Dear Bloggie,

.Tuesday.
.Mood: Slightly joyous as it’s a shot week.

This is a ermm… confession post.

My credit card bill for the month of March was pretty high. Hence I curb my spending for the month of April and it turned out to be a pleasant surprise. =) And while I was ironing my clothes on Saturday, I realized I still have several new tops that I don’t even remember buying at the bottom of my laundry basket; and 2 pairs of new shoes still in the box; and ermm… a dress hanging at the back of my wardrobe.

I thought since May is an examination month, I should be able to further curb my spending. But well, it turned out to be otherwise.

Anyway, my DKNY watch chain fall apart yesterday. I tried to put it back together again, but there is a missing portion which I cannot find. I am upset over the lost of my DKNY watch. As this is the only working watch I have now, and it’s dressy enough for all occasions (in my opinion). And its my 22nd birthday present from Xiang.

Its alright.

I can buy a new watch for myself… Come to think of it, I have never bought a watch for myself. I’ll go shopping for it real soon, and see if I can afford myself a good one. Any lobang for a nice watch anyone?

The watch is an ad-hoc item on my purchasing list… What I really want to buy is this.

Isnt she pretty?

I’ve been eyeing this Balenciaga for quite some time. And this beauty definitely cost more then the regular LV and Gucci. But she is only available in Singapore at Club 21, Hilton. And they are pretty limited; hence chances of me owning her are pretty slim. But its alright, I’ll make a trip to Hilton soon and check it out.

Okie, these are some items on my Purchasing List.

I have plenty to work on today at work, have a fantastic Tuesday friends!

Dear Bloggie,

I felt so cheated...

Okie, no one has cheated me... But, I have always thought that this song is a sentimental love song. The way 陈奕迅 sung 富士山下 always make me feel that its a song on lost love. Maybe the guy died or the girl is a prositute...

Okie, you might not know what am I ranting about...

But, I never have thought that this is a Guy dump Girl song.

It makes me feel so silly liking this song, and singing this song... Its like... So sad, so heartless.

There you go, below is a full translation of the lyrics in English.

It sort of dashes hopes... Like it spoils the entire image that you had of that song.

Is it only me and HF, or do you also thought this is a beautiful love song?

富士山下(粤)
作曲:Christopher Chak(泽日生)
填词:林夕
编曲:陈珀、C.Y. Kong
监制:Alvin Leong
陈奕迅-富士山下(粤)
拦路雨偏似雪花
The heavy rain resembles snowflakes,
饮泣的你冻吗
Is the crying you feeling cold?
这风褛我给你磨到有襟花
The windbreaker I gave you was caressed so often that the labels have worn out.
连调了职也不怕
I'm not even afraid of losing my job,
怎么始终牵挂
So why am I worried about you?
苦心选中今天想车你回家
I made a note to send you home today,
原谅我不再送花
Forgive me for not sending any more flowers.
伤口应要结疤
Wounds should form scars,
花瓣铺满心里坟场才害怕
One should be scared only when petals enshrine the grave in the heart.
如若你非我不嫁I
f you refuse to marry anyone but me,
彼此终必火化
We would both be burnt in the end.
一生一世等一天需要代价
There is a price to be paid in waiting for a single day in your entire life,
谁都只得那双手
Everyone has a pair of hands,
靠拥抱亦难任你拥有
But only you have the capability of resolving sadness with a hug.
要拥有必先懂失去怎接受
If you want to have something, you must first learn how to accept losing it.
曾沿着雪路浪游
I used to wander along the snow-clad path,
为何为好事泪流
Why do I cry over a joyful thing?
谁能凭爱意要富士山私有
Who can possess Mount Fuji based on love?
何不把悲哀感觉
Why not treat the sorrowful feeling,
假设是来自你虚构
As a figment of your own fabrication?
试管里找不到它染污眼眸
It cannot be found in a test tube; it pollutes the eye.
前尘硬化像石头
The future is hardened like stone,
随缘地抛下便逃走
Follow fate by throwing down your burden, and you can escape.
我绝不罕有
I am definitely not an exceptional person.
往街里绕过一周
Walking one round on the streets,
我便化乌有
I evolved into nothing.
情人节不要说穿
Do not call to the fact that it is Valentine's Day,
只敢抚你发端
I only dare to support you in making a new beginning.
这种姿态可会令你更心酸
Such an attitude will only increase your distress.
留在汽车里取暖
Staying in the car to stay warm,
应该怎么规劝
How should I advise you?
怎么可以将手腕忍痛划损
How could you bear the pain and slash your wrists?
人活到几岁算短
The life-span of a person is already so short,
失恋只有更短
Failure in love will only make it shorter.
归家需要几里路谁能预算
Who can calculate how many miles need to be traverssed before returning home,
忘掉我跟你恩怨
Forget our bitter-sweet relationship.
樱花开了几转
The cherry blossoms went through a few blooming cycles,
东京之旅一早比一世遥远
And Tokyo was already far detached from my world.
靠拥抱亦难为你拥有
Only you have the capability of resolving sadness with a hug,
你还嫌不够
But you still said that is not enough.
我把这陈年风褛, 送赠你解咒
Let me give this old windbreaker to you, to help you break free from the spell.

But nevertheless, this is still a beautiful song. I still likes it alot. But its a bit sad singing it as I'm always the one being dump now. Its like, ermm.. weird. But well, I still likes it.

Dear Bloggie,

.Monday.
.Mood: Not that bad.

I went singing with HF and AL on Sunday. I can actually map out my boring lifestyle every weekend. It’s either Mahjong or KTV and occasionally throws in a Clubbing. Oh my god, I lead such a boring life…

After the singing session, I rushed down to my Granny house for dinner. It my Grandpa’s birthday celebration, and we had lots of good food. Plenty of additional calories intake last night, but it’s alright… =) And while eating crabs, I broke my nail… I really wanted to go for a manicure session soon, but now this broken nail looks so odd. It’s like, so ugly.

Exams are coming real soon, and I have not started studying yet. And I’ve got an essay due this Friday (yes, it’s the SIA essay) which I have not yet begun. I see a busy week ahead.

Monday: Home Sweet Home
Tuesday: Organization Behavior Revision Class
Wednesday: Dinner and drinks with HF; Clubbing with QH
Thursday: SIA Essay (stay home day)
Friday: Dinner with HY, SL & JS
Saturday: Marketing Communication Revision Class; Dinner with HY & TL
Sunday: Lunch with SL (oh shit, I just recalled I’m meeting QH to go study)

I loved it when I have my week fully planned out. I have still opening up slots for overnight Mahjong session kae. =)

This is the last week where I’ll be going out. Next week onwards, I have to start my revision…

DL spotted a car plate this morning with a special number. I told him not to bother buying it as it’ll not open. As far as my memories goes, this number NEVERS open. I think he got a shock, haha. Seeing Xin so negative… But hey, I’m just trying to help you save some money for your marriage funds.

And I am getting happier as the days go by… =) No worries kae…

Dear Bloggie,

A Saturdae night.

Did nothing much today.. But got plenty of rest, as the saying goes "休息是为了走根长远的路。"

Wanted to start doing my Marketing Communication essay on SIA and another commercial airline. Any idea which is a good airline to use? Should I use Cathay Pacific or Emirates?

Anyway, last week was a pretty good week.

Meet up with DT for dinner at Pasir Ris Park. Nice to know that his doing well now, both at work and relationship.. Looking back, its been 8 long years. Yup, I know I'll stand up again one day like what he said. But in the meanwhile, I dont want him to see me now in this state.. So well, DT you keep away from me for this period of time. =p

Friday meet up with HY for dinner at Seoul Gardens. Long awaited dinner... *smile*

We realised that we both had the same eating pattern! But well, 2 of us really are not cut out for buffet.. Total waste of money! But since we had free flow of drinks, the 2 of us simply stayed on and chatted... We left Orchard Road around 11pm, and I bumped into HF and her friend. So hehe, since we all stayed in Hougang, we shared a cab home...

Nothing much that I wanted to share now... I'm going back to my story book...

Tomorrow is an eventfull day! Cant wait. =)

Dear Bloggie,

As you can see, I removed my blog skin. This is as I realized that not all computers can view this site with my old blog skin. (Well, my office computer for one cannot.) So anyway, this will be temporary. I find this damn ugly anyway, the text looks so big. But well, this will be a temporary one.

Anyway, I also realized all my history posts are displayed at the side bar. I just click in and read the first few entry.

Guess what, yesterday was the 5th Year Anniversary of my Cottage by the River. =)

Haha, 5 years ago, 23rd April 2008 I am still mugging hard for my NMS (network management system I guess) paper.

Reading through my old post gave me plenty of goose bumps. But that’s the intention I had in the first place right. This is a place where I place my thoughts, so I can come back years later and have a good laugh. =) But looking at the way I write, can see how much I’ve grown up. I simply cannot believe that I used languages such as “sia”, “thingie” and okie.. My English really sucks big time. And it’s not only that, the things that used to worry me are crappy. I see a 20 year old childish me. Oh my god…

And it brought back plenty of memories that I have clearly forgotten. Like on HL’s 20th birthday, we went to her friend’s friend’s house for mahjong. Nothing is wrong with that, just that the friend is a half-naked gangster covered with tattoos… And the first time QH went behind the wheels after she got her class 3 is 23rd December 2003, all the passengers was holding on tightly for our dear life, and AC is praying harder then anyone of us coz QH is driving her brother’s car. And how Lizzie tried to make friends with OO… Omg, I missed my OO.

And just to quote:

28th December 2003

“I tink ermm.. i tink xin is xing fu now loh.. he once told mi tat xin got a very blessed life.. and now, i actualie believes.. its like i got good frewns ard mi.. so caring and all.. and i got a good family.. alwaes ther for mi.. as for job.. actualie cum to tink of it, its aso not tat bad loh.. at least over ther i meet my ai ren, and i aso learnt alot.. and now. i meet him..”

Note: My Ai Ren is HY; and the He, is xiang.

So I was xing fu back then.

Dear Bloggie,

Just 1 photo before I go to school.

This is taken on 8th March, 2008.

The day my beloved friend from school got married. And did I mentioned this is the first time I'm a bride's maid.. =)

All the best girl, let me know if Steven bullies you. =)

Dear Bloggie,

It always takes an unfortunate event, to let people appreciate the things around them. We, human being, should learn to be more appreciative of the people and events around us.

People, who appear strong in front of us, also have their weak moments. But it takes more courage for them to bend down and cry in front of you then most people. Did you realize it?

Thou not all unfortunate events takes a better turn and resolve ultimately, but hey! We are also not losers in the event. As the saying goes, ‘you lose something, but you also gain something’.

I see how vulnerable Women are. We placed all our heart and soul into a little basket provided by the Man, but when the Man decided to place the basket into a coffin, nailed and burry under earth, this really seals the fate of the relationship.

But why do Women still willingly (or stupidly) place their heart and soul into the little basket.

I am no expert in relationship, having faced countless failed one. But my best guess it, when Women reach a certain age, our instinct points us to forming a family. Hence we learned how to love unconditionally, albeit stupidly at times may I quote. At times, even pride is put down, which I am really ashamed to mention it. Do Women really need to go till those extend for the Men, when they have already said straight at our face that they no longer wants us. This might sound ridiculous, but even I cannot find an explanation myself. Hence, I push it all to the sinful word, Love.

But as mentioned earlier, a little something is gained whenever something is lost.

You’ll find that at moments like this, people around you that care are pouncing out to give you that helping hand.

The family that has always been as silent as the backdrop suddenly is there to provide comfort.

The colleagues that you have not meet outside working hours are organizing drinking sessions, hugs and pets are becoming part of the greeting process.

And most importantly, The friends. Friends that we have all along taken for granted have spring out like mushrooms after the rain, to take you out for girlie chatting session or retail therapy.

BUT! (Why must there always be a BUT.. This is such an evil word)

Even with Family, Friends and Colleagues, an unfortunate even is still an unfortunate event. They could help to relieve the pain, but they cannot take away the pain.

Man has never been able to understand the healing process Women so needed. And often laugh and despise the fact that we are always off running to others for that comforting moment. Men and Women are built differently and hence, function differently. (Thou there will always be exceptional cases) Please do not judge Women so quickly by saying nasty things about us seeking that little comfort from others. It’s just a natural recovery process for us.

It’s never an easy process, but I believe Women can always go through the hurdle. We are built this way… =)

But having said all of the above, I still hope unfortunate events stay far away from me, and my loved ones.

Dear Bloggie,

.Tuesday.

I am quite free this couple of days in the office as Active and my Snr Manager is in Shanghai for meeting..

Raining day. I hate raining days. This equates to wet shoes, sniffing nose and freezing me. Anyway, a colleauge JL, bought those peanut pancake for me this morning. Oh... So sweet! So at least xin is cold but not hungry today.

I was so tired yesterday. I fall asleep while reading the story book; hence I left my room door open. Mistake. Toffee came in around 11pm, and jump up on my bed. And he started his mini fashion show, parading on my bed. Walking up and down, totally disregarding me in the process, stepping on me. So obviously, I woke up. I chase him out of the room, close the door, took a quick glance at my hp that is only good for its alarm clock function as no one ever calls now, and I went back to sleep.

Oh yeah.. I lead a boring life.

Dear Bloggie,

.Monday.

A day which I hated most in the week. It got me so depress since last evening that RC commented that I seemed to behave like a NS guy whose about to book into camp. Great metaphor there.

Previous post was out of a moment of impluse. But I don’t feel like removing it. Anyway, I’m much better now.

Anyway, this weekend is pretty leisurely spent.

Completed my Management assignment, which I felt that it’s a half-hearted piece of work. Totally off point, and well… I can only hope Tutor don’t give me too lousy a grade.

Had dinner with AC on Saturday and had a talk with her. We’re in the same plight now, hanging on for uncertainty. No one can understand what I’m going through better then she does. Anyway, loves hanging out with the girls. Then had a late night mahjong with EH, TT and MC.

The guys are SHARKS!

They cleared both me and EH off ALL OUR CHIPS!

*sad*

But well, its still fun. Seeing EH playing in a semi-drunked state after 3 bottles of beer. And I have not been catching up with my poly friends recently.

Okie, nothing much to update this weekend. Story books are my best friends recently (that is after AC and QH of course), and I thank the government for providing the endless supplies of story books for me FOC. So to conclude, I lead a pretty hermit life recently.

Note: Thanx Irene for your sms this morning… I cant tell you how much I appreciate it. =) I promise you I’ll think about it. But I do know that at this moment, I am still not much of an asset to Alex. Hence I don’t want to go back and fail him.

[Edited: On the second thoughts, I remove the post.]

Dear Bloggie,

Just reached home after dinner and movie with TT.

Cant sleep, nothing much to do in the middle of the nite, so just dropping by for a short note.

The rest of the post will be in chinese characters. Not sure if blogspot can capture it, and pardon for all the wrong words. Too lazy to correct it word by word.

当才出去看了一部戏，“跑吧爸爸！”。应该是着戏名吧，我也不是很清楚。不过是一部不做的戏，我想当喜欢。在看戏之前，我们到了宏茂桥刚翻新的熟食中心用餐。已经很久没到那里了，发现那里有很多很好吃的食物。我都很喜欢。。饱餐一顿后，我们就走回戏院看戏。

现在一个人在房间里，有 Toffee 跟我作伴感觉还不错。。

最近我又开始烘赔了。这一次我第一次尝试做了cupcake。好成功！很开心，一切的心血都没白费。做出来的蛋糕非常好吃，质感也很好。。真可惜我的电脑不听话了，没办法把照片放上网。真是该死的电脑，气死我了！我看这次这笔钱真的是不能省了。

好啦，睡意来袭我也想睡了。。

希望你们都看得到我在打些舍么，不然就太浪费了。。

就这样，晚安咯！

Dear Bloggie,

.Friday.

I did not make any plans this weekend.
But I still manage to buzz a couple of friends, and made some last minute plans.

All my girlfriends are busy this weekend; one going for Lasik and other has some personal affairs to settle.

But lucky in the end, I found TT. I got the feeling that he doesn’t feel like coming out today as we have no itinerary at all. But being a nice guy, he still agreed to meet me for dinner. And maybe plan for a mahjong or movie after dinner.

Thou its only Friday, but I can see Monday not too far away from me.

Working here is so depressing.

I think, I’ll start my job hunt this weekend.

Some miscellaneous matters.

1. New hair cut – I’m still contemplating on this. Give me 2 more weeks to think about it, too many datelines for assignments now.
2. Lose some weight – All my jogging kakis disappeared. I’ll make every Monday my jogging day starting from next week.
3. Learn a language – After exams, I’ll go continue on my Korean Language lesson.
4. New laptop/ bag – I need a new laptop. But with that money, I can buy a nice bag to pamper myself. Or maybe I can buy a laptop, and get the organizer that I’ve been eyeing for quite some time.
5. Job hunt – I will start sending out my resume this weekend.

Since I am alone now, I should put my time into good use.

Time and tide stops for no man. No one is going to look back and realized that I am trailing behind. So I should pick myself up and move forward. One day, people will raise their head and found me running ahead of them, smiling.

Dear Bloggie,

17th April, is the birthday of a Special Someone.

To: Special Someone

Happy birthday! =)

I wish you all the best for your future endeavors.

Life has not been a bed of roses, but it’ll get better.

Love, xin.

Dear Bloggie,

Xin is in depressing mode.

I cannot even plaster a smile on my face, and my tear glands seemed to be on standby mode threatening to operate any moment from now.

The hormones must be at work coz I am having my period now. But it got to be more then that. He has once commented that he doesn’t like my “I don’t know why” remark as I know the root to the problems, but I just do not wish to reveal it.

I might be feeling depress because it is a Monday. Director Active is back in Singapore after a 2 weeks overseas trip, and I got to face him today. Not that I have done anything wrong again, but right now I am definitely not in the mood to hear any sarcastic or nasty remark him. But he is my boss; I do not have other options but to face him. I wish to talk to someone about it and receive a comfortable word. But I know that everyone is busy with their life, I do not wish to stop anyone in their track to stop and listen to my grumblings.

I might be feeling depress because I have used my entire weekend to complete my Marketing Communication essay. But at least I have handed it up, and I really feel it’s quite a good piece of work. The entire yesterday spent with QH at the library is well-spent. My referencing made it a rather good piece of academic work. But before I have time to rejoice, my group mate from Management sent me an email, asking me to submit whatever I have completed for my Management group essay tomorrow. The best part is, I have not even started on it. So how am I going to class tomorrow to explain it to them…

I might be feeling depress because I am feeling lonely. I have done so many wrong things, took so many wrong turns, and made so many wrong choices, which land me at this miserable spot now. And worst, I do not know how to put things right. I do not understand why I am such a _____ (I’ve got no word for this blank). Why can’t I just survive alone and why do I so need to fill up that void in my life. There are plenty of people out there who are single and are still happily leading their fulfilled life. Why can’t I join that camp of people instead of bathing in my own pool of misery.

I might be feeling depress because my cell phone has not been ringing. But hey, this is a good thing isn’t it? I’m saving on my cell phone bill… So why am I still feeling so sad about it.

There are plenty of reasons why I’m sad and I know it. But the next problem is how I can make myself feeling better.

This is not the first time I’ve been through depressing mode, if I can do it before I’m sure I can do it again.

Anyway, the just past weekend is not that bad although I have an essay to complete. I spend the whole Saturday working on my essay; I had the first draft out by evening, and went for dinner with AC, QH and DN at Hougang Mall Café Cartel. Cartel served QH and DN, but send our orders to some other customer. We waited and waited till QH and DN had finished their food, but still no food came. Being the typical xin, I made a fuss over it and walk away with 15% discount. DN drove us back to my place, and then we played 2 rounds of mahjong. I emerge the overall winner, walking away with 24bucks.

I was telling QH it’s so true that “when your love luck is like shit, your gambling luck will soar”, but she rebuked me by saying that none of the others are having any better luck in love at the moment. Yupz, that is so true. Looking at the other cases, mine is actually minor.

We ended the game at 3am; chatted some more then they made their way home. At 4am, I can’t sleep. Solitary struck me, and depression sinks in.

I’m really fortunate that I do have fantastic friends standing by me all these while. I really appreciate them for being with me through this difficult period. And I’m actually glad that I have this space to vent out my emotions and thoughts. Words coming out from the keyboard, took a little negative emotion along with them to be posted up on the great wide web.

I think I need ice cream.

Dear Bloggie,

It’s a raining Friday Morning.

I hate raining days.

I do not like to be constantly freezing under the low temperature, stepping into peddles wetting my shoes, and raindrops on my face threatening to smutch my make-up.

And also the traffic is bad, SBS is damn slow… And this resulted in me not having sufficient time to buy breakfast.

So right now, sitting here you have a cold, hungry and grumpy Xin.

I will be meeting up with HY and TL for dinner today after work at Woodlands.

It is so.very.far.

But TL will be bringing her darling baby girl along… So need to find a location most convenient for her. Was supposed to go for Seoul Garden, but TL changed her mind this morning. We’ll be having sushi instead.

Slight disappointment…

I am so craving for Seoul Garden. Not that the food is marvelous, but just that I feel like eating a buffet. And on a cold weather like this, a BBQ steamboat buffet is very welcoming… Can anyone reading this please ask me out for a Seoul Garden dinner real soon… Please?

I am feeling so tired and lethargic. Just like the weather. Its only 10am, but I can’t wait for the day to end…

And oh yes… I feel like eating ice cream now. =)

Ice cream is the best remedy for Xin on a moody day.

Dear Bloggie,

New Achievement at Work!!

I have added 2 colleagues into MSN… =)

This might mean nothing to you, but this shows that I am getting friends at Work.

One of them is sitting right in front of me, and we have been gossiping via MSN on a daily basis about WITNA (Reads: woman-in-the-next-aisle)… And we can sing Qian Li Zhi Wai together on MSN…

She: Wo song ni li kai qian li zhi wai….
Me: Ni wu sheng heiii BAIIIII~~*

The other is a lady from HK whom lunches with me… And we are making plans to go HK during July. She to go home, I to go shopping with QH…

Finally I see sunshine here… (after 3 months)

That reminds me... I'm taking a bonus next week... I've got a special bonus after completion of 3 months... =)

Dear Bloggie,

I just logged onto Facebook, and realised that I've got like 14xx request among other stuff which I've got no idea what is it...

The internet connection is so slow in the office. So its totally not fesible for me to start clearing it here...

But well, there was a period which I was so hooked on Facebook.

Especially on the Pets.

I've got mine super equip-ed with stuff like head gears and weapons for it to fight monsters.

But now... Totally neglected.

Xin grew up, piorities in life changed.

Anyway, its Thursday! One day to Friday.

This is not a fully planned weekend, as I've got an essay to chew on. Its on on 14th April, and till now I have NOT even started on it yet. Yesh, I am digging the earth for my own conffin.

But miracles always happened.

By Sunday, I'm sure I can generate out the essay... (and maybe squeeze a mahjong session in too with my besties. =p)

2 birthdays coming up next week, one is the birthday of someone extremely important to me.

I'm planning to do something special, lets hope nothing spoils my plans..

I really wanted to type more. But I really got nothing interesting to update. Life everyday has been either school or work.. Time no spent on school and work will be with Uncle Chow in Dreamland..

Okie, thats all...

Hope everyone have the best weekend ahead kae... =)

Dear Bloggie,

It’s Mondae!!

Oh yesh! Nothing to be proud of… In fact, I am a bit sad that my weekend simply flew pass just like this.

But nevertheless, it’s another wonderful weekend!!

And I just want to say, I love Gummy Bears!! Can you all just buy me more Gummy Bears! Please choose the packets with more RED colored ones, these are my favorite.

FRIDAE

Of course I’ll not bore you with my work. Let’s jump to ‘after-work’.

I end work at 5pm, reached Tampines Mall 10mins after 5pm. Because I’m early (TOO early), I walked around Tampines Mall by myself. I do not want to indulge myself in shopping, as I’ve done plenty last month, so I simple window shopped. But nevertheless, I still spend a bit on recipe books at the book shop. Yupz, I intend to do some cooking soon. I’ve already tagged some potential dishes that I intend to cook.

So by 7.30pm, I finally got to meet up with my ex-colleagues. It’s been ages since I last saw them, and I realized that I really missed them a lot. I miss the times where we’ll arrived in the office and exchange pieces of juicy gossip, browsing through the COACH and LV website for new arrivals, AND, the color theme Fridaes. *sigh*

But glad to see every one of them so well…

Dinner was at Genki, and after that we head off to Loyang for KTV.

KTV was fun. In fact, KTV with this bunch of people is hilarious. Its more then just sitting down with the microphone in hand, its more drama then that. You have people dancing to the ‘Techno’ Ah Lian songs, the Rock Star ‘wanna-be’ with hair all over the place and of course the classic ballets with them squeezing their face into a prune.

When everything ended, I left with a heavy heart. It’ll be long before our next outing. They have family commitments and some like me, school commitments. Plenty of arrangements are needed before such a big group of us can come together.

But well… =) Keep my finger crossed that the next dinner will be real soon.

SATURDAE

I slacked my afternoon away, found another fantastic Korean Drama Series… And I manage to do an online Quiz, which I scored 90/100. =)

Meet up with my besties AC, QH and KL at Orchard. I have to say I am impressed. No one is late. They accompany me to Lucky Plaza to run a bit of errand, and then we went to Mandarin Hotel’s Chatterbox for dinner. And yesh, I ate that ever expensive Chicken rice. And Chatterbox shifted from ground floor to 38th floor, where Top of M used to be. So this is Chicken Rice with a View…

The serving of food is really huge, ermm… Food wise nothing to boost about in my opinion. And the bill is well, even more impressive. After a very huge dinner, we took a stroll down to take the North East Line.

And Dragonfly, here we come. =)

We got seats at Dragonfly on a Saturday night. I had fun there, we danced, sing-a-long, joked and drink. AC made some new friends, and we met DN there too. Okie, nothing much on the details at Dragonfly… Not that I could remember much anyway…

But at 3pm, AC wanted to leave the place. DN offered to send the 3 girls home. So QH and myself hurried up to finished up the drinks, and we left.

DN sent QH home first… All these while, my bladder is seriously bursting. I needed to loo, badly. So after DN sent QH home, he stopped by a petrol kiosk. I made a bee-line to the ladies. But instead of feeling better, I felt worst. Seriously worst. The urge to puke came.

AC needs the loo too so she chased me out of the toilet. I ended up squatting at the drain, and there comes my super expensive Chicken Rice. I quickly went back to the toilet to wash myself up a little, and we continued the journey home. And oh my… I am seriously feeling terrible by then.

And!

At Eunos Link, we actually met a Police Road Block… -_-“

If memory doesn’t fail me, DN did not drink much, he is defiantly sober and in a good condition to send us home. But nevertheless, he might not be able to pass the breath analyzer. A quick count tells me he had a beer, a glass of whisky or something, and some more when his at Boiler’s with his friends. AC gave me a quick warning on my safety belt (I’m left with 12 points; I can’t afford another 4 on non-compliance of safety belt).

Thank god, nothing happened, the cops waved us away… =)

DN drove a manual car. With every gear change he made, the urge to puke paramount.

I was enduring all the way home, and when finally he pulled up at my door step, I can tell you I have never been more relief to be home. I have not seen DN since 2002, so I seriously don’t think it’s a good idea if I was to puke and dirty his car…

Before I could make it to my own door, I made a final attempt to remove ALL food from my stomach. But all that could come out was seriously water. This means, ALL my super expensive Chicken Rice is gone!!

*sad, and not to mention I felt terrible*

So that ended my Saturday night. At 4am, Sunday morning.

SUNDAE

Blame it on the stupid Bio-alarm God gave me; I woke up at 9am. So I did what I could do best, continue on my Korean Drama Series… I thought I could idle my day away, but well… Thing never turned out the way you thought it would.

And 4pm, I’m back at Orchard. For KTV with AC and DN.

And let me side-track a little. On my way to Orchard, at the MRT, I met WBF. I have not seen him ever since we graduate from Poly. I do not know whether this is classified under a pleasant of unpleasant surprise, but well… it brought back certain memories. And nope, I do not miss him. We didn’t even exchange contacts, I do not see the need to.

So more singing for me, and it ended at 8pm. And DN send us to Kovan for dinner. Ate at the Ponggol Nasi Lemak Kopi Tian, but none of us ate nasi lemak. And he dropped me home after that.

That somehow summaries my entire weekend.

It’s the beginning of another new week. I do not have much to look forward to, life has been fulfilling, but yet lacking in certain aspect.

Its not okie, but give me more time.

I believe I can put everything behind me.

One day.

Dear Bloggie,

Note that I’ve been updating on a daily basis. During office hours.

This is more then enough to show you how bored am I in the office…

Anyway, 3 things I want to share with you today.

I forgot my cell phone.

I left my cell phone on the side table beside me bed. You can’t say that I’ve got a terrible memory, because I can clearly remember where I left it. I felt so handicap without my cell, but just give me 3 hours more. I’m knocking off at 5pm, and I’ll go straight home to be reunited with my beloved cell.

Well, not that I’m expecting any calls/ sms and its not like I’ll have a plenty of sms and miss calls, but I just don’t feel comfortable without it. Its not any big deal, I have survive more then half the day without it anyway.

Lost weight

I have successfully shed of a couple of kilograms. That might mean nothing to you, but I can tell you Xin is a happy gal. And its not only the weight, I can feel a few inches gone from my waist. I can fit comfortably into my 599 from poly, thou its still tight. But I’ll continue to work on it, and I believe that I’m capable to losing a couple more kilograms.

This morning I was telling my mum before I leave the house that I lost some weight. She looks at me, and tells me, ‘Oh, okie. But you can still do with more weight lost…’

-_-

Where got mummies like that. Instead of giving her daughter encouragement, she put me straight down.

But well, its true that ever since I’ve start working I have gained plenty. But at least I’m shedding it off now right. Give me a couple more months. I believe I can make it.

Child abuse (Psychologically)

This is what I just head from my colleague over lunch. It true, it just happened yesterday.

I know we are still not of age to have a kids, and a maid looking after our kids. But just thought its nice to share this story, and to create some awareness…

Let’s name my colleague S.

S stayed at some condo at the eastern side of Singapore. She has 2 kids, a Girl (12 year old) and a Boy (5 year old). And she has a maid to help look after her kids and do the housework.

Her Girl is in Primary 6, and will normally reach home around 4pm. Her Boy on the other hand is in Kindergarden, and the school bus will drop him off at the Condo’s main gate at 11.30am. The maid will have to go down and pick the Boy up to the house. Maid is supposed to cook and feed the Boy, play with him and wait for the sister’s return. Maid is not allowed to leave the house, except to pick the Boy from the main gate of the condo.

Everything seemed normal right. Until on Monday, S called the house around 2pm. No one picks up her call. Gut feelings told her something is wrong, so she called her neighbor to help her go over to her house to check it out. Neighbor went over, and no one is at home. Something is seriously not correct.

She went home on Monday night, and questions the maid. Maid said sorry she sneak out, with the Boy, to post letter.

Okie, provide some background. The main gate of the condo is located at some ulu pandan road, that is totally not accessible unless on vehicles. While the back gate of the condo is nearer to the main road, only to be separated by a small cluster of semi-d houses. Hence to leave the condo on foot, it is normally possible only through the back gate. No issue with leaving through the back gate. But problems arised with you want to come in. A pass is needed, and the Maid has no pass.

When asked how she managed to come in through the back gate, she said she climbed over the walls. S thought it’s not too possible, as Maid is pretty fat, and S checked the back gate, there is no letch of any other object that could enable her to climb over. She got suspicious.

The very same night, S got her husband to go check out the CCTV records.

*thunder*

Maid lied. She did not climb over the gate to open the door. S’s Boy is the one who opened the door. That’s not the issue. Problem lies in how he managed to do it.

The gate, is not the ‘full length’ type. There is a void of approx 45cm from the ground. Maid got the boy to lie on his back, leg in first, and push him through the gate. He will then punch the button to release the gate for Maid to enter.

*graps*

S is crying at this point when she’s telling us this.

S is simply so heart-broken. To have her Boy being made used like this, to be taught to go under the gate like what a thief would do. She showed us the video on her cell phone. Honestly, I think it would break any mum’s heart to see their own kid in that situation.

S is determine that the Maid have to go. But before that, she needs to make a police report, to ensure that Maid have no means ever to return back to Singapore, to do harm to other families.

At the police station, the Cops tried to get information from the Boy. But the Boy said he cannot tell, it is a secret between him and the Maid. The Boy insisted in not telling after an hour. So the Cop got S to leave the room. An hour later, the Cop emerges, and told S that the Maid has told the Boy that Mummy and Daddy are evil. So Boy should not tell his parents about this outing. Should he divulge the outing, Maid would not love him and will not play with him anymore. And during the outings, Maid will bring him to a house, with flowers, cat and dog. And the Maid sleeps with a Man. When Cop asked why Boy is doing all these, did Maid promise him any rewards of any kind, Boy actually says his doing it for the Maid.

I call this plain EVIL.

How could you say that to a 5 year old. And how could you bring a 5 year old with you when you are going to a Man’s house for monkey business. I am no saint, but I think this Maid is simply atrocious, a devil may I add. (And oh, she’s a catholic).

I’m not saying all maids are bad and especially catholic ones. I came from a catholic school, and catholic has been my favorite religion by and far. I think at times, it just boils down to the person itself. S is always a kind-hearted lady, and has treated her Maid with respect. S is definitely not the abusive kind or unreasonable kind. So I guess, the problems really lies in this particular Maid.

Be alert Mummies, especially you leave your young ones at home with a maid. At times, we always thought the children are old enough and would inform should anything be amissed. But this is one classic example of how the Maid has brainwashed the children to let them do as they bid.

Okie, I have not intended this to be such a long post. But I guess I get too narrative at times hence you know…

Anyway, looking forward to the weekend!

I’m going for dinner and KTV with the Kingsmen people tomorrow, I cant wait to see the girls… and guy. And also clubbing on Saturday with QH and AC.

A weekend with my lovely ladies. Cant wait. =)

Dear Bloggie,

Very upset. At work.

Background

I’m under 2 Director. Call one Active, and the other Passive.

Passive is the nice guy, whom is treating me like his assistant. Introducing me to colleagues (read: other Directors) worldwide, and also overseas suppliers (read: arranging to bring me to Supplier’s place for visits).

Active on the other hand, is a NUT. I’ve got to do his admin matters like air-tickets, and also some minor purchases like taking charge of the whole company’s stationary purchase, names cards, etc.

Last week, Passive entasked me to update the Procurement Council Member List. To explain, its to send out the spreadsheet to all Directors, nad ask them to update changes in their own division’s managers (if any).

And that, of coz includes my own Directors… Active.

Story

So this morning, after I’ve edited the spreadsheet I send it out to each individual Director, asking them to update. And 4hours later, just before lunch, Active replied back my email.

Angel,

You DO NOT ASK YOUR BOSS TO DO THINGS FOR YOU. You get the info for him.

If you do not know who reports to me, I suggest you ask XXX (Snr Mgr) for help.

Active (name changed to protect identity)


I was like ‘dot dot dot’.

After lunch, my Snr Mgr came to my rescue. He jokingly asked why I sent it to Active… I told him coz Passive said so. Instructions were to send to all Directors and get them to do the updates.

So Snr Mgr quickly asked me to email the spreadsheet, and he did the amendments, and send out an email to Active asking for some clarifications… I appreciate it. He did all the replying, and saving me from whatever shit I’ve got myself into…

And now, my Mgr just walked over and tell me its okie. Its no big deal, everyone gets this from him.

Conclusion

I feel like typing out my resignation letter this instant.

But guess what, Angel is not a quitter.

What wouldn’t kill me will only make me stronger. (okie, at least let me tahan 1 more year…)

PS: Come to think of it, I was in a pretty good mood this morning coz I manage to negociate the rental of a LCD Projector for Active’s meeting in Shanghai from RMB 1600 to RMB 600. And he just emailed me and praise me ‘Good Job’! He sure have the power to make or ruin my day…

-_-