Dear Bloggie,

Todae wednesdae... I'm on leave todae~~*

So happie. Very nan de that I dont have to work on a weekdae.

Anyway, I just reached home. Todae is a very full-filling dae, glad that I didnt waste my leave.

Okie, I woke up at like 7plus this morning. My bio-alarm. Cant help it. So after that I went down to NTUC, and bought a can of longans and the koniyaku jelly powder. Suddenly have the urge to make it.

So I made 7trays of the koniyaku jellys. Great success!!

Then I did some housework coz my mummy ask me to. She totally made FULL USE of me and my leave... So I vacumm and mopped the whole house, and washed the balcony and kitchen.

Then after that, around Dennis came by to pick me up. His being really nice today, he sent me down to SIM. Ermm... Actually his always quite nice de lah... Hehe.

So yar. He came by picked me up, and we went down. Got quite lost. So tru out the entire trip, I was like flipping the road directory giving all the quite wrong instructions. We went all the way down to fong seng, then realised we were at the wrong end of Clementi Road. So did a u-turn, more confusions, and finally. We Reached!! (after like an hour...)

Then I completed all my applications... So now have to wait till ermm.. Early November I think, to know if I got admitted into the p/t course in SIM.

Then we rushed down to Bishan. For a ultra quick lunch and we caught the show Shen Hua. Nice show, I like!!!

He was telling me we are always rushing tru food everytime he meet me. Actually come to think of it, its really pretty true loh.

Then after the show, we parted ways. He went down to Eunos to pick up his gf. She having her TP today... (anyway, she didnt pass....)

Then I took the train all the way down to Boon Lay. To meet xiang for dinner.

I think I'm being nice and all, but well.. Upon meeting him, we have an like ultra big arguement. Haizz.. I dont want to go into the details lah. So anyway, after that I came home.

Well, its back to work tomorrow. And tomorrow's going to be an ultra busy day. Tuesday before I leave the office, my in tray is already like over flowing... But I already OT till like 6.45pm. And I really got to rush. So haizz.. tomorrow comfirm another long long dae.

I am in a dilema again today. The MIA is in action again...

Dear Bloggie,

Its been another week. Todae is once again my long awaited Sunday.

Yesterday after work, went down town to meet up with Xingwei, Esther and Huili.

Had Delifrance for lunchie. Didnt know that Delifrance is totally revamped. Into Cafe Cartle style. Took pictures, but still waiting for Esther to send it out to us...

After which xiang came pick me up. Went to Tampines, I packed Yoshinoya and Tori-Q and we head down to Pebby Bay for dinner. Actually I like dinner this way. Its like so nice and cozy with nice food. :)

After that rushed home for a mahjong session with Huili, Mao and Xiang. Then ended the game at 1plus and went to meet Emi and Clement at the KTV pub.

That ended my day with myself driving myself home at like 4am.

Today I'm supposed to go JB with Dennis, but I cant wake up. So sorry kae~~*

Okie, finally... This has been a long and lazy week. I'm doing nothing practically, but then well...

.18th September 2005.

At the saloon recommanded by Emi and Huili... one last look at my black black hair.

Okie, thats the after... Actually all I did was to dye and hi-light it. But since I going to Tracy's wedding, so the girl they actually curl up the ends for me.. Just for that night.

And this is how the back looks like. I still prefer my straight hair thou...

After that we went to change in the toilet at Causeway Point, and then took a cab to that country club where she's having the dinner..

And this is the pressent we got for her. Its a pair of the Precious Moments glasses which looks damn pretty.. (but damn useless loh..)

Mi in the cab...

And this is Huiyu...

And this is the Bride of the dae.. Tracy (whom I always call mummy back when I'm still in the old company..)

Me and the bride.. Actually that dae, I can really feel that she's very very xing fu. This is the first time I saw her husband. His really a very very nice guy. Glad that mummy found such a nice man to entrust her life to.

The 3 of us with the Bride...

My ex-colleauges and mi... (Xiaowen and Siling)

Tracy changed into her gown for the night... She with Ken, her husband. Very the fu qi xiang right...

Okie, there's alot more pictures and all. But I getting lazy. So let this picture be the finale...

She her so xing fu, we were all like wondering when's out turn. Hehe~~*

Dear Bloggie,

I'm in the office now.

Its raining heavily now, thus zero mood to work. Anyway my boss is in Shanghai. So well, hehe~* Can eat snake a little...

Wanted to blog about Tracy's wedding. But then for the past few days I'm really too tired. Met up with xiang for dinner on Mondae and Tuesdae, then Wednesdae I fall aslp before 9pm.

Maybe tonight ba, but then feelin a little lazy. Maybe its more then a little...

Anyway, well... xiang wants me back.

I didnt agree to. I told him to give me time to think. Reason being the following:-

1. I'm not a toy. Its not like he wants to leave me, he just leave me like that. Now he wants me back, then all of a sudden his back. No logic right?

2. I'm enjoying the freedom that I have. I can do whatever I want, go wherever I want... The freedom I have now is sweet...

3. I think I might find a better guy. Just like he told me he could find a better girl, I think likewise too... I might really find that guy. Right??

4. What if he leaves me again. I have been tru the emotion rollaer coaster. I dont want to go tru it again.... The feeling is horrible.

Well, I dont know what to do now... This few days, I'm thinking over this matter over and over again. And the fact that someone went MIA like that doesnt help...

But its okie. No advise is needed. I believe I can get over this hurdle myself. Give me time to think, to sort it out...

I think I will know what to do eventually. And hope no matter what choice I make, I will not live to regret.

Dear Bloggie,

Just reach home.

So tired.

Well, I still want to wish Tracy and Ken the newly wed all the best.

May them bai tou xie lao, yong jie tong xin and zao shen gui zi.

Tracy look so xing fu today. See liao I so damn envy. Really is feel so happy for her.

Lots of pictures taken, but then too late to post it up now. Maybe tomorrow night, or Tuesday night.

And my hair. Hehe~~* The color is damn pretty. But the curls (they did temp curls for me...) ermm.. At first I didnt like it. But then the more I see, the more I think it looks quite nice on me...

Okie, time to head to bed. Its going to be 1am soon.

Nitez everyone!!!

Dear Bloggie,

Don't know whatw wrong with you. I just typed out a long post, and after posting it up, you return me an error. And the whole post is gone!!!

So this shall be a short replica of what I typed out earlier on.

Today, is the mid-autum festival. Happie Zhong Qiu jie everyone!!

And today, is also Tracy mummy's Wedding Dae!! Actually me and Huiyu were asked to be her bridemaid. The 1st invitation I ever got. But in the end, it turned out that those born in the year of pig cant see her that morning wedding ritual. So well, no choice. But we will go help out at the dinner later.

So anyway, the next time you all see me, it'll be a brand new me. I will be meeting Huiyu later to dye my hair. And I have decided to keep my fringe long ( all my colleauges say i look better with long fringe thou I actually prefer it short...). So yar.. I need to go bath soon and all to go meet her.

Yesterday, i actually spend th entire day at home. After that mahjong session at Huili's hse, we took a cab home and I reached home around 6.30am and I straight away knock-out. I was like really tired loh. Cant take it. And I spend my entire Saturday slacking at home.

Wanted to go movie with Clement at night, but in the end didnt. Then he went to the ktv pub. But I also too lazy to follow.

Xiang wanted to come pick me up to go for a chat. But in the end I also didnt go out. So we ended up chatting at msn till like 1plus 2am.

He told me what his looking for in a girlfrewn. He asked me if I could be more caring and all. He said he can easily find a girl of all the qualities his looking for, but he could only click with me... He asked me to go think about it.

Well, I dont know if I could make it seriously. Its been 2 mths. When we first broke up, its really hell to me. I'm not sure that I can go tru it again. It took so much help and all from everyone, to get me back to my own feet. I do fear if I couldnt leave up to his standards, then he will leave me again. Or I'll spend alot of my time trying to be the girl he likes and that will be very not-me.

And there's also .......

Well, I really dont know. But I'll go think about it.

This is supposed to be a happy post!! So well, I need to go prepare to meet Huiyu liao. I'll come back with more pictures on the wedding kae~~*

Till then, hope everyone have a nice week tomorrow!!

Note: I miss you girls leh. When are we going to meet again ah..

Dear Bloggie,

Its Sundae!!

I reached home at like 6.30am on Saturday morning and I slpt my Saturday awae. Yesh, I lead a boring life. But its alrite, coz I had my ample rest.

Todae is my dear Tracy mummy's bigbig day!!

The weather's so bright and gay.

I really wish her and her husband bai tou dao lau, yong jie tong xin! May she be like the princess in the fairy tales, live happily ever after with her prince charming.

I will need to go bath and all soon. Meeting Huiyu at 1pm at Yishun to go do up our hair. The next time you all see me, it'll be a brand new me okie. I will do dye my hair, and I have decided to keep my fringe long. (All my colleauges say I look better with my fringe long leh... Thou personally I would prefer it short...)

And last night. Ermm.. Xiang had wanted to come pick me up for a late night talk. But in the end we didnt go out. Instead we chatted over msn.

This time round, the talk is peaceful. No more spite or what-so-ever. He calmly told me what his looking for in his girlfrewn. He asked me if I could really be the very caring girlfrewn that his looking for. He asked me to go think about it.

So yar. I'm thinking about it. But things are not going to be that simple. What if I said I could, and in the end I coudnt. And thinking back on how I am when we broke up, I'm also afraid that history might repeat. He can jolly well come tell me one fine day that I am still not up to his standard and leave me again right. I do have my fears and they are not ungrounded.

And its not only that... And there also .....

Haizz.. Nemind, this is supposed to be a happy post coz I feeling happy coz its Tracy mummy's wedding day!

So once thats all folks. I'll bring back photo the next time I blog kae.. Going to take loads of pictures with everyone.

Hope next week will be a great one for all of you kae..

Note: I miss all the girls. Been ages since we last meet up...

Dear Bloggie,

Its me in the office now. I feel like blogging about a lot of stuff. But I’ve no time and no energy for it.

Right now, I’m feeling damn freaking hungry. This whole week, I have started my dieting plan. So far ermm.. still so good lah. Skipped a lot of meals, gave up lots of snacks. (A lot of my beloved colleagues and suppliers choose to bring back lots of food this week. Imagine what a hard time I had trying to resist the urge to all the bak kwa, curry puff from polar, Maxwell ham chin peng and lots more good food…) Well, hopefully by Sunday I will look my best for Tracy’s wedding.

Last night, went to meet Yinghui and Huifeng. Planned for a dinner (where I have already told them I’m only going to drink plain water…), but in the end we went for a KTV at Marina Square. Been ages since I went to Marina Square. It changed a lot, ermm… But then whole place is still under the renovation stage. Had a great time with the girls, no pictures coz I forgot to charged the camera so yar… Took a cab home, and reached home around 12mn.

Today, after work I’m going for a dinner with Yinghui and Shauna at Marina South. Yar, I’m going to just eat the soupy stuff (or if I can make it I’m going to just sit there and talk to them.). After that it’ll be mahjong again with Huili, Mao and Dominic at Huili’s place.

Actually at times I cant help but feel that I lead quite a boring life. Over-night mahjong on Friday night became like my weekly activities…

Saturday, plans have not firm up yet.

But well, right now…

Actually I want is someone to be here with me. I’ve read Huili’s blog. She listed out what she’s looking for in a guy. Under comparison, I think mine is a lot simpler.

Just 2 points.

1. Someone who loves mi as I am

2. Someone who can give me a lot of his time

That’s really about all. The rest, will depend on our fate and chemistry I guess.

I don’t need him to be rich, or handsome or anything. Its really just that simple. Or you think I’m also asking for too much?

Please ignore me pple, today is one of my not so stable day. I am currently under depression mode.

I promise to be better when I next log in again. :)

Dear Bloggie,

Today's post is going to be a longlong one. Coz its a Tuesday night, and I'm home right after work, with nothing to do and no good show on the TV.

Okie, let me go back to last wednesday... (omg, thats like a week back...)

Well, actually I had quite a boring week last week. But I especially wanted to go back to that week, coz I think something really funny happened. Classic I can tell you.

.Wednesday.

Mao was like so free coz he have started clearing his leave. So he decided to make Banana Smoothie for us all. So its deicded that they will come over to my house for his Smoothie around 10pm, after Emi finished work.

Then since there are 4 of us, we decided to play abit of mahjong. Yup, mahjong at 11pm on a wednesday night. And so...

The game went on... Till Emi discover something...

Someone opened up the card (the one on the left held on the hand) and left it beside that "si hua"... Someone had "accidentally" mistaken that "yi suo" as that "chicken"... Do they look like twins??? Hehe~~*

Wondering who is the someone??

Its is ......

Yupzz.. Aaron.

.Friday.

Friday after work, I rushed down to meet Huiyu. To shop for Tracy's wedding pressent. So after we got the pressent, which I think is really nice (but useless).. We had dinner at Cafe Cartle.

Coz both girls didnt have lunch that day, we ended up ordering too much food.. Hehe~~*

Huiyu with all the food

Me with the food.

Alot of food right. We damn horrible...

But, we finished up almost everything... Hehe~~* (That explains why I'm getting fatter recently.)

After that, I rushed home. Coz I have a mahjong session with Huili, Emi, Dominic, Mao and Chris.

So I took the car out, to bring them over to my house. Yupzz.. Thats coz Huili said she's going to take a long time if she's going on priblic transport, so well..

So well, we started the game at like 11plus 12mn... All the way till the next morning, where I went straight to work. Actually I wasnt really very tired. Just a little shagged out. Hehe~~*

After work went to Orchard. Need to do alittle shopping to get a dress for Tracy's wedding. So well, I was really tired. But then I still drag myself all the way down... Oh yah, I caught the movie Herbie (is that how you spell it?) and I actually fall aslp towards the back of the show.. Totally shagged out...

.Sunday.

Okie, actually this is the high light of my last week. I went JB with Emi, Huili, Mao, Amos, Aaron, Aaron's gf (Lishan) and her brother.

In the JB Taxi, going to our lunchie.. This is actually the first time I took a cab in JB.

With Mao sitting in front..

So this is the supposedly famous "Shun Fa Bak Kut Teh"...

Okie, the claypot in the right is some chicken dish which is quite nice, but I cant remember the name. But as you can see, the claypot is empty coz we waited so damn long for the bak kut teh to come, and we are damn freaking hungry. Yah, so we finished it.

Huili wanted to take a photo with Lishan, but who knows we have Kaypo No. 1 coming in, ruining the picutre.

And just when we thought we could have peace, Kaypo no. 2 appear..

And finally, after so many tries...

Emi and me...

I cant remember whats the name of this, but then its reallye delicious. Especially when everyone is like sweating like dont know what while eating bak kut teh. This is really refreshing and delivious.

After that, we took a cab to Holiday Plaza (Is the name correct?). The place where its the pirated DVD/VCD/whatever else Haven..

Huili went mad here. She was like ermm.. well, you go sort it out yourself. We were like waiting for her outside every shop...

So bored. So we start taking pictures again...

Mao, me and Emi

These 2 even more bo liaozz...

And yar, I bought colored contact lens in JB. Its on promotion, and its really cheap, so its like Emi, Huili and me bought 3 pairs each. So now we have the grey, hazel and this purple color.. So cool right.. Haha~~*

Coz we spent too much time shopping for all the DVDs and all, we ended up having our dinner at Pizza Hut.

Okie, thats about all. After dinner we made our way back to Singapore. Dont want to go into the details but then I had a great day thou really tiring. I'll be looking forward to our nxt JB trip..

Aaron just came up and passed me the Mp3s I bought. So I'm like trying to copy the songs over. And due to my budget CPU got no enough ram, my comp is starting to lag. So I shall stop here.

Should I go Mambo tml? Last nite leh.. Ermm.. Let me go thinkthink..

Dear Bloggie,

I just reached home, had a damn bloody tiring BUT fun weekend.

Totally worn out, and I cant believe its going to be Monday tomorrow. *sigh*

Alot of pictures, but then too tired to go do up a proper one to post up.

Wait till maybe Tueday okie.. I'll be a good girl and update again on my weekend with all the pictures.

And ermm.. To my frewns who wants the picture, please msn me or something. I've got it up in a .zip file.

And I bought a new dress.. And I love it!!!

Nice? I like it!!! So this will be the dress I'll be wearing to Tracy's wedding dinner next week. And, I might even recycle it for Chinese New Year next year.. hehe~~* Damn cheapskate hor me.

And this is the back. Nice right? hehe~~* I love this dress!!

Okie, that's all I'm going to blog today. The rest wait till either monday or tuesday night...

Till then pple... Tomorrow's a brand new begining of a new week. Hope its going to be a great day for all~~*

Dear Bloggie,

Okie, I'm feeling much more cooled down after dinner.

Just now at Tampines Inter, I was taking Bs 72 back home. So I board a double decker SuperBus. Then I took a seat at the lower deck. And, I took out my story book and started on it.

Then shortly after, got this uncle he took the seat right beside me. His not very pleasently dressed, old and tartted that sort. And at that point, there's still alot of unoccupied seats, he doesnt have to sit beside me.

But thats not the point.

Then as the bus begins its journey, I can feel that man staring at me. Its not even thou secretive stares. His whole head is tilted side ways to look at me.

Anyway, I'm very decently dressed today. In a black A-line skirt, with no splits of what to show anything. And I'm still in my cardigan. So totally not suggestive or what...

So I shifted even more towards the window, to move further away from him. Coz he kept fidgiting in his seat. Adjusting the umbrella in his hand, taking his keys out of his pocket and etc.. And all this while, he never remove his glance away from me.

Then when I turned back to stare at him, I can see his sight furgitively moving awae frm me. So I got angry. I continue to stare back at him. And he will still turn back to steal another glance at me every other second.

So I think he couldnt take it coz I kept staring back. So he stood up and press the bell to alight the bus. At a ulu bus stop at Old Tampines Road. Then while waiting for the bus to reach the stop, he was practically standing there, staring at me. And me, of coz stare back lah.

Then after he alighted the bus, he didnt walk off or what. But continue to stand at the bus stop, staring at me through the door. And me, I still stare back at him.

This simply shows that that man, had a motive.

I was really angry at the entire episode.

While his beside me, I actually took out my hp and typed out an sms. I think that might have scare him off alittle as it appears to be like seeking help.

But just now, I'm really prepared to either go up the driver and told him I'm uncomfortable about that man, or I'll really just give him a ight slap and approach a lady siting near me for help. I think its nothing to be embaressed of. In fact, its that stupid man who should be feeling pai sey.

Well, maybe now coz I've cooled dwn alot, I left out alot of details. But then, I'm really angry.

Dear Bloggie,

I'm so angry now!!! I met a Se Lang in the bus.

Fuck!!! So damn pissed off, so damn offended.

I shall go find dinner. Need to eat to keep up my energy level.

Shall go into the details later....

Dear Bloggie,

Its like 6.22am now. I have been awake for more then an hour. Can get to sleep. Its been like this since last night... Well, I guess I'm entering the depression mode again. Hope it'll get better after the sunrise...

Yesterday at the mahjong, I lost.. :P

Lost 60bucks. Well, its okie lah. Coz there seemed to be quite abit of cash in my wallet yesterday, so I dont really mind. Later on, I'm going on to Huili house for another mahjong session... (I like gambling queen like that. Did nothing but gamble my weekend away...)

Then around 6pm, haizz.. I left.

I was so disappointed. I was like into depression mode by then. (I can swear its not about my losing... Its just that I simply snapped into the stupid mode.) And an sms by xiang, make me smile.

Its just like telepathy. I was thinking of him at that exact moment.

I was thinking, how nice it would be if his around...

And then, after that very thought, my hp deeped.

Its him.

So, he picked me up at Sengkang and went to Tamp for dinner.

Wanted to have my dinner at Cartel, but the queue was so long. So in the end we ate at Burger king.

Its been 3 whole weeks since I last saw him... Frankly speaking, I really missed him alot.

But yesterday, I could feel that his exercising lots of slef-control on himself.

Not once did he hold my hand, and there's not even that good-bye hug.

All he did was to caress my hair and face... Haizz.. I still love his touch.

Yesterday, I can really felt that I have lost him totally.. His really not mine any any more.. There totally no turning back for the both of us...

Absolutely no.

So, its back to reality now.

I still got to move on and tell myself, its okie :)

Dear Bloggie,

Jsut when I tot I've no plans, I recieved a call from Jonas to go over to his house for mahjong.

Going over now, so please pray for me that I can win money~~* hehe~~~*

Dear Bloggie,

At home now, and its going to rain soon.

Not much mood to blog about anything.

I mean I cant help it right? Basically I lead a boring life.

Last night, I was so tired. I fall aslp at 10pm. And even before that, I was already dozing off while watching tv.

I left the office at around 6pm last night.

Its a Friday night, and I have no dates. I smsed him sometime back. Saying I would like to meet him.

I wanted a dinner with him. Coz well, I really missed him. And also, I told him I wanted to return him his stuff. Actually the returning stuff is a smoke-screen. Its really more of I want to see him. Its been 3 weeks since I last saw him.

Anyway, he didnt give me a very definate reply about wanting to meet me or not. But regardless of what, I kept my Friday night free for him.

He did smsed last evening and asked me about our date. Then in the end well, we didnt meet up.

Its okie. :)

Then while I was at the bus-stop waiting for the bus outside my office, Shufen saw me. She told me earlier on in the day that her bf broke up with her. Ending a 3year relationship. She told me that she can finally understand what I am going tru about 1mth ago.

Its a type of misery that you totally have no idea how in the world to relate to others. But I guess, she's in a way worst off then me. She's a malaysian girl, staying alone in Singapore. Without her family and close frewns by her side.

So just like this, I sat at the bus-stop with her, missing up to a dozen buses.. And I simply sat there, listening to her.

Till sun-set, we seat there. Till around 8pm, she finally told me she's better, and said we should make our way home. I'm abit worried about her actually. She's only 21 this year, alone in Singapore.. Haizz..

So after that, I made my way home. Its drizzling a little last night. And the traffic was slow. I reach home slightly after 9pm. And after a quick dinner, its like bed time for me...

Its okie~~* Today till now another no plan day for me till now. Well, let me just slack abit more and see how ba~*

Have a good weekend ahead pple!!

Dear Bloggie,

Actually I wanted to blog about Tissue Papers today. But well, now I change my mind. I wanted to talk about Super Star!! (I'm glad that Weilian won actually.. :)) But then, nope. Coz its kind of late, so I want to keep this short.

So, I'm going to talk about xin. Yup!! Me. My day today, being a PIG!

This morning, I woke up feeling so damn hungry. Thats the most terrible thought I could ever have. So, I started my day by eating... (coz I was hungry mah...)

Anyway, to keep this short I shall just list out what I have ate today...

1) Hotdog loti (from Bangawan Solo)
2) Mixed Veg Rice
3) Water Chestnut Water
4) Agar Agar
5) Ham Chin Peng (from Maxwell... compliments frm my colleauges)
6) Mooncake (just a small piece. Samples from supplier)
7) Yoshinoya (been craving for this since like 9am. so i ta bao home for dinner)
8) Conetto Ice Cream
9) A bowl of those ultra nutrious but alos ULTRA yucky soup (one only soup my mum knws how to make. I have told her to leave me out from her soup making project frm now on.)

Horrible right, I actually ate so much stuff today.

Shall start alittle dieting tomorrow.. Haizz..

Okie, I need to retire back to bed.

I shall talk about my tissue papers and the SuperStar over the weekend if I have the time...

That's all folks!!