper.. hehe~* I actualie feel so damn proud of myself. I went in abit late, and I went in, I flip to chap3. And I was smiling to myself liao.. The qus were all stuff tat I haf studied.. noting was not in my study scope. But thn cum to tink of it, I practically studied the whole book so ease my guilt. So I realie went damn fulli prepared for tis paper.. So I did the paper wif ease, finishin it within 1hr 15min~* Happie leh, a bigbig load off my mind.So after tat haf lunch thn I cum hoem slp liao.. Damn tired.. Tink its all due to the presure I under and aso I slpt abit late last nite, and woke up damn earli tis mornin.. So tml not goin out liao.. Gota stay at home study my bb. And aso tml nite got chuang shi ji da jie qu ah~* Wan stay at home see.. Nice show leh~*

Tired ah.. Reach sch ard 1pm, thn go breadboad eat the hai xian tang fan.. hehe~* Damn nice sia.. I'm realie goin to miss that whn I'm no longer in sch.. Okie, thn by 2pm, all of us are bac to short circuit to study.. And whn I said I studied, I reali studied kae.. Reali is getting down to work. I read tru the entire nms lecture book frm the first to last chap at least 2 times.. and after I'm done with tis, I'm goin to log off and start on my lab sheets. Actualie i still feel scare bout tml's paper.. Juz like dun haf tat confidence..
Todae, I recieved a sms.. Dun wan to tok more bout it liao.. Tis is enuff.. In case God knws who is goin to cum accross tis webby and is goin to read it.. I tink I could very well do without all the troubles. Kae lah, enuff for todae liao, got to hit the books liao.. Wan to slp earli tonite.. Tml the paper is at 9am. Haf to get up at 6.45am.. Beta be earli thn sorie ah.. So pray hard for mi kae~*

Todae is Thursdae.. The eve before my nms paper.. The feeling of fear is cumin nearer n nearer liao.. Later got to put in effort whn studyin. Its either todae or fail tomolo.. Meeting thm in sch at 1pm. So goin bath soon liao.. Juz finish checkin my emails. Recieved no replies from all the job applications I sent out for the past few daes.. Why?? Izzit coz they reali all dun wan mi?? Or I still gotta wait longer?? Actualie I tink I too kan cheong liao lah. Nemind lah..

Todae is Wednesdae, 2 more daes to my first paper.. Scary ah.. What will happen if I fail or wat.. Todae went bac school to study with jere, gl and yk. Thn actualie after todae, I feel so much beta.. Actualie nms aso not exactly very difficult. Its juz that I always fail. Haizz.. Nemind lah.. But thn afterstudyin with thm I actualie feel more confident, thou i thin i still duno enuff, but thn I'm still goin bac to sch tml after all, so hopefully by tml i can finish everyting..
After studyin, I still can go sing ktv.. hehe~* Haf fun lah.. But thn tat is coz tat tml is not the exam dae.. By tml thn stress liao loh.. How huh.. Tis is my last chance in nms liao leh.. Its now or never liao loh.. But thn todae at the ktv, the first song I sing the shang shi~* First time sing at ktv leh.. Last time I got dian the song, but thn before I got the chance to sing it, thn last song liao loh.. Thn todae I aso got dian huang hun and wang ji.. Can u believe it, they actualei got wang ji there, whn I cant even find the mp3. In the end I onli to sing wang ji, coz esther sae she dun wan hear huang hun coz jeff like it.. Haizz.. Nemind lah, hai you xia ci de..

Juz now, I quarrel with yk. Nothing new, its about the same old stuff. Well, in the end, I refused to pick up his call, so once again, he treatened to come to my place. So while the phone is still ringing, I rushed to bath. So the phone kept ringing, and I do all my stuff, and left the house even before he got the chance to come over. Then while I was going down to the bus stop, I was thinking who should I call to seek for help, the first person who come to my mind was Andrea. But then i called Den in the end. So i went over to SengKang and wait for him.. He said he was working. So we spent the afternoon together, chit chating over the past and present. Could see that he was very bothered, very unhappy. Well.. he and his girls..
After that I took a bus down to Tamp to meet yk and yeye for dinner. And i had pay for the dinner, which cost about 50bucks plus. Before I went down for the dinner, it was agreed that we two stopped all the arguments. Firstly, I am really afraid of yk when his in that temper. He could really get firece and violent, and do nonsense stuff. And secondly its yeye bdae dinner, I dun wan to upset him with our stuff..So overall, the evening was okie.. And here am I, starting to worry about my exam this Fridae. I still have not start on it, and time seems to be running out. How?? What should I do...

Todae is Tuesdae.. my first dae in the new place.. named it cottage by the river, coz of the painting hangin on the dining room wall.. let tis be a cozy place wher i can pour out everyting tat happen to mi in a dae.. be it happie or unhappie.. kae.. i juz forsake the other blogger.. coz yk knew bout it.. thou its reali ke xi, but thn wat to do, its aso my fault tat he cums to knw bout it ah, coz i was not care ful enuff ah.. nemind lah.. a change of surroundin might aso be good. kae lah, stop here for nw, feel like eatin sum stuff leh.. go see can find ani food anot..