Its 2 in the morning and i'm wide awake. Thought i could catch hold of boyfriend, but no such luck. Feeling the dread, lost and all other negative emotions. Not only coz of the lonliness.. Its something more then that. Daddy is still in hospital, but he seemed to be doing fine. Glad there is insurance, at least we do not need to think twice putting him in an A class ward. Thats the little comfort and privacy we could offer him now. Work is horrible as i am trying to find my directions again. Nope, not elsewhere. But just have to regain my bearings again. I felt all odds against me and i have to fight it out all alone. My body is at its all time weak again. Down with all the virus and that makes me vulnerable. My emotion support is thousands of miles away from me. I pray that this week goes by in a flash. I could bear it no more.

Dear bloggie, Life has been stressful in the office. I have not handle the working relationship well and its coming back to hunt me now. Nothing to biggie that I cant handle, but just hoping that You're beside me; going through this path with me.

Dear Bloggie,

Anyone seen my Fat One (picture as above), please contact me ASAP. I am missing my grumpy fat boy to the max. This is going to be a tough period ahead.. =(

Dear Bloggie,

Haiz.. Somehow, it felt different.

The sense of loneliness has set in. I miss the fact that He is so far away from me. You know, its just a sense of lost. Yar, its not forever.. but then.

I wonder how could Bestie handle it.

Dear Bloggie,

I've.. been gaining back all the weight I lost previously. =(

Thou there are still compliments around saying I still look slim, but I know my own body best.. So.. its back to all the zero carbo diet!!

Please let me know the determination once again. *pray hard*

走在一条不知什么路的提防上
眼泪却不争气得往下掉
忽然觉得世界只剩下一个轮廓
连高楼大厦在河中的倒影
也像裹了一层果冻般的不真实
我好想有你在旁边
回想自己究竟在别人生命中
扮演过什么样的角色
我真的应该好好成长了吧
去摔去痛
才能让我更成熟些
期待我还是可以常常写些东西给你
希望真的能够感受而记录下来微妙的改变
说不定哪一天我也会找到属于我真正的幸福

Ermm

Dear Bloggie,

As i sit here.. in the 6th PMM and 3rd Steering Comm, and into the 6th month of our Project with STEE.. Alot of mix feelings.

People come and go.. Mr. NL is gone, so is the 2 Leads for Apps. Even Mr. SY of STEE, a veteren of 17 years is serving his notice. From our side, CSM has left and so have no-EQ.

Project is facing big delay, people are worried and leaving.

许多的感叹，更多的不舍。。世上无不散的宴席，唯独我不能释怀。

Dear Bloggie, I am not exactly that free at work.. but I just have to upload this!! Over the weekend, I attended one of the most important and Life-changing event of EM. :) Wakie early in the morning.. together with Boyfriend, we went to picked up EM's Flowers. This Girl super sweet lah.. she not only prepared her own Hand Bouquet, but also 1 red rose for every lady guest. Okie.. not posting up her "Before" photo.. if not this will be a super long post. So the Make-up Artist at work!! He.. is good can! Very professional. :) The Bride is feeling happy after eating the Lao Po Bing I bought back from HK.. :)

Okie.. after an hour, here comes our Pretty Bride!! :)

Poor Boyfriend waiting the entire morning coz I was with EM..

This JP hor.. is super funny. But super lor soh. Keke.. but nevertheless, he struck the correct cords somewhere in me and I am tearing non-stop through out the whole ceremony.

Finaly.. time to exchange the rings. Its a Life-long commitment, here they are.. sealing the sweet deal. :)

Congratulations Mr. and Mrs. Tan!

The Catering EM got is good!! Pretty cupcakes..

The spread is really good.. I like!

With HL and EH..

Then then.. its time for her to throw her bouquet and see who is next in the queue. Keke.. HL and EH really want this I know, but unfortunately.. neither of them caught it. :)

A Group photo and I am Loving this.. We've been friends for more then a dacade and a Wedding unit us back together.

A photo.. with the Pretty withs with a tinch of Pink to end of my Post.

Congratulations Darling.. I wish you Happiness and Bliss. AT will be a Loving Hubby and I am sure thou life is not a bed of roses, but he will find ways to sweeten it for you. :)

Dear Bloggie, Since I've taken out all the photos from my Memory Card (coz I go HK.. so clear out the space), I have all the photos in my Office Lappie. So might as well... upload it. .4 Mar. We meet up after work and celebrated Neighbour and AS's Birthday!! I had meeting at STEE (@ Jurong Easy can...), then Boyfriend swing by to pick me up and we headed down to Golden Mile for SteamBoat. Keke.. all the couple couples.

Amos + GF!! Welcome to the Group!! :)

I think I am telling him to come nearer so we can take a photo together.

Oooh... so cute!

Haha... this one, not so cute. :x

Keke.. everyone is hungry!!

.10 Mar. (Haha.. I think)

Took leave and settled the misc items with Boyfriend. Meet up with the Banker and signed off the Letter of Offer. I... am officially in debt. =(

Then.. we headed to the Lawyer to signed off all the documents. Keke, as Boyfriend said.. I paid 10% while he paid 90%; but I got 50% of the House on Papers!! Hohoho.. a perfect deal!

. Random.

We were at Bishan for a movie.. And I saw this!!

Dont you think.. this looks like my Boyfriend, especially when he is grumpy!! Keke.. Love!

. 19 Mar.

The fateful day where I started to fall sick.. Meet the Girls at Orchard to confirm which is the wallet QH wants for her Birthday. I am entasked to buy the wallet in HongKong.

Anyway... Dinner at Tetsu @ Tanglin. Keke.. this is where Boyfriend brought me on our 1st Date.

The Birthday Girl.. Happy Birthday QH!! And Congratulations!! After my HK Trip; learned that our Darling here got Proposed!! Hohoho.. I am so looking forward to you Big Day. :)

I.. am super sick already and refuses to take photo. But Bestie insist that we should still take a Group Photo. So here goes.. :)

Okie.. its been a long update. Shall end here.. :)

Dear Bloggie, A long overdue update.. *smile* [1] Fall seriously sick a couple weeks back. Flu got the better of me a couple of Saturdays back; and it develop into a fever after QH's Birthday Dinner and chilling out at Punggol Marina. That Seawind just does not work with that Flu.. Visited a new doctor (coz change company) and the meddy just dont work too well with me. My hands was trembling big time and I was puking my lungs out on Sunday. The only good part: I lost another kg there. :p [2] Rested at home on Monday, and back to work on Tuesday to clear my work.. Feeling weak and giddy and visited the Doctor @ Suntec. Turned out.. my blood pressure was a little low and I got chase home again. Boyfriend swing by after work with MacDonald and pleny of 100Plus (He googled and concluded that low blood pressure needs more sodium).. zero appetite. [3] After a busy week.. We took the last flight and flew off to HongKong on Friday nite. Yes yes.. That'll need some updates.. But!! I foresee that I'll be a little busy (Reads: Lazy) and that updates will eventually not happen. :p Bad News: I gain weigh with all that Good Food in HK Good News: I am back to the same weight before I fall sick [4] Its been 6 months!! I.. recieved my Confirmation from Boss from after my HK Trip. And.. One. I got promoted! Two. My grade up-ped! Three. 15% Increcement! Woo hoo~~* [5] Tomorrow.. is 2nd April. It is EM's Solemnization Day!! That reminds me.. I am just going to send that reminder to the Photographer later. And I did up her Guest Book!! It might not be very professionally done, but definately done out of all my Love and Blessings for the couple. I'll have to wakie early tomorrow with Boyfriend to help pick up the flowers before making our way down to help out. You must be Xing Fu kae Darling!! [6] Granny (Mumm's side) is in Hospital. Ermm.. from what Mum said.. her condition is not exactly well. Her lungs' infection spread to her blood which is causing hallucination. Will be heading to the hospital on Sunday to visit her. Nope.. I do not take departures well. So pray hard that Granny get well soon! [7] Have been busy lately.. Boyfriend is still so cute and loving. So.. keke, I'll try post up QH's Birthday pictures first lah. :p

Dear Bloggie,

National Geographic is showing this Mini Series that Singapore's Mindef has came up with now. Guess this is film a couple of years back but I only got to know about it now.. But well, better late then never.

There are 18 mini episodes, and I watched all at a go last nite.. all the way past midnite. But it is very well-done!! And like what Boyfriend said.. I am sold!! Well, since Mindef could sell the idea to me, then this campaign is indeed successful. Good job Mindef!!

This is a series.. where they showcase 15 young chaps from Wk 0 Day 1 all the way till they POP. It shows how a group of total Strangers bonded and became Brothers. How they pull through all the training, discover a side of themselves that they never knew and turn into a better Man.

Haha.. just a side note; my First Love is the Best Recruit back then you know!! Keke.. :p




So well.. catch it if you can!! Highly recomanded!! :)

Dear Bloggie,

I have never know what is Tsunami till the news of the horrifying Tsunami which strike at the neighbouring Countries which brings about many death right after X'mas in 2006.

Tsunami... what is that?

I never knew this word existed in the Dictionary.

But after 2006.. I know what is Tsunami and what brings about a Tsunami after watching documentaries after documentaries in National Georaphic. Understand what created this scary disaster, the number of life it'll take and homes it will wreck, and the amount of effort to rebuild and restore back the once peaceful life.

But well.. for a disaster that I have never heard off till 2006, but has happened multiple time during the last 5 years. I guess.. it must be some human activities that has disrupted the nature cycle that force the nature to malfunction like that. =(

Anyway.. it is most unfortunate for the Earthquake and Tsunami to strike Japan last Friday. It is really saddening to see so many deaths and home wrecked.

But on another note; no other country would have reacted better then Japan. So well, could I phase it in a way that.. lucky its them? Err.. nope, that sounds rather wrong.

Well.. hope the situation gets under-controlled real soon. Praying for good weather and thus smoother rescue operations. Wishing for me Survivors and lesser Deaths.. and well.. =(

Dear Bloggie,

.Random.

[1] BDM left after a short 2 weeks.. and I cannot understand how come the 2 of us bonded so well within this short period of time. I am so going to miss you babe.. and all the best in your future endeavours.

We have to keep in touch okie!! More Mr. Curry next time.. we have the whole menu to conquer!

[2] New CSM is such an idiot. I find him so incompetent and lazy to the max. I can understand that you are new and need some direction from me. But to tell me you forget some Financial Terms and ask me to call up Finance Girl to check.. is just a little too much right? And yupz.. I am not telling you Boss's schedule so as to not give you chance to sneak off.

Haiz.. Is it my problem? That I am always facing so much challenges with my colleauges at work.

[3] Darling EM & AT ROM is at its final count down.. I am so excited for you can!! And I really Thank you so much for letting me play such a huge role for this important event in your life. Do not vex over the preparations, relax and enjoy the process..

Ni ni ding yao xing gu oh!

[4] As for the house.. okie, let me do a separate one just for the house. I want to document every single details. =)

Real busy now.. cannot continue ah.

Have a fantastic weekend ahead!! =)

Dear Bloggie,

This will be the post on.. Valentines' Day 2011. =)
Since Valentines' Day falls on a Monday, we decided to celebrate it on Saturday first. All dolled up and waiting for the Boyfriend to come pick me up.. He has planned a whole morning of Goodness for ME!!

Reached my place.. but he realised the Reservations got a little mix-ed up. Guess he is feeling frustrated and is trying to sort things out. But well.. let the Man go sort out the stuff while I continue to snap. :x

After which.. we made our way down to Food For Thoughts!! I love those English Brekkie, and Boyfriend is always looking out for new places to bring me for such Food.

We ordered a Big Brekkie with a little of Everything!!

And this delicious Banana & Walnut Pancake to share. This is even better then the Brekkie at Spruce we went to a couple weeks back (okie, thats for our anniversary, I will post it up.. some day). I am craving for it already.. Can we go back soon??

After a Good Brekkie.. we head back to Boyfriend's House. He playing his PS 3, and I take a little nap nap. :p

On Valentines' Day itself.. I told him I no longer want any Flowers!! The Pretty bouquet he sent to Office for Anniversary (okie.. I'll post it up someday soon kae!!) are still looking fine. So no point wasting more money right.

But the Silly Boy still send another Bouquet... to Office.

With a very Sweet Msg.. that he 'kop' from somewhere. *tsk tsk*

We met at Ion for Dinner.. I got him a little something, and his all upset coz we agreed that there will be no Pressies for Valentines' Day this year. :x

And so.. we met at Ion after work for 4 Fingers! Been wanting to try it for the longest time ever, but never have a chance.

Who says Valentines' Day Meal got to be some fanciful and expensive meal.. This works perfect for us too!! And there is no need to make reservation, and in fact.. the whole Food Junction area is pretty empty. And ooh... the Chicken is Yummy!! I like the Garlic ones!

Boyfriend bought some Peking Duck as sides..

And.. I had an Ice-cream to end of the Day. Something simple would turn out perfect, just coz it is with you. Thanks Dear for everything!! =)

Dear Bloggie,

A... very important event in my Life. =)

Boss gave me half a day off.. and we headed down to the Showroom on 17 Feb. The piece of Land at Punggol MRT (which was meant to be for the new town central) was sold for a record high price the day before, Boyfriend was afraid that the prices at Prive will be tune upwards. Hence we decided to not waste anymore time.. and just take the leap ahead.

Together with Boyfriend Papa and Mama, we headed down to the Prive Showroom. Boyfriend spoke to Boyfriend Papa, and Boyfriend Papa is very supportive. I guess.. that is the final push seal the deal.

Boyfriend Mama has some concerns about our Choice Unit, but ultimately.. we manage to came to a conclusion..

And we bought our Choice Unit!! Yupz.. this is our Block. =)

And this... is our unit. =)

Boyfriend.. signing off the paperwork. =)

Thanks Dear..

For trusting me and took out so much money for the down payment.

For beliving that I could keep to my part of the deal to minimise shopping.

For loving me.. and for every every thing. =)