B A D M O O D
1) i'm still usin the left click, the stupid mouse still not wrkin..
2) i'm still all alone.. feelin so damn lonely..
3) tired..
4) tired liao reach home they still purposely left mi all the mess to clear..

well.. till nw tis is all i can remember y i in bad mood.. the mouse i dun wan to sae liao lah.. spoil is spoil.. bo bian wan.. wait till i free i go buy new wan.. and the lonely tingy.. haizz.. todae fang gong le i saw beast.. coincident wan lah.. coz crossin the road wif jen, thn he happen to bump into jen, thn i turn go see thn saw him.. well.. he wif his gf.. didnt realie see the girl leh.. nemind.. tats not the point.. so seems like everyone in pairs and all wan leh.. left mi.. tomolo july liao.. so fast.. whn's the last time since ther's tis sumone holdin my hand walkin dwn orchard rd.. and wher is my tat he.. i duno.. sum pple can juz evaporate into thin air wan.. i knw pple are bz wif wrk and all.. and as times goes, i aso becum more understandin liao.. i knw wat shld cum first and wat shld not.. i dun wan to becum a burden to anione.. been tinkin bout tis matter for the entire bus trip home.. but thn haizz.. maybe juz todae loh..
tml last dae of wrk liao.. so nice.. the break is so inviting.. juz reach home, thn the whole kitchen and the ulinity area in a mess.. the doggies' mess.. they purposely left it ther for mi to cum home n clear wan.. i knw i shld do my part in the hse wan loh.. but thn angry wif daddy loh.. can see he purposely till i pek chek wan loh.. i reach home liao i see the mess, first ting i roll up my jeans thn i go wash the kitchen liao. thn i off the lights cum out of the kitchen liao, thn he can still go kitchen 'inspect' wan.. so tis onli goes to show how purposely everyting is.. fed up wan. nemind, i did everyting wifout grumbling.. i knw he waitin for mi to make noise. i purposely did everyting happily.. i dun wan to give him a reason to start sayin tis is hw they feel whn they cum home everydae n need to clear up the place. i knw its tirin and all.. but thn i aso did tis whn i reach home before they did ah.. nemind. juz plain fed up.
hope everyting will be beta tomolo ba.. haizz.. and todae suddenly realise i like fat liao.. maybe everydae latelate liao thn eat dinner, thn eat liao go slp.. haizz.. after tml no wrk liao thn maybe can slim dwn again.. thn todae i got the fotos taken in pulau ubin frm yk.. nice leh.. i mean the view n all nice leh.. and i tink i still look pretty good in sum of the pics.. but thn damn pai sey.. coz bac thn, 2daes 1nite mah.. thn i didnt managed to bath or change for tat 2daes.. coz i onli girl mah.. no chance to change, thn change in tent i aso pai sey.. thn summore i wearin orange.. so u can see truout the album onli i am wearin the same shirt.. thn sumore the color bright.. nemind lah.. pass liao.. but thn the fotos nice leh..

ermm.. todae is an okie dae i guess.. juz tat nw abit pek chek, coz my mousey liek spoil liao.. the rite click like not wrkin liao.. thn nw got pple remind mi go ctrl panel change to left click.. so nw the mousy is left click wan.. damn bu fang bian.. but thn beta thn nth rite.. haizz.. tired leh.. last nite i slpt very earli.. thn tis morn aso wake up earli.. thn i clean the whole kitchen n the unility area.. i actualie washed the unility area.. like house wife the feelin.. wake up earli in the mornin clean the hse.. but thn i is more of bo bian lah, coz the doggies dirty the whole place..
todae Sundae liao.. 2 more daes thn i not wrkin liao.. i'm glad for the break.. but thn in the mean while i aso worry no job leh.. and finaly, of all the job resumes i sent out, i recieve a reply todae leh.. but thn its not to ask mi go dwn interview.. but thn to ask for a foto.. lame rite.. thn i nw wher to find a passport foto.. so i go to duno which pic thn i cut out my face.. lame rite.. hehe~* but thn bo bian lah..
tok to hengheng todae.. during my lunch break.. well, thou onlie tok awhile, but thn at least its like catchin up.. haizz.. so tired.. stay online aso doin nth much.. go slp liao ba.. tml still got wrk.. sian.. at times i realie wonder wat will happen whn i realie start wrkin... everydae aso sian meh?? for the rest of my life i aso tis type of attitude thn die liao..
didnt hear frm sumone for 5daes liao.. and i quite sure it will be more thn 5daes.. well.. my nxt guess is his not in town.. but thn nemind lah.. its alrite.. no beginin no end..

i juz reac home ah.. juz nw go bishan.. thn i see TWINS ah~* real life.. they doin the promo for the movie The Twins' Effect~* Gillian so pretty.. Charlene aso pretty.. but thn i still like Gillian more.. so happie.. hehe.. but thn to bad i didnt manage to take ani pics of thm, coz very last min lah.. nemind lah.. at least i got to see thm in real person.. happie liao.. thn hear thm tok.. can see tat ah sa very bubbly and cheerful girl.. gillian more like nei xiang liek tat.. but thn i still like both of thm~*~* wonder whn can i go see the show.. nxt week duno which dae showin, i wan go see.. duno can go see wif who aso.. nemind.. nxt week thn sae..
todae is another borin dae at wrk leh.. sianzz.. chomel not ard can realie see hw slack we are.. not onli the sales not good, but thn the pple aso like always not ard wan.. either duno go wher buy food or go wher walk.. or hide inside the pantry ther eat snake.. thn hao bu rong yi wait till fang gong liao, thn sl came to pick mi up go to bishan see TWINS~* 2nd time sit motorcycle.. well.. ermm.. maybe i more excited bout my TWINS~* so not like the first time tat exciting liao.. hehe~*
nemind.. so pple, remember to ask mi go movie.. i wan see TWINS' EFFECT kae..

Thursdae my off dae, went to meet qian.. go to the interview, thn went to an agency to find wrk.. after tat, we went to maxwell market for a earli dinner.. thn bought the ham chin peng.. qian fried it leh.. she did it till she main tou da han like tat.. thn we spent the evenin at bugis tokkin loh.. haf fun lah, catchin up wif her..
todae, fridae i went to wrk.. sian loh.. realie is wrk till sian liao.. heng nxt tues my last dae.. thn todae at hilton got a seminar.. i saw sister angela, my primary sch principle, and aso sum of my sec school teachers.. haizz.. suddenli like feel i so old liao.. stir up alot of the xiang dang nian's feelin..
thn after wrk went to yk new hse.. actualie tat place could be pretty nice n cosy if he makes the effort to haf it done up.. but thn duno him lah.. haizz.. feelin damn tired.. realie old liao.. feel like slpin liao leh.. hw leh.. like very useless like tat.. didnt hear frm him for quite sum daes liao.. duno hw he doin.. well.. dun understand wat am i tinkin.. forget it ba.. i aso not expectin aniting frm anione..
recently i very bad tempered.. i knw it myself.. maybe not bad.. but thn its more of short tempered.. i will get irritated very easily.. my patience is damn short.. haizz.. maybe wrk too much thn got too much ting on my mind liao lah.. very to those pple whom i fired at or attitude at.. i realie couldnt help it at times wan leh.. haizz.. duno lah..

Are You In Love with a Scorpio? Oct 23 - Nov 21

If you are in love with a Scorpio man or woman, give him or her your full attention and devotion. Sharp as a tack, this person definitely notices everything. You will be able to keep no secrets here; this individual is an expert at ferreting them out. Truthfulness is well appreciated by this mate. Emotions are extremely important to a Scorpio and you must be willing to explore the range (the valleys as well as the peaks) in order to keep this partner happy. Passionate and possessive, he (she) needs a lot of physical statement. This mate often even defines his (her) relationship to you by the amount of actual physical connection. If you are not interested in touchy-feely, you might want to look elsewhere for true happiness. Loyalty is also very valuable to this individual as he (she) will want to look at you as being his (hers) alone. Should you stumble in this area, you may be forgiven but don't think that your Scorpio lover will forget (with such a sharp mind, little is forgotten). Of course, this works both ways and a more devoted mate would be hard to find. You have in this partner an extremely strong personality. This relationship works best if you can maintain some of your own strength and keep things equal. Finding other arenas to excel in by yourself can also help here as very few signs can successfully compete with Scorpio. Don't ever try to force something on this mate, either; coaxing works better than brute force here. Be aware, too, that Scorpio's power is often of the hidden variety. You mustn't take this mate at face value only. If you delight in challenges, enjoy the world of emotions and are also a sturdy and strong personality, you may have just your cup of tea here. This is one individual who is going places and, if you can keep up, would be happy to take you along.

Scopio.. well.. other thn the libra pple, i like scopio pple too.. coz their mysterious character never fail to attract mi.. den is a scopio.. and so is yong.. yong is realie history liao loh.. and its sumting tat i tink not alot of pple knw.. its like sec3 tat time ba.. thou nw i dun even knw hw is he, but thn duno leh.. hehe.. actualie pastin all these horoscopes tingy up here is coz i wan to delete tis email liao.. but thn in case nxt time i can refer to it again shld i like anione.. my email always like floodin wan.. tink i keep too much junk inside liao.. juz like my room.. full of stuff.. i am tis type of pple loh.. everyone aso muz keep wan... haizz.

Finaly, todae i got my rest dae.. yest i left wrk at 6pm.. wantin to go ktv, but thn i couldnt get a room coz its full.. haizz.. another disappointment.. life is always like tis.. full of disappointment.. nemind.. so in the end i went dinner wif thm.. thn i aso got abit fedup.. coz we waited till 8plus, still cant decide wher ti eat.. huili kept gettin side track and complainin tat she wan burget dinner and all the nonsense lah.. till i got real pek chek wif her.. sis knw i gettin all boiled up.. so he immediatly took action to settle it.. i knw i gettin very short tempered and all recently.. but thn wif all these stuff ard, cant blame mi too rite.. i already tryin hard to control myself liao.. like last nite i knw i very pek chek liao, but thn i didnt explode.. but thn last nite in the end we got a very nice dinner of edo sushi at cineleisure.. we tried all the desrt they haf ther.. all ice cream stuff lh, but thn very nice leh..
thn durin wrk yest, tis gay guy came.. his the one tat was always critisin pple wan.. thou his mouth stinks lah, but thn i tink his still a ncie guy loh.. like if u knw him beta his actualie not bac wan.. knwin i'm lookin for a job, he sae if i wan he can call up club21 thn ask thm to retain mi for a part time position.. well.. i realie thank him for all tis, but thn i tink i still prefer to go full time findin my job loh.. and he got tis diamond ring.. its a 3 carat diamond ring.. comprise of close to 100 little diamonds, glitterin awae, the diamension is bout 1.5cm by 1.5cm.. and they slipped it into my finger.. oh god.. tis is the first time i haf such a big diamond ring on my finger.. well.. maybe tis is the first and the last time liao.. coz i tink i cant afford it at all tis life time.. but thn nemind nemind.. hehe~* at least tis is an experience tat not all pple haf wan rite..
later meetin qian at 2pm.. at tanjong pagar ther.. got a interview.. actualie we tink tis interview is pian ren wan.. but thn nemind loh.. coz we two free mah.. so go ther hang ard abit loh.. wouldnt kill rite.. thn later i wan to send out the resumes i got frm the newspaper.. but thn mummy ask mi to sweep n mop the floors leh.. haizz.. sianzz.. todae off dae leh.. aso duno i wake up so earli for wat.. maybe i used to it liao ba.. hehe.. and btw, i finished my harry potter liao.. abit disappointed wif it lah.. but thn at least i finished it liao.. maybe i will go tru it once more after i end my wrk at ck.. and didnt hear frm him.. i duno why am i like a idiot like tat waitin.. duno liek it.. i mean nth happen, so maybe shld juz let it end like tat.. i mean its onli mi wat.. so kae.. its juz mi..

Todae is actualie my off dae.. chomel yest told mi to get a rest dae todae coz she juz realise i long time no off liao.. i was so damn happie u knw.. but thn seetha juz called n sae she not feelin well, thn ask mi go bac.. haizz.. wat to do.. chomel on anual leave till nxt tues.. so if seetha never go wrk, thn i off thn left jo alone.. so i haf to go bac wrk loh.. sianzz.. nemind. todae yk was to shift hse.. thn mummy sae can help him shift his stuff.. she could ask her driver go dwn pick up his stuff help him shift.. but thn last nite i told her i got off dae, thn she ask mi to go wrk wif her, so i could direct the way to yk hse to the driver.. but thn i aso duno the wae mah.. all long i passenger onli, thn i reali dun remember mah.. thn after tat he called to sae ling dun wan to shift liao.. well.. i duno lah.. i mean they are suppose to shift todae, thn on mondae nite ling called n sae she dun wan to shift liao.. thn rent of 1000bucks a mth.. i duno hw is he goin to survive tat.. everyting juz dun turned out to be the wae we wan it to be lah.. but thn wat to do.. tis is life i guess..
thn todae i meetin huili, jon and 'sis' go ktv wan.. thn last nite i still call 'sis' tell him i todae off dae, can meet him earlier.. but thn nw.. haizz.. maybe later tell jo i got sumting on, see i can leave at 6pm anot.. nowadeas i aso got no time for my doggies.. love thm alot.. but thn imagine whn i realie start wrkin, hw am i goin to find time to spent wif thm and all.. so tis is the real wrkin world.. haizz.. i realie duno wat to do wif yk.. actualie watever her do nw is i dun haf to care wan.. but thn to a certain extend, i cant help but feel responsible for it coz he always sae he did it for mi.. it kind of makes mi feel guilty, and i blame him for it. i mean ther are tings tat i didnt ask u to do. and nw tings turned out the wat noone wan it to be, thn ....... i duno lah. pek chek. realie hope he can stop doin tings for mi. coz instead of makin mi happie, it always upset mi in the end..
and todae yz enlistment dae.. well.. actualie i aso duno lah.. aso duno hw am i suppose to feel.. mi and him is like ancient history liao, guess ther's sumone by his side nw liao ba.. but thn still wan wish him all the best~* and tat dae drea told mi he went for his tp, thn fail.. i knw his realie hopin to get his lic before he enter ns.. but thn too bad lah.. drea sae he too careful driver liao.. careful till dangerous tat type.. hehe~*
and my harry potter, last nite i read till 600plus liao.. but thn i couldnt stand the suspension, so i quickly read tru the rest.. so i agar agar knw the endin liao.. i tink it ended abit ... harry's god-fater died.. actualie i duno why she lat him die loh.. coz i actualie like the idea of harry livin wif sirius happily ever after wan.. and feel kind of sad.. haizz.. tot todae i can realie aomplete the book wan.. but thn haiz.. nemind lah. so in conclusion, dun realie like tis book.. coz the front too draggy liao.. and the endin is a bit abrupt.. hope the nxt book will be beta kae.. but thn tink tat will be another 5years time liao...

Juz a quick note as i didnt cum online yest.. too tired liao.. went to eat dinner wif sis.. after wrk i sit at shaw hse ther read harry potter for an hour, wait for jon to fang gong.. after tat went bac hougang wait for tom to fang gong, thn go eat crabs.. thn by the time i reach home aso 11plus liao.. thn damn tired..
yest is a damn unlucky dae for mi.. earli in the morn go wrk, thn i alight the bus thn cross the road, thn got caught by the traffic police, thn tat bitch actualie fined mi for jay walkin.. 20bukcs.. its not the finin part tat i angry.. its her attitude tat makes mi mad.. she took her bloody own sweet time and give mi tat stupid face.. wonder did anione told her she look like a pig.. thn nemind.. after tat went for the job interview.. copied dwn the wrong feeder bus num, thn ended up in a duno wat ulu part of tpy.. thn finally reach the compnay liao, thn aso duno wat lah.. got the feelin tat they are not exactly wat i'm lookin for wat.. so i went bac orchard to wrk lah.. a real unlucky dae..
i tink i didnt tell alot of pple i got interview yest.. but thn got pple actualie remember.. thn sms mi tell mi good luck tat sort of ting.. but thn heard nth frm him.. not even a note frm icq.. nemind lah.. maybe he bz.. kae lah, got to go bath liao.. if not i late liao.. todae duno shld i use the overhead bridge instead of jay walkin anot leh.. haizz..

Still sundae.. i practically spent the entire dae readin harry potter.. even during wrk, i was still readin wrk.. heng todae chomel off dae.. so i spent alot of time either readin under the drawer or in the pantry readin the book.. not to mention on my wae to wrk, and bac frm wrk and during lunch.. well.. nemind.. i tink gimmi another few more daes thn i can finish the book liao.. nw already read till page 300plus liao..
tml mondae liao.. goin for the job interview.. nervous leh.. hope its goin to be a good job offer, coz i already dun haf much time left liao.. i realie hope to find a job soon.. haizz.. lizzie n oo needs to go for their jab liao.. and i need to pay for it.. and aso their food frm now on.. haizz.. the ck pay onlie slightly pass 1000.. hw am i goin to get all the stuff.. i can do wifout all my stuff.. but thn the jab and the bills are nessaccery wan.. hope everyting goes well thn..
nw the show hai you ming tian last episode leh.. seems abit touchin.. actualie i'm tired liao.. haf been wrkin the entire week.. and tis cumin week i got no off dae.. so its juz wrkin and more wrk.. well.. its okie.. i can handle it wan lah.. i mean its not like as if i'm doin manual wrk ther or wat.. and whalewhale aso like wrkin 7daes a week.. he can i aso can wan..

Sundae Mornin..
Goin to bath nw, but thn didnt cum online last nite.. Harry Potter The Order of the Pheonix came out yesterdae.. So i aso got the book.. yk bought it for mi.. hehe~* i was so damn engrossed in the book tat i started readin in the bus on the way home.. and the book cant leave my hands the entire nite..
actualie to a certain point, i dun feel like continuein on tis blogger ting.. coz its like i'm wrkin, thn whn i'm bac aso no time to update it.. and ther are stuff tat i wanted to put in like wat happen at wrk... but thn coz wrk is like so stagnant, thn i forgot wat i wan to write liao leh.. nemind lah.. we shall see hw.. and i'm pretty disappointed in sum stuff.. remember i mentioned tis sum time bac.. ther's tis guy i'm pretty interested in.. got the feelin tat its imposwsible between us.. maybe we are both busy and all.. but thn if tis goes on, its totaly impossible wan.. no point i here interested, thn noting happen wan rite.. haizz.. nemind lah.. todae wrk frm 11am to 6pm.. short dae todae.. the horoscope for todae is Libra.. well.. i once was deeply interested in Libra pple.. fa is one.. yz is aso one.. haizz.. i got tis soft spot for the Libra pple leh... so i go bath liao lah..

Are You In Love with a Libra? Sept 22 - Oct 22

If you are in love with a Libran man or woman, give him or her your attention and your company. This is one individual who truly wants to share as much as possible in life and will be a faithful and dedicated partner if given the chance. You may notice, too, that he (she) always strives to be inclusive of not only you, but friends and acquaintances as well. This person truly needs interactions with others and desires a full social life above many other things. Because of his (her) desire for balance, you may also see some striking dualities here. Soft lights and classical music could be interspersed with wild dancing revelries to rock and roll; each Libra expresses this aspect in his or her own way. Whatever the oppositions at work here, they will play and interplay in equal amounts. If you are not as comfortable with one side, just wait a bit until the other reappears. This is one honey that can also be counted upon to help out with household chores. Dishes, dusting, sweeping, hedge trimming, and lawn mowing are almost akin to lovemaking (love of home) in his or her eyes. All you need to do is be 100% loyal and you will be treated like the King or Queen of the Castle. It's quite a small price to pay. You can be sure, however, hat this honey will never leave you lonely. He (she) understands togetherness unlike most other signs and you would do well to return the favor. Be careful, too, not to accept too many gratuities without exchange as he (she) will be aware of the imbalance and may harbor silent resentments in the future. Enjoying the fun, sharing, and caring of this individual while giving back the same will ensure a long, happy, and prosperous relationship for both of you.

My Wish List

- My hair ( time to do the rebondin liao.. )
- $300 ( tis is for my bills.. both hp and internet )
- Shoes ( funny ting tat i suddenly wan shoes and not clothes n others.. )
- Braclet ( the 12bucks perlini silver wan tat i bio very long liao. )
- Anglet ( mine broke a few daes bac.. )
- LV coin purse ( the yellow epi leather wan, to match my wallet )
- Scrunchie ( coz my hair nw very jia lat, wan a nice one to tie up the hair )
- HP pouch ( to hold my new HP)
- Lizzie's stuff ( wan to get her sum stuff leh, like a collar and leash and sum stuff..)

To be continued...
Updated: 10.25pm 200603

Juz reach home.. feelin tired.. seems lyk i nw everydae aso tired.. duno wats wrong wif mi.. todae is another normal dae loh.. juz went to wrk thn cum home after wrk.. and jon aso start wrkin at orchard a few daes bac.. so tis 3 daes i've been lunchin wif him.. thn todae my wrk place tat gay man very nice.. he brought mi the classified ads coz he saw mi buyin straits time yest.. thn durin lunch time i called up to an advertisment, thn they ask mi go dwn for an interview on mondae.. thn i went bac to ck tell chomel, thn she so happie for mi thn she let mi take time off on mondae.. they reali nice pple wan.. hehe~* so tis mondae i goin for interview.. hope i get the job kae.. coz i endin the ck job on 30th june.. so if i dun find a job fast, i will be loiterin again liao..
tat time i say i will put up the horoscope tingy everidae.. but thn ever since i put the first one up thn i didnt continue liao.. so todae i put another one up kae..

Are You In Love with a Virgo? August 23 - Sept 21

If you love a Virgo, give him or her attention to detail. Some -- but not all. Virgos are neatniks and cannot stand living in a mess. Others need for you to acknowledge their ideas or accomplishments. But all will be fussy about something, and you will keep this one happy by discovering wherein lies the pet peeve and steering clear of it. It is best if you realize that this individual has a real need for order in some aspect of his or her life. This person can be counted upon to be consistent in a particular area for you, and feels cheated if the favor is not returned. Because a Virgo is able to see the potential perfection in everything, don't be offended if little comments arise about getting the lint off your sweater or re-working your résumé. He (she) just wants you to look your best and is happy to help you do so. Remember, too, that this person sees life largely through an intellectual window. He or she can always be reasoned with but may have a hard time dealing with displays of emotion. This doesn't mean that your feelings aren't important; it just indicates that you may need to explain them rather than expect this honey to intuitively understand. A Virgo lover likes to know and follow certain ground rules so you probably should spend some time discussing his or her expectations as well as your own at the beginning of this relationship. As long as you keep the lines of communication open, this should ward off any potential misunderstandings in the future. You won't, however, find a more loyal mate anywhere. This is one honey who keeps all of his(her) loving for you alone and expects you to do the same. Fresh sheets and clean skin turn this person on more than fancy perfumes or sexy underwear, too. Respect for this one's person and belongings keep him or her right by your side.

I lilke all along never in love wif a virgo guy.. nemind.. suddenly feel like eatin cake leh.. cheese cake.. nemind.. and my wish list.. haiya.. aso duno hw to write.. kae lah.. go watch tv liao.. the hai you ming tian nice show.. thou i never realie see tisshow, but thn whnever i see tis show i will end up teary wan..

I juz reach home leh.. kind of late liao i knw.. once again, not in a very good mood.. ther's no entry yest coz i reach home late.. thn very tired.. in fact i nw aso damn tired.. so i will write a short n sweet one thn i'm off to bed liao.. juz reach home coz i went to meet er up for dinner.. coz he always ask mi out, thn i pai sey to reject him again.. i realie dun wan to go out todae wan.. but thn nemind lah, so in the end still go out liao.. thn i realie dun like to go out wif him lah.. juz dun enjoy myself loh.. his abit self centered.. tats y especially on daes whn i'm tired thn short tempered thn very buay tahan wan.. so todae nth much happen lah.. wrkin thn meet him thn i cum home liao loh..
yest is andrea bdae.. thn as usual loh, went to wrk, thn after wrk meet up wif the girls loh.. qian and kar.. drea came to pick us up at taka, thn drove us dwn to suntec city.. ther er eat tis jap food.. its very nice loh the food.. its like jap style marche like tat.. like it alot leh.. got chance i will go again wan.. thn after tat went to the sky garden ther slack, thn sit for bout an hour the pple ther doin the insect fogging, thn we went to take the car thn drive ard loh.. thn ended up at amk ther la kopi.. go serangoon garden wan eat cheese cake but kopi bean close liao.. actualie last nite i had fun loh.. coz its onlie the four of us, thn we tok bout the pass.. luff till i can sit ther n cry wan.. tis is realie wat i call frewns loh.. so after drea's bdae, mine is followin up liao.. hehe~*
thn juz nice my pay aso cumin out liao.. so its time for mi to do sum plannin wif the money.. so i'm goin to draw out a wish list thn see which i can afford it wif my pay, thn which can hinthint pple buy for my bdae.. hehe~* abit thn bu yao lian like tat leh.. but thn i tink i wan the list its aso to set my piority to the money mah.. so i can weigh wat ism ore important, thn i will spend the cash on it first.. thn wat is not tat essential wan..
actualie i got alot i wan to put dwn wan.. but thn i cant remember liao.. like quite busy recently, didnt do catchin up wif sum of my frewns.. todae best sms mi say he miss mi.. haizz.. actualie i aso miss thm leh.. like to hang ard wif him and zq.. thn aso never hear uncle alan liao leh.. hengheng aso.. and whalewhale.. tink whalewhale busy is even more busy thn mi.. haizz.. nemind lah.. my tis wrk endin soon liao, thn by thn see hw lah..

Juz reach home leh.. todae after wrk went to sing ktv wif jere they all.. didnt realie sing alot coz i reach ther ard 7.30pm, thn the package till 9pm mah. but thn nemind lah.. go meet up wif thm loh.. long time no see liao aniwae.. thn after tat starbucks la kopi abit, thn juz reach home.. nw pass 12am liao.. andrea bdae.. juz msg her happie bdae.. actualie todae not in a very good mood, coz suddenly abit of finacial crisis.. i scare by the end of the week i will broke till no money to eat liao.. so the more i tink bout it the more unahappie i becum.. sianzz. dun wan write liao. email aso dun wan check liao. tml thn see lah. aiya, tml aso will not be home earli leh. drea bdae.. gotta go eat dinner wif her. haizz.. duno lah.

Todae Mondae.. my off dae leh.. hehe~* so nice can stay at home for a change.. lizzie still at my hse nw.. but thn she might be goin bac tonite liao.. coz noones at home to look after thm lah.. tis mornin duno wat happen.. the 2 doggies all barkin their head off.. reali scare the neighbours will complain.. well.. todae is another no plan dae.. realie got nth to do leh.. actualie my off dae is tml wan.. thn tml goin out wif jere they all wan.. but thn suddenly change the off dae to todae, thn i got nth to do.. damn sianzz..
still haven find a job hw?? later got to send more resumes out.. i realie hop to find one by the end of the mth.. yest mornin i changed to the new hp liao.. actualie its a not bad fone leh.. i quite like it leh.. but thn sad to say i realie left sum sms behind in the 8310.. and the sms i left behind happen to the the few which i reali wan to keep in the sim card wan.. but thn cum to tink of it loh.. whn pple send mi the sms, it doenst mean aniting to thm wan loh.. its like they might haf even forget tat they had ocne said sumting like tis to mi.. and yet i'm juz like holdin on to the pathetic memory..
are u in love wif anione at the moment?? i recieve tis email sum daes bac.. and i actualie find it quite accurate.. so i'm goin to post one up a dae.. (tat is if i remember lah kae...) and since i'm a leo, i will start wif my own horoscope first..

Are You In Love with a Leo? July 22 - August 22

If you are in love with a Leo man or woman, the most important thing you can give him or her is your attention. This is one mate who will charm and caress you, make passionate love with you, dance with you into the wee hours of the morning, give you the Sun, the Moon and the Stars, and all you have to do is notice! But, notice you must. It is true that most Leos need pats on the back as much as the rest of us require air to breathe. This is because, for all their vim and vigor and outward confidence, Leos are actually quite shy and vulnerable on the inside. In fact, it can be said that the louder and more brash a Leo sounds, the more insecure he or she is feeling at the time. A Leo lover is loyal, warm, generous, and fun. This is one individual who truly knows how to have a good time, and he or she wants you to be included in it. You are a very special audience to this person and you are treated like royalty. A Leo is not particularly interested in dating just anybody and you must stand out from the crowd to garner this one's attention. He or she wants both of you to shine. You will be appreciated even more if you don't mind letting this honey glow in the limelight. A great storyteller, this one has a natural ability to draw a crowd of beaming faces. Jealousy doesn't go over too well here. You needn't worry overly much about losing his or her affections; once a Leo gives his (her) heart, loyalty comes right along with it. While this mate likes to make dramatic statements, ticky-tacky does not do. Gifts should be of quality and you are amazed at the ones showered upon you. Compliments keep them coming. A fixed sign, this honey sometimes may become set in his/her ways. Personal opinions are very important to this lover and it may be hard to change this premeditated mind. Gentle persuasion works best here as well as pointing out the better aspects of his/her argument. You can expect lot from this lover. He or she has a way of keeping life interesting and movement and action are constant companions. If you are looking for a good time spelled F-U-N, you have certainly found it here.

Sundae~* tml no wrk.. my off dae.. yest no entry coz i went clubbin leh.. went to mdm wong2~* went ther wif drea, qian, huili, cle and over ther meet up wif huifeng.. its the ntu bash mah, thn she sold us the tix.. actualie tis is my first time to mdm wong2.. thn its like connected to tis place call shanghai sally.. the drinks ther cheap leh.. onli $2.50 per cup for hse pour or beer.. ermm.. thn i met zc ther.. coincident wan loh.. he sms mi ask mi am i ther, thn i say yes.. thn over ther happen to see each other loh.. thn aso see zac too.. thn ask him y amz not ther, thn he say break up liao wor.. thn mi n huili like so happie to hear tis, thn we start to cheer whn his out of sight.. hehe~* i knw we are very bad.. but thn if u were to knw amz personally, thn u will knw why we are actin like tis liao..
yest i went clubbin after wrk ah.. thn after wrk i went dwn to taka to look for yk.. his first dae at wrk. thn i accomapny him eat lunch while waitin for qian to cum.. thn after tat meet up wif huili n cle b4 goin dwn to mdm wong2.. well.. thn actualie i sort of angry wif drea loh.. actualie i reali tu lan loh.. the entry haf to be b4 11pm.. told her meet her ard 10pm, thn she after 11plus thn turned up.. heng they are not very strict bout the timin.. thn after tat ard 1am skye called.. tink skye go play billard.. thn wan to cum pick her up thn maybe go sumwher else.. thn she left loh.. thn skye stay changi mah, thn qian aso left wif her loh.. coz can give her a lift home.. i reali tu lan loh.. i mean we nan de cum out play.. regardless fun or not, aso cannot half way pang sey wan loh.. i realie angry loh.. and whn she leavin tat time, i abit attitude lah. she ask mi am i okie anot.. thn i told her actualie no loh.. i'm quite fed up bout it loh.. but thn i dun wan to argue aniting wif u.. so u nw juz go thn the nxt time we meet up, everyting will be fine.. thn even after she left i aso no mood to play. but thn huili cheered mi up abit.. so still not tat bad.. thn 4plus she still sms say sum stuff bout sorrie.. but thn i didnt reply. coz she tot i angry coz she left wif skye, thn no care bout mi.. but thn tats not the case. i'm juz fed up coz u juz left like tat.. but thn nemind, i feelin beta bout it liao.. its okie. after tat huili cle and mi go eat prata.. after tat i walked home wif cle.. so in the end i 4plus thn reach home.. by the time i bath and all, near 5am liao.. thn todae still got wrk ah.. damn tired.. but thn still okie lah.. todae damn busy.. the entire dae pple in pple out.. time passes very fast coz alot of customer.. todae we realie earn alot.. hehe~* so happie..
after wrk i go to granny hse for dinner.. long time never go ther eat liao.. very feng fu ah.. they cooked alot of tings, thn all my aunties were ther wif the kids.. very happie.. thou i realie realie tired wan.. coz last nite so late thn slp, thn todae wrk whole dae thn rushin in and out.. but thn at times sarcrifices haf to be made.. hehe~* time wif family haf to be spent.. its worth it wan.. thn after tat my er ku's husbend drives mi home..
actualie aso dun reali feel tired liao lah.. tml off dae leh.. abit of the no plan dae till nw.. yest no on comp.. thn got sum icq msges.. whalewhale said his goin on reservists soon liao wor.. frm 111003 to 041103.. actualie it took mi quite awhile to figure out wat the date means.. and he say no book out no nth.. and ther's even a public holidae ther i tink.. haizz.. pple ard my age all goin to leave mi for ns.. thn he like tat goin to reservist.. aso goin to leave mi.. tink i will miss him.. nemind nemind.. i mean its haf to go in wan loh.. cant be helped wan.. he aso poor tingl oh.. he ne got so much wrk on hand, thn he sae haf to rushed till auguest, thn after tat aso no much time to rest thn haf to go reserivist liao.. haizz..
todae 15th liao wor.. in bout one and a half mths time, its goin to be my bdae liao leh.. tis year tink i not goin to spend much money on it liao.. so i waitin for pple to date i out for lunches and dinner.. so pls cum ask mi out kae.. first cum first serves basis.. application strictly tru application to 9457 xxxx.. AAarrrrRRGGgghHH~*as if got pple wan ask mi like tat.. hehe.. i say till like tat.. tink i too tired liao.. haven slp already dreamin liao.. hehe.. thn i go nitezz liao..~*

So tired todae.. i slpt at 11plus last nite, but thn duno y i still feel so tired.. aniway, todae is another borin dae at wrk loh.. todae i brought a dress to the tailor to let thm alter.. thn while i was ther, it started to rain.. heavy heavy rain.. thn i borrow an umbrella frm the tailor thn went dwn. it was rainin cats and dogs.. the type tat wif umbrella aso will get wet cumhow or anohter wan.. so i enede up waitin at the lobby ther, hopin tat the rain will turn smaller.. i waited for 10-15min or so, thn the rain still damn heavy. so in the end i ask a girl wifout umbrella wher's she's goin, thn i shelter ther all the wae to shaw hse.. so in the process, i got so damn wet.. my pants was wet all the way to the thigh, not to mention my shoes is wet tru out, thn the left side of mi aso wet.. includin my hair.. haizz.. so whn i'm bac to calvin klein, i'm freezin..
nth much happen at wrk lah.. so happie to go be bac home.. todae lizzie is bac~* mummy went to yk hse to pick her up.. hehe~* i'm so glad to see her leh.. one week never see her, i realise she grow bigger liao.. and the big is very obvious wan loh.. hehe~* tml duno wat time she's goin to wake mi up again.. but thn nemind, i reali miss her alot, so glad to see her bac todae..
todae i on my comp, ther's no icq msg at all.. duno lah.. i mean i cant expect aniting frm anione.. actualie dun feel too good bout it, but thn its okie lah.. i tink i aso becum more understandin towards certain stuff liao.. like todae actualie i suppose to meet fa out for dinner.. but thn he sms mi tis morn sae he got ot, thn cant make it, i dun actualie feel angry or upset bout it.. so i told him its okie loh.. ther's always a nxt time.. izzit coz i grow up liao dun mind tat much, or izzit coz its him tats y i dun mind tat much.. i duno.. nemind lah..

Aiya.. todae i so tired.. i mean real tired.. todae actualie not a very good dae.. i woke up earli todae, thn i was in fact earli for wrk.. thn i wore a skirt todae, thn chomel scolded mi.. aso not sae scold loh.. but thn sae mi loh.. coz the skirt abit the wat lah.. thn earli in the mornin kana pple sae. thn i abit the wat loh.. haizz.. juz bad mood loh.. i was tinkin shld i go home durin lunch time go take the pants anot.. but thn in the end tinktink thn i bo chap lah.. cant be bothered..
so aniwae, wif a skirt, i pass the entire dae.. todae quite a number of pple came to the shop.. all damn rich pple, coz todae the sales is exclusively for the classic card member, and ther are onli 310 of such pple ard.. thn the uob pple came.. the Wee family.. i tink the Wee owns uob.. so u can juz imagine hw rich they are lah.. good news for the girls lah.. Mr Wee got 2 son.. all in their 20s wan.. hehe~* but thn aniwae.. after tat i went to eat the chicken cutlet at amk.. yest see cle eat i never eat, so todae purposely skip lunch thn go eat dinner.. yumyum~* thn i went ntuc again, bought a new bone for lizzie.. yk said lizzie finish the lollipop i bought her yest in less thn an hour.. well.. i mean i'm not wif her, so at least i could buy her cum stuff, like tat at least i feel beta.. tired ah.. go slp liao.. nitezz~*

Todae wrkin loh.. ermm.. earli in the mornin feel very tired leh.. like abit not enuff slp like tat.. but thn todae the time at calvin klein seems to pass qutir fast.. maybe coz todae the shop busy loh. thn alot of customer cum in go out.. thn todae got the cartier tiara exibit.. wow.. all the tiara all damn precious wan.. dated bac to the 18th centuary, and are all worm by sum royalites.. eye opener.. thn ther are aso models to fashion show abit cartier's latest season stuff.. all glittering awae.. hehe~*
thn after wrk went to meet cle.. he was at orchard road.. coz last nite b4 he lest my hse i mention todae can go eat dinner wif him.. so we went to amk to eat.. he eat the western food like so nice.. but thn i feelin damn full so i onli sit ther drink barley.. i had lunch alone todae.. but thn aso duno wat did i eat.. like very indigest like tat.. nemind nemind.. i told him i meet him again tml thn we go bac amk thn i can eat the western food aso.. hehe~* so in conclusion i todae onli haf a meal loh.. but thn i aso never eat much leh.. i onli eat a lor mai kai and a siew mai.. tats all leh.. hw cum huh...
thn juz nw at reach hougang point liao, went to ntuc to buy sum chewies for lizzie.. miss her sooo much.. so i bought her a little sumting.. its like a lolly pop like tat.. but thn its those doggies chewies loh.. duno tis weekend i got chance see her anot.. hope mummy will go dwn to yk hse fetch her bac leh.. tis are times wher i hope i got drivin lic liao.. thn no need to wait for her, i can go dwn pick her up anitime i wan.. haizz.. nemind, i will do tings a step at a time.. basic theory on 16th july.. hope tat i pass kae..

Todae is tuesdae, my off dae.. last nite i chatted on the fone wif qian, till bout 2am, thn i slack till 3am thn go slp.. thn tis mornin i wake up at 11am.. feelin so refreshed and all leh.. but thn happened to remember i forgot to call hengheng.. i was tokkin to him on my way home frm wrk on mondae nite, thn i promised i will call him bac but thn i forgot.. haizz..
thn wake up liao went to the contact lens ther.. meet huili at 2pm, but thn i was late.. thn on the wae out, meet mic.. so qiao loh.. she already found her full time perm job liao.. its not engine or IT job.. but thn she say she like her job.. good for her loh.. haizz, b4 i left the hse todae, i sent out quite a number of resumes.. hopefulli will haf pple call mi up soon.. thn went to meet tom and jo go marina see movie.. finding nemo~* its a very nice show.. i realie like every bit of it.. i mean the father's love for his kid is reali wei da loh.. went over the entire ocean, frm one end to the other end juz to look for his son.. i was reali touched.. reali touched.. not onli the story line was good.. the grahics was aso fantastic.. tink in the show i like the blue fish Dorry best.. i duno why lah.. but thn juz like her most loh.. hehe~* realie nice.. go see kae..
thn after tat came bac home to play mahjong.. thn cle and yk came over to play.. thn play the enitre nite, i didnt win a single game.. till towards the end i win a 4tai.. so in the end onli i lose money.. actualie i play till very pek chek loh.. coz its not sae the cards not pretty or wat leh.. its reali juz i dun haf the luck loh.. haizz. thn they juz left my hse liao.. huili dad goin to send thm home.. actualie they all stay nearby onli lah.. still got wat wan sae ah.. ermmm... sianzz loh.. tml got to go bac wrk liao.. might be meetin cle for dinner tml for dinner, coz he sae he got nth to do at home the entire dae..
actualie i miss lizzie.. i knw i shld nt be like tat, but thn i sort of blame OO for her departure... i knw i shld aso love OO, coz his aso my bao bei loh.. but thn i duno lah.. i haf to admit wifout lizzie nw i seems to haf more time to rest and all, and at times i aso very scare of her.. but thn i still cant help but miss her..

tink maybe its coz tml no wrk, thn todae in quite a good mood.. so write summore.. the feelin knwin tml dun haf to go wrk is great~* well.. i juz went to read qing's dreamz.. tats her journal.. so tink recently she got meet up wif yk wor.. well.. so yk is here tryin to hard to get mi bac, thn on the other hand his aso meetin her.. can see tat she reali hates him alot.. well.. wat to do.. if its mi i aso will hate him. but thn nw, i tink i can no need like tink i'm mean to him by not givin him a chance.. i mean his doin tis to tat girl aso wat.. i have been readin her journal since last year till nw liao.. i can reali feel hw much she has put into their relationship. but thn he can treat her juz like tat. well, i duno lah. he told mi to tell him whn i haf liked sumone else.. till nw i duno wat to sae.. do i like sumone else nw?? yar.. maybe i do. thou i knw tat its very impossible for it to blossom into aniting.. and it might be a one sided ting. but thn i'm reali lookin forwad towards tis guy.. thou nw i'm already tryin my best to draw out frm it liao.. coz i dun wan to end up like another fa's stuff.. i mean i haf been tru it last year liao.. and i realie had a hard time bac thn.. i dun wan history to repeat.. but thn i dun wan to be alone.. maybe for the past couple of years i am in a relationship liao.. thn nw thou single got single good, but thn at times i aso wan got tat sumone who belongs to mi to dote on mi.. but thn sum tings cant be forced wan.. but thn i hope tat guy will cum soon lah....

The blogger webby was down yesterdae.. so didnt get a chance to update tis yesterdae.. cant realie remember much of wat happen yesterdae.. but thn lizzie left yesterdae.. to yk hse.. i was sad bout it.. but thn wat to do.. haizz.. yest i felt so much bout it.. but thn nw, i laready felt so much beta bout it liao.. i do missed her, but thn at least i knw she's still ther loh.. free i can always go see her wan.. ans she aso seems happie ther loh.. yest whn i leavin, she aso like no intension to wan leave wif mi..
so todae.. i went to wrk lah, thn i was late loh.. nemind lah.. thn todae beast and low offered to cum dwn and eat lunch wif mi.. happie tat they got the xin wan to cum dwn frm tanjong pagar loh.. thankz kae pple.. but thn in the end i aso never eat wif thm, coz todae yk got job interview, thn he cum dwn eat wif mi after tat.. thn nw low at beast hse help him do duno wat curtain stuff.. tis guy ah, reali xin shi dai hao nan ren leh.. beast takin sub paper, he still go dig out his poly stuff to help beast, thn nw still go his place after wrk to do curtains.. tink low shang bei zi qian le beast de.. hehe~*
thn todae qian go booked my basic theory date.. tink its on the 16th july.. kae.. finally i'm takin my first step to driving car.. thn duno lah.. tink i gettin more n more independent liao.. i mean i can go lunch alone liao.. thn tis time round i aso goin alone for it.. tat dae i meet up wif kar and qian and ying to buy present for drea, thn we were tokkin mah.. thn all along i tot i'm the childish wan.. but thn they actualie said actualie all along they tot i'm the most sensible and grown up wan.. tis is sumting new to mi wor.. well.. i was reali surprised bout it loh..
tml is my off dae.. finally.. after wrkin non-stop for 7daes, i finally got to slp in and go out n play tml.. but thn cum to tink of it, its onli 7daes.. wat bout those who wrks continuesly got duno hw many weeks leh.. whalehwlae juz told mi he lost his hp.. haizz.. his realie suay loh.. juz a couple of mths bac he got fined for speedin.. thn his frewn locked up the car door whn the car keys are still in the car.. thn in the end still need to soend money to ask lock smith to cum open door. thn nw hp lost.. haizz.. all tis is money ah.. poor fellow.. times are bad pple.. take care of ur belongings kae~*
thn on my way home i was tokkin to hengheng.. didnt sae aniting much lah.. but thn duno lah.. hehe~*

Todae, actualie not exactly a happy dae.. coz earli in the morn, i didnt see the sms i was hopin to see.. well.. i mean its juz i hopin to take, pple not obligated to sent mi wan loh.. but thn juz like not a fine way to start my dae.. aniway, todae the shop was quite busy lah.. so the time seems to be passin faster.. thn yk came dwn and eat lunch wif mi todae.. coz we haf to tok bout lizzie.. so its comfirm tat lizzie will go over to his place tml first loh.. haizz.. wat will go haf to go.. aniway she aso poor ting loh.. coz at home i aso no time for her.. thn whn daddy mummy cum bac, thn she notti thn they will beat her.. i like tat see liao aso heartache.. thn after wrk i meet up wif qain, kar and qy.. to buy andrea bdae present.. thn we bought her a mango top, very nice top.. 40over bucks.. and a bangle.. quite similar to the one i bought for huili.. but thn the design abit diff.. the bangle bout 35.. so in the end the present near 80bucks.. but thn for drea wan mah.. so nemind lah..
yk juz came up to my place n left.. joa wans to cum see lizzie.. thn tis is the first time i see my starhub bill.. actualie it looks kind of scary.. later i will go seesee abit..
thn nw home liao.. but thn aso still not exactly in a good mood.. remember once i was fillin the those qustionaire tingy, thn one qus was wats the most wonderful feelin in the wrold.. and i wrote,"the feelin of being loved, by the one u love." rite nw.. i dun haf tis feelin.. wat shld i do?? i'm in such a passive role.. i mean nth is possible nw wan loh.. i mean i'm juz bein problematic onli.. juz like in my heart, i knw mummy will never mi the toy, but thn i cant help but start to longed for the toy.. hopin tat its goin to be mine..wastin my time and all hopin and hopin..

I juz reach home ah.. went to haf dinner wif sl.. at amk the hawker center.. eat the jap food ther.. long time never eat liao.. nicenice~* thn todae i frist time sit bike.. at first i even haf problem goin up the bike.. but thn after the first time i used to it liao.. hehe~* actualie its pretty fun leh.. exicitin.. thn a word drea always says cums into my mind,'cheap trill'.. but thn no doubt, its realie fast.. onli got bike overtakin other cars and never the other way round.. but thn overall i realie did like it lah.. thou at first i was quite scare of it.. esp round turnin points and over humos.. thn whnever the bike stops, my helmet will knock into the one in front.. but thn i had fun.. sumone once mentioned tat dun like his gf sit other pple vehicles.. well, wait till i becum sumone's girl thn go worry bout tat qus ba..
yest the gift yk gave mi, is reali a 6610 loh..and the camera earpiece.. thn i called him n told him i cannot accept sumting like tis frm him.. i mean we are no longer together liao.. i dun wan to own him aniting.. but thn he insisted on not takin it bac.. he say he juz wan to buy sumting for mi.. and he say on no account is he goin to take it bac.. hw?? my hp nw got ard 50plus sms.. if i were to change hp, all the sms will be gone liao.. and he dun wan take bac the hp.. thn let the hp sit in my room n rot ah?? haizz.. let mi go tink bout it..
thn tis mornin i was almost late.. thn i gotto take the train.. coz i todae feelin FAT.. thn i was changin up n dwn.. thn take train loh.. thn aso reach juz in time onli.. tis morn alot of sms came in.. the sms i was lookin forward to came.. and it came very earli todae.. together wif another sms which i didnt expect.. fa msg mi.. well.. seems like his aso wrkin nw.. but thn like mi, its aso a temp job till the end of the mth onli.. well.. hope i'm able to meet him out in the nxt couple of weeks for a dinner ba.. long time no see him liao.. thn rick aso long time never hear frm him liao.. he aso msg mi.. and the beast aso.. hengheng aso ah.. thn i replied a few of thm.. thn a few lai bu ji reply thn all pushed till linch break.. todae lunchie i eat alone again.. so its bac to the same place eat loti and my chocolate milk.. i already knw tml wan eat which loti liao.. hehe~* todae i was quite busy at calvin klein.. coz preparin for the sales stiff nxt week.. spend the entire afternoon in the store sortin out the clothes and putin the price.. actualie i prefer satyin in the store.. thn coz got ting to do, time aso pass by faster..
tired ah.. tml sat liao still haf to wrk.. tml meetin qian and kar to buy drea bdae presents leh.. tink i can go slp soon liao.. mummy very fedup wif lizzie liao.. i mean i can understand loh.. try cumin home to a dirty house everydae thn u haf to wash and sweep.. its reali a very rotten feelin.. i called yk juz nw liao thn he sae lizzie go to his place first loh.. cant help it lah.. aniwae i nw aso wrkin.. aso dun haf much time wif her.. thn actualie i tink since i online, i wanted to wrtie tis liao.. thn the icq keep blinkin.. thn i ended up replyin the msg thn realie writin it.. so to write tis.. it took mi bout an hour.. tink can liao lah.. continue tml ba~* btw, i feelin sooo much beta todae liao. thanx pple, no need worry bout mi wan.. nitezz~*

The channel 8 9pm show juz finish.. i onli manage to see the last 15min of the show.. but thn it was so touchin.. can cry leh.. tml nite muz try to cum home earlier n see the show.. purposely cum home liao wan icq abit, but thn haizz.. nemind lah.. i mean bz is bz loh.. no choice.. hehe~* sms juz came in..
todae go wrk loh.. thn kae loh, nth much happen todae lah.. juz preparin for the sales nxt week loh.. todae i lunch alone again.. but thn kae lah.. the feelin is not as bad as i tink.. tink a few more times thn will get used to it liao.. xin big girl liao.. can make it wan.. thn juz nw yk sms mi say he ans ling in the area.. long time no see ling liao so meet thm up for dinner.. thn ling nw wrkin at tis comic company.. thn seems like she's gettin bullied.. haizz.. freah grad is liek tat wan loh.. wat to do.. tml i meetin sl.. well.. nth much lah.. i tink moz prob dinner ba.. he ask mi go tink wat i wan for dinner and all.. later thn go tink lah.. ermm..juz nw yk pass mi a present.. and i haven open. but thn if i not wrong its a hp.. haizz.. i realie dun wan to accept aniting frm him liao. and summore its such an expensive present.. one ting, money cant buy relationship.. haizz.. actualie todae whn i wrkin, i got tink of alot of ting wan write wan.. like alot of philosiphy like tat wan.. but thn nw sit here liao i cant remember liao.. nemind lah.. tink i end here liao ba.. i told qian i will call her before 1.45pm.. but thn i wan to go bath and all first leh.. haven take out my lens aso.. haizz..

Wednesdaeee... 2nd dae of wrk.. well.. i'm gettin the hang of it.. nth much happen todae.. the whole place is pretty deserted, coz the sales is startin nxt week, so noone wans to cum buy aniting nw.. typical singaporean loh.. well.. todae chomel told mi bout her daughter.. she say till she broke into tears.. and i felt so bad bout it.. her daughter left home 2weeks ago.. and she didnt tell a single soul wrkin ther.. well.. could see she told mi bout it coz she realie needs to find sumone to tok to bout it. actualie she's a good mother.. i dun wan to tok bout the story here, but thn i feel so sad for her.. i mean her daughter is not those in sec sch wan.. its a 23 year old girl leh.. even older thn mi.. i mean wat is she tinkin.. and in front of everyone, chomel still haf to put on a strong front, jokin wif everyone, as if nth happen.. haizz.. children reali brin so much problems to their parents.. so tis will include mi too.. so in future, hw shld i handle my own kids??
thn todae i haf lunchie alone leh.. hehe~* actualie i felt quite proud of myself leh.. its like i did sumting i normally will not do loh.. aniway, i had a loti todae wif orange juice.. thn i sit outside the shaw house ther n eat.. thn saw beast todae.. but thn didnt tok to him.. he pass by the shop onli.. got pple rich loh.. da bao xiao bao wan.. thn actualie todae i still recieved quite a number of sms.. all askin if i feelin beta and all.. thanks kae pple~*
thn yk came.. haizz.. he sent mi an sms ard 6pm, thn say his on his wae dwn to orchard to pick mi up.. actualie i got abit fedup loh.. its like wat if i had already make plans for the dae?? thn in the bus, i ask him to stop doin all tis stuff.. i mean i dun wan to see him 7 daes a week.. i need my own space.. i mean i dun see the diff between we together and not together.. and i'm havin 2nd tots bout lizzie too.. coz she's growin at a very speed.. and she's still not okie wif oo.. and she still insisted to wake mi up every morn.. and aso one ting.. i dun wan to own yk aniting. she's definately not a cheap gift..
kae.. put everyting aside, actualie i feelin quite hapie todae.. coz earli in the mornin ermm.. duno lah.. hehe~* todae i aso feelin much beta liao.. the nose is much beta liao.. i'm onli havin a nose block todae.. drea called mi at 9.30am, thn i couldnt even utter a word.. thn i called tom( my sis ah) ard 7pm, he say i sound as if i'm dyin.. hehe~* coz of the nose clocked, and aso coz of my throat.. its realie bad todae.. i kept coughin and all.. and haizz.. duno lah.. but thn at least i dun feel letagic todae.. kae lah.. endin here liao.. nitezz~*

Juz reach home ah.. 7pm fang gong, take 111 thn change 72 home took mi 1hour half.. waited very long for both the buses. todae okie loh.. i mean its juz like last time loh.. start wrk, thn wait for lunch time to cum.. lunch cum and go liao thn wait to close shop.. thn long time never see chomel and seetha liao.. thye didnt change alot lah.. juz tat chomel seems to put on abit of weight liao, and seetha got more whites on her head.. haven see joseph yet.. but thn seetha told mi he changed alot.. wonder hw tis sister look like nw.. todae i not feelin well mah.. thn ard 11am, i stand dwn ther, i like wan faint wan faint like tat.. i can as if feel the world spinnin like tat.. thn go take temperature at the security area.. i so scare i cannot make it. coz i scare i will fever, thn they will ask mi go home.. but thn my temp onli 36.5 leh.. in the afternoon, i saw tis girl.. she's the supermodel of the year for Singapore.. she's tat 14 year old girl.. and she's actualie very ugly loh.. her face so stuck-up.. and she's realie tall loh.. and whn i sae tall, she's REALIE TALL...
hehe~* thn todae mel came dwn and eat lunch wif mi.. i mean i was quite surprised by tis act of his.. coz his havin sch todae.. thn his sch is at city hall ther ba.. thn he break time purposely take cab dwn juz to eat macdonald wif mi.. thn the break onli an hour mah.. he eat wif mi till 2pm thn he still haf to go bac sch.. but thn i did a stupid ting aso lah.. i told him i like sumone else.. so i guess he nxt time will not cum eat wif mi liao.. but thn aso heng he cum n eat wif mi.. if not i all alone.. like very ke lian like tat.. thn yk aso came dwn wan eat lunch wif mi.. but thn by the time he reach orchard, already 2pm liao.. thn my break frm 1pm to 2pm mah..
i very touched.. coz seems like quite a number or pple knw i sick.. and todae i start wrk.. thn i recieved quite a number of sms askin mi am i feelin beta todae, and aso hws my wrk.. hehe~* thanz pple for all ur care n concern.. i haf not exactly replied everyone.. but thn thanks kae~* actualie still not feelin very well.. so i goin slp earli tonite.. hopefully i can slp early tonite.. last nite i lied on the bed frm 10.20pm till 12am i aso sui bu zao.. thn tru out the nite i kept wakin up.. lizzie was one of the reason.. the other was i'm feelin abit giddy.. its like i'm in those very faintish state.. tink tonite will be beta ba~*

Goin to bed nw liao.. huili, tom, jo and yk juz left my hse. very tired.. realie is sick liao.. die lah, tml first dae of wrk summore.. duno hw leh.. everyone pray i can make it kae.. juz nw play mahjong.. maybe sick pple got sick luck.. i won leh.. win 11plus.. not bad ah.. and lizzie hor.. she's not goin to leave mi after all.. coz i realie bu she de.. its nw set at she will go over to yk hse first.. coz i realie is bu she de lah.. hehe~* told her girl who wans to buy her tat i reali bu she de, let mi tink over for a couple more weeks first.. kae lah.. everyting seems to be a happie endin.. AArrGghh.. very xing ku ah.. like long time no fall sick liao.. why muz wait till i wan start wrk thn sick leh...

Its mi again.. juz nw i went to slp.. wif lizzie.. on my bed.. i was like huggin her to slp.. guess tis will be the last time liao.. its such a nice feelin loh.. i realie duno sae wat.. but thn i realie dun wan her to go.. she came into my life all of a sudden.. and juz whn i felt so attached to her, she's goin to leave mi.. i knw i'm nw juz acting like a kid at toy'r'us screamin and cryin for the adults to buy toys for mi.. i knw i'm behavin in a very unreasonable wae.. i mean she's onli here for bout 10 daes, its not too long a period and all.. but thn i reali duno lah..
my throat is not feelin ani beta.. and the nose too.. to make it worst.. i got the feelin i'm havin slight fever.. why muz all bad tings cum at the same time.. haf i been a notti girl recently tats y God is tryin to punish mi or sumting..

Its not even 8am, but thn i wake up liao.. nw i totally cant slp at all.. the tot tat lizzie will be leavin mi tis evenin reali hurts.. i reali cant bear to let her go.. i mean, i reali love her u knw.. how?? she's realie cute and the wae she licks, the wae she goes after the insects in the hse.. the wae she rolls ard.. the wae she will go after her own tail, barkin at her yellow bone and all.. i mean these are stuff oo dun do wan.. they are both very unique individual. one cant replace the other.. over tis one week, i haf to admit i haf grown to like lizzie more the oo.. coz she's more affectionate towards mi.. i mean she slps wif mi and all.. whn i return home late, my mum told mi lizzie insisted on waitin juz outside my room for my return.. she refuse to go into my mum room no matter hw they coax her.. i mean she knws it wan loh.. she knws this is her slpin quaters.. but it aso shows her loyalty towards mi.. i mean i was home the entire week last week.. i realie spent alot of time wif her.. the bondin beween the both of us, i tink noone knws.. thou its onli a week.. but thn.....
and to make tings worst, my throat realie hurts.. i wan to haf a lonzenger aso dun haf.. wat time do pharmacy open?? i wan go dwn buy.. seems to be havin a blocked and in the mean while runny nose.. cant even breath wif my nose.. try breathin tru the mouth wif a sore throat.. i haf to take in every breath wif care.. wat is happenin?? why muz all bad tings cum all at once..

and oh ya.. i tink i'm fallin sick.. i seemed to be havin a sore throat nw.. my throat realie hurts. can feel the pain wan.. how?? feelin xing ku.. noone sayang mi aso....*sobsob*

Juz reach home.. todae went to parkway wif beast and ah low.. coz beast didnt make it for emaths2.. thn tis cumin wed got sub paper.. at the rate i see him todae, abit worry he cannot make it leh.. coz firstly he very careless.. copy qus aso copy wrongly tat type.. thn secondly he like abit weak loh.. the type hor, -1(-1) is = 0.. haizz.. thn duno leh.. thn frm sky brightbright study till sunset, thn sky darkdark.. hope he can make it loh.. realie.. Good Luck kae~*~* low aso nice loh.. i mean hard to find such a nice guy loh.. sundae still cum out help him study.. i mean he already grad quite many years bac liao leh.. still can go dig out all the books thn help him.. i is of no help ther wan loh.. coz maths is my worst subject.. thn emaths2 is year one sem two study wan.. so i is totally forget liao..
thn cum home liao, sumone called and say she's in the area, wan to cum dwn see lizzie.. so i reach home liao, thn brought lizzie dwn loh.. its a guy.. tink she's in her 20s.. her name is joey.. she seems liek a nice girl, and can see she reali like lizzie.. they are goin to comfirm again tml see if they are takin her.. but thn i reali bu she de loh.. i mean, haizz.. i aso duno hw to sae lah.. but thn i realie loves her alot.. i'm goin to miss her.. tat girl reali looks like a nice girl.. at least if she takes lizzie, i still not so worry.. but thn.. haizz..
todae fa sms mi again.. he ask mi if its okie if we go out for a dinner, thn go walkwalk.. thn i replied bac say no prob.. haizz.. i aso duno wat to sae lah.. can same class for the past 1sem, but thn didnt exchange a single word.. even durin lesson, the meetin skills we same grp, he can choose to tok to the entire grp but mi wan.. in class even if i standin rite in front of him, he will aso look past mi wan.. nw thn try to be friendly.. duno wats his up to nw..
startin wrk on tues.. so fast ah.. for the past few daes i didnt even send out ani resumes or wat.. but thn after much tot, i decided to go into the IT/engineerin line instead of the admin clerks those position.. coz i tink still young loh.. can still go learn more tings, try out more stuff.. in terms of energy and time, i can afford alot nw.. thn maybe can get a higher pay and all.. so frm tml onwards, i'm goin to try to search for a position which is more or less related to my coz wan..
and in terms of relationship, i will still stick to wat i always say.. wat will cum will cum.. so wat is suppose to be mine will eventualy be mine loh.. no hurry.. i'm still young. i got plenty of time. last year, over the fa's matter, i learnt a lesson.. thou i paid a heavy price for last year's lesson, but thn to a certain extend i tink its worth it loh.. i learnt tat wat i wan is not wat i get.. so tings dun always go my way.. pple i like may not like mi.. and i got to learnt and live wif the fact.. knwin each other is already a yuan fen.. ther are over billions of pple in the world.. but thn why izzit tat u met mi and not sumone else?? so wat more can i ask for..

Sundae liao.. the last dae of tis week.. i'm still feelin damn unhappy over lizzie, i mean i knw she haf to go liao.. but thn mummy is like not very nice to her.. thn i see liao i very upset.. i mean she already haf to go liao.. y make her last few daes here so unhappy for her.. this mornin i woke up ard 7plus, coz she's whinin and barkin away, wantin to go out.. mummy open the door let her out, thn not more thn 10min later, i heard mummy shoutin, thn duno which dog barkin.. thn mummy was screamin t lizzie, tink lizzie attack oo or sumting like tat.. thn wat can i do?? nth but thn brin lizzie bac to the room, thn lock her in the room.. thn she went whinin n barkin away loh.. and i was reali tired.. but thn wat can i do?? notin.. absolutly noting. thn nw wake up liao, all i see is mummy scoldin lizzie.. her tone is those not nice wan loh.. i feel so ...... u knw.. and till nw, she haf not spoken a single word to mi.. nemind lah.. i mean she dun wan to tok to mi i aso cant force her.. she wan like tis thn go ahead loh.. i dun feel like stayin at home todae.. seein her like tis makes mi feel so xing ku.. i dun even mind goin out alone.. but thn i cant bear to leave lizzie alone at home.. i mean i duno wat will happen.. hw?? its forever so contridictin..

Juz reach home.. went out wif unlce alan.. to suntec sitsit toktok abit.. thn watched a movie,'wat a girl wants'.. its overall an okie show loh.. i mean ermm.. can onlie envy tat sort of stuff, knwin it will never happen to u.. coz its a fact loh.. i'll never be a princess or sumting like tat wan loh.. thn after tat meet up wif tom coz he sellin pineapple todae.. thn accompany mi home loh.. thn i ask uncle alan to go find his gf.. sat mah.. at least go meet up wif his gf, sent her home.. thn i juz accompany tom go eat supper thn cum up.. kae.. overall i had fun loh.. uncle alan was jokin wif mi the entire afternoon and all..
thn nw home liao.. haizz. lizzie comfirm got to go liao.. yk had put up an advertisment in yahoo classified ad for her.. i reali feel very sad over it.. i duno if u knw wat i'm tryin to sae here.. i reali feel like cryin u knw.. i reali dun wan to give her up.. but thn mummy is like.. haizz.. so if anione of u nw wans to haf her, pls tell mi kae.. at least if i give it to sumone i knw, i can go see her n knw she's fine and all..
tml sundae liao.. so fast.. i'm goin to start wrk on tuesdae.. at times.. i reali feel very confuse.. i duno wat i wan in life.. its like i knw i'm tryin to find a job nw.. but thn i duno wat sort of job i'm lookin for.. like i duno whether i wan to haf an admin job, or sumting into the engineerin or IT.. i felt so lost.. and its aso like tis whn it cums to the doggies.. at times, i realie wan to keep lizzie by my side at all cost.. coz i reali do love her so much.. but thn at times, i realie feel so tired. i mean for the past 1week, i haf been woken up by her at 6am. u knw hw fedup i feel.. and aso wif mummy scoldin mi and all.. i'm not recievin all the support and all.. i haf to go tru it alone.. its like one sec i wan to keep her, another sec i wan to let her go.. i juz cant make up my mind.. i feel so damn miserable.. and whn it cums to my love life, its aso like tis.. i duno wat i wan aso.. at least i'm glad tat i had already knw for sure its all over between mi n yk.. its like i knw i will not wan to get bac together.. but thn wat do i wan?? i duno. i'm afraid to admit i like sumone else.. coz i'm scare of being hurt, or wat if tat person dun like mi.. i fear rejection.. so does tis means i haf to go on like tis forever.. i dun wan history to repeat.. bac thn whn i was waitin for fa, its reali like tis.. i mean i dun dare to call him at all.. and wat i could do is to sit by the comp everydae, waitin for him to log on to the net.. well.. time reali flies.. all tis happens a year ago liao.. and i reali dun wish for history to repeat.. in the end, its nth but a fruitless wait.. and in the proccess, i got so hurt. haizz.. duno lah.. life is juz like tis.. regardless i like it or not, it still haf to go on.. regardless wat job i got, whether is lizzie by myside, or regardless if i haf tat special sumone by my side, life still haf to go on.. time will not juz stop for mi to go and ponder over it.. and before i made ani decision to wan or dun wan aniting, tat ting might haf already quietly disappear, leavin mi ther to rot away n die.....