Dear Blog,

Been some time since I blogged in an entry.. Been a busy week..

Anyway, today is one of most most not busy day for the entire week.. I was working like hell in the begining of the week.. Everyday got so much unfinished work. But its alright.. And currently, my office is at Level 5. Heard that they are renovating Level 4 now, and we might be moving down soon.. Kind of excited about shifting new office..

Well, went out with Emi on Tuesday. Didnt do anything much, just meet her at Orchard. Shop around abit. Bought this biscuit at Taka B2 under the recommandations of Emi.. Its damn yummy!! I simply love it.. Its Meiji Petit Brunch (Chicken Flavor..).. Simply delicious.. hehe~*

Its mummy birthday yesterday. Bought her a cake from Angie The Choice. The cake is still in the fridge, not cutted yet. Have not been talking to her for the past 1 week plus. And also no intention of me breaking the ice. So well, we shall just see.

Xiang's sis going to USA today.. Bon voyage to her!! She said she want to be a baker.. So she's trying to save up as much cash as possible now so she could fullfill her dreams.. Actually quite hard to imagine her being a baker.. She graduated from NUS chemical with 1st class honours.. Imagine her hiding at the kitchen baking cakes and breads?? Giving up her high-paid job in exchange for something lower in pay and long working hours... Well, if she's happy with it, what can we say??

Ate lunch at Changi Airport Staff Canteen with my colleauges.. The nasi Padang there is yummy.. And I eat and eat, and I can see my tummy bludging out.. I was still thinking of having a nice dinner with xiang today.. (I was like thinking of pasta or ramen, or China town for porridge or dim sum..) Think I can forsake the plans.. Really cannot take it.. But I going for the Dance Aerobic tonight..

Todae is Easter Sunday.. How nice..

So anyway, stayed over at the chalet from Thursday till Saturday. Enjoyed myself there with my cousins, took plenty of pictures.. Will try to upload it up here when I know how.. Friday went swiming.. And I got sun-burnt. My face starts peeling today, and my shoulder is red like lobster..

Today is 27th March, its also Qian's birthday. Happy Birthday girl!! So meet up with Qian and Karen for dinner at Plaza Singapura. Andrea didnt managed to make it.. Frankly speaking, I am pretty disappointed about it, but then well.. As we grow up, each and every of us got our life and schedule.. So ermm.. haizz..

On my way back home, quarrel with xiang again. Not really quarrel, but then more of I am upsetted about it. He never treat me as good as his ex-her. Why?? Coz i dont treat him as well as she does.. But then I really think everyone is an individual. Its not fair to be comparing us like this right? So, I ask for a break-up.. Maybe more of a cooling off period. If his not going to change this mentality, I told him not to ever look for me again. I am who I am. I wanted to be treated with respect. What in the fucking world do I have to be the 2nd best?? I dont think all this is in a moment of impulse. Things having been brewing for the last coupld of weeks.. Especially last week. I am really really upset by all things he did.

I think he really change. Recently, I am really putting in alot of effort in our relationship. But then he is simply like taking everything for granted. I've enough.

So, I make this decision.
Either he change, or we can go separate ways. I am really tired. If his going to be so un-loving after our being-together for 1year plus, then how can I trust this guy to be 'the one' for the rest of my life...

Dear Blog,

In the office now.. So thought I will come in and leave a blog as I will be heading to the chalet tonight. No access to the internet.. And I scare by the end chalet, I will be like enjoying myself, and forgetting what I am feeling now..

I am so upset. No words to show how am I feeling now. I have not talked to my mum for the past one week. Going though cold war. Tuesday, I meet up with Andrea and we went shopping for Qianhui's present. We bought her a Burberry's bag. And Andrea also bought one for herself, and I bought 2. I was thinking I will give one to my mum for her birthday. But then right now, the bag is still locked up in my room. Coz I have not been talking to her, I dont know how to give it to her..

Well, I quarrel with Xiang.. Not really quarrel, but then I am truely upset coz of him.. His driving yesterday, he didnt come pick me up thou he said he will. Well, long story and I dont want to repeat. I have not called him since then. And I have no intention to call him either.

Luckily there is chalet tonight.. I can go there and just hide. Burry myself there away from my mum.. And maybe him. I dont want to see them till I feel better. I am so upset this time round, maybe is because both thing happen at the same time. I really feel like siting here and cry..

Dear Blog,

its me again. after so many entried of perfect english, let me just slack for one day. i will still maintain the good english, just that without the Caps okie.. let me just be lazy for a day since today is monday..

feeling so ever tired.. last night saw quite a few friends online. so stayed online longer to talk to them abit.. firstly, saw that hengheng and ivan got the same nick in msn.. so the curosity gets hold on me so i msged them and ask them wats with the angel and wings nick.. then they told me it comes from a very nice song.. okie.. i abit the mountain tortise.. but then cant help it too..

then talked quite abit with heng.. ermm.. talked about the good old times.. well.. memories are meant to be held tightly near our hearts.. no point turning back and asking why didnt certain things happened at certain time. things happened or dont happen for a reason. everything is predestined. but then still glad that somewhere in my life, hengheng appeared.. so special friend he shall be to me always kae.. but noone knows what the future will brings, and as he had wished me last night, i too hoped he will be happy always..

yz was also online last night.. but then didnt really talk much to him.. anyway, saw ryan online yesterday morning, and he asked me out for a ktv tonight.. kind of looking forward to it. its been quite some time since i have been to ktv. thou i am looking forward to saving money, but then hehe~* i still welcome the break..

tml meeting andrea go buy qian's birthday present. i have already call my cousin, she will meet me at dfs tomorrow, so she can get the discount for us. i told her i want to buy a bag. she told me she thinks that burberry suit me best.. actually i was tinking of a gucci.. wat do u think?? well, maybe she is right, coz gucci seems abit too old for me. if i were to buy a burberry, its going to be much cheaper too.. dior is also on my wish list actually... (all of a sudden i am remined of the key pendent hengheng gave me last year.. hehe~* maybe the pink dior gave me the girlgirl feeling, and the pendant he gave me is also along that sweetsweet line..)

and yesh!! xiang bought me the twins album.. well, about half the album is their cantonese translated to chinese songs, while the other half are new songs.. i actually kind of like the songs.. thou the cantonese one seems nicer (even xiang think so when we played the songs in the car yesterday..)but then overall, i still love it!!! they have those ermm.. what you call that.. cant remember that word for it but anyway. they are soo soo soo pretty!!!! hehe~*

tired tired... so chatted with them till quite late, and after that i went on to read my dan brown book.. deception point is really not as nice as the previous 2. in fact, i think is am dreading to finish it now.. haizz.. regret buying. shld have buy the other book.. and the air-con is damn cold last night, so i kept waking up.. too cold i cant sleep.. so today, haizz.. and to make it worst, i was like so busy in the morning.. running up and down, so much stuff to do.. so that makes me feel even worst now.. but good thing is 1 more hour to fang gong.. hehe~* shall slowly clear my stuff, and i shall leave office on the dot and go meet ryan for my ktv liao..

well, yesterday went suntec food fair and all, bought a skirt from this dont know what fair.. i just posted the picture in friendster.. i wanted to post it up here too. but then i couldnt figure out how to.. anyone can teach me?? coz i really dont have the time (plus i am simply too lazy) to go figure it out.. haizz.. anyway, that skirt is nice.. mummy was asking me why recently i kept buying those mini skirt.. coz what to do, recently all the nice skirt seemed to be those short skirt...

kae.. think i end here liao.. hope this last hour will FFffllllyyyy......

Hey pple, early in the morning, let me share 2 pieces of good news with you...

Yesterday, I was in the office, then my boss called me into his room.. And he broke into a smile (which was like very seldom..) and told me,'how could I missed your comfimation..' So, he finally remembered it.. I was getting abit pek chek over the overdue comfirmation matters.. He asked me if what I'm getting now is enought, then I jokingly told him money where will enough.. Then he smile at me and told me,'okie, then i give you 1.7k now.. Enough??' Then I was *nod nod my head*, trying to hide my smile.. Then he went on to ask am i happy working here, and anyone bully me.. Actually I am his secretary, who dares to bully me when Ihe is my boss.. hehe~*

So, I got a 200bucks pay increment.. And wasnt I a happy girl yesterday..

And, xiang told me he got feeling he will strike 4D last thursday.. So ask me go buy 4D. Buy his car plate number, motor number, his pay(after after pay increment) and I also buy our birthdays.. And guess what.. Last night the 4D open his motor number.. But then I buy alittle only.. So only win 65bucks.. But then this is the first time I stike 4D leh.. hehe~*~*

So, thats the 2 good news yesterday..

And yesterday I go parkway eat sakae sishi.. Yummy.. And I paid with my Visa mini.. hehe~* Then bought a pair of shoes at Charles and Keith.. It looks nice.. The heels is like sooo slim.. So spent 30bucks on that.. And after that, saw Twin's new chinese album... The packaging is like so nice.. And Esther is telling me now there are alot of picture and all inside.. So tempting.. And they are giving out this Giant size poster while stock last.. So, I have just ask xiang, to buy me the album today.. hehe~* Since we strike 4D.. hehe~* So happpy!!!

I just typed in an entry and due to the stupid server, it didnt get posted up.

Fuck.

Dear Blog,

Time flies, today is the 19th of March.. One look at the Calendar, I think March is one of the hardest to pass month.. Coz with the long holiday breaks in Febuary, March simply looks too long. But then right now, its already 19th and there will be a public holiday next week.. So time and tide, really waits for no man.

Next Sunday will be Qian's birthday.. 22nd birthday. Everyone of us seemed to be aging. Be it you like it or not. How I miss those days in school.. But then, growing up is a process where noone can stop. So instead of me looking back at the past, might as well see what the future holds for me..

Life goes on.. Nothing really interesting.. More arguements and loving moments with Xiang.. Its like a cycle.. Why? I dont understand why we quarrel so much.. Is it really my problem? I really dont want it to be like this.. But is it really my problem? Or is he asking too much from me? I really think for his sake, I have changes a little.. Thou not alot, but then definately a little. Well, I guess its still not enough.

I miss my friends.. Everyone seemed busy with their own life now and have no time for each other. Is this healthy? I got no idea.. I miss everyone so much. Friends are so important to me. As I grow up, these are people who helped me and matured me. Without them, I will not be what I am today.. Am I happy now? Well, I dont know. I guess at times life simply looks like it has lost its meaning.. Working so hard everyday is for what? To make money and to keep life going? And before you realise you have already die and rot away.. Bringing nothing with you to heaven.. So what the point of all? To survive till I die? Sounds ridiculous right.. Well, its alright. Think I am just in a cranky mood today...

To survive till I die.. Sounds lame right? Its like making myself miserable while waiting for death.. Might as well die now?? Save myself from all miseries.. Hehe~* Think I went overbroad.. I love myself too much to get myself killed.. But then just settle down and quietly think, I reallye find everything kind of meaningless.. I dont know who still reads this. But then if you happen to read this, please do me a kind deed. Send me a sms, and ask me out. Please believe me, I really miss you..

Dear blog,

I know its been quite some time since I came in.. Well, reason being xiang started another blog for us.. Yupz, its us.. So I am a good girl still, updating occasionally at the other side. Not that I dont want to come in here, but thn just that I dont know what to write..

Well, been weeks since I came in I think. I dont want to go into boring details.. Work comes and goes as it. But one interesting event was my parents went for a short trip last week. So, I had the car to myself.. So last Thursday, I got the car and went on my virgin trip to the office all by myself.. I will skip the details, but then I am damn exicted about it.. And Friday too, I sent myself to work..

Ermm.. And then I bought the Angel and Demons from Dan Brown. Think I can finish the book within the next couple of days.. The story is very captivating till I am damn reluctant to put down the book. Truely a book I will recommand to all..

Nothing much happened, Ben's birthday come and passed. I got him to invite his friends back for a small party. And I ordered pizza for the kids. Looking at them, it strucked me how much I have aged. And how much I am longing to go back to that time, when I was still a kido myself..

Okie, just a short note (ermm.. doesnt really look that short right..) Shall update more again okie.. And for those who care, OO is fine now.. Stiches removes, and his happily sleeping at home now I guess..

I finished The Da Vinci Code yesterday.. Coz I was on leave for OO sake.. But then he didnt really need much look after... Did I mentioned that he hurt his eye on Sunday? The whole thing was like so drama, and I'm not going into it again. Anyway, took cab and rushed him down to Stevens Road Mount Pleasent. This is the first time he went on cab.. And that's when I realised how difficult is it to take cab with OO.. Noone cabby wants to pick us up.. Singaporeans are really bad.. I mean OO is not even a big dog. His only a real cute looking toy dog.. What harm can he do?

So yesterday I took leave and stayed home and finish the entire The Da Vinci code.. A marvelous and fantastic book.. I really recommand you to read this book.. Alot of interesting facts about art, codes, histories and ermm, should I classify that as mathematics, facts that I never knew.. Especialy the history part.. Those who know me personally should know I am a history student back in Secondary School. Actually I really like histroy quite alot... Thus....

Anyway, last night I was like so cross with xiang coz he deprieved me of dinner.. Well, I know he respect me and he said he NEVER will come to this site.. But then no matter what, just to dis-credit him, I am really mad at him for starving me... Just to let everyone know I got a less then perfect boyfriend..

Really dont know how to express how upset am I feeling now. I can just sit down here infront of my PC and cry.

I called up the vet early this morning, and told them I decided to let OO keep the eye, the vet advise was actually the opposite. I was so upset. I am going to pick OO home today, and have applied for leave to stay home take care of him tomorrow.. If his swelling subside, then maybe there is still hope of him keeping the eye. If not....

How?? Can someone please help me. I really dont know how to take it anymore. With daddy and mummy like that, it only makes me feel worst. At a time like this, when I need support from them most, they actually treat me like that.. Arent we a family?? Isnt OO and Lizzie part of the family??

OO injured his eye again todae.. I rushed him dwn to Stevens Road Mount Pleasent.. He have to spend a nite ther.. And now, the vet left mi with a decision to make till tomorrow morning.. To take out his eye, or to let him keep it. And after much thinking, I decided to let him keep the eye... I really cant bear to let them go do the operation and take out his eye. I rather take the risk and let him keep the eye. I know this might not be a fair to OO, as everytime his eye pop out, to a certain extend he will experience great pain. But then I also really cant bear to make the decision to let them remove his eye. It is just so cruel..

And these 2 days, mummy and daddy is angry with me. All coz of the doggies. And today, when OO eye's got injured again, I was having lunch with dear at Sengkang. Then I rushed home by cab immediately, only to be greeted by Daddy at the living room. I really tink his mad. He actually wanted to lecture me. At a time like this, the most urgent stuff to do was to rush OO tp the vet.. And he actually want to to talk things out with me. So after he made his openning speech, I talked back to him. I told him,' Do you think the both of you are being fair to me??' Thn I left the hse..

I dont want to go further into the details of how am I wronged.. But then its alright. I am really worry bout my OO.. He is a timid one. He comfirm cannot take it leavin outside alone.. It really hurt my heart.. In the cab, he already start to shiver so much that I am so worried. And once we reach Mount Pleasent, guess he remember the smell and know what's in store for him.. I really love him.. Hope nothing bad happens.. And haizz.. I wonder how much this is going to cost me.. I just paid for their vet vist a couple of weeks back for Lizzie's skin stuff and OO's check-up...

Anyway, last week was quite an okie week for mi. Work was okie, and Dear was also okie.. Yesterday we went to Sim Lim and bought a Digital Camera finaly. Good thing I didnt buy the mp3 player.. If not to top it up with OO's medical bill, this month is really going to be such a drain for me.. the camera is really cool, and I guess I will start posting pictures up here pretty soon..

Thats all folks. Feeling damn miserable still..